#He'll disavow my own attempts at managing my health for his own convenience though it's crazy

[vampirewhohuntsvampires]

2023 has been a shit year all around, but like at least I'm making progress towards some body positivity. Like, I can wear shorts outside now that's pretty major. I remember when I was younger, I was so ashamed and embarrassed of the way my legs looked. I've always had those strawberry leg things, I used to pick at my skin hoping I could peel all of them out so I'd look normal. Now I'm pretty chill about it, that's just what I look like. It's unique in some ways! I've also been coming to terms with my weight recently, well I always had been neutral but I've been coming into a more positive view despite several people trying to crush that. I'm fat, that it's not really a bad thing. I'm learning to like my curves, my stretchmarks, seeing more positivity about that sort of thing has definitely been a big help. I think my mindset for the longest time that I was fine as I was but it wasn't necessarily traits people found appealing. That you're always going to get comments, weird looks or settle with people who hold some thinly veiled disgust about your body. Your opinion of yourself is the only one that matters true but it's also kind of hard when it feels like the whole world finds you undesirable. Arguably the next step is solidifying in my mind that no matter what, they are traits that are more than just acceptable but things people outside of myself like. Easier said than done but I've got a whole year for it! So, it'll be done. If I can't do anything else in 2024, I'll at least do that.