#I also wish hairy women were actually just represented. I'd feel so so much better genuinely...

[kiribaku]

armpit hair induced dysphoria.... long rant abt​body hair and gender below

see, I refuse to shave my body bc it's demented that bc I was born with this set of sex characteristics I have to shave my body hair. absolutely moronic. so I refuse to do that, as a person who doesn't identify as a woman and as someone who's a feminist and thinks it's unfair to expect that of ppl. however I am aware of the rising number of men who shave for aesthetic reasons but it angers me that something as natural as body hair is seen as ugly and must be removed, it's so infuriating that our bodies are so commodified, esp women, and now men are actually performing that same way which. is awful imo nobody shld.

anyway back to my point, basically bc I have armpit hair, I feel serious discomfort around it being seen, so I never wear tank tops when I go out. and I have no idea why bc I wear JORTS all the time and my leg hair is out n about?? so why are armpits a problem. I'm thinking some "exposure therapy" (just going outside unshaved w a tanktop will help), but also, it's dysphoria too. not the usual one but more so dysphoria caused by imbalanced gender expression. like. ig subconsciously I see the hair as my masculine side, and the tight tank tops are too feminine, and so it clashes and makes me uncomfortable. AND AHGGHG THATS SO LAME AND IT PISSES ME OFF. I also prefer hiding my leg hair with black tights if I'm gonna wear a skirt or something fem bc again, the clashing, but I've mostly worn baggy shorts and the leg hair goes with it. ahhhhh I'm just so upset and uncomfortable abt it. I wish society didn't care and i wish men who stare and laugh and mock girls on the street dropped dead. like I feel unsafe in this town and country and this world. seeing a group of boys who r probably just friends going out terrifies me bc I know they're bad people. like I know from their style and way of moving it's just so obvious they're evil sleaze bags. and walking past them in feminine clothes but with hair??? death sentence idk. I'm just very unhappy with my gender, my expression of it, my wardrobe, my body, and everything.