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thedeathwitchescats · 11 months

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Okay, review time!! If you are one of the oddballs who thinks you cant be critical of something you love I suggest you stop reading now before I ruffle your feathers. Iron flame, second in the empyrean series. I am gonna start with what I was not a fan of and then go into the shit I adored.

1) what in the actual fuck was the pacing of this book?? I can tell you what, it was non existent. There was none. Where I thought there was a lot of filler in the last book there was none in this one. We got snap shots of conversations and then *boom* more plot flew at you. The timeline of this book greatly suffered for it i think bc we end only a couple weeks, if that, after threshing, which happens sometimes in October. This book was actually so wild with times.

2) while it was a spectacular cliff hanger, xaden becoming venin pisses me off. Especially if Rebecca yarros isnt going to have him tell violet. Like if that small tid bit of a conversation we got wasnt him telling vi that he was venin then the entire romantic conflict of this book was rendered pointless and their going to be having the same fucking fight for the rest of the series and at rhat point I give up.

3) I understand that the revolution is trying to take down basgaith and make the world better or whatever the fuck but can someone actually formulate a real plan for me?? Because I feel like their mission is just, giving violet and xaden something to be pissed at each other about.

4) the entirety of cats character. I get that she was set up as a spin on the typical jealous ex. Like having her be bitter about xaden picking violet over her but OH WAIT it wasnt actually about the man it was about the crown, oohh not like other girls. Im a writer too I see the point. I dont care. I think it was trashy. If you wanted her to be a bitter spiteful ex then have her be a bitter spiteful ex, the whole crown thing was shallow.

OKAY haters your time is up now onto the shit that made my heart hurt with joy and sadness

1) xadens arc in this book. I really liked that he went from "transparency is never gonna happen" to losing his fucking mind over violet and giving her everything. I love feral men and he qualifies. I think his arc was really well done and i liked it.

2) I appericiate that violet stuck to her guns for this book. She wouldnt let xaden off without a fight and I loved that. She made him bow and scrape and I was eating it up. It was spectacular.

3) the throne room scene. Violet on the throne. "Im making a temporary point not a lasting vow of maschocism" xaden being feral.

4) that gets its own point actually, just xaden being completely feral this entire book healed a part of my soul.

5) andarna's little speech at the end where she was like "I waited for you violet" made me ugly cry. That was just so hopelessly good I loved it. Andarna in general heals my heart but that part was just *chefs kiss*

6) tarin being completely and utterly ready to eat people this entire book. Just, at every turn "I want lunch their pissing me off " was spectacular

7) every scene their squad was in. Rihannon, violet, sawyer and ridoc are my roman empire. Their bond is so amazing. The fact that they launched a rescue mission for violet. Rihannon being ready to kill xaden at every turn. Ridoc being so platonically and adorably in love with violet. Just- augh happy cries happy cries. I love it all. Their so special tbh.

8) I love xaden actually, just, the whole book every scene hes in lives in my brain.

9) I liked that we saw a small bit of violet being feral this book too. I hope that we get more of that in future books. I want more of violet losing her fucking mind. Hot, badass women covered in blood

10) Liam. Fucking Liam. When violet was kidnapped and Liam was there. Now, do I logically understand that he was a hallucination, yes, do i care?? No. He was a gift from Maleck I will be hearing no critiques on that. It was so fucking sweet and amazing. I love violet and Liam and Liam being dead so horribly breaks my heart. I loved Liam. Liams death lives rent free in my skull.

#i might add more to this later #please #i am begging yall #dont get weird #i am allowed to love this book and have critical opinions abt it #if i start getting threats about my fandom opinions again i might lose my mind #haters get fucked #anyways #i need the third book right now and the fact that i wont get it until next year kills me a little #i loved iron flame #i loved fourth wing #xaden riorson #violet sorrengail #violet and xaden #fourth wing #iron flame #book review #iron flame review #🪓

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paula-dot-jpg · 1 month

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HOW ARE WE FEELING PUFFRIES NATION???????????

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doodleodds · 2 years

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Me? Uploading a Halloween comic on November 18th, almost four whole-ass weeks late???? Yeah that’s uh. yup. yeah

Thanks for reading! :) <3

#persona 5 #p5 #akira kurusu #OUGH OH MY GOD ITS FINALLY. DONE. I AM LOSING MY MIND #if you've been following me for long enough: yes! this IS in fact the comic i mentioned that i was making last year.#Fun fact! This is also! The Third Draft of said comic!!! i have redrawn this thing THREE FUCKING TIMES #as a result you may notice that i uh. a) gave up on coloring this thing. no way in HELL am i coloring 30 pages. im not...strong enough #you will settle for simply having monochrome colored panels and you will LIKE IT!!!!! >:OOOOO #and b) gave up on backgrounds! yeah fuck that lmao. i am never drawing people in the monabus again and mementos can kiss my ass!!!!!#i just want to draw my silly little characters & not their environments #and you may also say: sophia. by halloween they are already in Sae's palace. why isn't goro with them and where's haru?#and to that i say shhhh suspend your disbelief. akechi is in mementos carving pumpkins to avoid trick or treaters.#and also haru isn't there because i cannot draw 6+ people in a cramped space yet!!! my art skills are Just Not There Quite Yet :(#so she's staying home and handing out fullsized candy bars to kids. that's where she is while this is all going down #'does akira know it's akechi down there?' :) that's up to you! but i WILL say that I was thinking about Akeshu when i wrote this so. :))))#ANYWAY if you read this far in the tags im so sorry lmao. thanks for sticking around! Hope you had a happy halloween :)#hopefully i won't disappear for long this time. idk im just gonna start uploading other bullshit art in the interim between comics i guess #probably some fire emblem shit. we'll see. we'll see. anyway bye!! till next time!

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rexcaliburechoes · 19 days

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does anyone else find it fucked up that moon's friends protect themselves from her with the skyfire at the end of moon rising?

#wings of fire #moonwatcher #look okay i've been slowly rereading the series on and off again bc one of my friends is getting into the series #so correct me where i'm wrong in asking why kinkajou feels entitled for moon to disclaim she's a telepath and seer upon first meeting her #when the news that nightwings don't have powers anymore and that they manipulated the entire sandwing succession war conflict #for their own gain went PUBLIC so nightwings are a hated tribe #nevermind the fact that moon feels like an outcast among her tribe because she hatched off of the volcano and never had to suffer #though it's sweet that her mother cares for her and worries about her she still calls moon her 'weird little diamond'#and impresses upon her 'secret hidden safe' which is basically wof's conceal don't feel #when was moon supposed to feel safe enough in disclosing her power she's hated FOR having and hated for NOT having #do you (general) think she's in ANY position to advertise she's the tribe's ONLY true seer and telepath in generations safely?#'i get what kinkajou means but it feels almost like having to disclaim your trans or disabled. Is a bit fucked' is what my friend said #it's the same fucking thing as 'i'm losing the person i once knew' but perhaps not in those words and not nearly as harshly #i know kinkajou comes around to moon eventually and they remain friends. but there's something REALLY fucked about it imo #same friend pointed out there's a queerness to this which i will 100% agree on like it stings on a personal level #like. look i still like the series but man reading it critically and interacting with it in a more adult lens #is definitely an action i am doing right now.#i think i'm still correct in saying darkstalker was a child. evil is not created in a vacuum. hatred is taught not inherent.#it does not excuse him from the evil he did commit. but he was a child. he was a FUCKING ABUSED CHILD. augh. (quietly losing my mind)#rex rambles

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waterfallofspace · 5 months

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I have finished The M/entalist, a tv show that ended 10 years ago, a show that I'm sure no one else cares about, but that I am about to make my whole personality for at least 2 weeks as I have hyperfixated on it so hard I can barely breathe

so uhhhhhhhh anyways if anyone knows this show take this as an open invitation, or if not then consider this a formal warning that i may be reblogging things and screaming "P/ATRICK J/ANE" in the tags <3

#waterfalltalks #hi i am in LOVE with this man even tho hes like idk 30 years my senior #hes also fictional so <3 its fine <3 is what i tell myself <3 and its true <3 so its okay that i tell myself this <3 #what can i say okay he hits EVERY one of my boxes and has a charming smile while he does it #literal sunshine but clouded with the most beautiful darkness like hello sir #also one canon and it wasnt the best and it wasnt a lot and it was from the back but you know what sometimes we starve #so the fact im not going completely without is good enough for me and i will live nicely in this world #i do not know if i will write for him but i cannot find ANYTHING for this man so i might have to just do it myself #will anyone else care? no. does that matter to me? nope hes my beloved and i want c o n t e n t #only thing stopping me rn is free time and confidence that i have his mannerisms down #maybe after i rewatch it <3 again <3 and watch many edits <3 and maybe make a few edits <3 #anyways if you bothered to read this far uh- thank you? im sorry? dont mind me just losing it over my newest guy <3 you get how it is <3 #(i hope <3) anyways yes thank you!! bye!! i will go sit in a corner and think about my man <3 #not snz

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widevibratobitch · 7 days

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7 minutes of a phonecall with my mother is enough for me to start being a bitch lol

#i understand that going by train is a novelty for her but i spend half of my motherfucking life on trains and i feel sick just getting on em #but im '20 not 80' so i have no right to prefer not to spend 5.5 to 7 fucking hours on a train (which will ALWAYS be longer than it says)#when i can split that journey in 2 instead because. AGAIN. ive been getting on longer train rides at least twice a week on average #(sometimes more) for the past 3 years and i KNOW FOR A FACT that i start losing my goddamn mind and getting overstimulated after 3-4 hours #and i KNOW its gonna be a fucking NIGHTMARE for me to go on a completely avoidable 7 hour long ride WITH HER SITTING RIGHT NEXT TO ME #and its not that we really MUST choose the cheapest option because the difference will be like 20 zł at best #what the fuck is that woman's problem #the fact that she cant understand that 7 hours of sitting motionless in a closed space with Other People is nightmarish for me #and i cant explain it to her because we keep playing this fucked up game where i pretend that im Normal and not Mentally Fucked Up #but i can only keep it going for so long before the symptoms of Not Being As Normal As We Both Hoped Id Be start to show #and i can only mask them for so long too and why is it so hard to split that fucking train ride #and then IM the evil one and a bitch when i tell her 'okay we'll do it your way' cause she Doesnt Deserve That Tone From Me #babygirl you deserve SO much worse from me particularly fuck this this trip is gonna be a nightmare #i want siblings so bad. i just want someone on my fucking team why am i always simultaneously the Stupid the Bad and the Crazy one here

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crabs-but-better · 4 months

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guys. date in less than a week

#fuckkkk #losing my mind. going absolutely bonkers #i’ve waited one week and i have to wait another week #also i am not. a direct communicator. and i worry if he considers this a date or not.#you have to. if a stranger asks you out for coffee. right?#also. i met him in the one class where i didn’t bother having the teacher change my pronouns cus I THOUGHT ID NEVER SEE THOSE KIDS AGAIN #so uh. does he know.#it’s in my insta bio. he has to have seen that right.#so we have three options: 1) he thinks this is not a date (???) 2) he thinks this is a date with a girl (plausible) or 3) this is ideal ->#he knows this is in fact a date with a standard issue tguy and he is cool with that

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crossbackpoke-check · 2 months

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about to be sooo nosy so. my apologies. but. morgan frost? girlfriend? do share (or don’t! again this is so nosy i’m sorry)

for legal purposes i can neither confirm nor deny anything about morgan and his girlfriend but afaik i think he’s single right now? at one point (within the past four years 😭) he did for sure have a girlfriend and that is the extent of my wag knowledge

#anon PLEASE i am the nosiest person in the world i understand i want to know everything. ever. however #because i have no evidence and don’t want to spread unfounded rumors i will state for the jury i am not a gossip blog #& anything i say should be taken with a grain of salt. or a vsco deep dive & also maybe a dig into the flyers media archives. wrt UNfounded #but i will gossip in your dms because it’s a vital method of communication and important for community building.#also i’m like 95% sure i just osmosed the fact that morgan and his girlfriend broke up sometime earlier in the hockey season from someone #else (probably flyerskay) and accepted it at face value like absolutely i’d trust kay with my life. she would never lie to me and therefore #i can’t be lying to you. i can’t remember morgan’s gf’s name tho but i can like. vividly remember her artsy possessive vsco photos 😭 help #that man posts more about tom petty than he does anyone else in his life besides joel so really how would we know if hes posted her less #the answer is we wouldn’t and i want to say her name is katie SO bad but i know that’s tyson’s gf it’s like. victoria or stacie or somethin #& i want to see if SHE deleted all her vsco pictures of him bc that’s how we’d know they broke up. frosty stop following so many girls #i want to try and find her and see (she’s a model and she was public and had her vsco linked so all of this is public info btw.)#ANON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA OANDJRIWNDHOWHDB IT IS 1:38 AM AND I HAVE JUST MANAGED. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD ANON HOLD ON #BUCKLE YOURSELF THE FUCK IN FOR AN ANSWER YOU DID NOT ASK FOR BECAUSE THIS IS A R I D E AND I NEED TO YELL ABOUT IT I CAN’T MY GOD I CANNOT #B R E A T H E i’m about to start crying again but the backstory is that. i have had a fic that i have been working on for literal years.#my version history says March 15 2021 and it started in my notes app about 3000 words before that and it’s based off of a tweet i thought #calla had quoted and just said ‘Joel’ about but in my notes i never #saved the actual tweet and many times throughout the years i have gone back and advanced searched every version of joel and joelle and bee #and behavior on calla’s blog that i could possibly think of and just assumed like. it must’ve gotten deleted or the account suspended and i #could never remember the wording well enough to just google it but believe me i tried and put in every variation. never found it in 4 years #i try periodically. fast forward to about twenty minutes ago i am looking through kay’s twitter and searching vsco because i SWEAR she has #the picture of frosty’s gf’s fingernail marks in the back of frosty’s shoulders i am talking about / I can’t find her vsco linked anywhere #but i’m like ok. search up a couple other things and think about who might have it and on a WHIM look up vsco in ash notthequiettype’s acct #no results okay whatever i think about what else could maybe pull it up for me so I have SOMETHING for you. I search frosty. I scroll. GUES #WHAT I FUCKING FIND FROM NOVEMBER 13TH 2020 it is THE FANTASTIC TWEET THAT SPAWNED 16K OF NOTES & FIC & A SPREADSHEET OF JOEL’S CLASSES #AND I NEVER WOULD’VE FOUND IT AGAIN IF NOT FOR THIS!!! LOSING IT!!! by it I mean my mind and my sleep schedule!!! it’s 2AM now good night!!#liv in the replies #morgan frost #philadephia flyers

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exopelagic · 3 months

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this election feels so hollow even though it’s likely ostensibly gonna be a good outcome. labour really just sucks fucking ass rn huh

#if the tories lose bad enough to make lib dems the opposition though… a guy can hope #I think it’s the fact that this is the first general election I can vote in that’s making me lose my mind a little here #I have done basically nothing but read today. I DO know a whole bunch more abt voting systems and the nightmare the tories have been now tho #I’m just kinda like. okay so what happens next? bc labour WILL do some decent shit but they also. fucking suck.#planning to look into the local green party once I’m back at uni bc I could actually do stuff there #I think I��m just dealing with a little bit of whiplash going from doing a biology degree where Everything is about climate change #like unambiguously it gets brought up in every topic (I DO focus on ecology and agricultural stuff and not like genetics but still)#clear consensus from literally everyone you talk to that shit has to happen right the fuck now.#it’s not even like I’m unaware of the state of policy rn I KNOW it’s a nightmare to do anything but we at least TALK about it #and then this election where it’s barely a footnote. biggest thing is the sewage dumping everyone’s talking about and yeah fucking finally #but is that all you’ve got?? the labour manifesto is bleak. it has a section and the stuff they’re proposing isn’t bad but it’s so little #and yeah no they’ve changed the official line on the manifesto to ‘make Britain a clean energy superpower’#I SWEAR it was different a few days ago #maybe I’m being pessimistic bc their plans for clean energy if they actually do them could be huge especially if they manage it by 2030.#it’s just that I know what the targets are and they’re already pulling back on shit like EVs bc of the shift right and I am So Tired #two party politics is a curse. as much as reform is an actual nightmare them getting a decent vote share might actually be the thing that #gets people talking abt proportional representation again bc they are nothing if not good at being loud #did you know we had a fucking referendum in 2011 bc what the fuck. and it went SO BADLY even though people generally supported it #god idk I think I’m once again being naively optimistic about people and election coverage has been very good at knocking me down a bit #people generally are good. I have to believe this. but man the british public is making that really fucking hard #genuinely I think a good chunk of that is down to first past the post driving politics to be divisive and aggressive #like is it the only problem? fuck no. but it’s definitely poisoning the way this shit goes bc when all the parties do is jab at each other #what are we actually doing here #idk I’m gonna stop now but this is taking up a ridiculous amount of bandwidth rn I can’t wait for it to be over #already dreading what the next election could look like in 4 years if starmer continues to suck ass bc I don’t trust him to not like at all #luke.txt #I said i was done but I just looked at the lib dem manifesto and oh my god it’s actually pretty good on this? holy fucking shit

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felix-the-lemon-king · 3 months

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Double checking all my reblogs to make sure I didn't accidentally just tag everything twst as usual 😔

#I reflexively started typing twst in the tags for Every Single One #sobs sobsob I just caught up to the manga I. cannot handle it.#WHY DOES SNAKE LOOK SO MUCH LIKE SILVER IT IS MAKING THIS SO MUCH HARDER #he even has the cowlick antenna 😭#I am not immune to boy who cannot emote or communicate for himself !!!#he can't even introduce himself without using his snakes to do it 😭#felix once again loses his mind over guy that reminds him over mr silver twisted wonderland vanrouge #aughouggaggdhhhh whahh #I saw him get stabbed and I was expecting it to be another character almost dying and miraculously being saved #but the grim reaper guy I forgot his name announcing his death !!!! I LOST MY MIND #why do they always have to say no additional notes like Are You Not Even Going To Address The Fact That He Is A Snake Man #after all this time I don't even get to know if his dad is actually a snake and WHAT FOR #I am going to CRUMBLE INTO A PILE OF DUST #anyway I love emily and keats and goathe and wordsworth and wilde and oscar and bronte and don and #AND SNAKE 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭#black butler spoilers

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year

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I feel like at least several times a month, I have a random insane revitalization of my love for The Smiths. Not that I ever stop loving them, but I'll listen to some song and then suddenly fall into this pit of just deep, intense love for their music again where I can't stop listening to their music on repeat and watching live performances and looking at pics like AAAAAHHHHHH WHY IS THEIR MUSIC SO GOOOD?????? WHY IS IT PERFECT?????? WHY WERE THEY SO GENDER???????

(songs I am feeling intense brainrot over rn in case you're curious: "I Want The One I Can't Have(live)", "Stretch Out and Wait(live)", "You Just Haven't Earned It Yet Baby", "Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others(demo)", "What She Said", "The Boy With The Thorn in His Side(live)"(p.s. I Want The One I Can't Have is Martian-coded to me, pls listen)(also it reminds me of that movie I watched yesterday)

#i want the one i cant have is playing on repeat in my brain rn and i watched a live performance and i was tearing up. why am i like this #the live versions of their songs are just incredibly good like at an insane level to me #i know the guitar is very complicated bcs my brother is equally obsessed w the smiths and rants to me abt how hard their music is to play #so the fact that their live performances are equal if not better than their studio versions is crazy #and i love the way he sings in live versions AAAAHHHH like just so over the top and dramatic #i absolutely love singing along to music and their songs are perfect bcs i can be as dramatic and loud as i want #and that hes singing perfectly and dramatizing it so much also while dancing along to it on stage??????#their music has an energy to it in every single aspect that no other band will ever be able to reach for me #i spent so much of today just dancing along to their music and singing over the top. i just felt so joyful 🥹🥹🥹🥹#GAAAHHHH sorry i just am really in it rn hahaha #its just crazy to me ig that ive listened to these songs so many times and they still fill me with such emotion #my mom sings and dance along w me tho shes like 'wow youre so energetic today did you hit your head or smth' 😭😭😭#also was losing my mind looking at their pictures today and gahhhhhhhhb such gender envy their gender is unmatched to me #but its so funny every time i get gender envy over smiths era morrissey +#because theres some pics of my dad from that same period of time when he was younger where he literally looks exactly like morrissey #SIR WHY DID I NOT INHERIT YOUR LEVEL OF GENDER???????(my dad was a icon sjdkkd we look alike tbh)#anyways: i feel very joyful and energetic about their music. they just make me so happy and i want to dance around again 🥹#i think this recent lapse into the pit was bcs i listened to the demos/live versions on The Queen is Dead deluxe edition #and im like ....how the fuck are they this fucking good??????#hehehe tho my passion has affected others 🤭#my brother is learning some songs on guitar atm and waxes poetic abt their instrumentals #my dad always listens to their entire discography when he needs background music. and my mom sings and dances w me #sorry this is unhinged i just feel a lot of serotonin bcs their music and i need to infect other people LMAO #maybe i need to make another web weave #catie.rambling.txt

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robocops-a-christ-allegory · 10 months

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The fanartist I found earlier draws alot of cute fanart of human Chidaruma and Damemaru hanging out seemingly as brothers and I was assuming it was because of how Hole and Nagurun look the exact same but it did make me realize like. This whole time Ive been thinking of Damemaru as a Aikawa remix but he could totally be a Chidaruma reference. Hes just fucking AU Chidaruma.

#Also yeah I think that fanartist might also just have this theory they drew Damemaru in Chidaruma's clothes alot #fun fact when you look up Dai Dark Nagurun one of the first results is a reddit post of someone #theorizing that Damemaru is Chidaruma and I think they have good points but #I DO NOT THINK he is literally Chidaruma Im still standing by hes like a reference or again at least just a AU version #I do not think Dai Dark is literally in the same universe as Dorohedoro #That said I am losing my fucking mind over this now #But yeah the fact that at the end of Dorohedoro Chidaruma got turned into a human and we see Hole's little ghost float next to him.#And now Damemaru's here with his mysterious unexplained backpack thats somehow alive and looks exactly like Hole.#CHIDARUMA STANS GET ON DAI DARK!!!!

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tmae3114 · 2 years

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....so whatever did happen to Char and Kinder's sister?

#Dragonfable #like. she was the entire reason they were in Ravenloss. Where Is She #I need to sleep I have church in the morning but #Based on the fact that Ravenloss was cursed before Tomix was born and Char & Kinder's ages #we can deduce that the curse presumably froze people's ages #so their mother is probably a lot older and has moved on (since she wasn't cursed) so that's a possibility for why she hasn't come up #but again. their sister was in Ravenloss. she was presumably cursed as well.#also I checked the timeline for my statement about the curse and I am once again losing my mind that Vaal is younger than Barvra

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faaun · 2 years

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lightning fried our satellite dish and now we are alone

#old geometry on old walls + her hand flowing along the river delta. sudden stop pulls on stitches #you are not allowed to laugh unrestrained for the next two months. in the next world #i look at the shape of the sun and i the tangerine you offered to your brother. do you feel #artificial ? do you feel man-made? what is more natural than man ? what is more natural than the creation of a natural thing?#do you feel like an organic automaton? will you love me if i change? will i love you if you change? if i prophesise about #not loving you it wont change the fact that i wont stop loving you. you are going to draw again because in a few weeks #you have to paint something sacred along the length of my spine. my friend asks me if im okay #and in my head i want to scream at her IM JUST HAPPY YOU'RE ALIVE. im sorry we were both in pain. im sorry you have to think about #endings. i will think about your beginnings. the air here feels like spring and i think of you every day.#my boy texts me on the train station about the snow and how he waited 4 hours in the underground. he said his hands were shaking #and i thought of how much i missed holding his hands. you were freezing on the train i was burning in the sky.#of course your password is phi. just like her. i miss you all. 10 friends teaching each other how to slow dance #in the kitchen. 10 friends cook a feast together and say goodbye. the last thing i told the boy who was once #in love with me was that i wont say goodbye because no one would care to hear it. the last thing he said was fair enough.#im glad you kissed me when i was drunk. i am visiting my town by the sea for the first time in a decade and i hope to #peel it open and bite again. my love، how do i make you feel? pomegranate cracked open. you saw the blood inside #and you dug your hands inwards. messed up through all the red، you still bit in.#i will make you feel safe enough so you can lose your mind again. you can create again #im sorry i didnt realise how much you had missed me. im sorry i didnt realise thats a part of why you stopped creating #i am not sorry that it matters so much. it matters because i love you. ill be back soon. keep cracking me open. ill keep cracking you open.#world of chroma blue and crimson. a girl asks a policeman for direction without a headscarf on. this was an act of war. i reveal my own #hair in the wind and think of how much i love you. i stare at the policeman through the eyes of the slaughtered.#my lovely economist drinks up the ocean and i think of her beautiful hair with its bloody ends in the wind #chase your dreams. dont say goodbye. politics is an act of love. i look at the killer with the eyes of those he killed and i think of #kissing you over the river kissing you in your bed kissing you before you left kissing you until we were late kissing you goodbye #for five consecutive days kissing you in the train station kissing you in the rolling fields kissing you by the cityscape kissing your neck #until it bled. i love you. i will kiss you until you can create again.#i miss my love i miss my starlights and i miss the sky. one day ill make you tomato soup again.#and now it is time to replace a very old very young self.

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mrfoox · 2 years

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I'm going to struggle to sleep and get up tomorrow

Curse it all

#miranda talking shit #At one hand i liked the conversation i had with fabian and i think i got some answers to questions ive been wondering about but im also lik #Unpacking all this.... So much to unpacking and to be put in a folder in my head where does it all go... Still hate how #He hit me with the biggest ... Maybe in the universe and i can't deal with it. No I'd be relieved and accept an no fullstop but he had to #Add in the.... Idk actually lol i dont have a reference and i would like to know how it is crossing boundaries in our relationship #Whag the fuck man.... You really gave me the strongest 'i think youre into me and it worries me' and then nullify it with an 'idk how i #Feel sometimes id like to explore more' how am i supposed to... Handle that information... I had been going around telling myself #What he said to me 2019 is the way he still feels and me thinking he might think more is just me being paranoid but then yeah #What a clusterfuck. I mean to me it wont change anything in the broader picture no matter what i care for him ya know? But now thats... An #Whole other thing like. Should i try to act differently? Be more careful? Or would that be unfair bc then id do what he've been doing to me #I will quote him again 'miranda i think if both of us got an gf/bf at the same time this would solve itself' i joked and said he could find #Me one and I'll find one for him. But yeah i think that would ... Be a solution in an ideal world. Idk how to do anything man #At one hand i think he's overestimating how much he's on my mind but also its true. I spend a lot of my social time with him so obviously #I think about him? But i also have a reference on how i am... With people i have crushes on and who im in love with and how o think of thoe #Its just so scary to think about how i am his reference ... To... Well basically a ton of things... Im not a good reference unless you want #An abnormal reference. I guess im anxious I'll somehow ... Ruin him or something. This was a big conformation that i am his reference to #Women and close relationships with women and i am not made for that... Most feminine tjing about me is being sappy and giving compliments #And encouragement. Otherwise im basically like ... A dude. Guess it also scares me that he knows me. I know i know him but the fact its #Mutual is aw man... Being known is still a struggle. He wasmt completely wrong is his logic bc he knows me i think too much about people #And things. I understand im so anxious bc i care about him and im worried about losing him or pushinh him away but shit #Hes sleeping rn and is at peace with this probably. He doesn't dwell on it. He even said hes been thinking about this... Bc he began to #Think about what i could be thinking? So its not even his own thoughts but thoughts about whaf i could be thinking? ?? Whack and im likebro #Flattering that you go to that length but also... Literally what??? Cant tell if hes somehow projecting or if this is genuinely how he was #Thinking but damn. Boy does have some confidence at least? He's such an fool. I love him but holy shit he blows me away sometimes

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Geto has correctly identified that capitalism and sorcery as a society is flawed and abusive and unsustainable. But, much like Flat Earthers recognizing there are things wrong with the world, he fails to actual form an ideology that will effectively aide the people victimized by the flaws and abuses of capitalism/sorcery, he instead decides that he needs to enact and inspire violence against others who are similarly victimized. Watch Dan Olsen's In Search Of A Flat Earth (here is a link) and start thinking about the ways Geto and his ideology parallels real life concepts before I start killing people. If you're not gonna watch the video take these quotes

"These common anxieties are a shared coordinate that is, I think, far more superficial than we would want it to be. Because while we're all worried and skeptical about what people in power are doing, flat earthers have very very different ideas of who's in power and what they're trying to do with it. " (Quote begins at 28:12 in video)

"And while there is a shared sense of the world being 'out of whack', the diagnosis and prescriptions are very different." (30:33 in video)

#JJK #''oh he critiques capitalism'' YEAH ITS NOT HARD TO. BUT HE HAS DECIDED HE DOESNT NEED TO DO SHIT ABOUT THE FACT SORCERY AS A SOCIETY IS #ABUSIVE AND INSTEAD DECIDES HE NEEDS TO MAKE SURE SORCERY IS INHERENT TO ALL SOCIETY.#ALSO HE STARTED A CULT. AM I LOSING MY MIND.#Like okay. In terms of Beliefs there are a lot of differences. I'm not saying Suguru is actually religious or whatever but #I am saying that JUST BECAUSE HE RECOGNIZES THE WORLD IS FUCKED UP. DOESNT MEAN THERE IS VALIDITY TO THE REST OF HIS BELEIFS #especially when those beliefs include Violence On People He Deems As Inherently And Unchangably ''Other''. Like.#IDGAF he realizes sending kids to die is bad if he's just gonna say ''actually the problem is we're sending out kids who #DON'T deserve to die'' and like. Nope try again or I'll kill you #Also hot take Nanami is against capitalism but isn't as Revolutionary as some of u ppl wanna think. I don't think he has actually #Unlearned the capitalist ideas that's arent EXPLICITLY connected to money. Also is it just me or is it Weird he wants to go to Malaysia #Bc of the low cost of living and shit. Feels weird!

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