#I am sleeping with a knife under my pillow 😭

[call-me-maggie13]

Me, going to bed after listening to a horribly graphic true crime podcast: “god I hope everyone’s okay now… anyways… zzzzzzz…”

Me, going to bed after listening to a completely fictional horror story: *pocket knife clutched in my white knuckled grip* “what if the booglyboo tries to eat me while I sleep?”

[fictionallyinparadise]

Fuck it. The current yearnings and what we got each other for Christmas. Under the cut because I feel so fucking silly 😭

47: You know the books that have pages cut out to conceal a gun? Yeah I got him one of those and a bunch of other ways to conceal his guns/weapons. He got me a Halloween Squishmallow. Yes he bought it in October and hid it until Christmas <3

Diana: I got her a little gold heart locket with a photo of her, 47, and me in it!!! She wears it almost all the time hehe. She got me a long pretty red dress that can match with her black one!!!!

Arthur: I had a small crisis trying to think what I'd get him bc of the time period LMAO- anyway some premium cigarettes and a knife with our initials engraved on the blade. He gives me one of his shirts that doesn't fit him but would fit me and a bottle of expensive alcohol he absolutely did not steal.

Karl: A bar of soap /j. No but I'd get him a TV and a N64 console because he deserves to play Mario 64 damnit!! He makes me a bracelet with his House symbol engraved on one of the charms. The bracelet itself he didn't make, he bought it and made a new charm!

Lucifer: I don't think he celebrates Christmas tbh? I feel like we'd do the nice dinner part but not the gift parts. But that's just as valid and fun!!! We made our own pizzas :D

Aizawa: I would get him the whole world if I could oh my god. But I cannot give him the whole world so I instead can give him a wearable blanket! It's got cats on it. He got me a bunch of succulents and a sweater that says 'plant dad' to go with <3

Niko: We'd have a chill and low-key Christmas to ourselves, watching movies and cuddling. Also I think he'd get a gift we could both make use of, like a blanket or a board game? Anyway he got us a nice set of Battleship hehe

Pierce: I don't think he would celebrate either! Maybe put some lights up but otherwise it's just another day. But since this is our first Christmas together, he would get me a little gift. A Zippo lighter with 'my anchor' engraved in it, done by himself! I'd get him a better couch for his office, one with lots of pillows and comfy to sleep on.

Sully: As revenge (/lh) for him stringing mistletoe everywhere he gets to just have me sitting under the tree with a bow on my head. Which he would probably get a kick out of. I mean he also gets a nice cigar box with a map of the world on it but! He gets me a nice comfy robe. Just a soft fuckin cozy robe bc I am almost always cold.

Codsworth: He'd cook up the best food he can for me!! With all the love in his sweet little sphere body!!! He also lets me put some ornaments on his arms 🥺🥺 I'd get him like...two cans of oil so he can stay afloat <3

Luna: A HOUSE WITH BETTER WINDOW LOCKS /j. Nah but I'd get her this Squishmallow!! Because she deserves it. She got me a pen,,,the ones that look like this: ✒️ !

Jaskier: I get him a fancy pocket watch with a lyric from one of the songs he wrote for/about me on it!! He gets me a leather bound notebook, one with a fuckton of pages and high quality too.

Geralt: I get him a good fucking sword cleaning kit and some assorted treats for Roach! I think he would run out of time to get something because he's not uh. used to buying gifts. So he ends up getting a little wood carved daisy for me, which I wear on a chain. (daisies mean a lot to me IRL and it's my self insert's name so it's cute af)

Gordon: A fuckin break!! We relax!! We cuddle in bed and take a long warm bath together and then cuddle some more!! Fuck!! We both deserve this!!!

[sweatblvvdtears]

I didn't even know what to do with my weapons anymore . I put my swords really really under my pillows on where I sleep nowadays , I can't even put it on another place , there's a thief inside our own house in real life . I have 2 swords , so much pain in the ass to keep inside this place . I keep on carrying my folded knife to anywhere I go , it drives me nuts when I accidentally misplacing it . It's all expensive and dangerous , it's not safe at all . Everyone who sees it seemed wanted to steal it from me . I died hiding it , who even said people who owns it will feel secured , are you lost your mind ? We *bangs fist on table* feel we need to hide it all the times . I even changed my secret locations on hiding it twice a month . Home isn't the most good place for me to use it nor to put it on anywhere I wanted . I can try buying my fucking glass specialized box to put it inside as if it's like a "museum" to viewers but in my personal case irl , I can't do things like that . I still am living under abusive environments , I'm afraid that anyone who are in bad tempered will use it . IT'S MINE . *rubs my head in stress* Don't fucking touch it , it's mine , who told you can touch it . People can touch or hold it or trying it out but it must be my under watch or my permissions and when I'm around . That's all . No matter how angry or etc you are , it's still mine . nO . I am refused and it's because it's REAL . It's a real weapon and I've been using it , it's also mine . It's not a toy . It's not something you can play with . It's nor a decoy or plastic or for fun . People doesn't know how to use it and I'm afraid that one of people in real life who knows about it will take granted on it and might will kill someone or take it for something . That is why I need to hide it but no place much to be 😭 I hate it . I tried hiding it and so far it's hard . So yeah , under pillows it goes when I'm at home because nobody knows about it and less predictable . My precious and I'm protecting it, sometimes . I have 3 knives and it's smaller than the rest swords , unlike swords itself, so it's easier to hide .