#I did this to myself i listened to my Deku playlist and it's so sad LMAO

[thelastsirenssong]

Y'all the Deku hit so hard tonight idk WHAT happened

It's the over thinking when he holds your hand. It's soft and small in his, his calloused and scarred hand- and he thinks, this is his life. Protecting and serving. And when you look into his eyes with a soft smile he's torn in half. Where would there be room, when would there be time, for this again? For your puffed laughter into the shell of his ear, for the small of your back pushed against his stomach as you dream? You say something full of love, and kindness, and patience, and he lets go of your hand, and smiles at you. He loves you, he loves you so much he could burst at the seams, he is a hero made into nothing but a freckled boy in your presence. He cannot be both. And you deserve for someone to be always be present, when you need them. He is a hero, lover to not one, but all. He lets go of your hand, and you look at him quizzically, while he sits next to you on your couch. He smiles at you, soft, and boyish, and Midoriya.

"I love you." You smile back, and he runs his hand behind you on the sofa cushion.

"I love you too." Deku, he reminds himself. You deserve more than Deku.

[durotoswrites]

For the writing meme thingy: 🍄how do you get yourself in the mood to write? 🍑 do you/would you write smut? 📒 any fics planned?

🍄 How do you get yourself in the mood to write?

Getting in the mood to write and actually wanting to sit down and start writing are two very different things, but they're connected, so I'll explain both.

To set into “creative mode” it helps me to do these things:

Listen to music that makes me think of a character/situation in my story/stories. I've got playlists separated by character and pairing. Sometimes I also just work on curating those playlists for fun and get my brain going.

Bounce overall ideas off of my friends and husband/editor (but he's my best friend, too 💗)

Reread old chapters or recent ones and future snippets based on what I want to do.

Once I actually want to put words down, I get a little more strict with myself. I get distracted verrrry easily sometimes and I have to fight the urge to open a million more tabs when researching a small detail.

I move to instrumental music (I have playlists for different moods like “emotional”, “soft”, “sad”, etc. I usually listen to “soft” as a general soothing background sound, as I can get pretty dang emotional when I write, especially with the stuff I've been churning out lately.

So, yeah, I need tissues within reach if I get upset. (Wow, I'm not making this sound fun at all, lmao)

After sound has been established, I like to eat a snack (something with protein) because I can be under for hours, lol. Eat it and finish it. Otherwise, I get distracted.

I also like to have drinks available. I always have a bottle of water, but I also like having a hot cup of tea. I think it's the time of year for me to switch to cold barley tea.

I write while seated on a recliner with my feet up. I have my laptop on a lap desk and it's a pretty cozy setup.

I basically try to remove any excuse I have to get up once I start writing, because I am the worst procrastinator I know.

🍑Do you/would you write smut?

Heheh... heck yeah, I do. Waaaaay more than most people realize. Stuff I've actually posted? It's pretty limited. I posted a couple pieces (Let Me Love You and You're Like the Sunshine) a few years ago, but I've been practicing ever since. One of my planned stories literally has what I refer to as a “smut dump” in the draft where I've been experimenting with writing different moods. I like the intimate scenes to play a role in the overall plot or have it be a bonding experience.

Despite that, I do have a shameless Gray x Mary story I should just get out there that has zero plot, just two cuties in love. In my mind it's so naughty and kinky and I get flustered thinking about it (Mary is hot, okay?), but it's probably hella vanilla, lmao. I really am grateful that people have been really supportive about my writing smut despite what I usually write, and they've been so encouraging, too! I honestly feel like the smut I've posted is really stilted because I was so self-conscious about it. I don't feel like they are terrible for first attempts, but I have definitely grown more comfortable writing it.

Will The Shy Newcomer become explicit? I kinda really want it to, but I might separate the chapters for those who don't care for that content. Overall, I'd like to write more and post more, and I want to write more than just male x female smut as well. I have some of those in my planned pieces (more about them later).

📒 Any Fics Planned?

Firstly, I'm super tickled more than one person was interested in this. I copied the answer I wrote earlier.

Short answer: Yes. I also plan to bring more of my stories over from ffn to Ao3.

Long answer under the cut, heheh. I rambled quite a bit.

Ask me about my writing processes and stories!

I have so many WIPs that haven’t been touched in years that I’d like to finish, so new planned fics aren’t posted yet. Some of them have more adult themes than most of the stuff I’ve been writing, so I get flustered sharing them. I’ve been at a crossroads, as I feel that you can’t have growth without changing things up. On the other hand, I feel like a lot of my readers associate my works with a specific “wholesome” feel-good mood. It’s kinda nice to be known for something, although that might just be my ego talking, thinking that people recognize my work as a “type”.

Regardless, in the end, I feel growth is necessary.

I don’t want to leave a lot of unfinished WIPs waiting because they stress me out and I have too many of them already, so I’d like to have a bulk of my new stories with a good chunk written before I decide to post them.

Among those include:

A longfic featuring Pete’s farm in Forget-Me-Not Valley (A blend of HMDS with the FoMT plugin and AWL). It takes place in the same universe as The Shy Newcomer (Claire in Mineral Town) and there are a few overlapping moments, although Pete’s story starts first. Pete’s personality is verrry different from Claire’s, and his story was kind of supposed to be the yang to TSN’s yin. Pete’s best friends in his story are Ruby (not sure if I’m adding Tim yet), Nami, and Rock. Readers will be treated to a poorly-socialized pre-Mineral Town Cliff (if you think he was bad at the beginning of TSN, well… heh… he’s a wreck here).

Another planned unpublished story is a crossover of Harvest Moon and the movie “In This Corner of the World”, based on a manga of the same name by Fumiyo Kouno. It was written as a gift for a friend. I have the entire outline figured out and have slowly been filling it in. My friend asked for an AU where Claire and Cliff have an arranged marriage and live with his family in Akiyama, the hometown I had created for Cliff in The Shy Newcomer. I took the opportunity to expand the characters in his family. I have it written during the same time period and society as “In This Corner of the World”, but had decided to write a spreading disease as an allegory for war, but then COVID happened and some parts of it just got really hard to write. There are also a lot of sexually explicit content as Claire slowly grows and learns from her spouse that it’s okay to express what she wants despite sex being a taboo issue. If there’s enough interest in the story, I’ll post it, but I worry it’s a little too niche for there to be many people into it.

Pastor Carter and Doctor Trent are one of my favorite rare pair ships. I’ve had a partial draft for a story about them for a few years now, especially focusing on Trent growing up and acknowledging that he has an unhealthy addiction for things that he knows he can’t have. There are some more adult/sexual themes in this piece, too, including the main character lusting after a married woman (who also happens to be his patient) and some lemons. (Does anyone call it that anymore or is it just referred to as “smut” nowadays? Haha) I always feel so bad for neglecting the folks at the clinic in-game and wanted to write a piece that focused more on them, Trent specifically. It’s a multi-chap fic, but I don’t think I’m going to let it get as long as some of my other pieces.

I also really want to write a short romantic oneshot for every marriage candidate in Mineral Town, around 1,000 words each. So far, I have one for Cliff and one for Gray. I want to write Claire with everyone, because I think it would be fun to explore all the different personalities.

I have more installments planned for A Single Day, including a day in the life of the following characters, all with drafts in varying degrees of progress:

Anna

Doug

Nora (yes, I’m writing from the point of view of the cat living at the inn)

More to come – I think Lillia and Thomas would be especially interesting to explore

I do still have that Legend of Zelda Majora’s Mask piece I’ve been pondering where Link befriends the soul of the deku scrub child while possessed by the mask. I don’t have much written about it, but I really love the world of Majora’s Mask. Such a fun game.

I also think about the lead carpenter’s son in Ocarina of Time and that weird side quest involving the blue chicken and the son being lost to the forest. Then that unique-looking kokiri girl explaining that all who get taken in the lost woods become stalfos. Like, did the guy die? Was he sick? Did he want to die? There’s just so much going on there that would be fun to explore.

I also have played OMORI recently and have like… A LOT of feelings about it. I don’t know what I’d write, but I’m still damn impressed at how well the characters are developed in such a short game.

Other games I’ve had vague ideas about writing for include the following:

The Flame in the Flood: I’m thinking a survivalist/action story fleshing out Scout’s backstory a bit more and her thoughts as she’s traveling. I feel like she’s a very lonely person, but isn’t given the chance to really dwell on it.

Night In the Woods: I’d love to write more about Mae’s dreams and what they mean to her. She doesn’t really talk to anyone about them openly, so it’s really hard to tell her feelings about them in some regards. We know that she’s distressed about them, but I’d like to dive a little deeper. Do the nightmares end after the games does? What about Bea’s new nightmares?

Hades (Supergiant Games): I think it would be fun to write more about the events that take place before the game starts, like Zagreus’s duties in the house of Hades, and expand on the strained relationship with his father.

[genuinelydecimated]

Why am I awake while you’re asleep? (bkdk playlist)

Time: 1 hour and 1 minute.

Link: In the replies/ reblogged with link

This playlist is specific to the current manga hospital arc where Bakugou tries to get to Midoriya’s room with no regard for himself. (Honestly, I tried to reword that in a way it doesn’t come off incredibly bkdk but it just does.) This is intended to be listened through Bakugou’s perspective, however, music isn’t held by one thing, so let your mind go wild!

I would imagine that Bakugou is thinking a lot while he’s in hospital, waiting for good news on Midoriya and everyone else as he heals.

Song list, lyrics (the reason I chose them), and a little bit more notes below!

1. Talking to the Moon by Bruno Mars

“I’m feeling like I’m famous, the talk of the town. They say I’ve gone mad, yeah, I’ve gone mad. But they don’t know what I know.” “Do you ever hear me calling?”

2. Not Quite by Kane Strong

“Yeah, I got the whole place to myself. Not feeling fine.” “Oh, I know that I’m bad for your health. Not quite alright. I know this might be out of line, but I’m really not doing very well.”

3. Permanent by Paul Travis

“I can look at your hands and question who I am.” “Have I lost you? Have I lost me?”

4. I Can’t Handle Change by Roar

“I get tired and I get sick, and then I lose the strength to leave.” “I can’t help but repeat myself. I know it’s not your fault.”

5. Lay Me Down by Sam Smith

“Can I lay by your side, next to you? And make sure you’re alright.” “I’m reaching out to you, can you hear my call?”

6. Remember Who I Was by James Arthur

“See, you took this poor boy and changed his whole life. Granted his wishes and dreams overnight.” “I’m just waking up now, in the tears of the one’s I love. It’s quiet.”

7. Yellow by Coldplay

“Do you know, you know I love you so.” “For you, I’d bleed myself dry.”

8. State Lines by Novo Armor

“Are you sure, did you call, or did we ever really talk? I don’t know...” “I’ve been awake in every state line, dyin’ to make it last us a lifetime.”

9. Honey by Sad Cops

“You don’t deserve what you got. I’ve never met someone so sweet.” “Be here, with me. Be here, honey.”

10. If Only by James Arthur

“If only I could trust you rest your head and turn the light on. If only I could wish your kiss was not a falling star.” “You could see through someone like me. Tryna be free, maybe just a little less lonely.”

11. Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls

“And I don’t want the world to see me, ‘cause I don’t think that they’d understand.” “When everything feels like the movies. Yeah, you bleed just to know you’re alive.”

12. Sparks by Coldplay

“But I promise you this, I’ll always look out for you. Yeah. That’s what I’ll do.” “My heart is yours. It’s you that I hold on to.”

13. Lavender Blood by Fox Academy

“Lavender is always running through my blood. I’ve had enough, I’m cold, and it is dusk.” “Stay neat and healthy. You need to help me.”

14. Where Are You (Acoustic) by The Moderates

“I can’t sleep, not tonight. It seems like everything’s not going to be alright.” “Please come back, and stay with me. I’m begging you, I’m on my knees.”

15. The Reason by Hoobastank

“I’m not a perfect person. There’s many things I wish I didn’t do.” “And the reason is you.”

16. Safe and Sound by Christian Leave

“So hold my hand, and love me true.” “So just stay right here, safe and sound.”

In the 9th song, Honey by Sad Cops, there is mentions of dad issues? And that kinda stands out to me in terms of relations to Deku and his father figures (Hisashi and All Might), and how Bakugou knows how both of them have impacted Izuku’s life (even if we as the audience do not) and my mind has been blown. Didn’t even make the whole connection ‘til now lol.

There isn’t really an order to this playlist. I tried to do a thing where it doesn’t seem to be the same type of voice as you go through, but I don’t think that’ll be a big change whether you shuffle or go down the list.

Yeah, this is how I’m coping.

I hope you enjoy the playlist!! I tried really hard to get this finished and done before Izuku wakes up and Katsuki finds out he’s awake. Oh, and! Depending on how their meeting/chat will go after that terrible last sight of each other, I might make another one. Yes, I am in a bkdk brainrot.