#I dont like to spam my blog with such depressing posts

[impostorsshow]

I love going on Tumblr because I can't sleep hoping to get cheered up by the fandom blogs I follow and then having to clear out my following tab because my feed is nothing but "the world is ending everyone is horrible DNI list donate to the 50th person that can't afford rent".

I fully understand even making this post is hypocritical but I don't have the energy to fight with my phone constantly crashing to draw a doodle to justify the post otherwise I just wish I could find a blog that doesn't appear to be a normal art blog only to suddenly find myself overrun with depressing reblogs. Why do people actively look for and repost depressing things on the internet aren't most people nowadays complaining about being overstressed. Maybe don't search out sources of stress m8 that's the main reason I don't use Twitter or Instagram like cmon man anyway. Uh feel free to send an ask if you want me to draw something, don't reblog this post to say it because that would mean you just did not fuckin have reading comprehension at all

[nestastits]

Relatively new to the fandom and ive been spam rbing your posts but idk im just heartened to see another nesta stan that doesnt think she was better off on her own at the beginning of acosf. Like...the girl was on a straight road to the grave and most people dont..see that? Idk as a survivor/recovering addict it makes it hard to interact with the fandom bc of that kind of thinking/posts. Its rly harmful to survivors as well as people in the middle of that-- ANYWAYS keep doing you bookie im glad i found your blog mwah <333

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As someone who has struggled with depression/self hatred and a eating disorder, I can heavily relate to Nesta. The people around me pushed me to do better for myself and I feel like that is what the people around Nesta did. Coddling wouldn’t of worked on me. Coddling 99% of the time does not work on people who struggle from drug and or alcohol addiction either. Coddling would not of worked on Nesta. Neither would have leaving her in that apartment, she was only deteriorating and I’m tired of people saying she would of gotten better if left alone. No she wouldn’t have. She didn’t in the year they stayed out of her life in that apartment. She just got worse and worse. 

I am a firm believer that the intervention the ic did was right, just not handled correctly. But you have to also consider Nesta is a stubborn person who at the beginning of acosf did not want help out of self hatred. It wasn’t that she didn’t want to get better, it was that she hated herself enough to think she deserved nothing. And she thought no one else wanted her to get better either. I as a Nesta can read her book and relate to not only her but the characters around her too. I know what it’s like to be Nesta and I know what it’s like to be Cassian wanting to help someone he loves but not always knowing how.

I do think the double standards and hypocrisy that flow in a lot of this fandom are inconsiderate of people who are actually like Nesta or have struggled with addiction. There are people who have struggled with addiction who relate to Nesta and then the antis constantly spew out how what the Ic did was wrong and Nesta was living her life in her apartment. It just confuses me? Then the ones who claim the ic were abusive to Nesta or that Nesta is abusive still anger me to a high level 🙄. But I guess interpretation is up to anyone? If you agree with my interpretation of the books, then I’d love to have you here! It’s always comforting to see someone else who has gone through what Nesta did and understands the depths and importance of what happened in her story without toxicity.

[hi-imlooneybirdie]

Woah, you found my blog! I guess I'll js do my silly little intro now then.

Hello! My name is LooneyBird! Or u can call me Looney for short! I go by She/Her/He/Him pronouns!

What's your sexuality and gender? I'm bigender (bio fem), and I am bisexual as well!

When's your birthday and ur age? My birthday is on the 15th of Oct! As for my age? I'm not going share that yet until my b-day this year.

What are your interests and hobbies? Drawing is my number 1 thing I love to do! Other things i do are js playing video games like minecraft or mario kart 8. Or I usually like to play piano and write my silly story.

What fandoms are u into? Right now, I am currently into SMG4, but I am into others like FNAF, Eddsworld and Hazbin Hotel!

Are you single by any chance? Nope! I have a girlfriend and she is the best!! My second love is food /j

Extra info? I have depression and anxiety, but I dont hurt myself. I also will just post here whenever I feel like. I'm into lots of horror movies as well, such as Saw and Scream! I also do gacha whenever I dont have the motiv to draw. I’ll do both traditional and digital art!

Do you have any ships that you love? Yes I do! Two of my favs include SMG34 from SMG4 and Paultryk from Eddsworld!

Where else can I find you? You can find me on Discord and Youtube!

Discord: thereallooneybird - LooneySulyFR

Youtube: {Looney_Birdie}

You can ask me anything about my blog! It can be anything, like my smg4 or eddsworld au/hc's, or even abt my own oc's! My ask box is always open, and you can even request drawing ideas if u want!

Boundaries!!!: Anything with S/A, bothering/spamming me in my inbox/ask box.

DNI: Proshippers, pedos, groomers, racists, anti-lgbt/anti-trans, zoophiles, spam/nsfw accounts.

Im not that good at art, but I try-

My persona/OC for tumblr!!

SMG4 OC REF: SMG-EØ w/ USB Pod

[partycage]

" HELLO!!! It's me, PARTY HAT!!! " ( SHE/HE/CAKE/VOID // PARTY HAT ; divider by lavendargalactic )

( itss me, @ss-irin01 !! im the person running this!! i love party hat you have no idea i love her silly tophat )

🎂 " to this everlasting melody, "

DISCLAIMER : PARTY HAT is written to have DID (DISSOCIATIVE IDENTITY DISORDER). as the blog progresses, more alters may be introduced.

₊˚ WARNINGS!! - Mentions of Violence

- S##ci#al Ideation - Depersonalization - Themes of Depression - Mentions of cultism If a roleplay starts to get too uncomfortable to your liking, please message me, or feel free to drop the interaction — Comfort is my top priority in all of my interactions.

🍰 " face to face, we dance-- "

₊˚ RULES!!! - M STILL LEARNING TUMBLR PLS DOJNT BULLY ME SOBS CRIES TELL ME IF ANYTHINGS WRONG !! - dont be weird!! uh i mean you can but dont be too weird!! like no nfsw!! - dont spam too much!!! my brain can only hold so much!! you can flood it though - dont harras :p - have fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :333

🍦 " with our story lost in forever's embrace. "

₊˚ TAGS!!!! #scheduleannouncement - important posts!! #partycage - general tag!! #partyillust - art!! #partyhosting - asks!! #rehost - reblogs!! #freetime - posts!! + other tags like #phighting and #phighting oc

🍮 " on your icy lips, read my soul-- "

₊˚ ALTERS:

schariac — protector ; trauma holder.

they / it / void. 18.

agender, unlabelled.

NOTES: semi-lack the ability to

taste and touch. likes mango shakes and writing.

robin - memory holder.

he/they/mist/mango. 5.

agender.

NOTES: always involuntarily shaking and stuttering.

APPEARANCE(S)

[quinnhills]

Good to know you're feeling welcome! :D this is our little place in the internet, and we've decided to make it trans and gay as hell (n i gotta say, i did think "they-them gang! :o" when i found out you started using they/them too a while ago X3 ) n if you received this ask more than once, my tumblr bugged out before i could finish, sorry (。_。)

anyways, and sorry if this is long, but Woe- More Tumblr Things Be Upon Ye:

there used to not be an image limit before, causing a few- interesting posts… tho that changed a few years ago and recently, at first the limit being 10 images per post to now 30 images per post (you can also move the images around a bit)

if you plan on staying long term on tumblr and use desktop the most, i recommend getting the browser extensions Xkit &/or New Xkit cuz… yeah, tumblr is pretty nice, but it sometimes gets hard to use. it also adds extra useful things to the tumblr experience, which is nice to have. i'd say tumblr is like living in a cheap apartment in a calm area of the city. the place's great for what it is, just gotta be sure to leave rat traps near holes and dont worry about the Beast down the hall,

speaking of rats, we got an infestation. you may or may not have heard of it with the voter fraudage going with the polls a bit ago; since tumblr has little to No email verification, people outside tumblr buy bots to get in here and start posting malicious links. tho the bots are surprisingly easy to identify (often times blank blogs with very weird descriptions + stolen picture of lady or ai generated. you'll know it when you see it), and the protocol here is block and report spam so staff can deal with it

and btw if you want to keep a post for as long as your blog stands, i recommend rebloggin! thanks to how tumblr is build as, even if the original post or that blog is gone, the reblog will stay with you (+ tags on reblogs dont really make a post expand outside of your own blog, so many use this to create Very intricate personal tag systems to make easier finding posts, bc once a blog gets 1k+ post in it, it gets hard finding anything on it... <- knows this from experience u.u)

oh and last thing before i go again (and something i found out recently), another browser extension ive been loving: Stylus! with it you can customize a ton of sites to your liking And with a specific style found in the archive of this extension, you can change how the dashboard looks! even changing the background to any image you might want :D

so yeah, thats it, for now. i got more info if you want it, just lmk 👉👈

and you probably already noticed this, but there isnt really any word limit for posts or asks around these lands. tho on tags, the character limit on a single tag is 139. but you can put a Lot of tags, so there! be free mx quinn, no character limit holds you down no more ヽ(✿ﾟ▽ﾟ)ノ

Thank you so much for the knowledge!

Some Quinn Facts:

Mx., Ms. and Miss are all acceptable :)

I use “gay as hell” as a sort of tongue-in-cheek shorthand, but I also identify as trans as hell, queer as hell, non-binary as hell, lesbian as hell, and anxious/depressive as hell

I’m a vegetarian

My favorite food is pineapple pizza (controversial, I know)

For a few years in the early 2000s, I was a licensed auctioneer

The most times I’ve ever cried during a movie is 5 times during Happiest Season

I like the idea of books, but I’m bad at reading them

Overalls give me gender euphoria, and I don’t know why

I hope to release a solo album within the next year

I hope to direct a feature-length film by the time I’m 40

Coming out was the best thing I ever did

[chrissdollie]

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do not bother me by sending the same request over and over again. i am a VERY slow person lmao i need time to get my ideas down. i always work on requests before my personal ideas, but i still have other things im working on. i will always see your requests/asks but i probably wont respond right away

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my readers are all similar! they are girly, bubbly, and sweet. unless i say otherwise, they are always fem

normally don't do second parts to oneshots unless i really want to. sorry :(

when you request something, i'd prefer if it was in detail. for example, a simple, "can u write angst where matt is depressed" is okay but it will take me such a long time to get to ur req because i need to think of what i wanna do, yk? if u put it in a better description like, "can u do angst where matt is struggling with depression while in a relationship with yn and she leaves him bc she thinks he needs to work on himself", thats much better and gives me more to work with !

but dont be upset if i change ur request just a bit. sometimes i dont feel comfortable with touching on certain topics so i might change a bit of the plot c:

i dont mind spam liking/reblogging at all!! please feel free to :D

if u read all these rules, click on "pettydoll's bakery" on my pinned post for my main masterlist

ty! <333

[valakiir]

K i know i dont reblog the gofundmes on this blog since this one is my personal one, but i do see the posts and it just ratchets my anxiety/depression up like 5 levels. My question is WHY AM I GETTING SO MANY PRIVATE ASKS FOR MONEY?? Guys pls. It takes a lot of energy for me to get myself to double check the vetting on these and it hurts my freaking heart to do it. Im not here to ramp up my stress level, im here to escape reality bc i cant keep up.

What list am i on. I just got 6 asks TODAY with gofundmes and its barely the afternoon. I got 7 yesterday and 8 the day before. I have had new asks in my inbox literally every day for like a week now. I dont wanna leave tumblr, i dont wanna igore my inbox completely bc of my lovely anons and mutuals and all those non-donation asks. I cant keep up tho. Whatever list im on for this requesting for money PLEASE TAKE ME OFF.

I have $442 in my bank account, saving and checking combined. I have $0 income. I have a hearing scheduled to re-review my disability request that has been denied several times now. Im having panic attacks almost dayly over having to talk to a lawyer abt it. Im even trying to ration my food so i dont run out of money b4 the hearing, which is not anytime soon. I CANNOT donate anything. Im at the point where im about ready to start blocking anyone asking as spam. I cannot keep up w this, pls. I hate having to post this, i hate not being able to help everyone, but at this point it's starting to affect my own mental health, and i need to take care of myself first no matter how much that sucks.

Please stop asking.

[gladiatorcunt]

not to be like nooo dont deactivate ur so sexy but I love your writing pls at least save your writing for future rereading 🥺

what's making you want to deactivate?

no no i feel bad bc i’m not seriously saying it, sometimes with tumblr you get in a “what if i just pulled the plug mood” and how serious you are about it varies lol. i’m just depressed and it’s that thing where i forgot how hard it is to grow on tumblr at first. i had a blog in 2018 that was like moodboards and stuff so i spam posted those at the start and grew quickly, but this is writing that i’m putting a lot of time and effort in. so it takes longer and it’s harder, not that numbers are the most important but it’s just kind of like “oh 😃”

it’s tough bc writing about fictional characters destroying your guts in freak ways should be fun, but sometimes it feels like a chore if i’m being real. like you have to be constantly churning out content to get anywhere/any support, none of this is anything new and i don’t feel like this all the time. it comes and goes. the whole like vs reblog thing, etc etc. and trying to get into the hype for a fandom before it dies down.

sometimes you do just have to brush it off and move on though and keep writing, so it’s okay.

thank you though for loving my stuff!! i hope you don’t think that me moping means i appreciate it any less, it just sucks out here sometimes. i’m going to watch real housewives to try to cheer up

[bananasher1337]

sorry for spam liking/reblogging. if you find my blog through there, mmm posts good.

anyway, onto me. i'm just an ugly little hater

all the things you need to know are on my carrd page

if you can't or won't click that link, hello. i’m a gay nerd. i draw things (if they're pleasant or meaningful, that's for you to decide), and i use this site once a month. i hate overly long chain posts so that’s why i don’t do those. instead i spam reblog stuff every few days so that’s cool

also i tend to dump multiple pictures of the same source in single posts so i'm sorry if you have to scour ten images for one single pic of your blorbo.

i'm nice when i want to be. i have no set dni and block freely. feel free to contact me, my discord is bananasher 🙏

individual characters are tagged "(name) (source)" ex. "steve minecraft/steve mc", although this may variate or differ depending on the situation.

i use the format "cw (thing)" for content that needs warnings (blood/gore, vomit, etc)

tag list, current fandoms, more info ↓

tag list! click the tags on this post to navigate ✦

asher's art tag: the art tag. all art is here

asher's tag tag: me speaking and all that other stuff

funnies: random posts, usually memes

epic asks: asks i get, please send more asks i like answering dumb questions

fandoms

current hyperfix/s: total drama (gen 1), cookie run (crk/crob), warriors (sadly.)

i'm a multishipper, but i do tend to have some biases. rarepair defender 4 life

other fandoms: flash content in general. roly polys no nanakorobi yaoki

(shhhhh.... me and the pookie made a td highschool au roleplay server. check it out)

other things i like: i enjoy school. shocker. (my favorite subjects are math and english.) i need to read or i'll become severely depressed, i don't write much anymore, but it is fun sometimes. i also want to get into baking, because murder is illegal. math and numbers.

favorite music artists: mitski, the smiths, tv girl, dazey and the scouts, i don't even know here's my playlist

i'm okay with anything using my stuff (edits, inspo/reference, fanart, tracing, you go) as long as you TRY to give credit. the least you can do is leave my username in the description. do not claim any of my content as yours

do NOT involve me in discourse EVER. i dont care what it is. idgaf what somebody else is doing with their own life that doesn't affect me or anyone else at all.

[lukewarmstew]

I havent been posting as much, im feeling like fucking shit and like such a failure.

I know this could be considered "recovery" but im not loving any single piece of food that im putting in my mouth, im hating everything about me even more and im done with myself.

Ive been telling myself that I'll relapse tomorrow and it ends up in a binge (1,000+kcal) and i end up having anxiety attacks at night and also lots of self hate and regret. I cant do this anymore, im literally at my lowest, and it doesnt help that my arthitis its getting worse, it makes me depressed and makes me wanting to eat everything.

Tomorrow im going to the hospital and i already know my weight (48.4kg, probably gained this week), and to see myself in the mirrow and seeing a big difference in my face, i hate it, even more than before...

I am very upset and angry with myself because ive lost all my progress because of me. I feel lost and done with everything but mostly myself and my actions. This week when my mom started talking about plans that involved food, i knew i was gonna fail restriction, and to be fair i was planing to restrict by october so i was kinda ready to eat everything... i logged everythin i ate and then regret eating, even yesterday i was doing great but im always losing self control these days and i dont know why i cant fight it..

Today i didnt even bothered to do a low cal breakfast, i knew that i wanted some shitty cookies and i just grabbed them and ate them, i just cant control myself now, what is wrong with me??? I dont want to recover, it looks like it but im at my lowest right now, i dont want to gain more and more weight...

Since its difficult for me to walk right now, im just going to restrict as much as i can... i dont care about my mom finding out or if it means I'll have to purge, i want to lose weight, i need to lose weight.

If anyone reading this (which i dont expect, im just venting) i am going to spam my thoughts when i feel like binging, food or whatever shitty thought i have. I hope this makes me feel better about my restriction, worse about my binging and idk what else, but to keep myself acountable...

Whoever reads this... just tell me to kms and to starve, i need that type of inspo rn...

I'll keep updating in this boring ass blog.

See ya.

-Maruu

[tnyborkz]

✧ GET TO KNOW US ✧

We are the Puppyopolis System!

We use He/Him + They/Them + It/Itself pronouns Collectively!

The body identifies as transgender FtM & Nonbinary.

There’s are currently 2 sysmates that regress and they will be using this account!

We regress to the ages 5mths to 4yrs.

We also pet regress to many animals!

✧ WHY DO WE REGRESS? ✧

Anxiety

Depression

Trauma

Loss of childhood

Autism

This post is very important! So please read this carefully!

✧ ACCOUNT RULES ✧

Don’t comment any hateful things about any community or about anyone | Don’t promote yourself or your account (eg “Follow my account” or “Dm me to be friends) | Don’t mention our triggers unless there’s a warning and we are friends | Don’t keep sending in friend requests when we decline them | Don’t repost photos of us unless I allow you to | Don’t cover our watermark | Claim our work as your own | Post userboxes on your feeds | Use our templates without credit.

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If MIK (Minor in Kink) Pedo ect | If you sexualise or against agere/petre | If you are going to DM us NSFW things or ask for a relationship | If you are homophobic,transphobic,racist or any hateful things like that | If you crosstag agere/petre and kink | If you think age regression and kink are the same | If you are 13 or younger | Going to roleplay with us, unless close friends | If you have a typing quirk and not add translations | Against using photos of kid/baby models

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DONT

Don’t mention our triggers without warnings or you’re not our friend | Don’t say “hi” or “can we be friends” it makes us really uncomfortable | Don’t Spam us | Don’t use all caps in negative way | Don’t ask for Shout out for Shout out. There will be opportunities for that on our story | Don’t baby talk with me unless we have done it to you first (this doesn’t include people who we are close friends with and baby talked to)

DO

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✧ TRIGGERS ✧

Fresh Self harm Cuts | Suicide | Weight Loss | Weight Gain | Eating Disorder | Murder | Death | Molesting | Rape | Any forms of abuse (Family, Mentally, Emotionally, Sexually, Physically ECT) | Car Accidents | Loud noises | Rapid text like spamming | Extreme Cursing | The name Chris/Christian | The name Lucifer | Yelling | Hate on Autistic people | Bread Dough Cutting

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[starlxngs]

About Me

Hi, I'm Star, I'm 25 years old!

This is basically my blog where I post abt things I have daydreams about but am too shy to admit to.

Not taken and not looking.

DO ♡

Interact, like, rb, follow, etc.

Spam like/spam rb

DM me if I personally know you

Call me Star, Luna, Nova, or any variation of those that you'd like to call me!

Chat me up if I know you

Be kind, enjoy yourself, have a good time

DONT X

Call me any type of pet name or title if I do not personally know you or have consented

Send or ask for any type of photograph or Identifying information about me or yourself

Leave comments or fantasies on my posts

Ask to DM me if I do not know you

Only talk to me to try to get lewds or 18+ content from me

Romance me, flirt with me, make moves on me, etc. If I do not personally know you

Tag me in anything

Tell me any type of fantasy or daydream you've had about me in any form

Vent, leave negative remarks or self deprecating comments, content or DMs to me, I'm not a therapist or a robot, I am a person who has to see what you say to me and I experience emotions as well

Ask for face reveals, specific weight, voice reveals, tattoo pics, etc. It will never happen

Ask for meet ups, content, my email or phone number, a main or side blog, etc.

Ask me to promote your blog or promo yourself on my posts

Be rude, kinkshame or otherwise come here with unkind or hateful intentions

DNI

Pedophiles / PEARs / MAPs

Minors / Under 18 Years Old

Ageless or blank blogs

R*pe apologists

True crime stans

Ageplay blogs

Transphobes

TERFs / Radfems / Gender Critical

Homophobes

Race players

Racists / Xenophobic

Ableist

Sexist / Tradfem / Alpha Male

Antisemitic / Islamophobic

Thinspo / Proana / E.D Blogs

Depression / SH Blogs

Gore blogs

Detrans blogs

Discourse blogs

Cheating / cheating fantasy blogs

[kodzukenmaaa]

୨୧the rules: please take a minute to read the terms and conditions for coming or browsing my blog!

PLEASE KEEP THIS IN YOUR MIND BEFORE ASKING!

↳˳⸙ OVERVIEW !

DNI if you're racist, sexist, support the current genocide that is currently happening in Gaza, mysogynistic, etc.

Please no repost, plagiarizing, & translating, etc.

This blog is not spoiler-free I don't think I'll put a Spoiler tag either :(

↳˳⸙ INTERACTIONS !

Please don't trauma dump on my inbox.

I'd like to be mutual just inside Tumblr. But if keep bothering to be mutual outside or inside I'll block you, sorry.

Please be nice.

No sending porn link even though you're not a bot.

↳˳⸙ WRITING !

if you want clarification on something, please send me an ask!

i'd prefer not to write readers with a specific race, religion, disorder.

Idk if I want to write a smut, but safe to say my blog is still SFW

I'm sorry but I won't be writing MxM or FxF I'm really sorry. (Me being a girl I dont identity or am I a male am more comfortable in writing female reader. I also don't know how to write FxF. sorry!)

i'm will NOT be writing professor x reader, step brother and sister, yanderes, incest/stepcest, adult x minor, hate speech, anything discriminatory, domestic abuse, teacher x student. Etc.

↳˳⸙ HOW TO REQUEST !

Please be nice.

I only write a character x reader.

Please don't ask the reader to have specific hair color, eyes, skin, etc. I'm keeping it neutral, is that weird? Idk.

No cheating or affair.

No triggering topics such as suicide, self harm, etc.

No emergency requests pls.

No highly specific request such as depressed! Reader, chubby! Reader, Thick! reader. I avoid to write something specific like this, I like to miss out things about what the reader look like.

PLEASE don't spam requests and asking me when will I post your request. Honey it takes time for me to write.

I don't write characters x oc.

↳˳⸙ BLOCKED !

There's could be a lot of reasons why i block people, but it's usually because you annoyed me at some point or so.

i also start to block if i you have blankless blog but for some reason you keep showing up on my dash spam liking bc that annoys me. REBLOGS IS MUCH MORE IMPORTANT

I'll block spam-likers too BUT I'll send you message as a warning first if you keep continuing to spam liking me I'll block you. I'll warn you twice.

Spam reblogging is much, much better.

I'll block you if you support the genocide. When someone said "Oh it's raining outside" and the other one said "No it's not" IT IS NOT your job to decide which one is right, YOUR JOB is to check the window to see which one is right.

notes. © property of kodzukenmaa 2024. all rights reserved. likes and reblogs are well appreciated

[frostbite-the-bat]

rambley post idk lol

NOTING STUFF TO MYSELF BC IM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE APPROX DATE WHEN GUZMA BECAME MY NAME IN 2018. THIS IS PERSONAL SO DONT MIND IT IM LIKE INVESTIGATING STUFF USING ONLY STUFF I SENT IN MY OLD PERSONAL DISCORD SERVER BC ALL THE OTHER SERVERS I WAS IN AT THE TIME R GONE... anyways!! this goes into other Guzma Lore As Well because I Have Bad Memory And I Like Looking Back At What I Used To Do

around in 2018, july, when i was on vacation...i was... NOT WELL! MENTALLY! AT ALL! LOWKEY DEPRESSED AS SHIT THERE! a lot of my uh.. past "drama" happened around that time, if you know what i mean. cough... and other than THOSE people i had... not many people to talk to so i said fuck it lets join a furry server! coz yknow im a Furry. (bad idea but whatever)

but WELL a few days BEFORE THAT i? randomly got hyperfixated on team skull/guzma during my general pokemon fixation? i changed my name to guzma for a joke and because i liked him a lot and some of my friends changed their name and icons to "grunt A" "grunt B" "grunt C" and so on. we memed around a bit and i kept this name - and then i joined the furry server. i began talking there a lot i mean i had literally almost 2k messages there in one day i did not leave the room we were staying at all i did that day was chat there and use the pokemon bot there.

thanks to these cool people i met... the name guzma just STUCK. without that server and without those people guzma wouldn't be solidified as my (at least online) name. and WELL. this was even before me accepting myself as trans and nonbinary so LMFAO.

and well i am not sure WHEN i joined the server but i spammed a bunch of team skull memes i stole from tumblr (i wasnt even active here?? im sure the acc i used back then is looong deleted also.) onto that discord server. that was july 17th. but im not sure if that was the date i set guzma as my name for the first time - just my brain rot starting. and i already had some icon edits by the 26th - so i began the inside joke around that time, i assume? not sure? which means i set my name that way there already? LIKE. BY THAT TIME I WAS ALSO DRAWING MYSELF IN GUZMA'S OUTFIT AND SUCH. LIKE. c'mon...

AND! OFFICIALLY BY THE 29TH!! I sent the icon i would use that i KNOW i used on the server a 100%. like when my name got solidified. wouldnt be it without it. so like.. i always say the day is the 29th even if i set the name guzma a while before that... its hard to SAY but i always just say that like... july/august is the Guzma Anniversary.

i know this Heavy Guzma Brainrot also went thru the entire august. then i got into... detroit become human??? then gorillaz which laster 2 whole years. which lead to the creation of this blog. and then its deletion. and then its recreation. yeah. but at that point i was just Guzma.

fun fact, this was like? my first post on my old blog in 2018. i wonder if its still reblogged somewhere on an old gorillaz blog despite my old blog being gone.

not sure why people rbd this its not funny

anyways also speaking of which. wanna know how i used to draw MYSELF. i cant draw myself as Human anymore thats Not Me The Guz Beast but PLEASE LOOK

you can smell the gender identity crisis from them so badly

[klugpuuo]

each and every 'plan' to make me stop hating my time here dissected

i just straight up log off for a week

pros:

i won't be on tumblr, therefore i have 0 chances to get engaged in or forced to play in online drama on tumblr specifically

i won't be posting my art, so i won't be getting any lack of notes on nonexistant posts

cons:

if i don't remove notifications on every single one of my blogs individually i will return to thousands of missed notifications

notifications delete themself after some amount of time, so i might end up losing important notifications

i wont be able to talk to my bf. or half of my mutuals

i will miss a lot .

i just straight up stop posting art / writing

pros:

no art posts to get no notes that aren't self-reblogs on

nobody can be gross on art posts that dont exist

cons:

it'll be annoying

i will have no traction at all, meaning less chances to maybe potentially get a commission that isn't actually happening but could maybe in the future. maybe.

i physically and mentally force myself to become completely apathetic, removing any desire to get traction on my art

pros:

i have no fucking clue

cons:

my depression will probably be worse

start putting "interact or die" banners on my art like an ex friend

fucking no

Start constantly spamming my art and fics everywhere, using every account I have to promote myself, crosstagging to ridiculous heights and filling people's dashboards with my art and edits and writing

pros:

none

cons:

nobody will ever look at me again

i will probably get banned for spam

refuse to make edits for yourfaveisantiship without getting at least one outside reblog on each of my art posts

i tried to do something similar and it didnt work so. no

[miss-celestial-being]

𝖆𝖇𝖔𝖚𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖆𝖚𝖙𝖍𝖔𝖗

➾ 𝖒𝖆𝖎𝖓 𝖎𝖓𝖋𝖔:

name — bee (moots can call me belle)

age — 16 (surprising, right?)

pronouns — she/they (tho you can call me whatever you like)

sexual orientation — i..... idfk anymore

country — u.s.

time zone — pacific standard time (pst california)

➾ 𝖆𝖕𝖕𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖆𝖓𝖈𝖊:

white, natural wavy/curly brunette (tho i dye my hair every now and then)

aesthetic is all over the place but i tend to stick with boxy graphic/band tees or really big sweatshirts, mostly muted colors with a small pop of bright color

plus sized, tall, faint freckles and moles, lots of acne bc ✨teenager✨, a bunch of stretch marks and cellulite

➾ 𝖕𝖊𝖗𝖘𝖔𝖓𝖆𝖑𝖎𝖙𝖞:

hogwarts house — slytherin (tho i got ravenclaw once)

three big signs — gemini sun, sagittarius moon, libra rising

personality type — istp-t

➾ 𝖒𝖞 𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖌:

i dont have any separate blog for shitposts and rants or interaction with friends so expect that all here. i like to think i'm a pretty friendly person (at least online) so feel free to talk to me anytime!

i write for many fandoms, including, harry potter, stranger things, the 100, and bridgerton. expect more to be added as i get invested in more and more shows and movies.

original ideas are hard, i get that completely. and sometimes you don't remember exactly where you got the idea from, which is completely fine. i do not expect any credit to be given if i inspire your writing, that's just part of the process. as long as you're not blatantly stealing anything, we don't have any problems.

if you would like to translate my work or post it somewhere else, please message me. i'm pretty chill so don't feel threatened or anything. if you find my work good or interesting and would like it to reach others, just make sure to get my WRITTEN permission and CREDIT ME!! if you don't, you will be reported and blocked. i may be chill but i DO NOT tolerate plagiarism, it is ILLEGAL!!

if you have any complaints or concerns, please feel free to message me or send me an ask as long as you're not rude about it. i'm always looking for ways i can improve, whether that be in my writing or as a person. i love getting feedback, it really helps me learn and grow

i will never be one of those blogs that block people if they spam like bc i understand that there are blogs that don't wanna have any posts on their blog or they're ashamed they're reading fanfiction or it just doesn't match what they talk about on their blog. and i do appreciate likes because it shows me what y'all like and if i should continue making something or writing about a certain character. i also appreciate the few reblogs i do get because it really helps with the algorithm, so thank you <3

➾ 𝖗𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖔𝖒/𝖋𝖚𝖓 𝖋𝖆𝖈𝖙𝖘:

i hate the feeling of velvet and felt, i feel physically sick when touching it. its basically like nails on a chalkboard.

i have a cat named oreo, who i am convinced is a velociraptor in disguise (velociraptors can open doors, that's why). She likes to open my door with her mind powers and/or knock on it and scream at me till i open it.

i love frogs and rats so so much, i really want them as pets (which is kinda hard with a cat so im probably gonna get them when i move out).

i have an "irrational" fear of spiders. every time i see one i either scream for someone to kill it, hyperventilate, or cry. my mom gets pissed at me for asking her to kill them

i've been biting my nails since before i even had a developed memory. my therapist thinks its from past anxiety that's become a habit.

i have a depression, anxiety, and adhd

i have issues with confrontation, most likely caused by ptsd (according to my therapist). i usually cry when someone yells at me or looks like they're gonna hit me (unless i started the fight and it's with someone that's either younger than me or shorter than me)

i have a tendency to focus on my insecurities for too long and begin to think i'm unloveable, which is no one's fault, i'm just a dumbass.

i love every single one of you to the moon and back, nothing will change my mind.