#I got into a new series and instantly fell in love with a puppet guys

[sinfullyrosey]

Y/N: *gently holding P’s face in their hands* A good boy, a precious boy! The sweetest boy in all of Krat!~

P: *springs whirring in happiness* 

Carlo: *totally not jealous over the lack of attention* Hey, what about me? 

Y/N: *looks over at Carlo with an unimpressed look* And you… You are a naughty boy, a mischievous scoundrel. The most troublesome boy in all of Krat. *goes back to cooing over P*

Carlo: They seriously prefer that puppet over me?!

Romeo: Looks like it.

[loserholland]

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Pairing ➺  Ceo playboy!Ben Hardy x Reader

Warning ➺ none, I think

Word Count ➺ 1,681

Summary ➺ An arranged marriage between two polar opposites.

A/N ➺  A new series! So after watching BoRhap I instantly fell in love again with Ben Hardy who plays Roger Taylor! Message me or send me an ask if you’d like to be on the taglist!

I also want to thank you all for 1.6K!

Send me your thoughts, feelings, everything! It makes me day/night!

Also send me your theories! Love reading them! Also happy new year and two updates in a row whaa?!?! Also happy birthday to our baby boo Ben! And to @kthpurplemoon happy happy birthday! I hope you guys enjoy your first day of 2019!! 

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Be careful with his heart, it’s more fragile than you think.

Those words echoed through her mind.

That was all (Y/N) could think about for the past hour. She began to cook dinner, setting up her ingredients on the island finding a pot and pan along with a cutting board. Her mind was racing, she finally knew the name of the girl who left Ben broken. 

Taytum

The last time she tried to start a conversation about his love life, they ended up in the same bed. Next day they ended up in London and well shared a heated kiss. Following they made out and was caught by Ben’s mother, she spent the day with Alexa which leads us back to present day. (Y/N) was unsure about where she stood with Ben, pretty sure he felt the same way as well.

They were in the gray area.

At least (Y/N) thought they were.

The place where people don't know if it is something or not something.

She wanted to know if they were taking things to the next level, as weird as it sounds. She wanted to know if they were official, after all that kissing. The chime of the elevator echoed through out the penthouse causing Frankie to bark “Hey Frankie! How was your day today hm?” Ben cooed as he took Frankie into his arms. “Love?” Ben called as he followed the smell of pasta into the kitchen.

(Y/N) placed the pasta onto a plate and topped it off with some fresh parsley, she turned on her heels to see Ben sitting on one of the bar stools “Hi.” (Y/N) said in a small voice as she placed Ben’s food in front of him.

“Hi, how was your day today?” Ben questioned as he hopped off the barstool to grab a bottle of wine from his mini wine fridge.

"It was great.. I love spending time with your mom, how was your day?” (Y/N) placed their forks onto their plates as she sat on the bar stool next to Ben’s.

He placed their filled wine glasses onto the island before returning to his seat “Boring, spent most of my day in meetings and signing papers.”

They ate in silence, there were some shared glances yet the air was filled with awkward silence. (Y/N) wanted to bring up the what Alexa had said, it was all she could think about ever since she stepped foot into Ben’s penthouse. She reached for the wine glass, allowing the liquor to pass her tastebuds and it slowly trickled down her throat. 

“Ben?” 

He hummed in response allowing (Y/N) to continue.

“Your mother.. she told me something today. I won’t pressure you into talking about it but-” (Y/N) closed her eyes for a moment unsure if she should continue her sentence or just say forget about it.

“-she told me about Taytum.. well she just brought up her name and what she did..”

(Y/N) turned her attention to Ben before her hand reached for his clenched fist “You don’t have to talk about it.. I-I um.. I just wanted to tell you what your mother had told me.” 

Ben pulled his hand away from (Y/N) as he got up from the seat “Excuse me.” he mumbled before exiting the kitchen, the sounds of his footsteps echoed till the sound of his bedroom door was slammed shut causing (Y/N) to flinch slightly. 

The gray area, that’s where they stood.

After (Y/N) had cleaned up the dishes she headed into her bedroom and took a long hot shower. Ben hasn’t left his room since, the penthouse was silence the only person to accompany her was Frankie whom was currently resting on her bed.

She ran her fingers through her wet hair as she reached for the shampoo opening the bottle to pour some of the strawberry scented liquid onto her hand. She began to apply the liquid to her scalp running her fingers through her hair till it was foamy before rinsing it out with hot water. There she stood with her head down allowing her thoughts to consume her again, after a few minutes she turned the shower off and reached for the towel she had left on the counter.

Once she was dressed in her PJ’s she grabbed her phone and headed out to the balcony. (Y/N) sat on one of the chairs dialing her mom’s number placing her phone on her ear waiting for her mom to pick up.

“(Y/N)! You missy did not call me when you landed in London!” (Y/N) chuckled lightly as she played with the hem of her pj shorts.

“Sorry Mom, I just lost track of time that’s all.. how was your day today?”

Anytime (Y/N) had a long day, she’d always call her mom to talk to her. She was always there for (Y/N) to just talk to.

“It was lovely, your father is working late though so by the time he comes home pretty sure I’ll be asleep. How was your day dear?” (Y/N) pulled the phone away from her ear to read it was 11:45 PM in London it was only 6 o’clock in New York.

“It was fun, I spent the day with Alexa actually.. we went out shopping.” Audrey sighed with glee “Oh! That’s lovely dear, where was Ben?” To say the least, Audrey and Andrew were rooting for Ben and (Y/N). They just wanted their daughter to be happy for once and to have someone who could be there to take her mind off of anything other than work.

“He had to attend a meeting..”

“Is he home now?”

Yeah, he was home. Locked away in his room.

“Yeah, I’m pretty sure he’s asleep though which means I should go to bed too. I may return sooner or later mom, I’ll let you know by tomorrow.” 

“Alright dear, goodnight sleep tight love you.”

“Goodnight mom, love you too.”

With that (Y/N) ended the call, as she placed her phone onto her lap. She was unaware of the presence behind her, she was too focused on the beautiful view from Ben’s penthouse.

“Are you going to bed?” a voice said behind her as she let out a small squeal. (Y/N) head whipped around to see Ben shirtless with grey joggers hanging loosely on his waist.

“I-I-um, no actually.” Ben walked out and said on the other chair that was a few feet away from where she was, he leaned back and reached into his pocket of his joggers to take out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. 

“Smoking is bad for you yunno.” (Y/N) whispered earning a playful glare from Ben “Hm? Really never knew that.” he left the cigarette between his lips before letting out the smoke towards (Y/N) direction she waved off the smell before getting up.

“Okay, if you’re just gonna sit here and smoke that’s fine I’m going to bed.” before she re-entered the penthouse Ben let out a sigh taking his cigarette and burned it out on the railing. 

“Fine, fine. I was actually hoping we could talk.”

“Taytum Anderson, we dated for four years. I met her at- before I continue you promise not to add any side comments about where I met her?” Ben pointed his index finger at (Y/N) as she crossed her heart “Promise.”

“I met her at a club, and she was one of my one night stands. One of the best, so I gave her my number and well things went on from then. My parents never approved of her, they said she was after my money... but she was from Los Angeles and well her family disowned her. It was nearing our fifth year anniversary and at the same time.. I lost my father. I called her endlessly that day, I wanted her to be by my side yet I came home to find her in bed with another man. Ever since that night, I guess you could say I’ve never been the same.”

(Y/N) opened her mouth to say something yet nothing came out. She finally found her voice and whispered “I-I’m sorry Ben.” 

He simply shrugged taking out another cigarette to light, “So tell me about your bitch sister Presley.” She sighed, oh there was a lot to say about her.

“Presley Nicole, that was her name. She use to be the greatest sister ever, than I caught her with Ryan who I thought liked me yet he was just one of her puppets. I use to always live in her shadow but, after she nearly ruined our family name my parents began to see how much work I put into school and for the company.”

Ben tapped his cigarette against the railing allowing some of the ashes to fall “Well, if I ever meet that Ryan guy I’ll be sure to remind him how much of a dumbass he is.”

(Y/N) chuckled shaking her head lightly before glancing at Ben. She looked up at the sky to see a few stars shinny ever so slightly. 

“Where do we stand Ben?” (Y/N) asked quietly, he put out his cigarette before leaning up in his seat.

“Come again?”

“Where do we stand.. relationship wise? I mean we did kiss twice and I am here in London with you when I could be in New york.. so where does our relationship stand?”

She wanted out of the gray area, she wanted out of the place where she was unsure of where their relationship stood. All she wanted to hear was 5 words, 5 simple words and her answer would be yes.

“We’re in this gray area, we kiss, we talk, but we never came to a conclusion about what we are..” Ben ran his hand over his face before letting out a small sigh.

He got up from his chair and kneeled down in front of (Y/N) he took her hands into his and placed a small kiss to her knuckle.

“Will you be my girlfriend?”

(Y/N) smiled pulling Ben into a quick kiss before pulling away to answer.

“Yes.”

[nyxi-styx]

It’s hard joining a new fandom sometimes

I’m just going to take a minute to vent a little bit of my feelings and I honestly don’t care if anyone reads this.

At 25 years old (24 when I started getting dragged into it all), I thought I was “too old” to be a YouTube fan. It was, after all, rather after my time. Established in 2005, I didn’t really experience anything on YouTube until about 2007-2008. Back then it was meme-y BS like Shoop-da-Whoop, “Shoes”, Charlie the Unicorn, and Potter Puppet Pals. As I grew older, YouTube seemed like something better left to teens. Maybe use it to look up a music video or something instructional and then fall down a Slow-Mo Guys or choreography rabbit hole. Still not a fandom. The closest I came to such was binge-watching Rob Dyke’s WWYPTOTI series and Twisted Tens series.

At Indy PopCon 2016, I was there with friends to see a guest (and caught glimpses of a passing Kevin Smith as I was so that was badass). Two of my friends were already in the YouTube culture world and fans of Markiplier and Dan & Phil. While we were having a snack and playing a card game, they spotted Wade (THE LordMinion777) taking some photos with fans int eh same food court area. I went over and took the photo of them with him, having no idea who this dude was. Less than a month later, (I’d say about 2 weeks) one of those two friends finally introduced me to Markiplier. I don’t remember the reasoning, but she showed me I Am Bread first. It was funny. I liked it. I didn’t think I’d get as into it as she did. However, curiosity had the better of me and I went to my room that night and watched him play ALL of OctoDad: Dadliest Catch. I laughed so hard I cried and that sold it for me. I fell in love. Of course, I had known a little about him due to gratuitous gifs and photos all over this godforsaken hellsite and I always thought he seemed like a nice, genuine person. Overtime, I just kept watching. I got to know about Bob and Wade and Team Edge. I fell in love with Chica. I just really enjoyed myself. Of course, I knew a little bit about JackSepticEye too, but I though being a Markiplier fan was about as deep into YouTube fandom as I was going to get.

About February, I saw a recommended playlist of JSE videos on an unrelated site. At this point, the post with the playlist was about 4 months old. I decided to go ahead and watch it, just to try something new. Naturally, I fell in love. I loved Jack more than I love Mark soon enough, not through any fault of Mark or anything. He’s still a wonderful person. I just loved that Jack was jsut unabashedly, fully, enjoying himself and nerding out and THEN doing the “professional” thing and reviewing the game whereas Mark would try to review while playing and get distracted by his own emotions and reactions. Not that that is a bad thing. That doesn’t mean Jack is better than Mark. I love them both SO much, but I find it easier to connect with Jack that way because that’s how I am too. I think that’s how most of us are. Once again, I thought this was as deep into YouTube fandom as I was going to get. I caught up with most of their videos (both Mark and Jack). The ones that interested me anyway. And then I would go back and forth and catch up on their latest. So, naturally, I got to know Tyler and Ethan too.

Unfortunately- and I feel like dirt admitting this, like I feel so fucking guilty and that’s why I’m venting here- I paid a lot of attention to Tyler and Mark and not a whole lot to Ethan. I didn’t have anything against him at all. He was funny and adorable. I just... *shrug*. But eventually, his self-deprecating jokes about “my channel is dying” started echoing in my head. And I found myself going “Why?” I knew they would tease him about his opening (which I think is a little unfair since it happens to be joked about more than Mark’s or Jack though there’s are targeted too) and that was about it. So, I finally went and I hit that subscribe button and waited until I had a little bit of time to really check out the content.

I finally sat down and opened the Crank Gameplays channel and started saving playlists of content that I found interesting. I don’t remember where exactly I started but I was kind of like “Okay. Cool. Cool. I mean there’s a lot of similarities between YouTube gamers, so how much can you really do?” But then I saw the video of Ethan and his brother singing “I’ll Be Home For Christmas” and I was like “Wow! He can sing! He’s got a really nice voice! It’s kind of that rugged jazzy, folks-y type voice. He kinda reminds me of like... Train or Matt Nathanson. Neato.” But then in ‘recommended’ came a video (I assume a clip from a livestream) of Ethan playing ukulele and covering “Can’t Help Falling In Love”. If there’s one thing I’m a sucker for, it’s Elvis songs.

I watched that video and fell. in. LOVE. Instant stan. I don’t know what it was but I just... couldn’t help falling in love. Haha.

Like I do, I instantly tried to find out a lot about him as if to play catch up. I was surprised to find out he’s a bit younger than me. But he’s got the same birthday as my dad (three days before mine and 3 days after my favourite actor) so of course I thought that was pretty freaking cool.

Maybe it’s because I always root for the underdog and the secondary characters... maybe it’s because blue is my favourite colour... maybe it’s because I am a sucker for hazel eyes... maybe it’s because I always fall for the biggest dork... I don’t know. I can’t pinpoint it, but Ethan is so wildly different from Mark and Jack. They’re all super nice, super genuine guys, but something about Ethan tugs at my heartstrings way more.

Whatever it is, I’m happy to be here. I’m happy to watch him grow and succeed in the next year. And I’m SO excited to have the chance to meet him at Indy PopCon 2018.

The thing is, though... I feel... like I don’t belong here. In Mark’s fandom, I really am just a number. Nobody notices. Nobody cares. In Jack’s fandom... well, the Overnight Watch was my first foray into community interaction and I was so surprised and overwhelmed by how welcome I was. Like it didn’t matter how long I had been a fan, what mattered was that I was a fan and I was happy to be interacting. And it’s nice to be a part of a fandom in which there’s little to no toxicity and drama and hatred amongst fans. It’s nice to be completely accepted.

In Ethan’s fandom... well, I’ve been here all of about a week... and I feel like I’m trying too hard. Like I shouldn’t be in this community because everyone else has been here longer. Everyone else understands more. Everyone else is better than me. I don’t matter.

This is why it’s nice to have @markidarkimoo as a friend. She stans with me no matter who or what.

The worst of it all in these three fandoms is that I can’t make fanart. I am shit at mood/aesthetic boards. I CAN make video edits, but my current laptop will not support my preferred software and I can’t afford a better laptop for a while. I am shit at photo edits.

I just... I can’t do anything worthwhile. I see all this other amazing work that all of the rest of you put out and I just... feel so insignificant.

Being part of a “big box” fandom like Supernatural or Marvel or Sherlock is easy for me because they’re all fictional characters and people eat up fanfic like they’re starving to death. Doesn’t matter if I can’t fan art. I can contribute to the fandom and show my love by making stories.

YouTube is different. It’s not based on fictional characters (Jack’s Egos and Darkiplier aside), it’s based all on real people. I can’t fanfic that unless it’s reader insert and that’s not something for the creators to see (*if they ever do, please kill me*) and enjoy.

I don’t know... I just feel pretty useless. These fandoms are smaller than the “big box” fandoms so I feel like I have to contribute something in order to properly show my love and appreciation and gratitude. But I can’t. I’m just useless. I’m just a blip.