#I had to pretend to be super interested in whatever was happening in eastenders so I couldn't switch over

[echofades]

Have you given up on Vanity?

I've given up in that I'm just no longer expecting them to get back together. I was already feeling doubtful about it, but knowing Michelle will likely be going on maternity leave again in the not so distant future was kinda the last push for me to just give up completely (and this isn't me being negative about Michelle and Kate’s life choices because I'm obvs very happy for them and any future baby!)

But with the shitshow they’ve put them through and no hope in sight I feel like that's just it for them now, Vanessa will leave again at some point, and maybe in a year or five years or twenty years they could decide to go there again but that's not really anything worth holding on to.

Even if by some miracle they did get back together before her mat leave, I certainly don't trust them to deal with another absence with them together after how the last one turned out. So either way there's not really anything to hope for at this point.

Obviously, if they did get back together, even if it was for five minutes, I'd be all over it and clinging to them for dear life for as long as it lasted. They still occupy a large chunk of my brain and I miss them all the time :( but unless that day miraculously comes I'll just be over here expecting nothing and trying to forget Emmerdale exists for my own sanity.