@toxicmalicex sent: 💀
˜”*°•. Massacre . They were heading to another massacre . The man’s voice clear across the train ; surrender . It was either this or the complete elimination of the train . And she hadn’t gone for so long to sacrifice them all in the name of her survival . There’d been chaos . To her mind , the choice simple . And yet, of course they couldn’t have avoided conflict. Ben on her side, yet Marisa seeking a different way out . There’d been arguments, there’d been tension and the other woman had left the room in anger leaving the others alone . Still, the plan had been devised, and if it worked, they would be able to save the passengers but also get what they wanted ; answers, an advantage. Was it risky ? Obviously. But it was better than nothing .
So , when the plan collpased right before her eyes , she’d been too incapable of reacting . When Marisa decided to go a complete different way of what they’d agreed, she’d been too caught off guard to expect the forthcoming tragedy . ❝ No . ❞ Voice barely left her lips , shock flooding her face, disbelief . No . This was not real , the blood on the floor was not real , the wound , the weapon . No . Her whole body shook as she rushed to the fallen body ; he wasn’t breathing, why was he not breathing ? ❝ Ben , please . ❞
Her gaze turned to the other , tears still rolling down her cheeks - yet nothing could compare to the anger , the fury . She couldn’t have done it… She couldn’t have just betrayed her, stand on their side . Not after all they’d gone through, not after the promises they’d made , but well … It was her fault . It was her fault that she’d trusted emotion. It was her fault that she’d thought she’d changed. It was her fault she’d been naïve . They could have made this work. All three of them and the passengers could have survived . They could have made it . But she just couldn’t handle not to make the rules, could she ? ❝ What did you do ? ❞ Hand , now soaked in blood , was raised from his body and she stood up . ❝ What the hell did you do ? ❞
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contemplation on melanie cavill from snowpiercer
She was thrown the responsibility of humanity in the midst of an apocalypse. The responsibility fell onto her out of nowhere, but what amazed me was that she simply accepted it without opposing it, despite the mountainous weight on her shoulder.
She was talented, gifted with a beautiful mind. She pulled herself in control always when the world wanted to pull her apart. And despite the threat of losing her daughter, her mind never flail in her responsibility towards humanity. I'm not saying this is a good thing, or a bad thing. I just think that proves how steadfast she is.
She was always looking out for the greater good and she uses math and logic for it. She kept herself moving. She kept making hard choices and sacrifices. She kept herself so in control, I wonder is she ever felt a sense of anxiety and how does that look like for her.
She was ruthless in her method but it was for selfless reasons. When she thought she lost her daughter, she could have given up on humanity and let them fall into their own hell. Life was cruel to her, she could be cruel back. But she didn't, she kept trying to preserve life. She is selfless to the core and will change her mind, even when her methods prove wrong, willingly compromise with Layton when necessary. Humanity and greater good was always on her mind first. Unlike Wilford, who would calculate how this work to his advantage. Her methods are ruthless but that is simply because they were thrown into a ruthless situation. Her soul isn't.
Also, she isn't a nerdy weak kid. She's nerdy but steadfast with lots of willpower. She never gave up. She kept trying. She don't let herself fall into a state of hopelessness or despair.
Melanie Cavill is the ultimate girlboss and girl's rolemodel, a character beautifully crafted.
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Fics I'm never gonna finish part 17: Team building (pre-Freeze Mel/Ruth)
(pretty sure I posted this somewhere already but I can't find it)
She begrudged that she had been forced to attend. It’s about time you showed your face, Melanie, he had insisted. She hadn’t really had a choice - after the argument about the geneticists, she knew she was on thin ice. She had become too comfortable, as his little protege, and she didn’t want to give him any reason to kick her back down the pecking order. Not this close to departure, anyway.
The team building exercises were a step too far, though. They were distinctly “unWilford”, and Melanie suspected that this whole section of the day had been organised by Hospitality - one final test of their skills. It was an open secret that the Head of Hospitality role was still unassigned, and Joseph had been reticent to make a decision with so many of the potential candidates still unproven. Unlike other departments, Hospitality was largely new or recent hires. Melanie had her own theory about why Wilford had not chosen from his old faithful, a theory that smelled of expensive perfume and high-end spirits.
Whatever the reason, the bodies clad in freshly pressed teal uniforms now milled around the room, encouraging the others to interact. Melanie had no interest in which of her colleagues might have been to Iceland, which had seven siblings, or which watched the most television. Pointless, she mused, sipping the gin martini that had been thrust towards her when they had gathered in the large carriage. She had sequestered herself, half hidden by the billowing white drapery, leaning on a wall towards the rear. She had a good view of the people she would be spending the rest of her life with, but thus far none had tried to bother her.
After a few minutes, Melanie was lost in thought, calculations bouncing around her head, counting down the minutes until she could return to solitude in the engine. She had told her parents that the cocktail party that would end the day would keep her out late, so Alex was staying the night with them. Of course, she had told Joseph that she wouldn’t be at the party because she needed to get home to her daughter. So an evening of uninterrupted work, just as she liked it, awaited her as soon as she could escape from the hell that was team-building.
Someone clearing their throat next to her dragged Melanie back out of her thoughts. A blonde woman, about her own age, was standing beside her wielding a clipboard and looking at her expectantly. Had she spoken? Melanie wasn’t sure. She fumbled around for a few moments, trying to think of a socially acceptable response to a question she didn’t hear.
“Sorry,” was all she came up with, shrugging her shoulders apologetically. “I wasn’t paying attention.”
The woman in teal smiled at her shyly, and Melanie almost thought she could see pink rise up in her cheeks, behind the perfectly applied blusher.
“I just said hi,” the blonde laughed. “Don’t worry, I’m not here to find out your favourite flavour of jelly. I’m Ruth, Ruth Wardell. Hospitality.”
Melanie studied her carefully.
“I can see that. How’s the fight to the death going?” replied Melanie dryly.
“Normally people reply with their name…” Ruth said, raising her eyebrows.
It was Melanie’s turn to blush. She wasn’t used to people not knowing who she was, having been dragged halfway around the world by Joseph.
“Sorry,” she said again. “Melanie Cavill. Head Engineer.”
Ruth couldn’t suppress the laugh that escaped her, pressing her hand over her mouth in embarrassment,
“What?” asked Melanie, slightly offended.
“Sorry it’s just - isn’t Wilford the Head Engineer?” asked Ruth, her brow furrowed.
“Oh, he thinks he is,” came the response.
Melanie didn’t elaborate further, and Ruth couldn’t tell if she was joking.
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🎃 Snowpiercer Halloween Things 🍬
*The Hospitality Halloween Party*
Ruth: Alright everyone! Halloween is upon us and there's still so much to do! Tristan! I need you to finish up all those caramel apples!
Tristan: Y-yes ma'am.
Ruth: Zarah, I need you to light all the candles in the jack-o-lanterns. Use your judgement, if the carving is too scary or inappropriate--leave it dark!
Zarah: Ummm. Ok. Sure.
Ruth: Alright, Sam-
Roche: No, no. You're gonna have to run this one without me.
Ruth: But I have a list--
Roche: You can give it to Till. I'm headed home. My wife and I are taking the kids trick or treating.
Ruth: That's very sweet, but--oh. He's gone. Right then. I suppose I should give this to you.
Till: What's all this?
Ruth: A list of child friendly Halloween movies. Once you finish the decorations, you may choose one to put on. Speaking of--how are the decorations coming?
Till: Oh, well. I'm not really that artsy, so I handed it off to Jinju.
Ruth: Oh no.
Jinju: Don't worry. I've got it all under control. I've got a ton of seashells and sharks teeth that I've painted orange and I'll hang them up with these happy little bats.
Ruth: I'm sorry, 'happy bats'?
Jinju: Yes, I painted little smiles on their faces.
Ruth: May I ask why?
Jinju: It's much more realistic.
Ruth: *eye twitching* Realistic? How is a smiling bat realistic?
Jinju: Because it's Halloween. The holiday where for once bats are celebrated instead of vilified. I should think they'd be 'happy' about that, don't you?
Till: Yeah, babe. Makes total sense.
Ruth: ...I think I'm going to go make sure we've got enough vodka for the punch.
*At the Cavill House*
Melanie: But, sweetheart, we always go trick-or-treating together! Don't you remember the year you went as Amelia Earhart and I was Fred Noonan? Or the year you were Thomas the train and I was the conductor? Or when--
Alex: Yes, of course I do! But Mom, think of it this way--if I tell people I'm an orphan, they'll give me even more candy that we can split later.
Melanie: Oh my gosh that's genius!
*At the Roche Home*
Roche: Now, explain to me why you can't be a princess again this year? It's a classic look.
Carly: Because I'm not four years old anymore, Dad. I want to go as something scary.
Roche: *sighing* I guess it was bound to happen eventually. Alright. Something scary. Yeah, I think I can get behind that.
Carly: Good, 'cause I need you to ask Miss Cavill if I can borrow her Teals.
Roche: *already digging his phone out of his pocket* Okay, I need you to say that again but with a little more feeling. Look at the camera!
*At the Wellstead Residence*
Josie: Now remember, all you have to do is ring the doorbell. And when they open the door, say "Trick-or-Treat".
Miles: I got it, Mom.
Layton: And always go for the Snickers!
Miles: What if they don't have Snickers bars?
Layton: *thinks a moment* Fallback to caramel apple suckers.
Josie: Now, if you start to get cold, I packed some gloves and a scarf into this backpack.
Layton: A backpack? All he needs is the pillowcase and a flashlight. The promise of candy should keep him warm all night long, right Miles?
Miles: It's not a promise though.
Layton: What?
Miles: There's not a guarantee that I'll get any candy. You said I'm supposed to ring the doorbell and shout "trick or treat". It's a choice. They could choose 'trick'.
Layton: I mean, I guess technically...that's true. Maybe. But I've never heard of that happening. I mean, I don't think--I don't think anybody would really choose-
Josie: Ignore him. And take the backpack. If anyone chooses 'trick'...I've packed you some shaving cream and toilet paper.
Layton: What?!
Miles: Thanks, Mom!
Josie: Bring me back a Mars bar!
*The 'other' Halloween Party*
Osweiller: We're throwing a halloween party at our place. It's gonna be the greatest thing ever.
LJ: Someone will die.
Osweiller: Of fun!
LJ: And of murder.
Osweiller: There's gonna be beer, pumpkins...
LJ: Bloody goblins.
Osweiller: Fake ones! It's gonna be awesome. We have decorations.
LJ: Dead people we just murdered.
Osweiller: No, not murdered. Just pictures of dead people from TV or movies.
LJ: Mutilated bodies.
Osweiller: But fake ones. There'll be candy, dancing, tequila. All kinds of food and snacks.
LJ: But you have to bring the snacks yourself because we don't have any money.
Osweiller: ...No, yeah. That time you got it right.
*Bonus: the Wilford Mansion*
Audrey: *on the phone* Joe? What is taking so long?
Wilford: Just hold your horses, my dear, it's surprisingly difficult to find candy for sale on Halloween night.
Audrey: Please hurry.
Wilford: If you're worried about disappointing trick-or-treaters while I'm out, just turn off the light so they'll think you're not home.
Audrey: Oh, I won't disappoint them. I've already given away all of the fruit we had in the house and two of your gold tipped fountain pens...
Wilford: You what?!
Audrey: I thought I could make your cigars last longer by giving them out one by one instead of by the case but--
Wilford: Not my Gurkha cigars?!
Audrey: I told you, I panicked! They all looked so sweet in their little costumes. One little girl even hugged me and told me she loved me. What was I supposed to do, Joe?
Wilford: Well I sure as hell hope you didn't give her the keys to the Porsche.
Audrey:
Wilford: Audrey? Hello? Audrey are you there?! Answer me, woman! Audrey?!
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MelRuth college au if you still take asks
I had more fun with this than I was expecting? I'm not a fan of college AUs really so I just kind of expected that this would be a quick one that I wouldn't enjoy writing...but I kind of liked it a lot, actually. Under the cut <3
P.S this will be two chapters long...I will post the link to the second chap on AO3 when I finish it :)
The engineering students were a loud, odd bunch, Ruth reflected. Any time she was near their group; behind them in the lunch line; in a lecture theatre with them, being in the stands near them at a soccer game. All of them followed the same general archetype—bespectacled, nerdy guys and tanned, sporty girls. Ruth only shared one class with people from engineering—a business class—and quite frankly if she had to spend any more time with them than that, she’d lose it. Ruth preferred her friends in the hotel management course she was doing—they were quiet, bookish, respectable people. They could hold a perfectly nice conversation without going off on wild tangents or making stupid jokes. Ruth was quite happy to spend the last year of college coasting along with the same group of people she’d always known.
Until she met Melanie Cavill.
It was completely unexpected, you understand—Ruth would never willingly spend time with someone from the engineering school—but she hadn’t had much choice in the matter. Melanie had flounced into their shared business class two minutes before it was due to start, and the only spare seat was next to Ruth.
Melanie threw her ratty backpack down underneath the foldout desk, and withdrew a laptop computer that was nearly as roughed up as her bag. “Is it alright if I sit here?” she asked, sounding out of breath. “Normally I turn up earlier.”
“You’ve already sat there, so I don’t know why you’re asking,” Ruth said.
Far from being offended, Melanie actually laughed. “You’re right. Stupid of me, yeah? I’m Melanie Cavill. Don’t think we’ve met.” She held out her hand as if it was the most normal thing in the world. Ruth returned the handshake. She wasn’t an animal, after all. The lecturer stepped up to the lectern, so Melanie didn’t say any more. They both stayed silent for an hour while the lecturer explained something about supply chain management. When the lecturer announced a break for ten minutes, Melanie immediately turned back to Ruth. “So what’s your name then?” she asked.
“Ruth Wardell.”
“What course are y’all doing? I don’t think I’ve ever seen you around.”
Ruth felt herself blushing; she shouldn’t have been ashamed of what she’s studying, but hotel management seemed stupid next to Melanie’s engineering. Ruth told her anyway.
“Damn, hotel management? So what, you want to own a hotel or something?”
Ruth already had a B&B waiting for her back in Kendal, but her father would only pass it down to her on condition she took this course. She wouldn’t tell Melanie this, though. “Yeah, I suppose.”
“That sounds cool,” Melanie said, and she sounded serious. “I’m only here because Wilford wants me to. Have to show up to every class or else he’ll stop paying for my college.”
“What would you rather be doing?” Ruth asked incredulously, but she was kind of interested in the answer. She wasn’t sure who this ‘Wilford’ character was either.
“I don’t know…building things, fixing things, breaking things. Not whatever this is,” she scoffed, throwing her pen onto the desk. “Supply chain management is pretty dry.”
Ruth agreed with that assessment. “You need it to run a successful business,” she said anyway.
“I don’t see the point. I don’t want to do anything like this—if I spend the rest of my life making stuff, I’ll be happy.” Melanie leaned back in her chair, which creaked ominously. “So hotels, huh? That a big ambition of yours?”
“My father owns a hotel back home. I can’t take over unless I do this course.” Ruth had no idea why she was telling Melanie this, but it wasn’t that big a secret anyway.
“Family business?”
“Yeah.”
“My parents have a dirt farm,” Melanie said. “I thought I was gonna spend the rest of my life there, fixing tractors and all that jazz. Until Wilford found me.” The way she said the last sentence sounded guarded, so Ruth didn’t ask who he was. “I like engineering, but I was never a college gal.”
The lecturer called an end to the break and launched into a monologue about their mid-semester test. Melanie whipped out a piece of refill paper and scrawled something on it, passing it to Ruth. Ruth flattened it out on the desk.
A mid semester test? This is the first I’m hearing of it >_>
Ruth fought the urge to laugh. They’d been talking about it for the past month. Either Melanie wasn’t paying attention, or she’d just forgotten.
We’ve been talking about it for a month…
I guess that’s just me, then. There’s no way I’m gonna pass—I haven’t been paying attention at all.
Ruth looked down at Melanie’s messy purple handwriting. She could have just passed the note back with some generic condolence, but something within her made her go a different route.
Study session at my place?
Damn, you serious?
Ruth didn’t write anything more. The lecture ended and everyone stood up to go. “Wait. So you want to have a study session?” Melanie asked.
“I mean…I don’t have anyone else to study with. And you seem like you could use the help.”
“That’s certainly true,” Melanie said, stuffing her laptop into her bag and zipping it closed. “Your place or mine?”
“Probably mine? It might be quieter.” Ruth had picked her dorms for its distance from the campus. It was too far away for convenient access, so the only people who stayed there were part-time students or people who wanted the quiet like she did.
“You’re right. People keep partying at mine all night. If I want to pass this test, I better actually study this time. Here’s my number. Call me,” Melanie said, then she was hustling down the rows of seats and practically sprinting out the door. Ruth slung her bag over her shoulder, making her way out of the lecture theatre at a more sedate pace. What was Melanie thinking, galumphing out of the place like a horse. Ruth looked again at the crumpled piece of paper in her hand, which had a scrawled phone number and a curly M underneath. She stuffed it in her pocket—she’d call later.
Ruth couldn’t help herself—she was a little excited by this prospect. Maybe it was time to find new friends, even if it was going to be Melanie Cavill.
Maybe Ruth’s last year was going to be more eventful than she thought.
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Dear Yuletide Author
Dearest Yuletide author,
Thank you very much for looking at my letter! I am very, very excited for... well, all of it. Yuletide is just about my favourite part of the year.
My actual signup includes lots of things on general likes and dislikes; I won’t repeat them here, just get straight on with the fandom-specific stuff!
Make sure you have fun writing, and I will love it dearly.
1. Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
Nitta Sayuri, Nobu Toshikazu
I’m never going to stop requesting fic for these two. (And probably never going to receive it!) The film overlooks it somewhat but their interactions in the novel were my main source of delight, the curious balance of bickering and respect. Neither character knows much kindness in their life; I like to think they’d find that in each other, sort of kindred spirits.
I’ve requested Sayuri and Nobu because I’d love more of that relationship in any form ( / or & ). That might be Sayuri appreciating Nobu platonically, or even a full romantic relationship (danna AU?), or choosing or accepting Nobu over the Chairman (post-canon AU?) – or not (how does Nobu feel? Angst!) Anything with a focus on the relationship between these two will fill me with glee – as I said before it doesn’t need to have a happy ending, I just want more.
For bonus points, this relationship raises all kinds of issues worth exploring: the value of Sayuri’s ability to make her own choices; the restrictions placed on her by her culture, both within the hanamachi and broader Japanese culture; the way Sayuri pins her life’s ambitions to the idea of the Chairman; the physicality of Nobu, in his eyes and Sayuri’s; the circumstances of Nobu and the Chairman, with the former unattached and interested and the latter married and, to Sayuri, distant and unreachable; not to mention the incongruity of mixing notions of Western romance with another culture. An attachment to Nobu casts all these issues in a different light compared to Sayuri’s attachment to the Chairman. There are many reasons why he might be a better choice – and an active choice too, while she’s been on a trajectory towards the Chairman for many, many years without truly questioning it. Perhaps you might show Sayuri changing, growing like she did in the novel, or maybe you could show the wit, kindness and grudging mutual respect when they interact. Don’t be afraid though, I just want these two to be vaguely affectionate towards one another, even gruffly or distractedly – they both need and deserve it. All the rest is a bonus.
2. Modern Family (TV)
Haley Dunphy, Andy Bailey
This is not my normal sort of request. I’m normally a (period) drama kind of girl.
Before August, I’d never seen an episode of Modern Family. By the end of September I’d seen every one. When nominations came round, I was somewhere around S8/S9 and shipping Haley/Andy pretty hard. I don’t know what I want, but I would like more. Fluffy, funny, romantic, angsty - or all of them? More shenanigans and snatched moments, more tension and chemistry, or some trying to make the relationship work? Perhaps they meet in the future, as proper grownups? Maybe they did get married and/or have a baby instead of Haley marrying a cronut and buying the book for her boss? I honestly don’t know, or mind! Delight me!
Any or all other characters are welcome, and any or all other (canon?) ships. Bonus points for including Phil somehow, he’s my favourite. But obviously optional details are optional.
3. Snowpiercer (TV)
Any character in tag set (Melanie Cavill, Wilford, Miss Audrey)
Go dark, dear writer. Go oh so very dark.
This is just about the only tv show I’ve watched week-by-week in recent years. It’s dark, it’s tense, there’s so much scope for exploring this claustrophobic little world, the high stakes, the power dynamics at the top and the structure of the society further down. I love the science of the train too - I’m not much of a scientist, but the precarious balance of resources, production and requirements.
There are three nominated characters; I am interested in all of them.
For what it’s worth, I haven’t seen the 2013 movie, but I’m likely to fix that.
Wilford makes my skin crawl. What an absolute bastard. If someone pushed him off the train, I would fucking cheer. The cruelty, the calculation, the facade... But that only makes him a more interesting character. Where did he come from? What made him this way? How did he meet Melanie, Miss Audrey, how did those relationships develop?
Melanie’s not perfect but I root for her, although that doesn’t mean she hasn’t got things to atone for - both the first few years on the train, and with regards to her daughter. But although she’s had to make difficult choices, and perhaps lost perspective a few times, she has always acted in the best interests of the train, as far as she can see it. I would like to know what’s going on in her head, or a moment from before the train, or the early years.
I go back and forth on Miss Audrey, but whether I like her or not, she’s certainly interesting. There is clearly a lot to unpack there. She has such a peculiar relationship with Wilford - I’m never sure which one of them holds power over the other - and a seemingly close one with Melanie too. She clearly has a unique skill set and background. Where did she come from? Why has she made the choices she’s made? What has life been like for her on the train?
I don’t really know what I’d be looking for in this fandom. So please, go dark, play. I would be happy for any or all other characters to appear at the writer’s discretion, particularly Layton, Ruth, Miles, Bennett, Javi. There’s nobody I’m not interested in.
Some things in this canon skirt my DNWs around torture and graphic depiction of violence. This is a violent world, I am fine with a violent fic, but I would prefer you avoid depictions of overt gore/torture porn. If you need to allude to something that way out, so be it, but err on the side of caution. I’ll be able to read it, but I think I prefer psychological darkness to anything more... tangible.
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@toxicmalicex sent: [ chin up ]
˜”*°•. Questions . With countless of questions was her mind suffering . Questions to which she had no certain answers to offer - every choice coming with a risk . Working with the enemy that was apparently standing on the same side , a choice that had to be made - for wasn’t it their only chance at warming the Earth ? Their only chance at bringing humanity back on this planet . But the cost was not trivial , it never was . Not when they’d tried to convince Wilford to spot the warm lands , not now that they could create more liveable areas . And she didn’t like this - didn’t like the idea of having strangers onboard, didn’t like having anyone outside. But what were their alternatives ?
Having seen their people live outside … she couldn’t believe it . Couldn’t process it . Alex was alive, she was walking on the Earh she’d once told her that she had no memory of . Wasn’t her duty to give her more of this ? More of the life she’d been robbed of ? And yet , as she was going through her things, the photos on the inside of her closet caught her attention . Left her standing there , seeing them … Alex young, him … And for a moment, she didn’t move, couldn’t take her eyes from those pictures. It was not fair . Having everything taken away was not fair . And maybe she wanted to convince herself it was fine, that the train was more important than feelings, that sacrifices had always been needed but she couldn’t …
She didn’t hear the door open. Didn’t see her come . Her touch , Marisa making her look at her . Emotions of rage and aversion had simmered down , however she couldn’t figure out what she felt . Couldn’t understand whether she wanted to break the contact or hug her, stay with her for a few minutes in search of security, safety . ❝ I am fine . ❞ Was all she said eventually, not daring to make a single move - neither to avoid her nor to approach her . For once, for a couple of minutes or hours, there was no threat lurking in the shadows . They were safe - then why all her mind was telling her was to flee ?
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@toxicmalicex sent: 🔪
˜”*°•. Order . A word so simple , yet its meaning complex. It was order that people needed to survive . It was order that the train needed to keep going . Order order order . But the order was once again creaking under the pressure of greed and power . The body lying soulless on the ground nothing but a horrible indication of that .
❝ It’s the second one in three days . ❞ Came the words simple - gaze not even turning towards the approaching figure . She knew who it was , and as much as she didn’t believe that solving crimes together after their recent argument was the brightest idea, well … they didn’t have options .
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@fclieadeuxx sent: I guess I'm not the forgiving type
˜”*°•. She couldn’t demand forgiveness of the other . She couldn’t force good will nor respect nor love . She’d missed her . After years and years grieving for her lost daughter, her little girl was finally there . Alive , well . Her survival maybe nothing but Wilford’s way of punishing her - but did it matter ? Alexandra was alive . Maybe distrustful , cruel , distant, but at least alive .
❝ I don’t blame you . ❞ Demanding any different kind of treatment would’ve been unfair, after all . She should have looked for her, she should have made sure she was on the train , she should have for once spent a moment being a decent mother . Yet, she hadn’t . And now ? Now she assumed this was the kindest punishment she could receive . But it didn’t mean she was going to stop trying . Fighting for her , for them . It didn’t mean she was going to give up on her . But she couldn’t give up on the train either .
❝ But if we could spend just ten minutes … if we could talk … that would mean a lot . ❞ Ten minutes after so many years of nothingness . How could ten minutes ever be enough ?
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@fclieadeuxx sent: 𝔏𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱 𝔞𝔩𝔴𝔞𝔶𝔰 𝔠𝔞𝔰𝔱𝔰 𝔰𝔥𝔞𝔡𝔬𝔴𝔰
˜”*°•. A utopian world , where peace and happiness prevailed . A fair world , where fear didn’t lurk . Yet , a world that was just that ; utopian . For even though , she’d always wanted to believe that bringing justice and balance could go side by side, experience said otherwise . A train on the verge of derailing every time a part was missing or a class was protesting . The whole humanity depending on how tortured the tail was, how many people were locked in the dorms, how happy the first class was . It’d been a jungle ever since the beginning . And yet , there they were once more ; in the middle of the chaos , seeking desperately for a way to survive. A way that many could perhaps dislike , yet a way that was necessary for the world’s survival .
❝ And yet, it’s our choice to not stay in them for too long . ❞ Shadows had always existed , and would always do indeed . However, even in the darkest of times, she’d seen this train survive , live . So , maybe this world was not too bright maybe the happy moments were not uncountable , they were still not swallowed by the shadows, though . ❝ Hope can be a powerful shield. These people know it well . ❞
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@toxicmalicex sent: 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔠𝔞𝔫 𝔶𝔢𝔩𝔩 𝔞𝔱 𝔪𝔢 𝔩𝔞𝔱𝔢𝔯. 𝔧𝔲𝔰𝔱 𝔩𝔢𝔱 𝔪𝔢 𝔥𝔢𝔩𝔭 𝔶𝔬𝔲.
˜”*°•. Together . After countless of times that they’d threatened each other , put the knife at each other’s throat , working together had sounded like the wisest option . Solving the problems that occurred together, keeping this train alive together . Then, why hadn’t she been informed about the sick car ? Why hadn’t she been aware of whatever illness was currently threatening the entire butcher’s car ? Food was being produced there - important food . And if one walk there had gotten her that sick , she didn’t even want to imagine how bad it was going to get .
❝ You knew , didn’t you ? ❞ Voice that barely escaped her lips . One day off . She’d taken one day off and the world seemed to absolutely collapse. One day that she’d decided to spend in the engine - let Ben rest for once . But then Ruth had called her, told her that people were asking for her, that some problem had occurred in the butcher’s car. And well … seeing sick people throwing up , barely capable of standing up had not been what she’d expected .
❝ Don’t . ❞ She warned holding the mask on her mouth . They couldn’t afford having this illness spread . ❝ We have to quarantine them . No meat till we find a cure. ❞ But would that help ? Who knew how many people had had contact with them since they got the first symptoms . ❝ I saw them this morning . Whatever this is it’s too contagious . ❞ Contagious enough to be destroying her just twelve hours after exposure .
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˜”*°•. Strength . Strength had always been vital in the world they lived in . Survival requiring the biggest sacrifices - one wrong tear and the deadliest threats could emerge . She’d known the feeling . Known how it was to feel tired, exhausted but HAVING to keep moving . How it was to grieve, cry but NEEDING to keep everything and everyone under control . However, this was not the life she wanted for her daughter . Alex deserved a calm life, a good life . So , her lying about her state ? It wasn’t to be looked past. ❝ So, what is that tissue for ? ❞ She asked softly as she took a seat beside her . ❝ You know you can talk to me. ❞
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˜”*°•. Kindly declining mr. Wilford’s invitations had never been an option . So , as much as she’d opted out of this celebration , attending it had been seemingly mandatory . So , there she was ; in a hall abounded with Wilford’s greatest funders that’d be acting all perfect and superior . Seeing them raise glasses of expensive champagne as if they owned the world . However, simply ignoring them and talking with a fellow engineer had of course not been satisfactory enough for Wilford . To meet a woman of great interest had he suggested . And certainly, turning down the offer had been simply impossible .
So , he’d nearly dragged her to the other, even though she’d persistently said that she was having an important conversation . Then with a ‘ two great minds should better be knowing each other ‘, he left leaving the two women in a pit of initial silence . ❝ Melanie . It’s a pleasure to meet you . ❞
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@toxicmalicex sent: 𝔦 𝔡𝔬𝔫'𝔱 𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔫 𝔯𝔢𝔪𝔢𝔪𝔟𝔢𝔯 𝔴𝔥𝔶 𝔴𝔢 𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔯𝔱𝔢𝔡 𝔣𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔤.
˜”*°•. Power . Hadn’t it been power turning them cruel ? That desire for control , for having things done their own way . A common cause that’d still destroyed them, though . Throats at knifepoints , threats spreading across the air . It’d looked like an endless war . One that only death could stop . One that was putting both themselves and humanity into jeopardy . One that she didn’t know how or when they’d really stopped. They were still breathing, though - and so was Snowpiercer . Wasn’t this the only thing that mattered ? Everyone fought for what they thought was right . She’d fought with Wilford, with Marisa, with Layton . it was how they decided to act from that point on that was significant .
❝ Control . ❞ Wilford’s own deepest desire grabbing them by their throats and tossing them into the shadows of a ghost . Save Snowpiercer from a hungry reckless man - but hadn’t they become him in the very end ? Seeking to rule on their own - maybe the salvation of humanity a target that they’d shared, but how many died in the name of this good will ? ❝ It doesn’t matter now but I hadn’t liked you ever since that celebration of Wilford . ❞ Words came more like a joke - a small smile accompanying them . But they were true indeed . This war had started long before they boarded this train .
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˜”*°•. Hand remained stable . Even while the bullet pierced the other’s skin , it didn’t shake , not even briefly . The perfect indication she would pull the trigger again - a clear message she was willing to do everything for the sake of this train . ❝ Do you believe me now ? ❞ Horrible . Horrible atrocities had they both committed. Torturing people, killing innocents - who was to say they couldn’t kill each other too ? Monsters fighting in a jungle, where nothing but injustice, pain and blood prevailed ; had Marisa really thought she’d hesitate using the violence against her ? Bullet in the leg nothing but a friendly warning.
Disagreements . Even before boarding this train , disagreements had dressed their every conversation . Different views, different ways , even while target was perhaps the same . ❝ I am doing this alone . ❞ She wouldn’t interfere. Crown perhaps hers once , but rules changed every day. Hierarchies taken and turned upside down . The choice was hers ; they would either do it peacefully , or she would force her out of this .
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