#I miss them so bad it's only been a week
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—I'm already involved with someone.
—Oh... Well, is she in good health, or do I got to wait it out?
Juliet Rylance and Jen Tullock
as Della Street and Anita St. Pierre
Perry Mason, Season 2 (2023)
#perry mason#perry mason hbo#perrymasonedit#della street#anita st. pierra#della x anita#juliet rylance#jen tullock#wlwedit#wlwgifs#*#~#I miss them so bad it's only been a week#I need a s3 renewal already what's the holdup HBO
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fob @ fanfest recap, post-my living vicariously through people's live updates since i cannot get over my last minute resentful decision of not being able to pull off the (admittedly 650+ total mile) drive 2 philly today and perhaps feeling devastated over having missed
- patrick: "so! i'm patrick and i know nothing about sports" and also just MASSIVELY feeling the show based on all the videos i've seen!?
- pete making a warped comparison (!?! could it get more wavernot4love coded than this)
- joe chant that he successfully heard :]
- i don't care debut of late (finally!!)
- pete being self aware about the tennis new york incident (calling fobbies "monsters" in a vaguely affectionate way... HELP)
- honestly such an expansive setlist for an event like this?? FIFTEEN SONGS!? sixteen candles? fake out? grand theft autumn? headfirst slide? HELLO
- pete doing his saturday thing??? i honestly didn't think that was a thing they did @ these sports event kinda things w shorter sets
- you could really tell they Knew they had hardcore fans there
and man i wish i could have made it but here's to hoping leg 2 comes next year because i will 100% be traveling for multiple shows again <333
#this is quite possibly the biggest “i should have been there” moment wavernot4love has ever had#because i was ALMOST there#to be fair my decision to not do it was based on the fact that my car is not very new#and i have already gone on so many trips this year (most recently JUST driving 2 philly for tourdust camden)#+ still have a couple more coming uo this fall#but regardless i feel like i missed out and i miss them Bad#if only it had been a couple hours closer 2 me or i had been able to find affordable doable public transit#have unfortunately been having a perpetual it's joever moment all day in my room rotting with the shades shut#but it will all be alright in a couple weeks when i see thursday and i'm finally back into the swing of things w my handful of shows#i've got planned for september#also all of them are in my general area except one in toronto and even that is only a three hour drive so that's optimistic#fobposting#fall out boy#fob#patrick stump#pete wentz#joe trohman#i feel like i should be tagging andy but also i didn't see/hear about any particular events specific 2 him
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Watching episode one of Voyager is like watching the first act of a horror movie
#also I completely forgot that Tom Paris was part of the Maquis - and that he was only IN it for like a week before getting caught#Tom saw Janeway action figure posing the second she met him and was like 'fuck I'm not gonna let her be cooler than me'#(she is - effortlessly)#they want him so badly to be a playboy bad guy but he's just...HEHEHE he's SO whatever#Quark what do you MEAN 'cash or credit' ???? do humans HAVE /cash/??? HEHEHEH#Tom saw Harry Kim and IMMEDIATELY is down so bad v_v#It's fun seeing some members of the original crew ~#'see you in a few weeks' OOF...........OOOOUUGHHHHH That hurts.......OOOUGH.#The Harry - Tom - Popular Guys subplot i s sooo highschool its crazy HEHEH#Tom thinks he's like the brooding bad boy but he's the nerdy girl who gets picked on until one day the popular guy says#'hey - leave Tom alone.' and smiles at him afterwards#'the ghost of those 3 dead officers came to me in the middle of the night and taught me the true meaning of christmas'#Harry (not well versed on by now ANCIENT childrens fables): ????what????#Tom Paris: It's a long story Harry and I'm tired of telling it.#Also Tom Paris two seconds later: IT ALL STARTED FRESHMAN YEAR.#I also forgot the Maquis ship went missing first and Starfleet was searching for debris...#how long has T'Pel thought her husband might be straight up dead?? How long has he been undercover? How long since they spoke???#(thinks about people whose loved ones died in episode one...thinks about them hearing that Voyager and some of its crew DID survive but#the person they loved did not - that there was never any chance of them returning)#Janeway's hair is so BRIGHT in this episode#'Harry - wait for me!' <- Tom in one line#I also love the creepy barn party 'don't look in there~! don't look in there~!' Voyager should have leaned way more into horror for REAL#Janeway's eyes widening when she sees Tuvok ~!! <3 she thought he could be dead!!! I wonder if she talked to T'Pel about it#Tuvok: (goes missing) Janeway: Don't worry T'Pel I'll bring him back to you if it's the last thing I d- (goes missing)#Caretaker after snatching up the Maquis: Starfleet has the chance to do something hilarious#Janeway (being stabbed): aa.. ..a!h...hh.. / Harry: (being stabbed) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#Chakotay looking to Tuvok like 'do we trust her?' and Tuvok being like absoluuuuuteeeely <3 go for it <3#Tuvok's voice is different~!!! It's quieter~!! Interesting~!! I love him <3#TUVOK YOU DID /NOT/ GET /CHANGED/ BEFORE MEETING THEM ON THE ARRAY HEHEHHEE#'She wanted to know if she had time to send it...I had to tell her no.' AAAAAAAAA.....AAAA
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#journal dump bc i have too much on my mind#1) i HATE my neighbors. theres never one quiet moment. they stomp around and slam cabinets all the time it feels like#2) i've been reading more recently even if concentration's hard bc of noise. but i also feel like there r too many books i wanna read#but yeah. too little time. so instead i cant settle on a book and kinda dont even read as much as i want to. a stupid problem really#3) it's crazy to say but i wish i had a part time job. sitting at home 24/7 for 5/6 years has been SO terrible for me.#everything feels meaningless. every day is the exact same. im not LIVING. im rotting away and all my issues get worse. im also so fkn bored#and i dont wanna sit at home and do assignments (even if thats what i technically should be doing)#i want a job to go to which takes me away from home + gives me money#then i can come home and sit and rot and ENJOY it. bc now my lazy time is only smth negative and bad for me :/#ofc i hate the mere thought of having some soul sucking utterly pointless job and our capitalist society is a slave hellhole. but.. as it is#im not even able to enjoy ANY of my time bc all my time feels bad. plus im only getting poorer and poorer so i cant afford to buy anything#4) im so fkn bored and going crazy from eating the exact same food every single day for the third month now. im sick of it#everything tastes so bland and disgusting. it's genuinely making me depressed 😭 i wanna eat REAL food. im so tired bc no nutrition :((#i cant do anything except wait for my appt w the doctor next week and hope they put me on a waiting list for surgery.. but ong im sick of it#5) i miss my sisters :/ we live in the same apartment but its like i've completely ceased to exist to them#except when they need to be passive aggressive to me. lol. i miss them. but they just dont wanna talk to me :/#but tbh. most of all... i just want my health issue to be over so my body can function normally again.#i can face anything in life if i can come home to a cup of coffee nd some chocolate ^-^ <333
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just gotta ramble a bit in tags don't mind me :)
#I MISS THEM SO MUCH#we haven't seen each other in like a week and honestly that is a CRIME#I really want to message them#but I'm scared and don't want to come off as too clingy yk??#but at the same time I've been counting down the days until I see him again#(only 2 more left!!!)#I absolutely can't WAIT to see their smile again and hear them talk about their holiday#I want to know every single detail of the time we've spent apart#and I'm SO excited to hug them again#aaaaaaaa#realising I'm in love has Done Things to me#queerplatonic yearning hours#<- gonna use this tag for rambles about them :)#scrolling through the qpp tag and just.... I want it so bad.......#alex rambles
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I hate people with dreams because I wish I could give up mine !!
#this isnt' meant to be a deep post im just screaming into the void#im back in the city and there is just this deep sense of dread and I wish I could call my friends and talk abt it but everyone who would#understand is too busy#I have one fren who I think mite but shes busy#I have one midterm this week and im still scared of my prof even tho ik she means well and I rightfully pissed her off last last week#I want to leave the committee I work for completely#I want to leave this school completely!!#aaaaaaaaaaa#I want to go grad school#I also just look online and I wish I went to a diff school than this one#bc my family does NOT have the money for this school if Id just waited and gone somewhere else I would not be in this much DEBT#ik i was in a tough situation a few yrs ago and HAD to just pick a school + get out#but still#I think just. if my life events hadn't been so shit and bad#if I hadn't been in such a Bad place during and after the pandemic id be at a diff school#one that didn't make me feel so BAD and one that didn't put me in so much debt#some of why im pissed off and anxious is lit my fault#I burned some bridges and hurt ppl and pissed them off!!#but yn when u make a mistake and everyone around u will def define u by it#bc me rn#I just need to leave and not come back#or if I do not come back for a long time#I wish I could pack my shit and do the rest of the sem online#the only thing I'd miss is choir bc I love it#all of my friends (most of) are in choirrrr#its the way choir is the only thing that makes me feel good I hATE everything else
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#i saw the dreamies the other day 🥹 only got the time and the headspace to sit down and talk abt it today so i will#secured my tickets but spent the whole month in utter disbelief that it really was happening :( i think i was thinking that way up until#the concert itself HAHA im not even sure if it’s fully registering also im far too exhausted to feel post con depression#i’ve been on the road for a week now and im just so tired BUT whenever nct dream songs play in my head i rmb the live ver#got a seat so far up/back in the arena but was still content?? i was happy enough to be in the same room with them#and with a thousand others who probably loved them as much as i did#the whole time i was just thinking damn this cant be real but they were there…standing beneath me and performing their asses off#talented ass men#ALSO#i brought a friend who wasnt a kpop fan and she likes mark now#literally checked her phone and saw it flooded with mark vids from the con 😭 i love it#she also likes dive into you and a few more tracks from the hot sauce album#slay#YO HOT SAUCE WAS SO FUCKING FUN#i have a whole video of me vibing to it taken by my friend bc i was just vibing the whole time#i have shit videos im bad at taking videos but i also wont swap better videos for missing out on the experience itself :)#thats all#toff.txt#tds2#DO YOU REALLY WANNA KNOW WHERE I WAS APRIL 29TH?#i was there.
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#i think one thing i really didn't prepare for w overnights is just how fucking lonely it is. like yeah 80% of the reason i took it was to#get away from customers but like. it worked. and the night shift team is v v small. there's only 4 of us and we've never been scheduled all#at once yet. and usually we're running around on completely opposite ends of the building going long periods of time without#radioing each other. and then i come home all amped up and the rest of my house is still asleep. and then when they wake up#it's just to get ready and go and we don't really have time to talk. and by the time they get back i'm sleeping#and it's my first night off and i can't fuck up my whole schedule i worked so hard to switch over to w them flipping me all over the place#so now i'm just like. sitting in the half light trying not to wake anybody up not doing anything. the only places near us open are#gas stations and i can't exactly loiter there and what would i do even if i could. and it's too cold to go for a walk or to the park#or something. and i feel like i haven't talked to another human being about something that wasn't related to work in years#and it's only been a week.#and we can listen to music or podcasts or something but our carts and machines are so loud you miss half of it. and we can't hold#super long conversations when we ARE in the same room for the same reasons. plus we all want to die so none of us feel like talking.#and just. im tired and lonely and want to sleep and im already regretting this but i'd feel bad for backing out now when they have so#few options and i volunteered for it in the first place#and then there's also like. even just doing my usual solitary thing at home feels so much more isolated bc there's not the noises#of other people existing nearby. the nearest signs of life are some coughing and then a car on the other side of the block#just. what am i even doing here.#tag ramble
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#focus who? i dont kno her#its so bad. i csnt focus at all. and ive got way too much to do. take me back to last week where i spent hours reading papers#annoying. also possibly lack of sleep cstching up with me#do u ever get very little sleep and not miss it at all? yea bitch all the time. then i get depressed and its sleepy time#and by sleepy time i mean i get like 8hrs of sleep lol#maybe ill just do nothing and completely fuck over my sunday lol#maybe i should go run up thr mountain rn before im stuck in a car for 2 hrs#bc im getting spikes of being insane. unfortunately i have no emotional object permanence so when i feel crazy its like#ive always felt like this ans its terrible forever. and then immediately afterward im like lol wot? nah im fine. ive always been fine#shout out to mood swings ✌️ like bro im trying to get materials together so i can teach a class. can u shut the fuck up? and focus?#well see how i do today with a ton of socializing. itll b fine. im normal i can b normal#or i can b endearing quirky. or whatever i usually i am. i dont think i have conversations like a normal person but i cant tell bc im not#there for conversations im not in. whatever everyone else has conversations in a way thats boring. i just wanna grill ppl til i understand#how they work. and then feel like im gonna die if im in a group conversation 🙃 let me study thr ppl around me#bc im very normal. god. i promise irl im not that weird. ppl think im nice and cool and successful#ok maybe not cool. but i think i can get away with being interesting. i got at least a lil charisma. im only a bit horribly awkward ;-]#but i try to own it. wtf was i saying. jesus. i cant with my brain rn. i shoulf have gone for a run this morning#being social just makes me anxious so im babbling i guess. but itll b fun. and itll b pretty im sure#maybe ill try to draw my ocs while im not paying attention. ive neglected them for so long 😭#unrelated
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wow it’s been a month since i finally got to see biosphere. lives were changed
#i miss it so bad idk out of all the mark duplass movies i’ve seen since then nothing has really met that level#of quality and creativity and just Enjoyability#the puffy chair Maybe but the vibes of those two movies are so different i cant really compare them#actually why did i say ‘out of all the mark duplass movies i’ve seen’ it’s still only been what. 8#guy who forgot they watched all of the league in under 2 weeks and just registered it as one long movie
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#really struggling with treating myself with any sort of respect right now. let alone the gentle care of my bedtime routine#i thought about putting myself to bed without my adaptive devices so i'd intentionally get a bad night's sleep but it isn't worth it#lmao and i've slept so badly the past two nights anyway i doubt tonight will be different#i really wanted to go dig out a razor but the marks from a month ago are still really obvious and it's gonna be hard enough hiding those#on my stupid fucking trip next week that i DONT want to go on#i'd so much rather spend those two weeks at home sleeping off burnout#but it's a stupid fucking Once In A Lifetime trip that has been something we've wanted to do for a fucking decade#and now that we're both real adults we can finally go but I DONT WANNA#i don't wanna be away from home that long!!! and miss the colors change outside my window!!!#and i don't wanna be away from maple!!! and i don't want my mom in my apartment stinking it up even though she's the best catsitting option#i don't want the disruption to my routine especially after how hellish work has been and how wrecked my routine already is#i dont wanna go spend two weeks so far away from home i can't even take my damn meds with me#and i cant fucking SIT WITH the hurt that the thing i FUCKED UP ON means *i* can't bring my fucking adderall EITHER#i don't even fucking know if A relies on taking it as much as i do#but i can only fucking feel the shame of letting them down!!!#i can't look past it and even begin to feel how MUCH I HATE MYSELF FOR LETTING *MYSELF* DOWN#BECAUSE I FUCKED UP#i just wanna sleep. forever.#i'm just gonna go away#personal#self harm tw
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omg hey hotties 😭😭 im back !
#sooooooooooooo anyways not me dropping off the face of the earth for like the entire summer vwkqmqjdhsowjwjwjenkwhwk#just had to die for a little bit u know....disappear into the abyss and all that#pls look away from all the shit im abt to throw into these tags 😁 unless u want 2 read my cringe oversharing essay for the day 👍#my summer was so silly 😍 ummmmm lets see i lost my fulltime job at the daycare bc the owner very rightfully decided to retire and close#so i was unemployed for the whole summer except for my occasional side jobs and also had to move bc of family shit#so im living w my grandma for the time being and its utterly amazing tbh my grandma and i have a really strong bond and relationship#and i really love getting to come home and see her every day. i decorated her house for halloween a week ago 🎃🎃🎃#and she couldnt stop talking abt how nice everything looked and how glad she was to have me there and i just abt broke down 😭😭😭#i did a complete fucking 180 jobwise im actually training to be a certified fire alarm inspector now LMFAO#i really really like it so far and have like a million stories already abt all the shit ive done/seen so far#im the only girl looking son of a bitch thats working and training in the field out of my entire region of the company so 🤪#literally shoved my dykey nb ass in there and now im fucking it up with the boys heyoooooo#ummm me and one of my best friends started dating bc of a miscommunication (BC OFC WE DID I KNOW I KNOW ITS SO MF GAY)#and our 4 mo anniversary will be on halloween which i think is the swaggiest fag shit in the whole WORLLLDDDDDDDD 😫🎃🖤🧡#my very beloved pet rabbit of over 8 years died quite unexpectedly in august and i was. doing pretty bad for awhile which sucked so so hard#he had multiple health issues and was over 10 yrs old so its hard to say what exactly happened. my gf and gma both pulled me thru that shit#and my besties gave me so much support and love idek what i would have done w/o them. i miss my baby so bad.#ive also had some health issues which sucks absolute BALLS#and recently figured out that the migraine/anti depressant meds ive been on for the last THREE MF YEARS have been fucking up my body lmao#but on the flipside going back 2 the positives i got to have some really incredible experiences/interactions in the past few months#and those were really huge in helping me get my shit together again#i got to take my girlboygirlfriend on little daytrips throughout the summer. i got a second tat🕷🕸❣️ (which my gf designed 😫)#i met girl queen pussy slay miss felicia day AND met the sexiest creature alive harvey guillen and he told me he liked my hair#which im still super duper normal over i can assure u 😁👍 definitely didnt alter my brain chemistry or anything#i saw gods greatest and most valuable gift to this planet on monday (mcr concert)#and had my entire mind body heart and soul so thouroughly fucked up that im still peeing my goddamn pants over it#and of course now its october :) my rotting flesh and sickened brain knows peace once more#bouta go eat up some drawtober posts right the fuck now so prepare yourselves 👁👁 also gonna be making a post on the coc blog soon as well#its already that time of year again mwhahahahahahahahahaha#so yeah 😋 my summer was goofy and silly as hell. i hope u all have been doing okay and im so happy 2 be back pls hmu if u wanna chat !!!
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worst idea ever but what if i did an english major after all
#like a double major. not a switched major#it’s only fifteen credits more that’s totally doable (lying)#personal#the english chronicles#i think MAYBE i could pull it off if i took two english courses this summer which ive been considering anyway (original plan was just#physics over the summer). but if i do that it would probably be best for the second one to be online bc i have to be out of the state for#two weeks and it would already be an accelerated course so missing two weeks would obviously be Bad. hm.#i would still be short 9 credits w the way i have my schedule currently mapped out but i could Possibly slide them in w my internship#semesters… but im not sure that i’d want to do that since i Already have 3 credits snuck in alongside each of those and technically i think#that’s the maxmimun amount we’re supposed to have. but also they specified engineering credits so idk if the same rule applies here#also apparently my fifth year only has 10-11 credits slotted so i could def fit some there. altho if i do the combined masters that will#probably change 😖 ugh#CLEP is also for sure an option but i don’t really want to do that like what is really the point if you’re not discussing w peers…#but it is definitely there it could give me as many as 12 credits#idk. things to think abt when i am not procrastinating on chem hw#but it’s also like what’s even the point like an english major alone w JUST english credits is so. empty. like historical and cultural#knowledge i feel are so important even if they’re not required outside of the english classes. but i DEFINITELY would have no room for those#actually wait fuck i totally forgot abt the capstone. mmmmm whatever this is a problem for another day#either way i’ll probably take english courses this summer bc then even if i just keep the minor i won’t have to worry abt them during my#internship semesters
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Having friends to hang out with on my days off sounds so nice
#trying to make work friends but I’m too awkward and it’s hard#it has only been 3 weeks tho so maybe it’s too early idk#I’m also shy but I’ve been trying to put myself out there more#they’re actually all hanging out this today and tmw downtown but i wasn’t invited :(#hopefully I can make friends soon tho it would be so nice#I’m just gona be by myself this weekend and idk I might do drugs we’ll see#it’s been nice doing shrooms alone in my apartment but I miss doing them with friends#doing drugs with friends is the best#I also wish I had weed#too lazy to go to a dispensary tho and I’m also broke so that’s not happening#.-.#I feel like I’m missing out on doin fun stuff#I’m always by myself now and it’s been so lonely and aldo bad for my mental health
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gahhhhhhhh so much is happening rn i am feeling very overwhelmed heheheheheh 🏄♀️🏄♀️✌
#first of all i have fucking covid#so i cant leave my apartment which is my worst fucking nightmare#esp when its finally getting warm and theres only 2 more weeks of fucking college and i wanna see my frirends#and also theres the fucking mcat#and i dont think ive studied enough#but like wtf am i supposed to do?????? keep studying ??? lmao lmao lol lol#and im so scared im gonna fail it and be fucked#and its a lose lose bc i either study for mcat or for my finals but if i dont pass either one i lose my med school seat#and i havent been to my bio lecture in like 2 weeks#bc ive been doing all this shit for my poetry class#which is almost all done so thank god for that but at the same time i dont want it to be over bc getting to teach poetry workshops#to 4th graders has been the best thing ever and i literally just cried in the shower thinkng abt thier poems and how profound they r#but also i am stressed about drama w a and o#bc i texted a abt our project and also covid and they nvr replied#and i feel bad bc they prob think im talking shit w o#but i feel so stuck in the middle and geuinely sad for a#bc everyone seems to dislike them and i get why but also i just feel really bad when there is drama#like a must be really sad rn and i have spent sm time w them i hope they r doing okay#also also i missed out on the dnd campagin we have been planning for fucking months#so now everyone has bonded w/o me and YES i have fomo and i think that is so valid of me#like r u serious group bonding dnd oneshot that I PLANNED and i have to miss it??????#honey.post
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tumblr is glciting for me on desktop :/
#really bad typo = im on desktop lmao#also like 3/5 this week i had to send out FOUR each of those days 😩#write and schedule them bc im writing these at like 10pm and want to look put together to i have them sent out at 8 am 😭#dude so embarrassing im going to literally contact three of these ppl again#and be like#ik i just asked to pls write me a ref for this new job i literally! just started#but i applied to another one around the same time and now they got back to me#and they kinda align more with what i am want to do and the hours r not so heavy and its closer to my house 😩#and now i have been moved to the next hrirng process sooooo#i need ur help again 😩#hate hate that my state of instability is going to kinda be known to my former bosses/professors who have such a clean image of me#PAIN#i miss being bummed this is so stressful#me literally reintegrating back into society after mentally clocking out last year:#GOD this is so embarrassing my depression episode has consequences#my rory gilmore era if u will#only rory was able to live in he grandma's poolhosue and i had to stay at home and deal with my brother's judgment all three of them#i get paid tomorrow wooooo 😭#^^
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