#I re wrote the text so many times I frustrated myself lmao

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I've been thinking about drawing nomai recently so I drew nomai lmao.

[dephinecormier]

TAG GAME: AO3 #001

I was tagged by the lovely @tales-and-thoughts probably a month ago and am only just getting round to it now because rl is trying to drop kick me into the abyss lmao

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

11

2. What is your total Ao3 word count? 23,931

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

only for marvel (yeah no writing isn’t my first choice as a creative outlet so i haven’t really felt the impulse to write for any other ship and therefore fandom)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? yeah okay read some of these at your own risk, cause it does contain some of my really early works which imo ain’t that great (but yay to improving i guess?)

The War Running Through Our Veins (blackhill, 1.4k, T) She sees the explosive rolling towards her and blue eyes widen. “Everyone get down!” Maria yells as she flips herself over the railing, shielding a fellow agent from the blast and fragments fly into the air, tearing into her flesh

Just Stay Alive, That Would Be Enough (blackhill, 1k, T) Maria’s jaw tightened, as she shifted her gaze to the ceiling taking several deep breaths. “Fine,” she grinded out. “You were reckless, Nat. Running straight into the line of fire!”

holding patterns (blackhill, 4.7k, T) "The Red Room selected the best candidates through genetic screening. My parents were paid off. But my mother, she never stopped looking. I–“ I was wanted, Natasha can’t bring herself to say.

we can just watch the whole world disappear (blackhill, 1k, G) “I’m so tired of this.”

Maria pauses, hand hovering in the air as she looks down at Natasha, realises just how small the woman in front of her truly is without the bravado of the Black Widow mantle behind her. She studies the dark circles under her eyes and wonders how she never saw it before. “Tired of what?” she finally speaks, her question hanging in the air as Natasha meets her eyes, weariness seeping out from her pores.

“Of this, of running, of...of everything,” she whispers, voice cracking before she turns away.

brave face talk so lightly (hide the truth) (blackhill, 5.7k, T) “I dream of it, of dying” Natasha eventually lets herself admit after some time, into the safety of the early morning.

or, the one where Natasha's alive mixed with a casual discussion of death

5. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

most of the time yes! i love comments! but if i don’t it’s usually cause i’m not logged in/don’t have the energy to but i love all the people who comment dearly

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

probably don't bring tomorrow (i'll lose you) as a lovers to enemies bingo fill and also for creative experimentation.

7. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve ever written?

haven’t done one but doesn’t mean i wouldn’t. i think about the few fics of natasha (mcu) and the old guard often and would love to explore that concept

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

nope!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

handful of times but most never published. the regular i guess?

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i don’t really think my fics get popular enough for people to want to steal them??

11. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope! again i’m open to doing it but right now i just don’t have the time to commit

12. What’s your all time favourite ship?

this is pretty obvious it’s blackhill by far. they just haven’t let my muse go and i love both of these characters as individuals and together. i just think there’s so much potential for exploration of their relationship dynamics and i love seeing how other people interpret the meager source text and create something out of it.

13. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

marvel (like i said, blackhill just won’t let me go)

14. What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

hmm i can’t really choose so i’ll cheat and give two instead for varying reasons.

brave face talk so lightly (hide the truth) this fic was written in a space in time between so much anger and frustration at the outcome of endgame. it was also a time where i was trying to re-centre myself while struggling with my relationship with dance and when my insomnia decided to never let me live in peace again and i think a lot of that seeped into this piece. this piece just flowed for me and brought me back to this corner of the fandom as well as back to writing itself.

holding patterns which was never meant to be written. for how this fic flipped my expectations, first by existing, second by stealing the ‘aftercare’ prompt from another pwp fic i was trying my hand at, and third for how deliberate i was with this. there were unspoken challenges i set myself for this 1) to write about a relationship without the usual relationship markers (e.g how does one say ‘i love you’ without actually saying it), 2) to not judge my writing as i was writing (or well, not edit it while writing), 3) to find different pathways when i got stuck and 4) not to break 5k (so i could tell nic “i told you so”) and i think i mostly succeeded.

I tag anyone who wants to do this!

[mykingdomforasong]

Tagged by @capdjarin

My AO3

How many works do you have on AO3?

28

What’s your total AO3 word count?

208,158 (Do you think a depressed person could make this? No)

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

on AO3: 2 - Percy Jackson and Star Wars (just lumping all of Star Wars in here)

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

More Light Than Heat (Din/Luke rated E, complete)

Flyboy (Din/Luke E) (this one is still baffling to me)

Be (Din/Luke E)

At A Glance (Will Solace/Nico Di Angelo T) (this is very old, please do not read it)

Love Me In the Dark (Din/Luke T)

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

Sometimes. Usually just to thank someone for a particularly kind or thoughtful comment, or to respond to something.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

The House of Hades ending rewrite that I did called "The Doors of Death." It is the only fic I have with the "major character death" warning. I don't tend to do angst though.

Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

nope

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not really. I've gotten one angry comment about not updating Once Upon a Pointe (which, let me tell you, did not encourage me to update), and one comment that told me they wouldn't keep reading More Light Than Heat because they didn't like how I depicted the relationship between Anakin and the Clones. Which, like, fine to each their own, but I don't know why you had to let me know about it.

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

lmao yeah. Not sure exactly what "what kind" means here. Lots of m/m stuff, fairly vanilla.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No, but people did use to steal my old Tumblr posts and put them on Instagram and pintrest.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! Flyboy has been translated into Chinese.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope

What’s your all time favorite ship?

It's Percabeth and probably always will be. I will be on my deathbed, and still be thinking about "I'm never going to make this easy for you, Seaweed Brain, get use to it."

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

Once Upon A Pointe. I started re reading it the other day, and realized that I want to basically rewrite the entire thing before moving onto the next chapter, because I just don't think the writing is that good. So that update might be a while.

What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue and creativity. I do think that I come up with some really good ideas for stories. I think I can also be good at editing when I really force myself to do it (like force myself to make cuts to things, or fix scenes). If I had decided to use my creative writing degree for something other than Star Wars porn, I probably would have made a better literary editor than actual writer.

What are your writing weaknesses?

Grammar and spelling because of the dyslexia. But also descriptions, especially during smut scenes; I struggle with describing both the physical and emotional sensations of the moment. I'm working on it though. I also feel like I struggle with characterization, particularly in Star Wars. I tend to make the characters way too soft (which I do prefer to the alternative that some other writers have come up with). I feel like Han and Din in particular are just ... never in character.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

For non-Earth languages like Mando'a - If the pov character doesn't speak the language being spoken (a la Luke hearing Mando'a in MLTH), then I'm fine with the language being there. But if the pov character speaks the language, please just write the dialogue in the language the fic is in. Do not have huge blocks of text of Din and Boba speaking Mando'a and leave the translations in the notes.

I do feel differently about this if it is a real human language. Like if you want to include dialogue in Spanish, for example, it might still frustrate me as a non-Spanish speaker, but I will eventually remember that I am not the center of the universe.

But if it's a fake space language, just put it in English or translate it in the text if the POV character understands what is being said.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

There was one fandom before Percy Jackson, but you have to be a level 30 friend to know what that was.

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Probably More Light Than Heat, just because I've never finished something like that before. It's for sure the one I'm most proud of. But I do think Illusions of Someday and Painted Blind are underrated