#I spent money on Harry too - too much to see his concert in 2017

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Hey bestie. So I’m sorry if asking about H is annoying to you, you should totally not answer this if talking abt him makes u uncomfortable. But I value your opinion, even though I don’t agree w how harsh you can b on him(I understand it tho- to an extent. Kind of.)

I was wondering, do you think he was ever a really REALLY good person? Thing is - I joined the fandom this year in April. I joined cus of Larry Since they looked cute as fuck on a post I saw and that led to watching all those vids, streaming 1d, streaming their solos, etc. I was never fully sold on Larry once I started seeing the antis points tho- and I unlarried last month, thank god. I’m a louie now (w a sprinkle of Ziall), that man is the loml. But before I became a fan(and mind you I’ve never been in fandom this deep unless we count fictional stuff) - I always had this specific eh vibe from Harry, partly bc Of the fact that he’s besties w the karjenner klan(Kendall mostly), and I do not trust anyone who’s super close w them. Same way I don’t trust the hadids, many really huge celebs, etc. Not bc they’re plastic or rich cus mf I’d get surgery and buy a mansion too, just bc they’re SO out of touch w reality nd EVERY person who meets these huge celebs at events says they’re stuck up egotistical trash(not Taylor tho, never Tay).

But beside that- when I originally read articles abt Harry the homewrecker womanizer(even back in 2018 when I tried stanning/researching him but I just didn’t like his songs or 1Ds, I do now tho) I thought “ew…he’s a typical cheating rockstar,” and yet the articles were hyping him up which made me go ??? I know most ppl glorify this whole image of celebs being better than normal ppl in the vainest emptiest least significant ways,, but I never have so that’s why I couldn’t relate. Which is why the harries (and literally all stans) just made me roll my eyes.

Also his fans scared me off for years in the sense that they’re so - weird? Like why y’all SO obsessed w him? Why do y’all make such a big deal abt something as vain and unimportant as his fashion? Ofc some ppl are gonna think it’s weird to dress that way- and he shouldn’t be bullied for it but it’s clothes and he prolly don’t care abt that criticism. So why spend hours defending it? Why attack ppl who don’t think he looks sexy? Don’t make sense to me tbh. He’s not 18 yk, he won’t cry if some dudebros think he’s gay bc of dressing camp. Not that gay is an insult in any way- but u get what I mean. Hell the fact that his fans are so againts ppl calling him gay is weird to me but I get why they’d get mad at larries, cus we all know some overstep. I know the last point and being defensive over H is something that’s happened since 1D. And as far as important things abt him such as his honor, his image, the way he and the boys were treated by salmon/ psyco/mngmnt go; I completely understand getting defensive over it. I completely get him being ppls sex idol- cus I was 14 and into heartthrobs once too. Sex sells, unfortunately. But I just didn’t get why Harry fans are not only intense(in the way directioners were/are) but just downright mean to everyone else in the name of stanning someone who I think lost his SUPERDUPER stanable qualities after live on tour.

I actually like harrys music- golden is my jam. Fine line and others hit too. I love his voice- it’s powerful and he sounds great live (I did attend his concert in oct, kinda a 300$ regret now but aye I like his songs and it was fun so whatever), but I just don’t get WHY they Stan him so hard. I get why they did in the 1D years. I get why ppl still Stan Louis complex Tomlinson and zayn deep thinker Malik; as well as Niall unproblematic Horan(liams eh too I just don’t care for him), but after 2017 I don’t rlly get the Harry hype… does that make sense? I do think he was a person worth defending to this extent in 2010-2017,, especially 2010-2015. He just radiated loml energy those years- seemed like such a kind radiant human. I’m emotionally attached to all of the during those years even tho I wasn’t there- I can see why this fandom was so huge. I still ship 2010-2015 Larry and I honestly always will- even tho I’ll never know the full story- they just seem so compatible to me during those years. So pure and in love. And sings like ready to run and iicf, through the dark, and happily enforce that for me personally. But I wouldn’t truly know bc I wasn’t here for that. I’ve done my research but I’ve never talked to a veteran.

Do ppl today just Stan him cus he has dimples and beautiful eyes and curls and abs? Or cus of how humble and pure he seemingly once was? Or is it the charisma/music? Cus I don’t think charisma and music alone would make for such hardcore stans. Especially new stans. Cus harrys got the most hardcore stans next to t swift and BTS. The reason I and others Stan/ stanned one dead is cus the fandom feels like home. These boys felt like the most genuine real and sweet thing to ever happen to the industry- and no matter what I could never hate H. But I just don’t get what ppl see these days. Cus IMO nothing abt him feels that homey and connected anymore. His fandom doesn’t feel like a family outside of concerts to me(and in some the concerts ppl still throwing hands and bringing weird ‘fvck me daddy’ or Larry signs so💀that says something). He’s still a great entertainer and impecable on stage but paying 300+ dollars to see someone’s personality and actually b part of the fandom is kinda odd to me. What do you think? Ty for your service on this blog btw <3 And sorry for my long ass question and backstory xx

Hi,

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People like me have been in the fandom too long, so it’s always good to have a different perspective!

Part of the reason I’m so hard on Harry might be because of what you said— he had so much promise in 1D, could have chosen to be a good person, he shone as a performer and he said so much warm and fuzzy shit, like, “'All five of you should be on the same page and the closest things to each other because around all five of you there are gonna be people that are gonna come and try to snatch you. People are gonna try to break you guys apart. So as long as you five are your best friends, that's the most important.’” Harry had lots of fandom support; he could have tried to bend industry to be SLIGHTLY better to audiences and SLIGHTLY better to future performers. But instead he chose to be one of the usual, “More for me. See you losers later.” That’s Harry’s general attitude toward anyone who can’t help him, really, including his peers. He said a lot of stuff but lives his life in an entirely opposite way: me me me me me.

I used to have a spark of hope that the Harry we see today wasn’t really him; any day now, Harry would show his true colors and be the compassionate, thoughtful person he seemed to be in 1D. But eventually, I realized that this is the real him— adult Harry, the one who values ONLY fame/wealth/connections, that’s the version that won.

(And because of this, I really can’t see any value in Harry’s music. George W. Bush probably is an okay artist, you know? I’m still not going to look at his art. Besides, I think Harry’s music is derivative and stolen.)

So to your other question— why do people like Harry so much? Why are Harries/ Larries so fanatical about him?

Either they like this narcissistic version — and many Harries actually do— or they are horny for him (fics contribute), or they have an imaginary Harry Styles in their heads that they don’t want to give up.

The last point is probably most salient to many fans (new and old). People want to believe in goodness, kindness, magic.

Some people have invested many years in being a fan. Some can’t give up their 1D memories. Many people share fandom friendships that are an integral part of their lives, and these would have to be broken — and it’s too hard. They’d rather pretend that Harry Styles is a good person than give up this part of their lives. Harry fills an emotional space, whether or not he’s actually good.

It’s delusional fantasy-making on a massive, collective scale, and the amount of money involved is staggering. I mean, the word “cult” isn’t far-fetched. People in a cult are to be studied, but also to be pitied. No matter how much they crave approval, the cult leader really doesn’t see them as individuals, only as pawns— sources of power and money. That’s how I see it. I’m sorry you had to spend money on Harry, but at least you realized.

Now a question for you. Why did you choose Louis? You could have chosen Zayn or Niall or just walked away from the fandom.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #218

“give me liberty or death. ... ah, fuck it, just give me death.”

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What colors have you dyed your hair, if any? Black, purple, and red. What is your gender and sexual orientation? Female and bisexual. Have you been to an escape room? Was it a success? No, but they seem REALLY fun. Ever performed on stage? Was it scary or amazing or both? Yeah, many times for dance. It was really neither for me. Have you ever recorded a cover of a song? No. Have you tried the Beyond or Impossible burger? Thoughts? No, but I want to, especially as I plan on returning to vegetarianism at one point. When was the last time you ate your all-time favorite candy? Oh wow, months. When was the last time you made friends with old enemies? Some time last year, Rachel and I reconnected. She's cool as hell now. When was the last time you took time to pray? It's been a long time. I don't believe it does anything. What is a movie that you heard about recently that you do NOT want to see? Is that "Cats" movie real or was the trailer a fever dream???? What do you do during long trips in the car? I just blare music. Best kind of music to dance to? And the worst kind of music to dance to? I really love "different" songs that warrant a modern sort of dance style. It was my favorite when I took dance, and it's by far my favorite to watch. Worst, I guess like, screamo. How would you dance???? Last candy you tried that you did not enjoy? Or one that you did enjoy? Oh my god. So I tried that new Reese's doughnut from Krispy Kreme today, and it. Was. Repulsive. A candy I actually liked, idk. I rarely ever have treats anymore. Were you a chubby or thin baby? I was normal. Have you ever not given a tip at a restaurant? Why didn’t you? N/A, y'all know my money situation. What is the most outrageous thing you’ve considered doing lately? Okay, I'll admit I at least briefly pondered the possibility of getting a nipple pierced after an eternity of saying I never would lmao. I'm not, tho. Have you ever known somebody who ran away? Most likely. What are your thoughts on Batman? I think it's cool he has that policy of never killing anyone, and he also doesn't have any actual powers, does he? I don't remember. The whole Batman universe (or comics for that matter) is one I don't really connect to anymore, as it was Jason's obsession, so it's a dangerous topic for me. When I say Dr. Seuss, what is the first thing that comes to mind? Green Eggs and Ham. I loooved that book as a kid. Rollercoasters that go upside down… yes please or no thank you? Hell to the motherfuckin no thanks. Is there a certain place or store you especially hate going to? Grocery stores. What was the last animal/pet that you met? There was a BEAUTIFUL standard poodle Mom and I briefly interacted with at the pet store a week or so back. Is there something in particular you always seem to forget? Straighten the shower curtain after I get out so it dries properly. When was the last time you had to wait in line for longer than a few minutes? *shrugs* Have you ever written a review for a product you bought online? No. What was the last board game you played? I think it was all the way back when Sara, Girt, and I played Scrabble.

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Niall's GA Show - Review? (more like me being up Niall's ass)

As promised, MY NIALL SHOW REVIEW! (again not really a review, more of just me praising Niall and his holyness)

Okay so first, some background: I’ve seen Niall live before. I went to his ATL Flicker Sessions show last year and it was so fucking amazing that literally the next day after I bought tickets to see him again, which was today. I spent a considerable amount of money on the tickets, more than I liked to admit at the time of buying them but by now I don’t really give a shit because I hardly ever spend money on myself anyways.

It was a little weird, the difference, because last year my friend, Raelen (I’ve also had a crush on her for a yeah shhh don’t tell her) and I had to sit outside for six hours before the doors opened to secure good seats, whereas as this show the seats were already verified. So anyway I got home from college (I had class today and my campus is an hour away and I was also getting a test grade back today and I wasn’t too confident and I didn’t want to to deter my mood, but I got a good grade and it was great) at like 16:00 and we live an hour away from the venue (we live an hour away from everything okay) so I was like “so mom when do you want to leave?” and she was like “ah 18:00 I guess” (she didn’t say 18:00 she said 6 o'clock but I like the 24-hr clock more so I use it) and I was over here expecting to have to leave as soon as I got home so I was like “…..oh. okay then” and spent the next two hours wasting away my time and getting ready to leave. 

Okay so we left and I, of course, knowing my mom would know 0.1% of the songs, decided to play his CD in the car (preserve that phone battery life bro) and was telling her like “yeah he covers Dancing in the Dark by Bruce Springsteen and possibly Life in the Fast Lane by The Eagles” and she grew up in the 70s and 80s so I knew that would cheer her up a little (she was already looking forward to the show but I wanted to hype her more). Anyway so we get there at like 19:00 and I’m over here like “if I fucking miss Maren Morris I’m gonna be so pissed” bUT thankfully we got parking that was right next to the venue and the lines were super efficient so we got in at like 19:15 so we decided to get merch (by we I mean I because I always get at least a shirt at every concert I go to) and then food and STRANGELY ENOUGH the merch line was faster than the food line lololol i mean it makes sense but at my Harry show the merch line was like 454871875 hours long (jk they were efficient too but it felt like longer I guess). So I got my shirt and my keychain and my tour program and a wristband (because again, i always at least get a shirt and i didnt have the keychain yet and i would’ve got a poster but im running out of fucking room and i didnt want 178178578027 posters of 1d (not kidding i have like 70 all around my room from the calendars from past years and double sided ones hanging from my ceiling and two big ones and a poster of 2011 1d memes my niece made for me christmas 2013 and all past concert tickets and two black light posters, with a single poster from my jacksepticeye show earlier this year (not important but still) and one from niall’s tour, and also because it was basically just his album cover and i have a cd version of his album and i didnt want two of the same thing ok (i really didnt need to go into detail about it but i have all the space in the world on these things so YOU’RE WELCOME (sorry i lub u)).

I actually realized right after I paid that I should’ve gotten a second wristband because last year i got two (i was really only gonna get one but i had a friend who was like “hey im going to harry’s show (in 2017) ill get you a shirt if you get me a shirt and wristband from niall’s show” so i did but like a WEEK before the show she moved and after the concert i was never able to get into contact with her again :/ but it worked out because i ended up wearing my first wristband so much that it’s literally on the verge of breaking (i literally never took it off. like ever.) so now i have the backup) and i wanted another two because they were NAVY this time when last year they were BLACK so CHANGE. so when my mom was in like for food i was like “k there’s another merch line over here and its much shorter im gonna go get another wristband” so i DID (also i just got home and these new wristbands are so much more durable than the last year ones, the bead on the black ones move sooo easily when when they’re brand new and i tried to put on one of the navy blue ones tonight when i got home and i almost got a cramp trying to move the bead. so GOOD it won’t fall off easily and will last longer but geez whenever i have to shower its gonna be a pain in the ass getting it off.)

I haven’t even gotten to the show yet jesus but okay ONE MORE STORY BEFORE MAREN COMES ON. Okay so it was like 19:35 at this point and we were still in line for food and i was like “okay its okay if i miss the first part of maren’s first song it’s fine” because we could still hear her and they had screens up at the concessions so i could see it so that was :) but anyways there was this girl and her mom behind me and like right before maren went on they were talking about how they thought the show started at 19:00 because that’s what it said on the tickets so they got there at like 18:15 and the mom was like “ive been to 40 shows and none of the artists have ever been on time !1!” and i turned around and, being the intellectual i am, said (nicely by the way) “the email said the parking opened at 15:00, the doors at 16:00, Maren comes on at 19:40, and Niall at 21:00” and she was like “ooooOOOHHHH” it was so funny. 

Okay so I missed Maren coming on so we got our food and went back to our seats and I was in this spot where there were these vip seats right in front of us (literally all of them had old people in them. deadass. i think it was because those seats were sponsored by this hospital and i think most of them worked at that particular hospital and got seats for free or whatever. (i also got a little annoyed because my dad AND my sister work at that same frucking hospital so if they really got in for free and i could’ve done that because TWO OF MY FUCKING FAMILY MEMBERS WORK THERE I WOULD BE PISSED. no jk because i want to support niall so ill pay the money, its more worth it when you do i think. haha but i was still lost about it) but thankfully i was sitting in this spot right where the entrance of this particular vip section was so NO ONE was sitting in front of me but this girl next to me, this poor ass girl (she was like 14 id say) she literally had to switch seats with her father because she couldn’t see maren and then someone else came and sat RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER and she looked so sad :(( i mean not sad enough for me to give up my good ass seat for it, but i felt bad anyways. i leaned over and was like “hey when niall comes on stand up because i know they won’t and you’ll be able to see” and she did so i felt kind of helpful :)

anyways, so maren starts and she starts playing this one song (i cant fucking remember which one it was okay i dont know maren’s songs too well) but there was this sheet at the back that had lights going across on it (it was covering the NH lights) and when the song started it showed a rainbow and obviously, being a Gay Demon ™, i was like PRIDE FLAG YUS so i took a picture. i also felt twinning to it because i wore a shirt with troye lyrics on it “if im losing a piece of me than maybe i dont want heaven: and it had a half puzzle piece on it and the shirt was black but the words and puzzle piece were the PRIDE COLOURS TOO SO I FELT REPRESENTED (btw im that person who said i wear a shirt signifying the next person im going to see in concert. yeah.) also during like the last two songs there was this man standing on the side of the stage and i dont think it was niall because obviously other people would’ve screamed at seeing him but i still took a picture because i thought it was funny. (why when guys are waiting around do they all stand the same way? with hands in front or back pockets? like why)

so Maren finishes and gets off and my mom’s like “i cant sit for too long so lets go walk around a little” and she also had to use the bathroom so we went over and i sat at this table while she peed and checked my notifs or whatever and then SUDDENLU the crowd screams so im over here like “wtf what happened is he out what” so my mom comes out and we walk back and i ask the girl next to me what happened she was like “oh they just took the sheet down” lololol wow. i mean i prob would’ve screamed if i was there too but still.

okay so we chill out and then like 20:50 rolls around ( heard The Chain at some point in there and posted on snapchat about narry because im a narrie whatup) and i start getting excited butterflies in my tummy so that was fun. i was counting down the seconds to see if he came out on time and i was watching all the people give each other thumbs up to each other and i was READY for the lights to go out and i even told my mom “they lights are gonna go off and you’re gonna be deafened, by prepared” and obviously that happened. so i stood up and so did the girl next to me (my mom didn’t and, thankfully, the vip people didn’t either) and he started and FUCK. i barely even remember the first few songs because i was so in shock. anyway i take pictures and videos as usual and he’s SO GOOD AND BEAUTIFUL I LUB HIM SO MUCH. 

okay so the bruce cover comes up and most of the time im watching the people in front of me actually get kind of partially involved with like singing along (they were still sitting) and they seemed a bit surprised they he did it so well BUT another thing with bruce’s song, when Niall introduced it this guy behind me fucking BOOED and i was so confused like “what dude what what did he do? he’s just covering a song” but i just think the dude didnt initially like the song, like the song itself, but at the end of the cover he didn’t boo (he might’ve gotten told off by the people around him but id like to believe it was because he loved the cover and niall so yeah).

anyways we move on and i record all of niall’s speaking parts because i want to remember them ofc.  seeing blind was so energetic because maren came back out, i was a little disappointed she wasnt able to make niall laugh when theyre looking at each other at that one part but eh its okay i still loved it.  then he gets to flicker and okay: story time.

he says not to record flicker (as usual, but it seems he saw some people with them still out and was like “u guys dont want to give em up huh” sjfduzh) but, being a sly bitch i record just a little little little bit of the start (like 20 seconds) but then when i went to put my phone away i GUESS my first missed the button to stop recording so it KEPT RECORDING FROM INSIDE MY PURSE and i havent watch it yet but its literally probably gonna be 90% of muffled singing and darkness shgdkgd fuck. note to self: when niall tells you to do something, FUCKING DO IT. no but it was funny. also about flicker: niall has his fucking audience WHIPPED like no one else had their phone out that i could see and i felt like such a rebel. he probably looked at my phone and was like “this fucking bitch” lololo NIALL I STILL LOVE YOU. 

so the show goes on and he does fools gold and we sing and i think we did okay i mean who knows, he didn’t laugh at us but i think he was trying to hold it in NIALL WE’RE NOT ALL SINGERS OKAY WE CANT ALL BE GREAT LIKE YOU. 

he starts Too Much To Ask and have i ever mentioned how much i LOVE his range? like how the flying fuck can he go from the softest fucking voice in the world to, in a deep raspy voice “waiting here for someone” like fuck me pink niall im gay but jesus (its kind of like that girl that auditioned for x-factor who did a duet BY HERSELF?????) 

so next is to long and he does his whole like “if u know it sing, if you dont please dont because you know how bad it sounds when like three people in a car try to sing a song they dont know and then does this cute little mumbling thing (have i mentioned i lub him?) and then he’s like “just kidding do whatever you want!” and im over here like belting out all the lyrics and everyone around was probably like “shut this fucking bitch up christ" 

next we have since we’re alone and fire away and i love them and they’re great but then he gets to finally free and im like “okay, so some people say this song isnt as good live” hint hint you “but i think it’ll be good!” and he tells about how we should see the movie because its really good and because his song is in it and RESAL UR A LIAR THIS SONG IS FUCKING AMAZING LIVE (like i dont like it was on setlist at the time of your show so you’ve only seen it live in videos so i dont blame you) and i kind of accidentally recording the entire song. i didnt mean to do it, i normally stop a recording at a point where it seems fitting to stop in the song but this one was ???? so good???? i just couldn’t stop.

okay so on my own happens and the crowd is fucking CRAZY and IM CRAZY and HE’S CRAZY we’re all CRAZY and its so good. so after he goes off stage people keep cheering for the encore, obviously, and i could actually physically feel my ears hurting because of the screaming :/// i already have a little bit of tinnitus at the ripe age of 17 so thats fun ! but then he comes back with life in the fast lane and DAMN HES SUCH A HOE DURING THIS SONG. this is another song that gets the people in front of me and im like “yes fall in love with him u asshats” haha and my mom told me this was the only song she knew all the words to so that was good. 

okay so after that he plays drag me down and BEING COMPLETELY HONEST I FORGOT HE PLAYED THIS SONG SHDGNIF i even was like “whens he gonna get the yellow guitar out” because he only plays dmd with that guitar but i fucking forgot it was THAT SONG HE PLAYED WITH IT DAMN IM A FUCKING IDIOT. but dmd was so good and energetic and i loved it soo much like he just needs to be a rock artist. like i love his folky and poppy music but rock songs are like a DIFFERENT LEVEL.

next is slow hands and again, WHAT A FUCKING HOEEEEE he is during this song. i sing my ass off during this song and if he hip thrusted i FUCKING MISSED IT BECAUSE I WAS SO INTO SINGING I HAD MY EYES CLOSED FOR HALF THE SONG FKUC.

and last but not least is mirrors which, fun fact, was actually my favourite song before the album officially came out. it was so fun and energetic and i loved it and i loved him he was so good i almost started crying but i didnt its okay.

OKAY NOW FOR SOME HONORABLE MENTIONS (??? kind of i mean not really, more of just some random stuff here and there)

he’s so funny??? like i dont think people give him enough credit for how funny he is. like he wasnt even telling jokes and half the time i was laughing my ass off because of just the way he interacts with his band and some of the shit he says like BE A STANDUP COMEDIAN AT SOME POINT NIALL.

okay so there were these two/three girls behind us (i think they were like 13) and they were so loud. like its not a bad thing, i know im loud and i sing loud and everyone around me hates me probably be i feel like these girls screamed at such bad times :// like during every pause in flicker they would start screaming and like i get it, you’re proud and love his voice but please, not during flicker. they would also randomly yell out “I LOVE YOU NIALL” and again, i do too, but sometimes it wasnt fitting. each person fans in whatever way they want or whatever, but i knew my mom was getting annoyed with it ://

one of my favourite things to do was watch as the people in front of me progressively get more and more involved and by the end i think they fell in love with niall (as they should). but seriously, they did sit the time yeah, but throughout the start of the show they were literally just on their phones and not really paying attention, and by the end, they were bobbing their heads around and i saw some of them recording videos and taking pictures a certain points like yes niall, get people of all ages to love you, get em sweetie.

okay so my mom sat down for every song except for one and i dont even know why she did (i think she was stretching her legs) but like, my mom is super tall. she’s like 5'9 (which is tall for people in my family, all us kids at like 5'3-5'5 and my dad is 5'10 or 5'11) and was also wearing like thick flipflops and i KNEW the girls behind us were pissed. like they didnt say anything but they were super short (being only 13 and all) and behind this tall lady asnvdbhd i think that’s why she sat back down lol. 

I LOVE NIALL’S BAND SO MUCH! I hope it doesn’t come out at some point that one of them is dumb and petty like clare turned out to be because they’re all so talented and i love them (actually on the ride home my mom was talking about where they’re all from and i was like “yeah theyre all from england and ireland” and she was like “but she introduced one of them as being from the US” and i was like ????? i could’ve sworn they were all from england and ireland and then i realized i didnt know where alex is from and im like 90 percent sure hes from england but FUCK SHE GOT ME ALL CONFUSED NOW (okay i looked it up and it said hes london based so i think that means from england? idk thanks mom) 

i dont think my mom know niall had a song with a swear word in it (too much to ask obviously) and of course its her least favourite one (ironically because i say fuck all the time, evidently, just not around her) and when that part came up i was like “oh fuck what do i sing do i not sing at all can she hear me fuck should i say messed will he say messed i dont think hell say messed okay ill sing along and say fucked” i literally had an entire existential crisis in like two seconds. she didnt say anything though so i dont think she heard me, or she just decided not to care.

one thing that bothered me is PEOPLE CANT JUST FUCKING SIT AND WATCH THE WHOLE SHOW CAN THEY? like you know how when you go to the cinema and see like an animated movie or something (cant relate havent been to the cinema since dp2) and theres always ONE KID that has to go to the bathroom in the middle of the movie and theyre always in the middle of the row youre sitting in so they have to walk in front of you? yeah, think of that, but instead of kids (who’s bladders are understandably smaller and they get restless easier), its only ADULTS every FIVE MINUTES passing you to do whatever the FUCK LIKE GUYS COME ON. and also sooo many people were leaving early and so many people were just walking around all the time (i was on the first row, behind vip, behind the lower walkway so i could see all these people walking and it was so distracting.) and yeah i get it, sometimes you have to leave early or get up for whatever reason, but it just felt like the entire venue was constantly walking around and i REALLY wanted niall to do like 1d did and call them out like “wtf u think ur doing leaving early get the fuck back here” but whatever.

i recorded so much stuff and i dont want to go through all the videos and pictures and cry and realize how shit they are because i wasnt close enough to get like super good shots and stuff zoomed in never looks too good anyway but hopefully theres a few salvagable.

i love the lights. they’re beautiful and so thematic depending on the song. 

my cheeks hurt from screaming and singing.

so do my feet. do not wear boots that are bad on the heel when youre gonna be standing for a few hours.

there was this bar in front of me for the vip section and sometimes to take the ease off my feet id put one foot up on it and whenever i did i felt like niall when he stands on his amps at the front of the stage. 

HE DIDNT DO THE FLYING EAGLE JUMP THING (thats what i call it by the way) OR IF HE DID I HAD MY EYES CLOSED FOR IT BUT EVEN STILL, IF HE DIDN’T NIALL THANK GOD FOR YOUR KNEES BUT BITCH! I WANTED TO SEE IT LIVEEEEE JUST LIKE THE HIP THRUSTS!!! 

same with my harry show, i realized just how much i close my eyes during the show. like i probably missed so much shit because i wasnt even watching the stage. my eyes were closed literally half the time because i always do that when i sing. bitch if i missed the hip thrust and flying eagle because i was singing im gonna staple my fucking eyes open next time.

okay so at this point the show is over and we’re driving home and my mom likes all of 1d’s early stuff and trust me, i love it too, but she always insists to listen to wmyb and lwwy and all the early singles and she wont even give the later stuff a chance :/ she deadass thought they had three albums sdnvdjbhd. but we listened to 1d on the way home and i told her how they have a song called diana (the name of my aunt) and a song called olivia (the name i ALMOST had but didnt because its not three syllables (all my siblings and i have names that ended in the “a” sound and are three syllables I WAS ONE SYLLABLE OFF)) but u know whats funny? Boston (an american rock band) has a song called Amanda, my name. who have I seen play at this particular amphitheater, TWICE? Boston. And they played this song BOTH TIMES. I DONT BELIEVE IN COINCIDENCES (I do but i just think its funny). 

also technically boston was my first concert because i saw them like a month before i saw 1d in 2014 but i dont consider it to be because 1) that show was for my dad, not me and 2) i dont have the tickets. after a show i always pin my concert tickets to the wall (so far i have 1d, a dunkirk tickey bc why not (i would have the 1d tiu ticket from when i saw it in theatres but i lost it before i got the idea to put it up :/), niall from last year, my jacksepticeye show, harry from this year (soon, i still need to print it out lol) and then niall will go up again, and then troye, and then ajr

okay i think i rambled enough, you probably dont have eyes anymore and (as evident by my ask earlier that you responded to) you cant read too goodly so im gonna go and give ur eyes a rest, but ill probably send in an ask with anything i feel like i forgot. 

i love niall, he’s so good and funny and entertaining and he’s also draining my wallet but its fiiiiiiiine i dont need money anyway for anything else, right??? 

- Amanda (potatomustaches)

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1 - 200 I WANNA KNOOOW 😊💕

Took all day, but she answered mine so I’ll answer her’s ❤️

200: My crush’s name is: Shawn Mendes ofc


199: I was born in: Wisconsin, USA. Date: Aug 26


198: I am really: Passionate about music, caring, and shy until I get to know you


197: My cellphone company is: Sprint


196: My eye color is: Brown (sometimes hazel or green, but usually brown)


195: My shoe size is: Depends on the shoe. I range from 6 to 8.5


194: My ring size is: 6


193: My height is: 5'1" (yeah ik I’m short but I like my height lol)


192: I am allergic to: idk, but I have seasonal allergies


191: My 1st car was: Haven’t gotten it yet


190: My 1st job was: babysit I guess (if that counts)


189: Last book you read: Sherlock Holmes


188: My bed is: a futon at my dad’s and a normal bed (? lol) at my mom’s. They’re both comfy


187: My pet(s): 1 dog, his name is Koby


186: My best friend: Is amazing and I love her so much. She’s helped me through a lot. 


185: My favorite shampoo is: Head and Shoulders


184: Xbox or ps3: Xbox
183: Piggy banks are: Cool. I still have one and I just emptied it for the Shawn Mendes concert lol


182: In my pockets: don’t have pockets on my pants rn


181: On my calendar: School events, vacations, college stuff, and weddings.


180: Marriage is: beautiful when you see two people absolutely in love with each other


179: Spongebob can: give me a crabby patty. Seriously. I’ve been waiting since I was 5
 

178: My mom: Annoys me sometimes, we don’t agree on certain things, but I still love her. 


177: The last three songs I bought were: Havana by Camila Cabello, Kiwi by Harry Styles, and It’s a Vibe by 2 Chainz


176: Last YouTube video watched: makeup videos lol


175: How many cousins do you have?: 9


174: Do you have any siblings?: 2 younger brothers


173: Are your parents divorced?: yes.


172: Are you taller than your mom?: We’re the same height by she argues that she’s taller


171: Do you play an instrument?: Clarinet, violin, piano, ukulele, and guitar 


170: What did you do yesterday?: spent all day with my school’s marching band and ended up looking like neopolitan ice cream because i got so burnt


[ I Believe In ] 

169: Love at first sight: idk


168: Luck: yes


167: Fate: yes


166: Yourself: YES OFC


165: Aliens: yes


164: Heaven: yes more or less


163: Hell: yes more or less


162: God: yes more or less


161: Horoscopes: idk, I occasionally read mine


160: Soul mates: idk


159: Ghosts: yes


158: Gay Marriage: YES 🏳️‍🌈


157: War: fuck no


156: Orbs: maybe? Idk what they are


155: Magic: idk


[ This or That ]

154: Hugs or Kisses: depends. Hugs i guess


153: Drunk or High: neither. You can have fun without alcohol or drugs


152: Phone or Online: both


151: Redheads or Black haired: both


150: Blondes or Brunettes: both. Honestly hair color doesn’t matter


149: Hot or cold: both


148: Summer or winter: summer but like winter is beautiful too (i just don’t like shoveling)


147: Autumn or Spring: both


146: Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate


145: Night or Day: both lol

 
144: Oranges or Apples: apples wellllll oranges no both (IM SORRY FOR BEING INDECISIVE)


143: Curly or Straight hair: curly


142: McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds


141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate:both


140: Mac or PC: Mac


139: Flip flops or high heels: Flip flops for everyday wear and heels for events


138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor


137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke


136: Hillary or Obama: OBAMA!!!


135: Buried or cremated: idk


134: Singing or Dancing: both


133: Coach or Chanel: Coach


132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: idk


131: Small town or Big city: Both


130: Wal-Mart or Target: i like both but I shop at walmart more


129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Adam Sandler


128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicure


127: East Coast or West Coast: hard choice


126: Your Birthday or Christmas: hmm


125: Chocolate or Flowers: which ever


124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney only because I’ve never been to six flags


123: Yankees or Red Sox: Red sox


[ Here’s What I Think About ]

122: War: I think it is dumb. Fighting over cultural difference shouldn’t happen instead it differences should be embraced. Who knows how many different wars there will be in my future let alone my future children’s.


121: George Bush: I honestly don’t have one


120: Gay Marriage: Everyone should be able to marry whomever they love. Why does it have to be voted on whether they can get married or not? Just let them live, be loved, and be happy.


119: The presidential election: It amazes me how he was elected. I am team Hillary. I have my opinions and you have yours. I respect that, but I’d rather not share mine.


118: Abortion: It is 2017, almost 2018, and women still don’t have control of their own bodies. I’m pro-choice. Abortion should be given as a choice to women. My mom had an abortion before she had me because she was really ill.


117: MySpace: haha never used it so don’t have an opinion about it


116: Reality TV: yeah it can be fun to watch but honestly what’s the point? Everyone’s own lives are hectic too


115: Parents: Some are great, some are bad. Some are controlling, some don’t care enough.


114: Back stabbers: I’ve dealt with many of you, but it’s your fault that you lost out on a great friend. Hated you guys for a while because I thought we were good friends, but I’m thankful toxic people like you are out of my life.


113: Ebay: is the shit. I got a crap ton of barbie clothes for my dolls when I was younger from there. Haven’t gone on there for a while tho


112: Facebook: the go-to app for when parents are around. That’s the only most censored app I have that I go on when they’re around


111: Work: wish I had one because all of my friends are making money, but once I get one I’ll wish I didn’t have a job so I can have more free time. It’s not like my parents will let me get a job anyways.


110: My Neighbors: Never really talk to any of my neighbors at my dads or my moms. Pretty sure they get annoyed with how loud I play my music


109: Gas Prices: i remember when it costed $5 or $6 a gallon. Please stay at $2.35 


108: Designer Clothes: hella cool but also hella expensive. Thankful for cute cheap stores because I’m about to be a broke college student


107: College: thankful for the opportunity to get a higher education, but it’s always super expensive. If more jobs require a degree, why can’t we just make it more efficient to get a degree with less money? But that’s also too much to ask for


106: Sports: I like watching it and playing it is also fun. 


105: My family: My parents divorced had me go through shit mentally and physically. (no they didn’t abuse me, their divorce was just difficult) I hope one day you two will stop acting like children and not beat down the other parent when we spend the night at your house. But I know it won’t ever end. I’m thankful my younger brothers won’t remember your divorce and they’re what keeps me going.

104: The future: I can’t wait to see what you hold. I can’t wait to go to college. I can’t wait to go into my career choice. I can’t wait to meet that special person. I can’t wait to start a family. I’m just excited for you
[ Last time I ]

103: Hugged someone: An hour ago when I put my brothers to sleep

102: Last time you ate: idk 2-3 hours ago


101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in a while: a year ago


100: Cried in front of someone: yesterday


99: Went to a movie theater: 2 years ago


98: Took a vacation: idk if you count it, but my school trip this past spring 


97: Swam in a pool: 2 years ago


96: Changed a diaper: 4 years ago


95: Got my nails done: I think I was 7? Idk I do my nail myself now


94: Went to a wedding: 12 years ago


93: Broke a bone: never broke a bone


92: Got a piercing: I got my ears pierced before I turned 1 and I got my nose pierced on my birthday last year


91: Broke the law: idk
90: Texted: like 5 min ago


[ MISC ]

89: Who makes you laugh the most: my brothers or my best friend Kate


88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: Brothers or my doggo


87: The last movie I saw: Boss baby


86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: going to college, interning, and getting a job in my career (Ik it’s 3 things but I’m excited lol)


85: The thing i’m not looking forward to: Moving away from loved ones


84: People call me: Mia


83: The most difficult thing to do is: Forgive someone who hurt you badly. Like truly forgive them 


82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never gotten a speeding ticket


81: My zodiac sign is: Virgo


80: The first person i talked to today was: My dad


79: First time you had a crush: 5 or 6 and it was on Zac Efron


78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: idk, maybee my best friend


77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Yesterday 


76: Right now I am talking to: my internet besties ❤️


75: What are you going to do when you grow up: something in the music industry


74: I have/will get a job: whenever my parents let me


73: Tomorrow: I will get up early, ride on a bus for 3 hours, and march in a parade


72: Today: I cut my hair short AND I FUCKING LOVE IT


71: Next Summer: I will try to spend as much time with my bestfriend before we leave for different colleges


70: Next Weekend: I get to spend with my best friend


69: I have these pets: Beagle- Eskimo cross


68: The worst sound in the world: whining when they don’t get what they want or smacking gum


67: The person that makes me cry the most is: honestly whoever cries in front of me I will cry with them


66: People that make you happy: Family, my dog, and my friends


65: Last time I cried: yesterday


64: My friends are: honest and caring


63: My computer is: an old macbook pro but it still works and I love it


62: My School: is full of fake people and drama


61: My Car: Don’t have one


60: I lose all respect for people who: lie, cheat, and treat people like they are less than them


59: The movie I cried at was: I can’t remember but I think TFIOS


58: Your hair color is: brown


57: TV shows you watch: Shadowhunters, Raven’s Home, Jane the virgin, Riverdale, and others I can’t remember


56: Favorite web site: Tumblr or twitter


55: Your dream vacation: big city in new york with my best friend or toronto with my grand parents/aunts


54: The worst pain I was ever in was: during my parents divorce 


53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium rare


52: My room is: boring, cozy, and a little bit messy


51: My favorite celebrity is: Shawn Mendes, duh


50: Where would you like to be: Somewhere where I can say “I finally made it"


49: Do you want children: Yes!! I can’t wait to have kids


48: Ever been in love: I don’t think so


47: Who’s your best friend: Some beautiful, crazy, weird girl named Kate i guess (let’s see if she reads this later)


46: More guy friends or girl friends: I have more girl friends than I do guys, but I wish I had more guy friends


45: One thing that makes you feel great is: music


44: One person that you wish you could see right now: My grandpa


43: Do you have a 5 year plan: I guess yeah, but it’s very loosely planned


42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: no


41: Have you pre-named your children: thought of names, but not planned them lol


40: Last person I got mad at: idk


39: I would like to move to: Cali, New york, by my grand parent in canada, and where I am now


38: I wish I was a professional: something in music


[ My Favorites ]

37: Candy: Sour gummy worms or cinnamon bears


36: Vehicle: Jeep
 or Range Rover

35: President: OBAMA


34: State visited: Illinois or Florida


33: Cell Phone provider: Sprint


32: Athlete: Jose Bautista 


31: Actor: Rupert Grint


30: Actress: Zendaya, Lucy Hale, or Emma Watson

29: Singer: Shawn Mendes or Selena Gomez


28: Band: R5 or 5SOS


27: Clothing store: Ross or American Eagle 


26: Grocery store: Walmart


25: TV show: Shadowhunters 


24: Movie: HARRY POTTER SERIES


23: Website: Again, tumblr or twitter


22: Animal: doggies or dolphins


21: Theme park: no clue


20: Holiday: christmas


19: Sport to watch: Baseball


18: Sport to play: Baseball or volleyball 


17: Magazine: Vogue


16: Book: The Mortal Instruments Series


15: Day of the week: Friday


14: Beach: Clear water in FL


13: Concert attended: Illuminate tour (on Aug 6th, 2017)


12: Thing to cook: Pasta anything


11: Food: chicken alfredo or pasta anything or anything really I’m not picky
 

10: Restaurant: Chinese restaurants 
 

9: Radio station: idk
 

8: Yankee candle scent: idk lol that pumpkin one??
 

7: Perfume: Signature by Shawn Mendes or Bombshell by VS
 

6: Flower: Pink hibiscus 
 

5: Color: aqua
 

4: Talk show host: Ellen Degeneres
 

3: Comedian: Jo Koy, Kevin Hart, or Gabriel Iglesias
 

2: Dog breed: honestly any breed
 

1: Did you answer all these truthfully?: of course 💕

[dyingstarsinyoursky]

So it seems I’m going to see Louis @ Pryzm in February wtf

The tickets went on sale at 11am. I had class at 11am. I was hoping I’d already be sitting down in class when the tickets went up for sale, but I was still walking, though i was very very close to the building where i had classes. So I was just in the street refreshing the page like crazy. So the moment it went for sale I clicked to get just the tickets (cause I already have the CD, and I have no use for an LP), and it was like “yeah bitch it’s sold out lmao”, so I was like “I guess i’ll try ticket + CD since it’s just £4 more”, so now I’m have 2 copies of the CD apparently?!

I was so focused on buying the ticket that I climbed one more flight of stairs than I needed. I had classes on the 2nd floor, but when I looked up to look for the classroom number they were all 3.something which means 3rd floor, so I had to go back down. I entered the classroom with phone in one hand with the confirmation i got the ticket on screen and my credit card on my other hand (cause I don’t have my credit card info saved on my phone... call me paranoid lmao)

They must have released the tickets in small batches cause I checked just a bit later there were tickets on their own available. Oh well... still don’t regret the extra £4. The tickets weren’t expensive. It’s gonna cost me way more to get there I’m sure lmao. Why are trains in the UK so expensive?

I’m honestly surprised how far up Louis’s ass I am?!?! Any other artist that I already had tickets for their tour that announced a sooner date for an acoustic performance, I’d be like “cool” and not even consider going?!?

I mean I almost didn’t went to see Harry for the second time in 2018, cause I had seen him 6 months before in 2017 touring the same album. It took seeing videos of the 2018 leg of the tour to convince me (i think hearing him sing IICF was what did it for me) and I bought tickets like 3 weeks before the concert. I’m so glad I went to both concerts, but it took some convincing for me to decide to go again (tbf I was much poorer back then, when the tickets for the 2018 part of the tour went for sale I just moved to new country, with no job and had been living off my saving for MONTHS, my bank account was draining FAST, by the time I finally bought the tickets I had found a part time job, and uni had just given me a one-time scholarship money for my good grades in high school)

Even Niall, I only decided to see him, after I’ve listened to his album on repeat so many times that I was like “wtf are you doing not seeing him live?” Of course by then it was too late to get London tickets so I had to see him in Brighton. Also had to cut my easter holiday back home in Portugal short to come to the UK earlier to see him. Went to Brighton straight from the airport. It was an amazing concert and I’m so happy I went, but also not an impulsive buy the moment it went for sale

When I went to see Harry for the second time, I met people who were going to both of his London concerts one day after the other, and my poor ass was so confused, why would you pay twice the money to see the same show one day after the other?

I truly only understood when I went to see the Spice Girls and the moment I left the stadium I was like “oh man i wish I could see them again tomorrow!!!” (i couldn’t cause one those were the most expensive concert ticket i’ve ever bought, I couldn’t afford 2 of them, and two i was flying back to portugal the next day to attend a baptism) 

But Louis?! I bought tickets to both his london dates?! One when the pre sale happened and the other the moment the tickets went for sale?! I just bought them? It helped that the tickets weren’t that expensive... but still.... I ended up buying another ticket for one the dates at a higher price to get a seated ticket (and sold my other ticket for that date)... now I impulse bought the tickets to see see himat the Pryzm. No regrets, but I’m literally seeing him twice in march?!?! But my ass doesn’t want to miss an acoustic performance if I had the chance? My ass can’t wait for march apparently?!

For Louis I make all these impulse decision buys right away?! The money I’ve spent on him?!?! The concerts?! The merch?!?! It doesn’t make sense to the person I usually am. 

The merch lmao... I bought the hoodie... the polaroid with all the coloured cassettes...i want the hat at some point... i now about to have 2 copies of the CD... louis will drain my bank account and I’ll feel happy for it.

I can’t even regret it.

[13thfloornz]

Last night’s concert at Spark Arena found Harry Styles caught between two paths; that of the tween-pop that made his name in One Direction and the more classic-soft-rock-inspired path of his first solo outing, with the performer himself seemingly uncertain as to where between these two he wanted to be.

The result was an intriguing performance that left a picture of an artist finding his footing, not quite delivering fully on either path, but still effortlessly bringing joy to a sold-out arena on the biggest night of his Australia/New Zealand tour just by showing up and opening his mouth.

The opening act was Tasmanian singer-songwriter Maddy Jane, joined by a three-piece band. I thoroughly enjoyed her brand of bouncy garage rock, which borrows more than a little from fellow Australian Courtney Barnett, both in musical style and her openly accented vocal delivery. She was a surprising choice of opener for the tour, though her set was met with incredible enthusiasm and even some early phones-in-the-air moments from the audience.

Speaking of the audience, I have never seen a concert crowd so dominated by one gender and age group before (female, 12-25, in case you needed telling.) Looking out over the entire floor of Spark Arena was almost a surreal view. While it may not have been much different from the view at One Direction’s 2013 show in the same venue, signs pointed to a different approach on the performer’s part. Following the rocking opening act, the songs played over the speakers in the long wait included cuts by The Kinks, The Beatles, and several other “classic” artists. The stage setup was minimal by superstar standards, and undecorated beyond the musical equipment.

For the first few songs Styles appeared to be purposefully restraining the gimmicky boy-band charm, standing still at the microphone in his plain black outfit, an electric guitar around his neck, singing with an expression of furrowed seriousness. His initial greetings were even fairly calm, playing it cool to an audience who repaid him with unconditional hype anyway. This disconnect vanished when he shed the hollow-body guitar, which he seemed almost uncomfortable holding, and stepped into full boy-band-star mode, working the crowd with rehearsed showmanship (complete with blown kisses and “is there anybody out theres).

He certainly has a strong live voice, though interestingly it was noticeably weaker on the two One Direction cuts he played, Stockholm Syndrome and What Makes You Beautiful. It was nice to hear some roughness however, particularly in the sickly-sweet latter hit, where he didn’t even try to hit the high-reaching melody. Musically the set bounced along on chugging electric guitars, picked acoustics, and some great rock-solid drumming, courtesy of drummer Sarah Jones.

With relatively concise pop songs, Styles spent as much time talking to the audience as he did singing, repeating over and over his gratefulness and his desire for all of us to “have fun” to never-diminishing squeals. Despite this, the set still ran well short of an hour and a half – as he reminded everyone in another bout of nice-guy thankfulness, “I’ve only got ten songs”. These were fleshed out with two One Direction tunes, an Ariana Grande song he co-wrote, and a surprisingly fitting cover of Fleetwood Mac’s The Chain. Set closer Sign Of The Times was the inevitable highlight, for its deeply satisfying melodic grandiosity.

This is the singer’s first solo tour, so it is certainly interesting to see him find his footing and struggle with carving out a more mature musical identity, while still remaining firmly anchored to the twee pop tropes that have earned him his fans. Personally I wasn’t entirely convinced by the mid-ground result this time around. The more obvious of the 70’s-rock-inspired pieces were delivered slightly too poppy to sound genuine, while the straight-up bubblegum pop bangers lost much of their impact from their ‘mature’ reworkings.

But let’s be honest, Harry Styles didn’t really have to do much, did he? Maybe in ten years he’ll have to work hard musically to retain the sort of reaction he received last night. But in 2017, 90% of the audience who had actually dished out the money for tickets were convinced before a note of music was played, simply by his presence. When the lights dimmed, the audience gave the loudest collective scream I’ve ever heard. There was little he could have done, besides totally sucking (which he certainly did not), to lessen their adoration. So, regardless of the thoughts of one of the few non-fans in attendance, isn’t that a success?

Ruben Mita.

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  Setlist:

Ever Since New York

Two Ghosts

Carolina

Sweet Creature

Only Angel

Woman

Meet Me In The Hallway

Just A Little Bit Of Your Heart (Ariana Grande cover)

Stockholm Syndrome (One Direction song)

What Makes You Beautiful (One Direction song)

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The Chain (Fleetwood Mac cover)

Sign Of The Times

Harry Styles – Spark Arena December 2, 2017 Last night’s concert at Spark Arena found Harry Styles caught between two paths; that of the tween-pop that made his name in One Direction and the more classic-soft-rock-inspired path of his first solo outing, with the performer himself seemingly uncertain as to where between these two he wanted to be.

[prettyinlimegreenboots]

Stories of Our Lives, Chapter 4

A/N: This is part four!! What do you think so far??? What about Gia and Louis' relationship? Let me know what you think!! Any feedback is fantastic!

Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters and settings are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. No money is being made from this work. No copyright infringement is intended.

December 22, 2017

She took the train back to London. Her time off started the morning she arrived. After dropping her bags off at her flat, she headed to the O2 arena to meet up with Louis. Her boyfriend and his bandmates were headlining the annual holiday concert benefiting various children’s charities.

Pulling into the parking lot, she dialed his number while maneuvering her car into a space.  “Hey Popstar, I just got here and parking. Where do I go?”

“Just follow the side of the building until you come to the back of the arena. I’ll send our security guard, Paul to meet you.” He said out of breath. “Hey Gia?”

Hearing the loud roar, she looked to her left to see girls standing behind barricades with signs professing their love for the boys. “Yeah Tomlinson?”

“I’m really glad you’re here. The boys are angry at me.” He confessed.

Laughing loudly, she found herself at the back of the arena. “Why are they angry at you?”

“Because I’ve been bouncing around all morning singing Christmas songs at the top of my lungs.” He chuckled.

She took a moment to envision that actually happening. “Did anyone get footage?”

“Ugh . . . Harry might have and Niall too.” He smiled. “They knew you’d want to see what kind of dork your boyfriend is.”

Seeing a door open and a tall, bulky man step out, she smiled. “I think Paul has spotted me. See you in a bit.”

Disconnecting the call, she grinned at the man. “Are you the infamous Paul I’ve heard so much about?”

“Yes I am. Are you Gia or otherwise known as Pain-In-The-Butt Number One’s girlfriend?” Paul asked reaching out to give the girl a hug.

Feeling the warmth of his hug, she nodded. “That I am. I apologize for anything he has done in my absence.”

“Oh you can stay around. I’m going to like having you around,” Paul said happily holding open the door for her. “He was dancing around like an idiot singing Christmas tunes this morning. I blame Harry for bringing him coffee.”

Rolling her eyes, she giggled. “I’m sorry.”

“Oh it’s how he always is. We tend to roll with it.” Paul paused. “I will say that I’ve never seen that boy happier than when he came back from seeing you. Those five boys are like sons to me and all I ask is that you don’t hurt him.”

She smiled and nodded. “Louis and I have had many conversations about this. Our careers are similar in the fact that that we are so busy during the day but we are both committed to making this work.”

“That’s all I ask.” Paul chuckled, Gia following him through the maze of hallways. “When Louis told us about you being a bombardier, this isn’t what I envisioned.”

She wasn’t surprised to hear those words tumble out of his mouth. Most people were surprised to see how tiny she was when they learned of her career choice. “And what did you envision exactly?”

“I’m not too sure but definitely not this little 5’3 girl with such a big personality.” He chuckled as she mocked glare in his direction.

Stopping outside the boys’ dressing room she stomped her foot. “Dammit I’m 5’4 ½  . . . get it right!”

“Uh oh someone questioned Giovanna's height!” She heard Louis exclaim as the dressing room was thrown open. Her face lit up with a smile seeing her boyfriend standing in front of her. He was dressed in jeans with a navy blue baseball tee.

He reached forward and pulled her into a bone crushing hug lifting her off the floor before she could say a word. “You are a sight for sore eyes pretty girl. How was your trip back?”

“Good, no hiccups. Train was more crowded due to the holidays.” She smiled. “You have crazy fans outside all ready . . . it’s really cold out. They’re nuts!”

“They’re passionate and dedicated . . . not nuts!” He grinned before leaning down and kissing her. Her arms rounded around his neck as he deepened the kiss.

“Geez don’t eat her face off Tommo before we get the opportunity to meet her.” An unfamiliar voice cheekily said behind them.

Pulling back, a blush crept over her cheeks, the three unfamiliar boys grinning at the couple. “I was just telling her hello.”

“Uh huh . . . that the new way of exchanging hellos?” One of the boys joked as she moved closer to Louis for protection.

Louis looked at her with a smile. “And now you’re embarrassing her. Babe, these three lunatics are my best friends. Liam, he’s the normal one; Niall is Irish; and Harry is the weird one. Guys, this is Giovanna or Gia.”

“It’s very nice to meet you Gia. Lou hasn’t shut up about you for the past two weeks,” Liam started. “We are all pretty impressed by you.”

She smiled already liking the boys. “It’s just a hunk of metal I stare at everyday.” Louis laughed at her description of the bomber.

“Hunk of Metal? The bombers are amazing!” Niall exclaimed, causing her to jump at the volume of his voices.

“And for you to be the lead engineer . . . you must have some incredible stories,” Harry added.

Louis chuckled at his friends essentially fangirling at his girlfriend’s job. “Just wait until you’re standing in front of one or even flying one.”

“You can fly them too?” She had to laugh at the boys' excitement. Turning to her boyfriend, she motioned to the other three. “What exactly did you tell them?”

“Just that you worked on the bombers and you did a fair amount of traveling with your job.” He smirked. “Worried I talked you up too much to the boys?”

Her eyes went widened with realization. “No but I didn’t know how much you told them.”

Gia spent the following 45 minutes answer questions the boys threw at her. Louis had the biggest grin on his face watching his girlfriend gush about the ‘hunk of metal’ as she called it. Somehow he fell more in love with her as she sat and talked about her passion.

The boys all disappeared from the room. Gia smiled at her boyfriend brightly. “Hi.”

“Hi love. I’m glad you’re here.” Louis said standing from the couch. “I’ve got some other people I want you to meet if you’re up for it.”

Nodding, she took his hand allowing him to pull her from the couch and leading her from the room. “It’s like a small army back here with the number of people.”

“This isn’t anything yet. Just wait until right before show time.” He paused. “That’s when things get really crazy.”

Gia’s eyes widened as they walked through the corridors. “How do you know what you need to do at all the time? I mean, with the production and craziness of this, is it insane to be constantly on time with everything?"

“Paul . . . he’s our ‘dad’ on tour and he legit tells us when and where we need to be.” Louis paused at a door. “I’m going to apologize now for anything that may be said in here.”

She was confused. “It’s catering . . . what’s the worst that’ll happen?”

“It’s not what will happen; it’s who is behind these doors that will reveal stuff, awful stuff.” Louis, a shiver ran down his back thinking about the possibilities, pushing open the door.

Louis led her into the room that held several tables, more than a few filled with people eating. He led her over to a table where three women were sitting with a couple of younger children eating cupcakes. “Well there he is. We were wondering when you were going to show up. The rest of the boys were in here earlier.”

“I was spending some time with this girl.” He grinned looking over at her. “This is Gia. Gia, that’s my mum, Jay, my sisters Lottie, Fizzy, Daisy and Phoebe; and Harry’s mum, Anne and his sister Gemma.”

Feeling the nerves kick in, she could have killed Louis for not giving her proper warning about meeting his mum and sisters. Suddenly, she felt the need to impress the one woman who sealed her fate with Louis. “We’ve heard nothing but great things from Louis. He’s a tough nut to crack about you, dearie.”

“Louis wouldn’t stop talking about you as well. It’s very nice to meet you.” Being pulled into a hug, Gia couldn’t wipe the smile off her face at Louis’ mum's words.

Watching his mum and girlfriend interact, the knot of nerves in Louis' stomach disappeared. He was nervous for Gia to meet his family but he knew if he told Gia about it beforehand, she would be impossible with nerves.

“Louis didn’t tell me you all were going to be here,” Gia said knocking him out of his thoughts.

All eyes turned to him as he held up his hands. “I think I hear the boys calling for sound check.”

“Chicken!” Gia yelled after him as she turned back to the strong female influence.  “So where were we?”

Jay looked at her son’s girlfriend with a smile. “Louis didn’t tell us much about you. How about you fill in the gaps?”

“Well . . . not sure what he told you but I’m with the British Army as a bombardier. I live primarily up in Hampshire but have a flat in London. I love the theatre and autumn nights.” She paused. “Anything you want to know? I’m a pretty open book.”

Anne smiled liking the girl already. “What about family? Do you have any siblings?”

“I have three older brothers and a younger sister. My parents have been married 37 years and are still in love as the day they got married.” Gia laughed. “There hasn’t been a calm day since the twins were born.”

Gemma laughed. “I sense there was never a dull day in your house growing up.”

“Calm houses are overrated.” Gia laughed. “The only calm days were when my parents would send the boys to summer camp leaving just me and my sister at home.”

The women fell into an easy conversation, Jay trading stories of when Louis was a child. By the time the boys returned, Gia had an arsenal of stories to embarrass her love with.

“What are we discussing here, ladies? How to knit tea towels?” Harry asked taking a seat next to his mum with a cheeky grin.

Anne swatted her son as he laughed. “No . . . just filling poor Gia in on the craziness of One Direction. Jay has been swapping baby stories of Louis though so I’d be careful not to make her angry.”

“Mum!” Louis’ cheeks turned a nice rosy pink at the mention of baby stories. “You’re supposed to wait until a few months in for those to come out.”

"I'm sure my family will bring out the baby stories if you ever meet them." Gia smirked watching her boyfriend perk up at the thought.

He cocked an eyebrow in her direction. "If I ever meet them?"

"Oh you know just in case another man comes along to tickle my fancy." Gia teased.

"Like me madam?" Harry slide up besides her with a grin on his face.

Giving him an uninterested look, Gia shook her head. "I don't mess around with boys who go through way too many girls to count. No thank you!"

"Oh you are staying - I don't care what Louis says. You're part of the family!" Gemma exclaimed causing Gia to grin. "Any girl that calls my brother out like that is ace in my book!"

Louis pulled her closer kissing her forehead. "What are you sucking up for Popstar? Guilty of something?"

The women around the table burst into giggles at the little five foot four and a half inches girl who had just put two of the biggest pop stars in their place.

"No no I ugh ..." Louis stutter causing the ladies to fall to giggles again.

Gia saluted in his direction. "That's what I thought Tomlinson."

Louis sighed in defeat. "I'm sorry Damsel. What can I do to make it up to you?"

"That's a loaded question. You sure you want to give me that power Pookie?" Gia smirked.

Louis' eyes went wide at the nickname. "I thought we agreed on no more nicknames, Soldier!"

"That was you agreeing and me just nodding my head but my fingers were crossed so it voided the agreement." Gia bit her lip, fighting a smile from appearing on her face.

Shaking his head, Louis mumbled under his breath. "Women!"

"What was that darling baby boy?" Jay asked grinning at her son.

Throwing his arms up, Louis shook his head at the females in his life. "I can't win!!"

"Better to learn that now than five years down the line!"

The women laughed causing Harry and Louis to shake their heads. Women - can't live with them; can't live without them.

7:45pm

Standing out in the hallway was the first moment Gia had to herself. The afternoon had been spent hanging out with everyone, them getting to know her and vice versa. By the time the boys left to get ready for the concert, Gia had gained three new brothers and five new sisters in Louis' sisters and Gemma.

She also had the pleasure of meeting the other One Direction girlfriends. Scarlett was with Harry and managed to keep the cheeky lad in check. She was a Physical Therapist at the local hospital and had been dating Harry the past year and a half.

Niall had Tricia, the childhood friend he finally coughed up the guts to ask out in 2014. Gia found out through Louis that Niall would be asking her to marry him in the upcoming weeks. She was a photographer for the local paper and wasn't found without her camera swung around her neck. Tricia had a four-year old daughter, Mollie Anne, from a previous relationship who Niall came to love as his own too.

And Liam - dear, dear Liam had gotten back together with Danielle in 2015. They were engaged and planning their wedding for the upcoming year.

Smiling at the hustle and bustle surrounding her, Gia wondered how everything went so smoothly. You would think it would be horrendous mayhem but there was a sense to the madness, a kind of feeling that told Gia all of the pieces she saw in front of her fit together perfectly.

"You ok?"

Tricia came up behind Gia with a happy Mollie in her arms. "A little dazed but hanging in there. Hi pretty girl."

"Gia!" Mollie screamed, caught up in the excitement.

Tricia smiled. "I think she's in awe of you. She's not used to sharing her Uncle Louis."

"Louis couldn't stop talking about her. He's enamored with her as she is with him." Gia grinned. "You can keep him Miss Mollie."

Tricia hesitated. "Hey Gia?"

"Yes?"

Tricia liked the woman in front of her but she was protective of Louis. After the breakup with Eleanor, Louis had gone into a dark depression. He was miserable and if it wasn't for her, Scarlett, and  Danielle he wouldn't - it was too painful for her to imagine.

"Just promise me you'll be patient with Louis." She paused. "I'm not sure how much he's told you but a couple of years ago Louis was in a bad place and the boys along with me don't ever want to see him slip back to that."

Gia nodded. She knew some of Louis' past but he hadn't gotten into too much details. "I promise. I've been burned in the past and the last thing I want is to hurt him."

Pulling the girl into a hug, Tricia grinned. "All right, I've said my peace now we can boogie all night!"

Danielle and Scarlett joined the two in the hallway, falling into easy conversation. Soon the hallway became more crowded with the boys and their families. Louis spotted her with a grin tugging her over to stand near his family.

Paul yelled for the crowd to gather round. A prayer was said followed by hugs. Paul led the boys towards the stage as additional guards led everyone to their seats. Gia's eyes were wide taking in the sheer scene of the O2. Girls screamed, the arena going black as a video played on the screen.

A nervous pit filled Gia's stomach as the video played. Scarlett and Danielle both looped their arms through Gia's, the screams of the girls grew louder. In the front of the suite, Mollie was bouncing along to the intro with a massive grin on her face.

The sound when the boys finally busted on stage was something Gia would never forget. The amazement and grin on her face matched the other three girls to her left and right. From the first note, Gia fell more in love with her man. The grin on his face caused the one on hers to grow.

"All right so we are going to get serious for a minute." Harry spoke taking a moment to catch his breath. "It's a special night for all of us. All of our families are here celebrating with us tonight."

All of the boys looked up to the suite waving happily. "This next song is for them. We love you all."

The opening chords for "Don't Forget Where You Belong" started. Gia moved from beside the girls to where Jay stood, linking arms with her. Jay grinned at the girl that had captured her son's heart. She couldn't be happier for Gia and Louis. "Thank you."

"For what?" Leaning in close to Jay, Gia looked puzzled.

Jay glanced at the stage, before letting her eyes drift to the amazing girl in front of her. "For being here for Louis, for making him happy. I know it's not easy with his or your job but you are absolutely amazing for him and I couldn't be happier you two are together."

"I would never hurt your son." Swallowing the knot in her throat, Gia green eyes glistened. "He means too much to me and your support means more than you'll ever know."

Pulling her into a hug, Jay laughed. "Anyone who can put Louis in his place is ace in my book."

Turning her attention back to the concert, Gia felt at peace. She couldn't imagine being anywhere else but at the O2 arena.

11:00pm

Being ushered backstage, Gia couldn't get over the past two hours. She had gotten to know the regular version of Louis Tomlinson. But for her to see the celebrity and onstage presence he is was different; not bad, just different.

The families had been shown a room where they could gather until the boys finished their meet and greet with some fans. A yawn escaped her mouth causing the girls to giggle. "You going to be ok?"

"I think so. I'm not used to being up this late," Gia admitted.

Danielle and Scar just laughed. "Early bedtime up at base?"

"I'm typically in bed by 9 if I'm not working a 24 hour shift."

Both girls grimaced, Dani shaking her head. "That sounds awful. How often does that happen?"

"Depends on the week but once or twice. I had three this week due to the holidays." She smiled. "Candy Crush comes in handy during those shifts. And it helps to have a boy who has as much of a screwed up schedule as I do."

They all laughed. Their attention was diverted to the door being thrown open. Four tired boys piled in, each with a grin on his face. They greeted their families first. The girls walked over to their respective partners, leaving Gia rooted where she was. Louis threw a look in her direction causing her smile.

Slowly walking over to join him, she slipped her hand into his, giving it a squeeze. He never stopped his conversation with his mom and sisters. Giving hugs to his family, Louis smiled watching them leave turning to Gia. "Hi love."

"Hi Popstar!"

Pulling her into a hug, he relished the feeling of her in his arms. "How was the show?"

"Good. It was kind of weird to see you on the stage. It was a different side that I hadn't seen before." Gia pushed loose strands of his hair off his face, planting a kiss on his lips. "I loved it. You looked like you were having the time of your life up on that stage."

He laughed. "It's always a good time up on stage. But the most important question is, did you enjoy it?"

"Surprisingly I did." She teased. "I had a lovely time and danced around with the girls. And your mom and I had a talk."

His eyes lit up at the talk between her and his mom. "What did you two talk about?"

"She couldn't be happier we are dating. She said that anyone who can put you in place is ace in her book." Gia laughed. "And she thanked me."

Louis raised an eyebrow. "For what?"

"Making you happy."

Smiling, Louis nodded. "You make me so incredibly happy Soldier. I don't know what I would do if you weren't around." He paused. "Promise me you'll never leave."

"You have my word, Tomlinson." She smiled. "As long as you promise the same, Pooks."

Placing a kiss on her lips, Louis sighed. He had found his home in the girl that was currently in his arms. And he never wanted to be anywhere else.

[thenovelescapes]

may 2017

I know that we are well into June already, but let’s just pretend I posted this three weeks ago. Ok? Okay.

- the television - 

I did not mean for this to happen. When I put Grey’s Anatomy on in the background while cleaning in March, I really did not mean to re-watch the whole series, but somehow it is two months later and I’m nine seasons deep. (I watched seasons seven, eight and nine this month). The later seasons of this show (particularly 8) make me so unbelievably angry - (I could write an entire dissertation on what a human dumpster fire Owen Hunt is) - but I’m just seething and powering through.

To counteract the rage, I watched seasons one and two of Schitt’s Creek - a dumb, and surprisingly charming, Canadian sitcom - as well as season three of Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt, Master of None season two, and the first season of Dear White People.

- the books - 

After my mini-slump in April, I rebounded hard in May and read nine books. I’m now 16 books ahead of schedule on my 2017 reading challenge (SUCK IT, GOODREADS). Not all of the books I read this month were good, but the ones that were were so good they almost made me mad. 

The not-so-good: The Last Days of Rabbit Hayes by Anna McPartlin and What I Had Before I Had You by Sarah Cornwell. McPartlin’s book is extremely sad, but I couldn’t settle into the writing style or the characters enough to fully enjoy it. Cornwell’s novel had a confusing narrative structure, underdeveloped characters and couldn’t seem to decide what kind of book it was - young adult or adult, magic realism or contemporary. It was a quick read, thankfully, but not a particularly enjoyable one.

This month, I also read a string of young adult books that are all absolutely amazing. The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas is a vital, timely read that explores race, police brutality, and the Black Lives Matter movement in the lives of teens, especially the remarkable protagonist - Starr. Public Relations by Katie Heaney & Arianna Rebolini is a fun, Harry Styles-inspired story of a woman who works in PR and falls for her client, Archie Fox, as she orchestrates his image-revamp. The Names They Gave Us by Emery Lord is the summer-camp story I’ve always wanted. The cast of characters is so unique and inclusive, and the story packs an intense emotional punch. Grace and the Fever by Zan Romanoff is the perfect novel for anyone who has ever felt self-conscious for loving something “too much” (and also for any One Direction fan). I read it in a single afternoon. 

Finally, in May, I read We Should All Be Feminists by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie and The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood, and listened to the Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince audiobook, narrated by Stephen Fry.

- the podcasts -  

I’ve always loved ReplyAll, but I had never done a deep dive into their archives before. My long commute and dull work days mean that I have plenty of time for podcasts, so I spent the month of May going all the way back to November 2014 with Alex Goldman, PJ Vogt, and (sometimes) Alex Blumberg. Listen if you’re a fan of the Internet, Twitter,  and funny, baffling technology stories.

I also stumbled across an interview/conversation podcast from comedian Pete Holmes this month - You Made it Weird with Pete Holmes. I’ll be honest: I find Holmes suuuuuper grating, but it is admittedly interesting to hear two comedians have hour-long conversations about nothing and everything. I only listen to the episodes with people I already know and like, so some highlights are Phoebe Robinson, John Mulaney, Kate Micucci, Andy Samberg, and Josh Gondelman.

- the movies - 

With my sister, I rewatched Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire, Harry Potter & the Order of the Phoenix and Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince this month. I also saw Guardians of the Galaxy 2 in theatres, and took to Netflix for two comedy specials - The Comeback Kid from John Mulaney, and Thank God for Jokes from Mike Birbiglia.

- the music -  

Hi, my name is Cristina, and I miss One Direction.

But! The boys have started to release their solo work, so there is still new music to look forward to. In May, the first of the bunch (and my personal fave), Harry Styles, put out a full album and it is. SO. DAMN. GOOD. I want to live inside it. Tickets to his first solo tour went on sale last week and I dropped a distressing amount of money, but I will be seeing him perform live in 381 days! WOO. Seriously though, even if you never got into 1D, you should listen to Harry’s album - I promise you won’t be disappointed.

- the miscellaneous -  

This month, I went to Las Vegas for the first time. It only took a few hours to come to the conclusion that I do not have the correct constitution for that town, but there is some A+ entertainment available to those of us who do not enjoy clubbing or drinking dozens of watery margaritas. While I was there, I went to see Le Reve, a Cirque Du Soleil show with truly impressive acrobatics, synchronized swimming, and a confusing plot, and Celine Dion’s concert at Caesar’s Palace. Celine is a Canadian icon, and so talented, but I was surprised at how emotional I was watching her perform. At one point, she started singing Beauty & the Beast, and I burst into tears. Live music + Disney = kryptonite for my tear ducts, apparently.

I hope you’ve been having a wonderful start to the summer, and, as always - happy reading, watching & listening!

[goingallthewayy]

Review of my 2016 Goals

(AKA holy shit is it 2017 already?!)

1. Get my concealed carry.

Damnit, still didn’t do that. Still want to, too.

2. Train for and compete in another triathlon- more than one would be good, too!

Well that didn’t turn out how I’d hoped. I still want this to happen in 2017, too. Darn ACL. Happened not even a month after I wrote this, and I was doing GREAT on my fitness goals, too.

3. Go backpacking and explore new parts of Colorado.

I didn’t get to backpack (ACL) BUT I explored some great new trails and campsites in 2016. Here’s to a few more in 2017!

4. Catch a fish! Just because.

YES! I still want to do this too. But did not accomplish in 2016.

5. Climb at least one 14er that I’ve never done before! Hopefully more than one.

Did this! Democrat and Cameron! Yas.

6. Travel someplace new! hopefully a new country or two, but even a few new places in the US would be great.

I visited the Grand Canyon! So that was awesome! But no new countries or states. Still... the Grand Canyon. I give myself a B- on this one.

7. Foster another 3 dogs. More would be even better but I’m afraid it will make it hard to travel and explore this summer.

I fostered even more than that! Geez I thought I had set this goal to be like ten dogs or something. I fostered Chase once I recovered from my ACL a little bit, then I helped out with Leo and Summer, then I fostered Truman (best dog EVER), then I helped with Felix, and finally I fostered the two puppies- Nova and the other one whose name I forget right now. Smashed this goal right out of the water!

8. Take meaningful steps towards a future career. Take the GRE, apply to grad school, work jobs other than waitressing!

I took the GRE, I applied to grad school, I didn’t go even though I got in AND paid for a class (dumbass) and I got an awesome internship where I’ve figured out what I want to do with the rest of my life! Hell yeah!

9. When my lease is up in October, I hope to move to a new state, hopefully for a new job or for grad school. Preparation starts now! We’ll see where this goes. This is pretty tentative since I love my current apartment and my roommate, but have been craving change in my life. Change is in the air- I’m excited to see where things go.

I didn’t move to a new state, I got an amazing internship at Denver Animal Shelter that kept me here in Colorado. BUT I did move into the city and now i have a HOUSE and not just an apartment that I’m renting. <3

10. Go skiing at least a few times this spring. I’ve finally got all the equipment, I bought a pass to go up for a weekend with my dad and test it all out, it’s time to get up and enjoy something I used to love! Even if it means sitting it traffic for a little while. Maybe I’ll even air BNB by myself up there! :)

Yeah this didn’t work out quite how I planned, either. ACL. But I did go up twice last year before the whole thing happened!

11. Write more. Looking back through my text entries is so meaningful to me, and it really allows me to see how much I’ve grown and changed. I need to try to write more often. It helps me to stay organized and focused.

Ahhh I wish I did this. I wrote through my pains with surgery and living with my folks again. But I haven’t written nearly enough. I just got too busy. I’m going to retry this goal, too.

12. Figure out a birth control solution that works for me so I can have safer sex. Taking a pill everyday is not my deal, clearly.

Fuck. Did not happen. I stopped sleeping around though, so that helped.

13. I need to spend less time on social media. I need a plan to try to break me of my addiction. It’s bad.

Yeah, didn’t do a great job of getting off of social media, either. I have a Facebook addiction, and the fact that my career revolves around it does not help. I should come up with a great solution for this as well.

14. I need to read more and paint more. I got through the Harry Potter books and that’s pretty much it in 2015. I need to read! And I only painted a couple of times. What’s up with that? I just spent a week in New Mexico studying Georgia o'keefe. Time to get crackin on some painting.

I read some great books in 2016! I got super into audiobooks for awhile, which could totally happen again when I start working out again. I should list the books I read but I did NOT keep track-this year I set a goal to read 25 books and Goodreads is keeping track of it for me.

Worth noting- I almost always have to include resolutions about my relationships; meaning family, friends, and romance. This year I’m not doing that.

I’m proud of myself for that last year, and I’m going to keep it to a minimum again this year. <3

What a wild year 2016 was. It’s just amazing to me looking back- part of me feels like the beginning of this year was SO LONG AGO and an entire epic has happened since then; part of me feels like “how the heck did I think I’d have time to accomplish all this shit it flew by so fast oh my god.” It was an adventure from (practically) rock-bottom (I still reserve rock-bottom to spring 2014) to some of the best times of my life. Like seriously, THE BEST. Just what an adventure.

January was beautiful and filled me with this feeling of hope for the new year; I started working out and was starting to look really good until

February I went on an amazing hike with Charley (best friend at the time) and decided to quit my serving job since I had a bunch (okay, possibly an exaggeration) of money saved up. So I quit. And exactly a week later, I tore my ACL in Snowmass skiing with my dad.

March I had to return to my parents house with Finn and had surgery March 8. It was HARD. One of the hardest things. I did a lot of reading, applying for jobs, and dicking around on the playstation. I also played plants vs. zombies constantly. I was on good drugs.

April I was still at my parents’ house going to physical therapy and taking walks when it was nice. I took the GRE and planned for my future.

May I took a trip to the Grand Canyon with my best friend Charley. It was a great trip; we saw all kinds of beautiful places. We hiked up to Hanging Lake, camped near Arches and saw Delicate Arch, and then drove down to the Grand Canyon. It SNOWED while we were camping there, but it was absolutely magical. It snowed our whole way back, too, so we booked it home instead of taking our time. We still spent the night with my Auntie Joni and Uncle Pete, which was really nice. I also fostered Chase during the month of May and started my new job at Perry’s with Charley. I also started the Outpaws Tails and Trails Hike Competition, which Finn and I competed in all summer. We would have won if I had kept better records, too. ;)

June I worked at Perry’s and met my future boyfriend, Leo. I went on an awesome camping trip by myself to Red Feather Lakes in the Roosevelt National Forest. I also was FIRED from a job for the first time- Perry’s fired me for insubordination, which was a bummer because (1) it was untrue. the thing they said I did, I did not do. (2) Leo and Charley worked there, and it sucked to no longer work with them. BUT it really was 100% for the best- Perry’s paid people in a super sketchy way, I didn’t like my coworkers or my boss, there was a constant feeling of discontent there. And it pushed me to apply for my current job, which is my dream job. Plus the day I got fired, Leo took me to his brother’s house and I met Jocelyn, who is now one of my closest friends.

July I went to a Keith Urban concert with Charley, which was fun. I also visited Ashleen in Tennessee, which was SO FUN! We did so many awesome things together. I also went camping again up at Red Feather! I also watched several dogs but didn’t get my next foster until

August! I fostered sweet Truman, the best good dog. We also took an amazing camping trip to Leadville, where Leo and I seriously bonded and adventured together. It was really fun. I also started my new job hostessing at La Sandia.

September I interviewed for my Denver Animal Shelter position and got it! I went on several gorgeous hikes. Our Tails and Trails competition ended, but we won some great prizes and figured out that Finn and I hiked over 300 miles during summer 2016. Very cool!

October feels like a stressball dream. I started a new job at Denver Animal Shelter, started living with my boyfriend, and moved in to a new house. I didn’t get to do any of the fun fall stuff I wanted to, but it’s all okay- I accomplished some cool things that month.

November I dove into my jobs. We took a family trip to Montrose where I bonded with dad over a 5k and got to see my grandparents and my second cousins. I worked an average of like 60 hours a week! It was crazy. I also helped out with a foster named Felix this month and then fostered two baby puppies because Leo kept telling me he wanted a puppy. Needless to say, now he doesn’t want a puppy.

December I kept working my two jobs! We went on a few hikes, but no new adventures. I spent a little bit of time with my family, but it is still hard to be around them when Lindsey is home. I have been reaching out to her and her lack of interest in seeing me makes it feel like she really doesn’t have any interest in being my friend. It is just so weird- I don’t know what happened that caused her to just stop valuing our friendship. But that’s a post for another day. I also celebrated a dual Christmas with Leo’s family. Mexicans celebrate Christmas at 12:00 AM- who knew? It was really fun though; I love his family. Kendall also moved back to Colorado, so I’ve gotten to see her more often. I feel like I did something else really fun and I just can’t remember... I’ll think of it eventually.

I’m going to sit down and set my goals for 2017 tomorrow, I just needed some time to reflect on these goals from 2016. There’s a lot that that I didn’t accomplish, but then again... there’s a lot that I did! These goals were well thought-out and reviewing them makes me feel like even though I can EASILY say 2016 saw some of my biggest personal struggles, but it was still an year of amazing accomplishments and taking charge of my own happiness. 2014 was the year I learned that I was responsible for my own happiness, 2015 saw me figuring out what made me happy, 2016 saw me taking charge of it. I love it.

New Years Resolution 2017 to follow. <3

[whovianmummah]

What I did last year.... A lesson in remembering.

It's a new year and, as we all do, I reflected back over the past 12 months. For some reason I struggled to remember the fun times I had and yet I could so easily recall the saddest of moments. So many celebrity deaths, interspersed with family tragedies. Why was it so hard to recall the good times? So here I sit, with last year's diary in hand, flicking through the weeks and recalling all the great times spent with family and friends in 2016 😊 February. Youngest son's 16 birthday trip to London. Just the 2 of us. London Dungeons and as many supercar showrooms as we can find 😆 Hello Aston Martin Knightbridge, helloooooo Lamborghini Kensington 👍 This was also son's first introduction to Gourmet Burger Kitchen. A fabulous 2 days with a lot of walking but a lot of laughter. April saw myself and hubs meeting up with my oldest and dearest friend whom I've known since we were 3! Her husband of too many years was met by both of us at the sane time when we started college. Everyone knew they were absolutely going to be together forever, and seeing them both again after probably 18 years was fantastic. None of us have changed bar grey hair and wrinkles. Our sense of humour is still as it was when we were teenagers. Best of all, my husband clcked with them both immediately and it felt like we had all known each other forever. Just perfect ❤❤ June should have seen our daughter and I at the Mcfly Anthology tour in Birmingham however, due to a mishap with Harry Judd and his neck, it was postponed until September. I had booked a hotel and didn't take up free cancellation so.... Mummy and Daughter trip to Brum 😎 We had a blast. We ate, we didn't drink as much as we expected to lol, we shopped and we laughed. It was brilliant. I even ended up buying a Spock Bear in Build A Bear, the Star Trek 50th anniversary edition with original theme sound. I am sad, I am a geek. I'm a 40something woman who cried at getting this bear because I loved Leonard Nimoy so much. LLAP 💙 July. Let's Rock London 😎 Wow! We went with longtime dear friends and we danced, we drank, we fell over, threw beer in my own face grabbing my hat (I was not even drunk at that point). It was a fantastic day in Clapham Common, an old stomping ground of mine from the early 1990s. Claire Grogan of Altered Images, The Beat, ABC, Belinda Carlisle, Tony Hadley of Spandau Ballet fame, Jimmy Somerville 😲❤ Holly Johnson from Frankie Goes To Hollywood. And Dave Benson-Phillips aka Disney Dave was compère. It was the ultimate 1980s retro festival. So good we are going again in 2017 👍 August saw my first Pride event. Eldest son and I spent 3 glorious days in Cardiff for their Pride festival and it was spectacular 🌈 Cardiff itself is so beautiful a d such friendly people. We took the river taxi from the Castle to the Bay and I highly recommend it as a sightseeing trip. Peaceful and relaxing, a great way to finish our weekend. At Pride Cymru itself we got to sing and dance along with B*Witched 😁 no surprises this was one of son's favourite bands as a small boy, and they lived up to our expectations and more! It was wonderful to show public support for our son and everyone else who just want to be accepted. Love is love, don't deny it from yourself or from others. Embrace the feelings ❤💙💚💛💜 September and it's MCFLY DAY 😎🎉🎉🎉 Mother here decides it would be hilarious if we dress up for the occasion. As Tom Fletcher's sons. Wtaf? 😮 Oh yes, I dressed up as Buzz (Lightyear) and daughter went as Buddy (the elf) 😂 I even had Buzz's trademark wings pinned to my back. Needless to say I looked like a total arse but Mcfly were incredible so I didn't give a toss 😊 I've seen some fab shows in my time, well since 2011 with my first concert lol, and Duran Duran give a great performance. But I have to say that Mcfly have given them a serious run for their money. Their interaction with the fans is hilarious and from start to finish we were swept upon a wave of excitement and love. I will be seeing them again! Oh hell yes! October was busy. The first week we all trooped down to London to see Harold Pinter's play No Man's Land. Starring Sir Patrick Stewart and Sir Ian McKellen 😲❤❤ A mesmerising play, confusing yet totally clear with its meaning. The kids were all of one opinion. They didn't care if they didn't understand the play, they have seen 2 of the greatest actors of their time on stage. And that is what theatre is all about 👍 My other October outing was not so successful. Destination Star Trek 50th Anniversary. Europe's turn to pay tribute, hosted at the NEC Birmingham. I was so excited 😊 youngest, god love him, took the bullet at going with Trek Nerd Mother. My poor poor boy. It was AWFUL! 10 stalls, hardly any Trekkie stuff to buy but an abundance of Assassins Creed or Pokémon 🙁 It had no decoration to the conference hall, the queues were endless for everything and frankly it was an embarrassment to stars like Marina Sirtis, Wil Wheaton and Uncle George Takei himself. We left after 3 hours 😔 I did buy an amazing signed photo of Leonard Nimoy. But otherwise it was a huge disappointment. So why is it here? Because despite the poor effort made in dressing the stage, the performers and cosplayers put their all into it. And I have seen Uncle George Takei in the flesh 😊❤ LLAP December at last. Youngest son attends his first ever 18+ event. Illegally 😲 Mother Dear didn't realise Jimmy Carr's Ultimate Tour was for age 18 up only. Son is 16 😂 Thank god he's nearly 6 foot and passed through easily! Jimmy Carr's tour was the start of a year of amazing events as I got us tickets for Xmas 2016 way back in January of last year. It was worth the wait! He was everything we hoped for 😎 We ached for days afterwards, having laughed so much. He topped off what actually seems to have been a pretty bloody brilliant year. And I can't wait for what 2017 has lined up 👍