#I think it goes largely unspoken and deliberately avoided with him but what kanji wrestles w in regards to conciling his sense of identity | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

fellhellion · 2 months

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apologies for yosukeposting and especially incoherently but slowboiling in my brain whatever the hell was going on w him in kanji’s dungeon. guy who slingshots between some kinda fraught observation that this is so much worse for kanji because it’s happening in front of an audience (over like. freaking out about it), furiously asserting that he’s heterosexual, insinuating danger but then also being the one who volunteers to take kanji home afterwards.

It’s sooooooooooooooo.

#I’m naurt.#conveying it well.#but there’s some kinda something about which elements prickle his unease #exposure to the wider community #the topic of sexuality that falls outside of what is normative being introduced AT ALL #but he’s. not scared of kanji. he never has been tbh #I don’t think he would volunteered to take him home and essentially make sure he got there safely if he was #imo it’s more that like. kanji doesn’t reject the shadow’s assertions where yosuke would #and there isn’t a world in his sixteen (?) year old brain where you SHOULDNT do that lmao #if you’re a guy you like girls and you don’t get hugged when you’re sobbing your heart out etc etc #a guy’s a guy and when that doesn’t mean what he thinks it has to mean anymore that’s deeply uncomfortable for him to unpack #it brings to the forefront his own doubts and insecurities #and kanji accepts that in himself where Yosuke can’t I don’t think #doesn’t question a lot of time and builds his identity around it #but he can’t erase the questions people like kanji and naoto raise because like. it’s intimately relevant to HIM lmao #and it’s how he understands a core part of himself #even if that’s built on sand #congrats! you’ve discovered the patriarchal and heteronormative hegemony!#tunes talks persona #I think it goes largely unspoken and deliberately avoided with him but what kanji wrestles w in regards to conciling his sense of identity #to wider society is like. that’s him too lmao

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