#I will rewatch it later to properly absorb the lore and everything

[unstxblesystem]

Dude that was a fire first episode Jack cooked

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[godotdotdot]

I watched the end of evangelion in theaters last night. The last time I watched EoE was a near spiritual exp; I had been going thru a lot at home and needed catharsis, because I was personally grieving a lot of close relationships that had been hurting me, and could not stop feeling shitty for how I hurt my loved ones.

While that evening I had had the entirety of Eva fresh in my mind, and had sobbed accordingly to my heightened understanding and empathic ability, last night I did not. I had not prepared by rewatching the series or Death and Rebirth. It was a last minute chance that I took. I felt I had not "done" the experience properly.

I noticed so many details I hadn't before, thanks to the big screen: the name KAWORU printed on the EVA Series' S2 drives; how fitting it is that Kaworu (the ideal Shinji, the replacement for Asuka, the parallel of Rei) eviscerates Asuka. I also realised why Asuka has the bandage on her arm in the last scene, because her arm... ripped in two... and how insane is it, the arm that is iconically extended with "I'll kill you, I'll kill you" to be the same hand that reaches forward, as she's dying, to cup Shinji's cheek as he strangles her. I saw my favorite character, Rei, commit her revolt against Gendo. I absorbed everything on screen with greater clarity than I ever had before. The big screen magnified the details, the emotions, everything; and I realised with satisfaction that I was watching the movie the way it was supposed to be watched.

And as such, I think the most significant moment was in the actual theater itself. The scene in the film where they're in instrumentality and talking about dreams vs reality, and they pan to the irl audience of one of the first screenings of eoe? It hits different when YOU are in the theater. It's YOU on screen. I remember feeling like an individual and not at the same time. I realised that everyone in the movie theater was there for the same reason as me: for virtue of being human, having a deep connection w the series like me, having their own reconciling with the awe of seeing it in theaters; after all, all the young kids had streamed this movie on the phone like me, and all the older fellows had not been to an Eva screening in North America. We WERE the first audience seeing the movie, just like in the film; we had all gathered here with our rei plushies and our t-shirts and our cosplays like the audience in 1997. But would we be sitting there confused, like that initial audience was?

As it was, there is no sense of confusion in as an eva fan, not after the End. As the film ended, Shinji crying, Asuka still, Disgusting, and then the end card, there was a full 15 seconds of silence as the lights slowly came on. No clapping. No discussion. No laughter or sniffling or breath. The lights came on, and still, I was silent; I was both praying no one would break the silence as I needed it and observed it. I was completely processing the gravity of being the first (N. American) audience (ever!) since the show aired nearly thirty years ago; and with that weight, how SHOULD you react? And then, the silence broke as I heard people take shaky exhales like they had been crying, chuckling nervously, and then more comfortably laughing to their groups, beginning lore explanations--- someone had a beer snuck into the theater that I only noticed when I looked in front of me--- and everyone re-became themselves, imdividuals with lives and problems and things to be excited over. A couple was still crying and were not holding hands. I saw them outside, twenty minutes later, smiling and taking pictures with the poster.

It seemed strange to me that Eva had become such an emotional thing to such a crowd of people. I didn't realise that I was not the only one who cried tears of horror, who cried tears of disgust, who cried tears of sorrow. I had been excited to go to this movie and was left feeling... normal. It was life-changing, but also, not. I was just a person in a theater, and yet, I understood the movie because I had studied it. And so had everyone else, and we were still crying. At the same time, having reflected on my more private viewings, I still thought I hadn't cried enough.

I think to the things Hideako Anno has said about eva; how it's him on screen, his disdain for certain kinds of anime fans, his passing interest in things that people hyperanalyze. I think about the dedication he notes to his team of workers and five women in his life. Who are those five women? What kind of women are they? Why that descriptor, if you're separating them from your work?

I think the most appropriate explanation for my absurd reactions to the film are because the film itself is an absurd experience; I'm trying to assign it an aura (a la "art in the age of mechanical reproduction") but frankly, I believe it is impossible. Perhaps my theater wasn't right. Perhaps my company wasn't. Perhaps I was not. Perhaps the film was not. And most of all, perhaps it was okay for me to be there, because I wanted to be there, and I wanted to go on.

It was a really beautiful experience. The movie is absolutely meant to be played on a big screen, in a theater. I'm so glad I was there, and I'm so glad I got to be apart of eva history. It was not the perfect exp I wanted, but it was such a special occasion that I don't mind too much. One day I will keep going and maybe I will make that experience perfect for myself.

[mystiika]

re; shin’s powers

   please note all of these are canon. i may be going into more detail than was provided in the show, but i haven’t added anything he didn’t do or can’t do canonically. & pretty much all of this can be found on his wiki page as well ( albeit sometimes with different wording ). he’s just this op

   i also want to say that i did my best to make this with some kind of flow between abilities since there’s a lot to get through. i’m also rewatching the series so hopefully i’ll be able to add direct examples for some of the more outlandish concepts

nigh-omnipotence  — he’s unimaginably powerful compared to most existing beings & is next to indestructible. it’s implied that he can easily defeat even the mightiest beings & creatures. the only being in canon we know to be above him is the being that turned him into the goblin, which he & others refer to as ‘the Almighty’

immortality — he can only die if his bride pulls the sword out of his chest. he is immune to everything else ( ie age, diseases, viruses, infections, sicknesses etc. ) he also cannot die of suffocation, drowning, or poisoning

regenerative healing — the ability to heal & regenerate all physical & mental harm to himself instantly. any damaged area or lost anatomy will be completely restored with no lingering side effects, even forcing objects embedded out to heal properly. it allows him to rapidly regenerate any damaged or destroyed bodily molecules, cells, tissues, bones, limbs, organs, etc instantaneously

biokinesis — the ability to manipulate the biological aspects of other creatures & beings. he normally uses this ability to inflict harm on his victims as punishment  & can be used through a gesture or snap of fingers. this also leads into the next power

healing — the ability to heal injuries of other beings as well as himself. he can even cure diseases, viruses, infections, sicknesses, poisoning, etc. as long as he’s in proximity to them he can even heal other beings without touching them. i’ll also include reconstitution in this which is the ability to reform the body of something or someone if it is completely or partially destroyed ( though this can be applied to non-living item restoration as well )

resurrection — the ability to either bring himself or others back to life from death of any means. he can even accomplished it through spells or rituals ( according to his wiki though i don’t remember this particular part being mentioned in the show ). he can resurrect all forms of life back to any state he'd like, such as living or undead states

banishing — the ability to forcibly exile someone & forbid their return. we see him do this with supernatural creatures but one would assume he can do it with humans as well if he chose to

intangibility — the ability to alter one's molecular structure to move through physical matter. he can also dodge attacks from enemies through this ability

sedation — the ability to render other beings unconscious with a touch or gesture

power negation — the ability to prevent other supernatural beings from using their powers

absorption — the ability to absorb any form of energy at will. for example, we see him do this to absorb the shock of an attack that sent eun tak flying

life divination — the ability to see someone’s life path ( past, present, & future ) when they come into contact with him ( or if he’s meant to be their guardian ) but this sight is easiest when he looks in their eyes

regular divination  — the ability to know or see aspects of the future ( several times through the series he’s asked about the answers for things, one example was him telling someone the alleged winning lottery numbers which was later proven to be correct. i’m not sure how else to describe it, he can just see the future in general but it isn’t all encompassing. another example was he said he knew all the correct answers to an exam but still had to ask what day the exam was taking place )

teleportation/apportation — the ability to teleport himself ( to other beings, objects, or places ) across small distances freely, but can also teleport long distances through the use of doors. however, only eun tak can follow him through the long-distance doors. he can also be teleported unwillingly to eun tak’s location if she deliberately blows out a flame. he can also summon someone into his vicinity

weaponry refinement — the ability supernaturally enhance his sword to destroy anything & fight off other supernatural entities & can summon the sword at will

expert swordsman/combatant — he’s highly skilled in unarmed & melee combat. he is master in weaponry which includes ancient as well as modern weapons & can easily defeat other beings in combat

enhanced strength — he has supernatural strength & is able to lift seemingly anything with extreme ease including a person/entity with one hand

enhanced speed — more than just super speed, he is able to appear & disappear with a blink of an eye, & are able to move across a room within a second. he can move, run, jump, climb, & fly at the speed of light

enhanced senses — acute senses that are above superhuman level. he can see, hear, smell, taste, & feel ( physical sensation ) more accurately than other beings

enhanced physical prowess — his durability, stamina, vitality, virility & endurance have been enhanced to superhuman levels. he also has a higher tolerance to pain. additionally, his agility, dexterity, balance, & body coordination are enhanced to levels that are beyond the natural physical limits of any human

telekinesis/psychokinesis — his telekinesis is limitless. for example, he is able to levitate small objects simultaneously & float above the ground as well as send other people flying should he choose to. naturally, he can also control small movements. this ability can be channelled through both his eyes & hands

telepathy — the ability to transfer information from one mind to another, & to read mind & thoughts of humans, animals & other beings without the aid of physical or audio communication. this means he’s also able to he’s able to speak in & read the mind of an intended target

elementalist — the ability to create & control all elements at will, such as energy, light etc. he can create gusts of wind, & throw spheres of energy similar to electrical discharges as well as fire balls. he also has the ability to unleash a blast of energy that can knock beings back with great force. we’re led to believe he can also control planets to some degree as we see him create a red supermoon.

fire manipulation ( specifically ) — he can manipulate a blue flame with his hands or engulf his entire body in a shimmering blue flame as well as throw fireballs of any size. he can also incinerate a being with a stare or gesture

( unintentional ) weather/nature manipulation — less of a power & more of a side effect of being a goblin, whenever he’s feeling an emotion intensely, it affects the weather & nature in the general region he is in. for example, when he feels incredibly happy the cherry blossoms bloom, even if it is not the season for them to do so or torrential downpour rain when he’s depressed. natural disasters like typhoons, however, are not him, that’s just the planet

other elemental manipulations — the ability to generate protective invisible force fields, thermokinesis ( the ability to control & manipulate heat ), photokinesis ( the ability to control & manipulate light), electrokinesis ( the ability to control & manipulate electricity & bolts of lightning )

visual manipulation/illusion casting — the ability to create small or large illusions such as sprouting fireflies from his hand or something on a more massive scale

invisibility — the ability to make himself or others unable to be seen by other beings

monetary manipulation — the ability to manipulate money, wealth, & anything related to them & thus is infinitely wealthy

physical manipulation — not sure how to phrase this one. he can essentially control small movements? think of like a puppeteer & a marionette but make it bigger. he someone trip, have someone’s ear buds catch on someone’s bag in passing etc

mental manipulation/mind control — the ability to manipulate the minds of others beings into thinking or believing certain things

emotional manipulation — going along with the one above, he can also make people fall in love, kinda like a cupid

time manipulation — he can freeze time at will & for however long he wants. He can also speed up or slow down time. the only human who is immune to this is eun tak, who can continue to move & speak freely even while time is frozen. he can also continue moving if some other being ( ie. a grim reaper ) stops time

astral perception — the ability to perceive true form of beings invisible to human's eye as well as being able to see supernatural incidents. for example, was able to recognise the grim reaper when he saw him

location tracking — the ability to track & locate beings. it’s not 100% effective/accurate though as we see him unable to find euntak at various points in the series

conjuring — the ability to create objects & beings into existence out of nothing

wish granting — the ability to grant wishes

& then here’s a list of abilities listed on the wiki but i have yet to confirm in my rewatch or in traditional lore. this information will be added to the list above or be removed depending:

smiting — the ability to kill other beings with a touch, gesture or snap of fingers at will. this ability will burn the victim from inside & can burn the victim's eyes specifically if desired

molecular combustion — the ability to kill other beings by rendering them down to their molecules, causing them to explode with snap of his fingers

reality warping — the ability to warp reality itself

dream walking — the ability to communicate to someone through their dreams. he can also visit alternate realities through dreams

portal creation — the ability to open portals to parallel worlds, dimensions, or planes, etc

duplication — the ability to create duplicates of himself or others

shape shifting —  the ability to alter his physical shape to assume the appearance of another

transformation — the ability to alter the physical shape of another being or object

transmogrification — the ability that allows the user to alter their form into inanimate objects

power granting — the ability to grant powers to another being

technopathy — the ability to control & manipulate all forms of technology ( this doesn’t mean he necessarily understands all technology, just that he can control it if he wanted/tried to )

additionally, goblins can perform larger feats such as bring good harvests, big catches & great fortunes to humans as seen in traditional folklore. they are also known to be defenders against evil spirits despite their mischievous habits & i’ve seen nothing in canon to indicate otherwise