#I’m also gonna try a lace front wig for the first time with her! bc she’s plt blonde

[bioswear]

When the character you wanna cosplay is canonically an entire foot taller than you

[pockyxx]

“ beautiful ”

akaashi x fem!reader  genre: hurt + comfort, wholesome ending. (a s/o with alopecia)

a/n: to the anon that requested this, I hope I did your request justice. and to everyone reading this, don’t forget to be kind. I’m also really sorry it took so long for me to publish. i also wanna put out that bc i don’t have alopecia i can’t fully comprehend the struggles of having it. i used some parts of my own life with my own health issues and the mental struggles that come with them.

You sat in your room, laying on your bed on the phone with your best friend. The topic remained casual although there was something on your mind that had been bugging you. 

“So how are you and Akaashi doing?” She asked and you bit your lip, running your hand over your head, eyes glancing to the wig that sat on it’s stand. You sighed, giving the delayed response. 

“He’s perfect it’s just...” You trailed off, letting your friend fill in the blanks that you were too scared to say. 

“You haven’t told him about your alopecia?” Her tone was a confusing mix of angry and soft. She understood that it was difficult to deal with, years of trying to get over the insecurity that came with loosing your hair. 

“What if he gets weirded out? Or if he doesn’t like that I’m not feminine or that I need a wig-” You’d gone into a ramble before hearing [your friend’s name] shout, cutting you off. 

“If he doesn’t like you the way you are, it’ll be a sign that the two of you aren’t meant to be together.” She sighed, “even if it seems perfect now, if he can’t love you for you, it’ll be for the best if you ended it.” The words came with a lot of weight. 

You nodded, replying with with a yes quickly after realizing she couldn’t see your gestures. 

“When should I do it?” 

“Today and you’re gonna call me right after you do it. Okay ? Now I’ve got to go, I love you n/n.” 

“Love you too [your friend’s name], I promise to tell you how it goes. Bye.” Your pitch went up, hearing her repeat her goodbye before hanging up. Rubbing the bridge of your nose, you sent a text to Akaashi for him to come over as soon as possible and that you needed to tell him something. 

-- 

When Akaashi first got the text, his first impression was that you were unsatisfied with the relationship and wanted to end things. That’s why he left practice a little early, anxiously making his way to your house. 

This was the first time he’d actually be going inside your house, always just dropping you at the front door whenever he walked you home. A million different scenarios ran through his mind but none of them were what was about to happen. 

His eyes widened when he greeted him at the door with puffy, bloodshot eyes. You were wearing his hoodie, it falling over you nicely. Akaashi picked up on your body language, noticing how reserved you seemed. 

“Come inside, please.” You voice was soft and broken. Caught up in his anxiety he didn’t know how to embrace you-- well he knew, he was just frozen in place, this was the first team he’d seen you so upset. 

“Y/n, what happened?” He wondered as you lead him up to the living room, seating him down on the couch, your hands shaking. You explained how you and [friend’s name] were talking earlier. 

“You too didn’t get into a fight did you?” He sat a little bit closer to you, placing his hand on your back but it only caused you to shudder, lip trembling as a silent-trying-to-be-held-back sob escape. 

“I thought I could do it today, but I don’t think I can.” The back of your nose rubbed your running nose as Akaashi could hear his heart beating a pace about a million times faster. 

“Did I do something wrong?” He asked, slowly taking his hand away but you quickly shook your head. 

“No, no, Keiji. It’s nothing about us-- well...” You trailed off, keeping your voice from cracking. You leaned forward, hiding your face in your hands only to peek back at him. “You love me right, Keiji?” 

He was taken back by the question, putting his face in front of your, taking your hands in his, tracing over them with his thumb. 

“Of course I love you, y/n where is this coming from?” he let go of your hand only to softly cup your face.

It hurt to make eye contact with him but you knew you had to. The promise you’d made to your friend rang through your mind.

“It’s just, there’s something about me that you don’t know and I didn’t tell you when we first met because I was terrified it would scare you away.” His heart beat sped up but at the same time shattered that you felt like you couldn’t be open with him.

“Nothing you do will scare me away.” You nodded in response, his soothing words making just the slightest bit easier. Taking a deep breath, you told him.

“When I was starting middle school... I started noticing that parts of my hair were falling out, and other people would notice it too.” You frowned, recalling the sour memories. Keiji laced his fingers with yours again, listening attentively.

“It got to the point that my parents too me to the doctors, they ran a few tests and they said I have alopecia. It’s when the immune system basically attacks the hair follicles.”

Your free hand inched closer to the base of the wig that you were wearing. Akaashi watched you, taking in every detail and subconsciously he figured out what you were trying to convey.

“So now...well I don’t really have any hair... anywhere.” You gulped, bracing yourself for him to flinched away and call you gross but instead he only brought you closer.

“That’s not important to me, y/n, I’d love you even if you had scales.” You chuckled. The way he held your face with both his hands now, and even though your eyes were closed you could feel Keiji tracing over every feature of your face.

Letting go, you stared deeply into his beautiful eyes, as he pushed a strand of the wig behind your ear.

“Let me see you, all of you.” He breathed out as you nodded and while keeping eye contact with him, you tugged off the wig.

Tears threaten to fall again at the vulnerable position you were in but Akaashi only brought you closer to him feeling his smooth lips on the crown of your head.

“Beautiful—you’re breathtakingly beautiful.”

[nibscribs]

So uhhhh I drew a lot of RWBY this year... only two of these are non RWBY and tbh I could have just as easily put something RWBY for June Template

Retrospective under the cut bc it’s LONG 

RETROSPECTIVE January: First piece of the year! I still like this piece and I think it shows how much I improved from the original version of it. Also I just like looking at it bc it's soft content of my rare pair. I do think I made the rose look photorealistic which looks... bad esp with all the other more stylized flowers, and I got lazy with the bleeding hearts by just drawing one set and flipping them. Emerald's hair also could look better. February:  I made this around GNG week, which was a fun, good time, long before the server imploded on itself. I got really lazy with the backgrounds, obviously, but I do like the poses in this one, tho it helped that I based it off of screenshots from Young Justice. I also just really like how Merc looks in this one. March: March wasn't a very prolific month for art, I don't think I produced much besides this and one comic piece for GNG week. I'm not sure why exactly, I can't find any specific reason why I would be unproductive that month. I'm gonna just assume I was drained from work all the time and didn't have the energy to put out good art, and also I was getting into a slump bc all my art was starting to look same-y. This piece isn't very good, but I chose it because I did it without a reference, and at this point that was going out of my comfort zone. It's obviously not super dynamic, but at the very least you can tell I intended there to be motion to it. April: This also wasn't a very prolific month for art, not as bad as March, but for the same reasons. I was also really starting to feel burnout from the RWBY fandom, specifically wasps and conflict within the GNG server. This was also when the Art vs the Artist meme was popular, and I realized I didn't want to do that meme because my art was too similar and boring, which also brought me down a peg. Though I put out a few good chibis in April, I chose my Mercury redesign bc I was really proud of it. I could never get the Emerald redesign to mesh quite right, but I can say I'm really proud of how Mercury's came out. May: May had me bounce out of my art slump and in full force trying to expand my skills! Specifically exploring painting. Although May was about as prolific as April, what I did create I put a lot into. It was difficult to pick between this and my app of Edison, because I'm really proud of both, but in the end I went with this commission of Mercury because I pushed myself to try and use an interesting perspective for the piece instead of my usual stand still and face the camera pose. Because I pushed myself out of my comfort zone, this was one of the best things I made all year, and may be my favorite piece of the year. June: TIME TO STRESS OUT ABOUT CONNECTICON! So if you follow me on twitter, you might have noticed I made a lot of posts at the beginning of the year low key throwing shade at myself for drawing my oc's instead of more "important" art. Well, that important art that I was procrastinating was con merch, and con was the second week of July, so I really had to get my ass in gear to finish merch on time (spoiler, I didn't finish a lot of it on time). This piece and July's piece are both posters I made for Connecticon, and while I like July's much better, that doesn't mean I find this piece bad. I really should have known that no one at con would realize it was a goonies reference tho -_-; I also lost a lot of love for this piece after season 6 of Voltron, which I watched while I was about 60% of the way through this piece, so I had to force myself to finish it. July: I love this piece!!!! Don't get me wrong, I know it has flaws, but look at it! The lines are so crisp, the colors look good, Roman and Merc's expressions are mwuah chefs kiss, and I just love all of them!!! ... except for Neo. I really didn't do her justice in this piece, her hair is too fluffy, her head is way to oversized to the point that she looks like a bobblehead, and her eyes are too close together. Really if you take out Neo's head that whole problem goes away. I also love all the tiny details I put in this one, from emerald's chaps to roman's rose to Neo's lace parasol. You can tell I was way more passionate about this piece than I was about the Voltron piece.  August:  pretty sure this is when I quit my job cashiering, and thank god bc customers suck. If I was going off of sheer popularity, Chibi Pyrrha would have taken this slot no contest, and while I love chibi Pyrrha, I don't think it was the best of the month. I chose this little princess and the pauper au doodle because I tried a year ago to draw these two dancing, and it looked like dog shit. It was flat and ugly. But this has motion to it, and even looking at it now makes me feel warm and happy inside. It's just a good cute drawing of my otp. September: My piece for the RWBY tarot project! I have a lot of mixed emotions about this one. on the one hand, I love how mercury looks, his expression, the lighting, the visceral gore from his legs (ESPECIALLY THE VISCERAL GORE ON HIS LEGS) and the hands of the undead, all look stunning and I don't think I could be more happy with how they turned out. And then we get to the background. The caduceus isn't the worst thing ever, but it's severely lacking in quality compared to the rendering on mercury in front of it, and a lot of it is clearly pixellated from me trying to stretch and squash it just right. And the fire is a hot (no pun intended) mess. It's flat, incoherent, and doesn't lead the eye anywhere. It's a shame too because I wanted to do more with it, but I a) didn't have enough time or patience to figure out what I needed to do to fix it and b) didn't want to go outside of my comfort level, so I gave up and decided to be satisfied with what I had. October: October was another good month for art, I made a turnaround sheet for Moss, painted a full body (and slightly lewd) Rudy, and made a decent attempt at inktober. Ok, so I got like 2 days in, but I improved a lot on inking from last year! Fun fact! this piece was originally going to be fan art of Lindsay Jones, but after I did some thumbnails to figure out a pose, I thought it would suit White Diamond better, and I could also sell it as merch. I love this piece. I think I captured the sinister mood well, and conveyed the story I wanted to without any dialogue (at least the notes on Tumblr make me assume I did a decent job, lotta people really wigged out lol) I really worked hard to get the lighting right on this one, and I think it shows. My absolutely favorite thing about this piece funnily enough, is Amethyst. I think I just did a great job drawing her and I'm proud of myself ok. Stevens bubble and my trouble figuring out how to get WD's leg just right are the only things that I dislike about this piece, but I might go back and fix those. November: IM SO PROUD OF THIS COMMISSION!!!!!! I worked so god damn hard on this chef's kiss poifect,  and it really shows. I started using a new brush at this point, the Ojing series on Clip Studio Paint, which I recommend and have been using a lot since. I've also been using this shading technique since drawing this. I love how it sort of fades out but it's still really crisp. I also love all the little details that give this piece character, like her shoes and the stripes on her jacket. This piece really takes a lot of the stuff I learned over the year and combines it into one piece, and I could not be prouder of it. I have absolutely no problems with this one, though I do find the weapon a bit plain, but it's what the client described. December: AND NOW IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!!! I had been working on this piece since August, going back to it every now and then and getting frustrated. I'm really glad I came back to it and finally finished it, since I love this pair and I put a lot of effort into it back in August. However, I'm also really glad I completely overhauled a lot of it, specifically the flowers. Though I'm not 100% happy with the mums in this one, they look a thousand times better than the mums I had originally sketched back in August, and were part of the reason I had such a hard time finishing this for months. I also thought it would be nice to end the year on the same note it started; with a flower couple. I've definitely learned a lot since January, and I hope to continue growing in 2019! 2019 GOALS!

Work on backgrounds for the love of god

Draw more stuff that isn't RWBY

Perspective

Make more speed paints and post more to youtube in general