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Abandon all Compassion

She saw the devil

Under the clear night sky

Entering the bar

Full moon, not a cloud in the sky.

Hotter than normal

Stuffy and dry

Enough to draw blood from her nose.

No tables

Just the isle around the pit,

Humid,

For only 2 people

Being 6 seats apart.

The reflection looking back

Someone I can no longer make out.

The more glasses

The less I can see myself,

Recognize myself.

By the 6th shot

Numbness ensures

Nothing is felt

Only a pair of eyes

Examining me

From the corner of my eyes

From the corner of the bar.

She saw the devil

Before she can say goodbye

Pulling a cigarette

Lucky 7

Down to an even 6.

Stepping out

Aiming to release the demons

One inhale at a time.

Lighter hanging on for life

Empty I suppose

A spark yet no flame follows.

A flame emerges

A lighter that is not my own

A black zippo

L engraved in Red

Held by the man

Who watches me from the corner.

Unexpected, caught by surprise

No indication of where he came from

A face hard to forget.

6’6

A blank expression

Not a wrinkle

Not a flaw

Jet black hair,

No tattoos, no markings

Well kept to say the least.

Reached in his pocket

Reds

100’s

6 down to 5.

A breeze picks up as he stands by my side

Not a word uttered

Enjoying the silence between two strangers

Under the flickering street light.

She saw the devil

In human form

The last thing before he made himself truly known

Him: “They call me L

Her: Whose they

Him: Can’t say

Im not from around here

You?

Her: Not from this area

Him:Which area do you belong too

Her: Can’t say

Him: Hm…

Her: Why were you looking at me in there

Him: You remind me of someone I once knew

…

Her: What brings you here?

Him: I can ask you the same question

Him: To have a drink

You?

Her: To get away, I wanted somewhere to go. I feel lost in my life

Him: Well I guess now you’ve been found.

I saw the devil

I though he existed only in my head

“I guess now you’ve been found”

Strange to say the least

But not unexpected at a place like this.

“Abandon all Compassion”

Is the last thing I saw

Before I entered to get my things.

Written on the walls as I exit

Never noticing it when I entered.

A long walk home

The worst time to wear heels,

What was once a humid night

Now sends shivers down my spine.

Not a soul in sight

As I walk under the city lights

6 more to go until

Im abandoned,

Walking in the shadows

The moon being my only light.

Caught in the middle

Lighting a smoke to warm me up,

Struggling to light the flame

In the distance I see a red light.

Engine grows louder the closer it gets

Full speed like its running away…..

Or chasing after something in the distance.

Running

Not wanting to find out what happens if I stay

Getting closer and closer

Cant seem to get away

Collides with me,

Landed a feet ahead

Impact so strong

Ive seemed to have hit my head.

I open my eyes

As if I had woken up from a dream

It felt so real

Unsure of where I am now.

Some man hovering over me assuring im okay

His bike parked in the middle of the road

I can’t seem to see his face.

Pitch black

No light between us

I can’t find the moon in the sky.

Just wanting to get home

I hitch a ride.

Something feels different

I no longer feel cold,

I feel lighter on my feet

Heels no longer holding me down.

Sitting in the backseat

As the engine begins to turn

The lights go.

I look back

A body lays in the distance,

A blood trail leads to the bike,

Only to realize the man that found me

Was no man at all.

Horns as sharp as knifes

Protruding through his skull

Once well kept

Now red and disfigured

With a menacing smirk on his face

As we drive off into the night.

I saw the devil

Before he un alived me, leaving me for dead.

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Death of Hope

The story goes

There was a man who sucked the life out of everything around him

Every step he took everything around him would perish

Destroying everything in his path, for what laid in front of him was a

Never ending path of destruction and pain

Carrying around on his back a reminder of who he was

One day he decides to turn around and see the destruction that laid behind him

All he can see was the bodies of loved ones, and a decaying world

However

In the distance he sees something that he never seen before

A Woman standing in the distance (Date: March 1st 1993)

The truth is the woman has be lingering behind him almost like a shadow but he never really noticed she was there

All he could do was keep walking

But Eventually

She caught up to him

Walking towards him

Once standing miles away shortly became inches

Confused as how she had not fallen

She walks up to him

While holding something in her hand

He looked at her hand shocked to see what she was holding

He stairs at the debris that is in her hand

Not understanding what had happened but a flower had emerged from the debris

He was scared to touch her or the flower because he knew what would become of them both if he did

So for every step he took she followed

Like his shadow

His name was Death

Her name was Hope

Death kept looking back to see if Hope was still there and she was

The thing is

Hope loved Death

Despite the path he had left and the power he had. She didn’t care she loved him all the same

Eventually Hope finally caught up to Death

Standing infront of him infront on his path

All death could do was look at hope and feel her presents but he knew he couldn’t touch her for the fear that she would not be with him anymore

But Hope couldn’t resist

While raising her hand to his face

Death prevents her from touching him

But gripping her wrist before should could touch him

Death had hated who he was and what he was capable of

As he watched Hopes lifeless body lay on the ground

He couldn’t help but feel responsible

That feeling of Hope was gone

All he could do was move forward

Because he knew there was nothing for him if he were to go back

Seconds became minutes

Which become hours

Which became days

Which became months

Which became years

While walking the path of destruction Death had never looked back once since that day.

It was a painful reminder of what he had done and he never forgave himself.

Eventually Death grew tired of walking and grew tired of who he was

All he could do was stop

And stare at the ground

Standing in the same spot for over a decade not looking forward not looking back

All he could feel was the guilt for killing Hope

It’s October 5 2019

Death knows all he can do is keep walking

But before he does

he turns back once more

to see if he will see Hope in the distance

Disappointment is all he he could feel for he does not see anything but destruction

But

What stood in front of him

Is what left him confused

It was Hope

Hadn’t seen her in 23 years

He couldn’t formulate words to speak

For he did not no what to say

All death could do was drop to his knees

And his sight had fallen off his back

What confused death even more was the tear that had shed from his eye

For he had never cried before until that day

While down on his knees hope removed the hood of death and laid a kiss on his forehead

For she had not fallen this time

Because

Hope was a powerful feeling that sat in deaths heart from the day she died

And from then on he knew that he wasn’t the monster he grew to hate anymore.

For Hope lived in his hearth

Forever.

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