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morningmask27 · 9 months

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i've accidentally been thinking too hard for the last two hours about my family and a trio of fictional siblings and the trauma's that I experienced and the shit they went through... Accidentally made some discoveries...

#morningtalks #Love psychoanalyzing myself at 3 am #I wanted to sleep early...#All that for wanting to fix my sleep schedule...#Anyways. I just stumbled upon the fact I had no actual parental figure in my childhood.#I had my mother who was working or at home tired from working or sick and dealing with Problems #My grandparents who dealt with my physical needs (sometimes to an overbearing degree) but I couldn't go to them #Not for personal matters anyway.#That was kinda still my mother's role. But simply because there was nobody else #And my own sister has this sort of weird stop where she kinda acted more like a weird aunt to me than a sister. 9 year age difference and a #But that was only in my teens and later. Before that I would go to my mother. Be briefly tolerated and then sent away because she was busy.#And I couldn't go to my grandparents so I was just Dealing With It.#Fun fact. I have had a serious gimmick of being a teachers' pet since I was 8 or so. It definitely came from my lack of adults that cared #For my emotional needs. I was going through DRAMA at school and they were basically the ones I had to turn to.#Ah.... Family. What a fun thing!

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