#OSDD is from ✨trauma✨ tho

[protectingtulpas]

So is a tulpa/tulpa system like something you manifest out of loneliness as a kid? Is it developed through maladaptive daydreaming? How do you know you're not controlling it anymore? And does trauma not play a role in this at all, like is it the result of childhood creative outlet?

The reason I ask is because I used to do a lot of maladaptive daydreaming as a child, and I didn't feel like I had alters then. But I felt like I had emotional parts when I hit puberty. Now I feel like I may or may not have some sort of dissociative disorder, but I have a significant portion of characters/fictives, but I also have other parts that come from somewhere else. And I'm not sure if I developed this system on my own or if it happened as a result of childhood trauma.

These are genuine questions, of course you don't have to answer, but I really think you might be able to help me a bit.

Heyo! That's a lotta questions! Lemme see if I can sort em out for ya /lh

- It's pretty common for tulpas to be made cuz the host is lonely, but that's not the only way they can happen, and it doesn't have to be as a kid! Tulpas can be made at (pretty much) any age for any reason, with enough dedication. A good chunk of the accidental tulpa community started out being imaginary friends that became sentient, tho!

- Plurality that comes from maladaptive daydreaming, neuronarration, etc tend to call themselves paragenic. A para is the term for a daydream character, and a parative is a system member that was originally a para in some kinda way.

- Trauma caaann play a role in tulpamancy, but it's not really common and not necessary at all. Sometimes hosts will be motivated to create a tulpa cuz of traumatizing reasons, but it's up to the tulpa themselves if they wanna consider emselves traumagenic or adjacent at all. It sounds like ya didn't push too hard for these headmates' creation- as accidental tulpa is defined as a tulpa created by somebody who went thru the tulpamancy process without realizing it. If you wanna figure out if your headmates are created in any way, I'd compare those experiences to other tulpa guides and stuff.

- If you want my armchair recc on where to start based on what it sounds like for your experiences tho, I'd check out along with the MaDD links above: median/midcontinuum systems (systems with facets), mixed systems, mixed origin systems, and OSDD. A good portion of our c-ptsd stems from living as autistic in a situation we can't handle but NTs could, so don't forget that what counts as trauma depends on how the mind processes it, not assumed "severity". Take time & research before self diagnosing. Don't forget fictives can come from any origin tho ✨✨

Pretty sure that covers it all- good luck figuring it out!!

[phantomkinoc13]

Honestly kinda fucked up that conditions don’t have like. A maximum. Im autistic. I have asthma. I have spinal issues that cause chronic back/neck pain. I have chronic Vestibular Migraine. This culminates into some pretty bad chronic fatigue. I am constantly either in pain, having episodes of vertigo and nausea, overstimulated, or physically and mentally exhausted. And that doesn’t even account for mental illness. And my migraines are often triggered by stress, and given that i have a severe anxiety disorder.. yeah ugh.

Chronic back pain AND Chronic Vestibular Migraine? My body really said ‘u need to lay down’