#OUT OF IDEALS { ooc. }

[templeofvengeance]

[These quizzes are so fkin hard to do for Khonshu]

[venacoeurva]

The twin cousins to "he would not say that", "He would not be a good parent" and "He would not be a parent at all"

[balancebonded]

do you ever think about how people in the pkmn world have to live with the knowledge that the world has nearly ended at least three separate times.

[outofthiisworld]

ᯓ☣️˖° is this piss yellow. am i gonna make this bastard piss yellow themed???

[tvckerwash]

rvb au where everything is the same but the soldiers on chorus all wear odst armor

[drengar]

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[piningpercussionist]

(ooc)

*clawing my way out of my grave*

I finally restocked the queue! Sorry for my continual Corpse behavior,, but you should have regularly scheduled content again for a bit!

[ebitenpura]

Long time no swtor thinkpiece, but.

Thinking about Eight in the IA class story and then who he is post-Alliance; going from a bold, daring and casually ambitious wildcard to someone who feels as if he's lost most of his zeal to become rather...listless. Empty. Not to say that he isn't fulfilled by his work in the Alliance (who all make exceptions to have him do anything but murder all day) but he starts picking up more mundane activities like, peeling potatoes for the Alliance cantina, or doing minor tasks that don't involve much thought on his own volition-- a stark change from a man who only cared about his blade and who it fell on. It's like he's been soundly defeated by the circumstances surrounding him.

Then there's the issue of his companions, who only knew him as their cunning leader who stopped at nothing to achieve his goals, even using some of them in the process, who now appears to be an entirely different person. One who quietly fades into the background, instead of being in the thick of it. He's changed.

His skills haven't waned, but his voice is flat, his eyes without gleam, his all consuming desire that drove him to accomplish the impossible by the day naught but simmering ashes by the time they reunite with him in KOTXX. He even apologizes to some, without explanation. This distresses Vector, in particular, who witnessed the worst of his sides way back in the day. "It's not me you should apologize to, Agent." Vector can only quietly say, "I have never held you in ill regard for the choices you've made, anathema as they were to my principles." It's a conversation that peters off, but one that Eight never had, never had soon enough --his firm refusal to rectify or acknowledge that Vector could choose him over his own ideals is one that gnaws at him on the inside for years, on his own belief that people cannot change what they truly believe in, and so there is no point in trying to make amends for what bridges he burns in the pursuit of his own wishes. This, and many other denials, compound over the years into a rather hurtful self-made solitude that follows him long into the Alliance. (A mother will never give up her son. There is no other way. I cannot change my nature as a weapon. Their rejection of me is something I must accept.) A punishment, but for who?

Perhaps he still feels he's failed the last mission Keeper entrusted to him. The one that asked him to become a real, living person, and not just a sword dressed in imperial colors.

Eight spirals during the events of the Eternal Empire. He watches his downfall happen in real time. There's little he does about it. His home is gone, as are the people he fought for--Keeper, Watcher 2, Intelligence--and this new age is only filled with allies he cuts down faster than he can imprint their names into his memory. He's alone in this fight at the behest of others who do choose their ideals over him, who, in the end, turn away in fear and disgust when he bloodies his blade in their name. He makes no effort afterwards to right his image in their minds. He plays the villain, if others will not. For the first time, he tires of killing.

This leaves him alone, an outcast even among friends. Eventually, amongst the ruin their failed Alliance leaves in its wake, someone asks why things turned out this way; his lack of a will in the greater fight comes to light and sets several alarm bells off. Lana reduces his duties on the battlefield. Others, out of shared guilt and a fear of the bloodshed he wreaked on their orders, give him a wide berth to live normally for a while. It's not much and does little to his disillusionment and estrangement with his allies, but...it's a start.

Eight the Assassin turns into just Eight. And Eight the former agent, ex-Cipher, killer extraordinaire who never once dreamed of the stars, turns into someone who quietly watches the sun set on a world he barely recognizes,l but still stays up to see it, potato peeler in hand.

[ask-cueball]

Lil status update, the next post IS being drawn currently! I was on a trip out of state for 3 weeks and it made it difficult to work on anything, let alone this comic, but I'm home and settled now so I'm more capable of working on things.

I mostly wanted to just make this post saying that the Cohost I was setting up for Ask Cueball is now unfortunately cancelled, as Cohost announced earlier this month that they will be shutting down by the end of the year. I am still looking at alternative options, including Pillowfort, as well as possibly setting something up on a Neocities when I have the time to fiddle with all that code. But until then, this Tumblr account is still the only place to read Ask Cueball. Anywhere else is a repost, and is NOT approved by me in any way.

[5ubjugate]

wait so let's say. the star plasma incident didn't happen and they didn't deliver riko to tengen.... like. they would be in trouble, right? would gojo and geto need to hide her or run away or sumn?

[trblshot]

[[ People who are overly polite make Nero uncomfortable. He keeps thinking if he so much as breathes in their direction they'll explode. And that's without him meaning to be rude or antagonistic to begin with.

Nero voice (after IASIP's Frank Reynolds) "if he touches me I'm gonna FREAK OUT!"

[manofhisideals]

Kunikidaaa you so obviously like sasaki

I can tell she likes you too, but shes scared

Just talk to her pleaseee fir the love of all that is good in this world

─ 🖋️ ; “Why is everyone trying to convince me to talk to her and admit that I like her? I said no already. If I chose Miss Sasaki, I'll betray my ideals. If I chose my ideals, I'll betray Miss Sasaki. So what's the point of falling in love with someone you really.. really.. grieved for. I just don't get what is the point, it's not like the world's entirely ending if I don't confess to her. It's my choice and my ideals not to. I don't want her to feel second place if I still follow my ideals, Dazai.”

[fleuredelys]

I can't tell 100% sure if 「Come to Light」 is supposed to be an hallucination provoked by Leviathan in order to have her succumb and eventually do its bidding or something else, but that video gave a really good insight of what Fleurdelys' must've gone through during those 20 years of confinements, fighting time and time again against Leviathan in order to stay in control. It is also very understandable that she'd reach to the point of believing firmly that the only way out of it all, as well as to stop being a threat to humanity is just ending her (this without the knowledge that Threnodians can't die so long as human civilization continues to exist).

[thanatologie]

anon - emmrich and lucanis recommend romantic candidates for emmrich

so like…i won't say flat out no to this?  but i don't think it works right out of the box.  so it's like this:

+ lucanis and spite are dealing with their own shit.  the prison shit, the having to wear a permanent get along shirt shit, his nonna being murdered and then not murdered shit, his cousin being a weasel ratfucker shit, there's a lot going on in the world of lucanis and spite, and it compounds if treviso gets blighted.  but the hurt / comfort! you might say.  yeah, you can have that without making it weird when it's obvious this guy needs to make peace with his inner demon and get like.  at least three weeks solid of sleep before he does literally anything else.  like i feel like apocaromances are generally a dicey thing, anyway, but with the shit he's also dealing with, and that spite's dealing with, romance and establishing boundaries because he's literally sharing his body is somewhere near the bottom of the list of things he's worried about.

+ emmrich reaches out to spite and lucanis as a professional courtesy.  his concern is mainly spirits, right, and while lucanis is kind of an anomaly - not being a mage but possessed, even if he very likely has some weird fade shit going on with him to begin with - and of course he'd be curious how it's possible, and he'd want to - as a professional - make sure they're both as happy with the arrangement as they can be and learn to work together, because otherwise it would be irresponsible of him to leave them that way.  and like i don't think it's weird that they'd end up friends after it all, they clearly become conversational beyond spite and lucanis's situation, that's all emmrich's doing there.  it's his job.

+ all that being said, i don't think it's impossible.  they get along well enough, they have enough in common they would have plenty of quality time activities together, but like.  if anything were to happen there, i definitely don't think it would be before the gods were taken out, and definitely probably not before lucanis got his house in order and emmrich figured out what he'd want to do with himself once everything was over.  and it wouldn't be a fast thing, it'd be the slowest of slowburns.  like…ridiculously slow.  maybe not for emmrich on his end, he catches feelings fast, but lucanis clearly…doesn't?  like it's not a stretch to say he's at the very least demisexual and i think it would just take time if anything were to develop between them.

which isn't a no.  it's a…with the right timing and situations it could very well be a yes, but it wouldn't be a fast thing, there'd be a lot of build up and handling of one's shit to get there.

[fusionbolts-a]

my long term plans for this blog includes a full remake because everyone connected to my canon except for xae has since left the rpc so fuck it I might as well incorporate my new lore from Discord. I write both of them now.

Anyway have a sketch of Adair. Yes he's based on Odysseys Hades II!!! Because I can!!!!

also one of him and his brother (I forgot to re-flip the sketch so he's missing the wrong arm tho lmao)

[witchkillr]

agatha would have said that she was incapable of love. she would have said that mother raised a monster and she doesn’t want to be anything else. on both counts she would be lying, but at least then no one would bother her anymore.