#RIP DIDNT MEAN TO WRITE ANGST AGAIN SORRYYY

[ritz-writes]

Spotlight Macaque sings his feelings feelings away.

One day (not sure when in the story it is) he's feeling like shit, remembering his old life. Specifically remembering his relationship with Wukong. So, he goes to the theater at like one in the morning cuz he can't sleep. He goes up onto stage and just stands there for awhile, staring at the empty seats. Eventually, he plugs his phone in and starts to play the instrumental of Kindergarten Boyfriend.

He feels embarrassed when he does stuff like this, but it helps him get his feelings out. His friends say its not healthy for him to keep stuff like that in, after all. But he doesn't want to explain the situation to anyone, doesn't want to say any of it out loud, so instead he sings alone.

Except he's not alone. He's not the only cast member that goes to the theater in the middle of the night. Two others, B and E (you two will have names at some point i promise) were there trying to get a move down that E was having trouble with. They left for awhile to take a break and get some drinks, and when they came back it was too the sound of Macaque beginning to sing.

When Macaque sings alone, especially in a place where he feels safe, everything else melts away. Normally, he'd be able to hear them walking, hear the two girl stop just before exiting backstage, hear their heartbeats. But all he focused on was getting his feelings out.

B and E immediately knew he was singing about his ex. They could tell the song hit close to home for Macaque, based on his body language and the way his voice strained every now and again.

"Certain boys are just for kindergarten. Certain girl are meant to be alone."

Macaque's voice cracks here. He has to take a deep breath and steel his nerves, actually skipping the 'but I believe that any dream worth having' line in order to get his composure back.

Just when he's singing the last notes, E's shoe squeaks, finally alerting Macaque to the fact that he's not alone. E panics, explaining that they didn't mean to eavesdrop, but they didn't want to interrupt. Macaque's eyes are wet when he turns around and tries to come up with some excuse, tries to leave so he can die of embarrassment back at home, but B just walks over and pulls him into a hug.

"If he hurts you again, I'll kick his ass," is all she says.

Macaque tries not to cry, he really does, but then E joined in and, well...

It's been a good few years since he had a shoulder to cry on.