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Saif Ali Khan Out of Danger: Updates on His Recovery Journey

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Recovery journey update: Sadhguru's health is improving steadily

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[gracievanbrunt]

Hi guys! 

 I know I haven't posted a vlog about my recovery in a while, it's been a crazy past couple of months...full of ups and downs. Lots of mixed emotions. But I wanted to share ALL parts with you!! I hope you enjoy my journey =) 

 ***If you are someone going through a bone-marrow transplant, have a bone-marrow/blood disorder, or are just going through anything medically challenging...just know that YOU can do this. You are strong, you are beautiful, you are loved and you can make it through whatever tough weathers you are faced with. Stay positive and make sure to LOVE YOURSELF. I LOVE YOU AND I AM HERE FOR YOU!!!!! 

 Thank you again for all of your continuous support and love. With much love and gratitude, Gracie

[woodslcharleen]

L-r: Day 1 - Day 3.... literally R.I.C.E. & applying vaparu(vicks lol) & primarily straight lavender essential oil to assist internal healing . Thankful I'm able to move all my toes & stand but not a long duration. . This Day 3 so continue to R.I.C.E & take it One day at a time! . #LsJourney #RecoveryUpdate #Chapter41HasBeenAHellaRide #ThankfulAndBlessed #TheMsLWoods https://www.instagram.com/p/CE2LPo5pQVJzP-4ijlrqN4BhdUfK8TF11JwjaQ0/?igshid=pc2st8l8ocbj

[inrecoveryxoxo]

day 62 - 2/9/21

today was alyx’s bday. i think i said happy bday like 23239 times. cant believe we met when she was 14. now she’s 17 and im 19. insane... to think about. time flies! i cant keep up sometimes, but i’m moving with the wind now. i’m going forward not backwards. i no longer think about the c*lt, gabbi, or even my catfishes. now i’m in the present, looking toward what’s coming. 

[u-r--lovely]

Recovery Update:

DIDN’T get on a feeding tube today!! I ate 100% at breakfast and was able to prove to my doctor that I am motivated because I really don’t want to be on the tube. I ate 100% at lunch and dinner AND drank all of my fluids. I felt so so SO guilty and veryyyy full after each meal. Each bite was a horrible struggle, it took me sooo long to finish all my meals but I fucking DID it!! I don’t want to give up, I want to keep on trying for recovery. I need to FIGHT FOR MY LIFE. I will update as the days go on too.

[u-r--lovely]

RECOVERY UPDATE:

I’m about to see my therapist I had at my first ever eating disorder program IOP— FOUR years ago when I was 18. She’s the person who told me “Gracie your full of shit” and got me to step up and give Recovery a real shot. I have my last session with my current IOP therapist and dietician today and my last day of IOP tomorrow. I’ve been with Monte Nido for six months and damn am I excited yet anxious as fuck. Really hoping I work well with L as my new outpatient therapist! Wish me luck! Things are seriously looking up and I’m so so happy about it all.

[u-r--lovely]

Recovery Update:

Yesterday I had a sort of mini intervention. The assistant clinical director came into my therapy session and we talked a lot. They basically said that they were frusterated because I keep saying how I want to stop self harming and everything yet I keep struggling with it. It’s like I’ve been in this endless tug of war with the treatment team. I agreed and shared my thoughts of how hard it is to give up both the ED and SH. I reminded myself though that I selfharmed my way through all of treatment last year and the work I did didn’t stick at all, I ended up relapsing. I think I need to REALLY recover from both things in order to have lasting recovery and freedom. Today is day one. 24 Hours. Just 24 hours. 

[u-r--lovely]

Recovery Update:

I leave in ten minutes for my day pass for the funeral today. I’m so so anxious but know that I need to be with family/friends today. I really struggled with meals the day before yesterday but was able to finish all my meals/snacks yesterday and finished my breakfast this morning. I’ve been struggling with scratching myself/bruising but I’m just proud of myself for not cutting myself in anyway. I am still 8 months cutting free and that’s what matters most to me. I also haven’t purged in maybe a week now so that’s pretty crazy. They had me pack my lunch and two snacks while I’m out today but I really don’t know if I’ll be able to do them honestly. I’ve been here for officially two weeks and I feel like I’m still having such a difficult time. I’m still on Level one and because I restricted the other day I won’t be on level 2 next week either so I’m just feeling a bit hopeless at the moment. I am struggling a ton with not knowing my weight and want to know what it is desperately. Thankfully while I’m home I’m going to bring back my ukulele, and lot’s of cute rompers, jeans, dresses, my vans, and other cute as fuck clothes so I can feel more confidence in myself 

[u-r--lovely]

Recovery Update:

Tomorrow I will have been here at Residential for a whole month. It’s crazy how time flies yet the days feel so long. I feel like I haven’t progressed at all unfortunately. Looks like I’m going to be staying here for probably another month to two months. I mean one girl just left and she was here for 4 months. UGH. I want to go back to school this semester but I know that school starts at the end of August and I’ll have to be in PHP for a month at least so I’m just gonna have to be like a month late for school and do the class assignments online. I am almost 4 days self harm free but those urges are extremely high. I’m over a week purge free but those urges are super high too and I’ve only been completing 100% like in the past week really. I’m almost at my first goal weight my dietician said which is scary because that means I’m half way to the weight that I need to be at. I’m scared that my body is changing way too fast and it’s super disorienting. I feel like I’ve JUST started to open up to my therapist but it’s just super hard to feel motivated. Four new people are coming in because so many people left and I’m worried everyone here is just going to be struggling and be triggering as fuck. I still CAN’T smoke cigarettes and it’s legit fucking killing me inside. I probs will have to wait another week until I can show them that I’m safe and can handle myself. I keep panicking and just had a crazy weird dissociative episode where I thought everything was a dream. Good thing is that I’ve challenged myself this week with foods that are uncomfortable and I’m resisting all of the purging urges by using lots of coping skills. I’ve been playing my ukulele and working on a large jigsaw puzzle and crushing ice. I even ripped up loads of newspaper today. I’m gonna contact my school in the morning and figure things out too. Hoping that my mom and grandma come to visit me sometime next week too. Will update more when I can. Message me if you read all of this I love u SO SO much. <3

[u-r--lovely]

Recovery Update:

I’ve officially been here for 6 weeks. It’s the longest I’ve ever been at a residential level of care. Last year I was in Res AND PHP for 7 weeks. I’m so scared. I really am still struggling with self harm, but I know that this all is happening for a reason. I have had 7 years of pain and anger and grief to work through while here. I have hard hard hard work to move through, cry through, and grow through. I am so damn scared to give away, let go, and say  goodbye to all that I’ve had to protect me these past 7 years but I swear that I am going to RISE from this all. I talk to my school today to figure out my fall plans and I think I am going to defer until the spring and just do PHP and get a part time job and focus on my recovery FULLY the rest of the year. I have to do it. I have to continue to FIGHT my hardest ever.

[u-r--lovely]

Recovery Update:

So unfortunately insurance cut me from my inpatient stay and I’m home right now. I have such mixed emotions because a part of me was really feeling trapped their and another part of me is going to miss the lovely people their so so so fucking much. It’s like their were parts of me in every person their. I’m really struggling with intense emotions rn but I’ve got to just trust in God. I will hear back from insurance in the morning as to whether I can start residential this Friday at Monte Nido in Long Island or if I have to wait another two weeks for a bed at the Irvington location. My body image is shit bc of course I’m obsessing over my weight, I got up to halfway to my Ideal Body Weight in literally a week, so kinda freaking out abt tht but I know I have to just accept it. I’m seeing the doctor in the morning too for a check up. Very very thankful for ciggerettes and unlimited coffee right now though. :P

[u-r--lovely]

Recovery Update:

The staff TOOK AWAY my stuffed animal bunny!!!!! You aren’t supposed to have them really but a nice staff member gave me mine and I was supposed to keep it in my room but have been hiding it under the bench. I’m REALLY attached to it. It makes me feel safe from the Trauma just like my ED did and know that I’m not self harming or binging and purging and don’t have my Bunny I’m not safe AT ALL. Like wtf. I just wanna leave and sign a 72 but I can’t because then PHP won’t take me. So I either stay here for around 3 more weeks (that’s about how long it’ll take me to gain the weight) or just leave and pray I can recover on my own through AA meeting’s. I highly doubt I’ll be able to do that but I’m still so so tempted. I wanna selfharm soooo fucking badly omGGGG. But I can’t can’t can’t give up after 7 months. I wanna punch the wall or scream or cry or just fucking do something that will hurt myself but make it look by accident or just workout all night or idk idk idk I just hate everything and wanna run away from myself. 

[u-r--lovely]

recovery update:

The doctor is post-poning me getting the ng tube in because I completed 100% at breakfast!! This is it, this is it guys. I gotta complete 100% at all my meals and fluids in order to not have it put in. I can do this. I have to do this. 

[u-r--lovely]

Recovery Update:

So looks like because I’m not medically unstable I don’t fit the criteria for Inpatient...but like I know that if I go to an intake at PHP they will recommend Residential...but like I don’t wanna go far away and don’t really wanna try Renfrew for the 4th time. UGH I hate everything, why they gotta make me feel not sick enough?? Gonna talk to my doctor and then will either call the other Inpatient Hospital and see if they will take me, or just go to PHP (day program) and see if going their will be enough to help. Or atleast just go their until I found out a place to go for Residential...idk

[u-r--lovely]

Recovery Update:

Hey guys, so I’m really struggling with the eating disorder again. :/ Been struggling for the past 2 months. Just started seeing my doctor weekly, so she can check up on my medical stuff and just got my blood work done today so I’ll get that back within a day or two. That’ll determine if I need to go to the ER for any really low deficiencies but it shouldn’t be too bad if I do go, just go in and get the IV fluids and I’m good. School’s over in two weeks but I’m gonna try to get extended time on my assignments as it’s been terribly hard to concentrate on anything ( I wonder why!). My whole self feels like its completely invaded by the eating disorder and feels like I have no control or voice at all. I guess I’m just really cynical, feels like I’m going to perpetually go in and out of treatment my whole life. I’m researching treatment centers though, I might wanna go back to Selah House but I’m not 100% positive, we shall see. I’m thinking maybe an inpatient though because maybe my time will be shorter then. (I know I need to be in Tx as long as I need too) BUT I also don’t want my whole summer to be Tx. Honestly, I think I get wayyy too comfortable in residential and that could set me back like (oh if I don’t eat, then i can stay here longer and not face the real world). I feel like a hospital setting would be so absolutely shitty and hellish that it’ll motivate me to want to get better and out of there idk. I just hate how I’m such a failure, disappointing all my friends and family--worrying them. Damn. The perfect world would be that I could be 90 pounds and love my self and eat what I want, be happy. But that’s not reality--I can’t have both the eating disorder AND life. I think right now I’m just having a hard time deciding between the two.