#TEE HEE DREY ANGST >:)

[mrdreyferin-stain]

nothing to worry bout here

gods, they fucking have felt so shit. imm barelly able toype with these fuckers ofb arms. like,, fhe feeling in them. it hurts. its the last reminents of them and just. gods fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fu

shit, why couldnt they just be numb. ensas arms work, they sure fucking do, and im grateful as hell, but also gods does moving them hurt. youd think id be strong enough to handle it now, but nope. im just as "strong" as i was before. how the hell did i even get on that gods-damned ship. i found family by running from the one i had? fucking hell, how stupid is that. id say sorry, but who the fucks gonna listen. jayson is himself, so is that old lady (i cant judge age, i barely remember mine.), and i dont think i could face jaybird or ava without becoming a sopping mess.

words wont mean shit, and what the fuck can i do? i barely can handle my broken arms. i want to say sorry to elizabeth and chip, because they were there and shouldn't have been. i want to say sorry to finn because i took forever to get back to him. im sorry arlin ive let you stay lost still. sorry captain rose, you got the shit off the ferin familys boot, not the mate you looked for. look where we are now.

sorry to my new captains that you looked up to me ever. im not as good as i was before, and i wasnt ever great then. if i was, i bet we wouldn't have fallen in. i would have grabbed your hand and pulled you out.

gods why cant my arms be numb.