#THIS IS MY BLOG I CAN TALK ANOUT MY INTERESTS

[yeyayeya]

I really am sorry by annoying my non-TGCF mutuals/followers by reblogging so much shit about it and screaming but I’ve been waiting for this for so long

Imma become MORE annoying when the first episode of Season 2 releases

I cannot emphasize how fucking happy, excited, and thrilled I am because of it

sorry not really sorry

[bluizu]

PFP credit to Laulo821!

created: June 26, 2022

last updated: March 22, 2024

my alts: @addison-on-olemassa (my OC Addison) @pollizu (random polls and such) @ikaeon (my oc Ika, which doubles as Pokemon IRL)

I LOVE ASKS. DO NOT FEEL AFRAID TO ASK ME ANYTHING. IF YOU SEND ME AN ASK I LOVE YOU AND WILL CHERISH YOU FOREVER. ACTIVELY BEGGING YOU TO SEND ASKS. TALK TO ME ASK ME SOMETHING TELL ME ANOUT YOUR DAY IDC ANYTHING MAKES MY DAY!!!!!!!!!

hi! I'm blue/bluizu, you can call me either :] welcome to my chaotic blog! I am genderqueer and transmasc, and go by any pronouns except she/her. I'm also demisexual and omni, because... guy and girl and enby preby,,,,,. btw, a reminder that I am a minor because I've been sent way too many inappropriate messages. also, spam likes and reblogs are absolutely allowed <3

(I take requests! I currently have a shit ton of art block, but here are the rules)

My special interest is geography, and i LOVE maps. I also adore Pokémon and the games!!!!You may find posts of me when i had a hyperfixation on Markiplier and Jacksepticeye. I've had hyperfixations of LOTS of other things, some of which can be found in the tag list below!

tags to block if it's not for you:

Blue is feeling blue: Vent posts (commonly about my former paranoia, depression, derealization, and sometimes my current body/gender dysphoria).

Blue is pissed: Anything surrounding hierarchies and/or inequality. I often forget using this, apologies!

Blue spam: When i... spam. Or just random nonsense. Bluizu roulette

Blue loves ISWM: Any Markiplier related stuff, excluding the Iron Lung movie.

Blue loves Toby: Any UNDERTALE or DELTARUNE related stuff, including anything else Toby has made.

Blue loves JJ: Any Jacksepticeye related stuff.

Bluebird: Photos of birds.

Blue can't draw: my art! I accept criticism, as long as it isn't blatant hate. I have been drawing for around 3 years now and I think I'm starting to find my art style.

Blue misses Varl: Any HZD or HFW related stuff. WARNING FOR SPOILERS

Blue isn't real: Dreamcore, Weirdcore, Kidcore, Traumacore or other colorful/ derealization-related aesthetics. this content may be paranoia/ derealization inducing, please block this tag if you're triggered by such things. i no longer suffer from dpdr, but if you do, please know it gets better. im proud of you for getting this far.

Bluedew: Stardew valley. That’s it.

Blue is Zin: Furry art, fursuits ect.

Blue adores Marina: Animal Crossing, mainly Animal Crossing New Horizons.

Blue loves Venus Fly Traps: Any carnivorous plants, including my own Dionaea Muscipula.

Blue had phases: My old/ recurring hyperfixations (Pokémon, ratchet and clank, Spiderman, DSMP (FUCK WILLIAM GOLD), Minecraft)

Blue's hall of fame: my best posts/reblogs. ever.

Blue is neurodivergent: Anything regarding AD(H)D, autism, depression, derealization, psychosis, schizophrenia, paranoia ect. that isn't a vent.

Blue has moots: My mutuals/friends <3 (I'm doing this tag literally just so i can scroll through all our interactions they make me sosossoosoo happy)

Spidey and co.: My own Venus fly traps! my biggest trap is named Spidey, and thus this tag got its name.

Blues and yellows: 🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪SWEDEN🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪

Blue bolero hours: Käärijä!!

Bluerovision: My eurovision, and most used, tag!

Blue knows geography: Maps, Countries, Culture, History, etc. basically what your geography teacher would talk about

Blue and co.: My OCS! Blue creations: Anything that I’ve made.

Blue is here and queer: random announcements or other important posts, like this one!

Dni List:

Lgtqia+-phobe. Seriously. Go away.

anti-fiction/otherkin. I'm otherkin, so piss off.

Anti-recovery. let us be happy. get help. /gen

Rad-inclus/exclus.

Ableist, sanist, racist, ageist. I'll admit, i have internalized sanism, but i never react on it and am trying to get rid of it. don't be a shithead.

Pro-life. it's okay if you want to argue with me about this. as long as you try to help me keep it civil and see my side of it.

Fascist. i am a socialist, kiss my tits about it.

Nft-bro. go fuck yourself lmao.

Porn blog. this includes kinks, and other suggestive things. I am a minor, and while kink is completely chill, i feel uncomfortable with such things.

Non-traumagenic/supporters. i know systems, and i don't want to make them uncomfortable. i choose not to take a stance on non-traumagenic systems, seeing as i am a singlet and don't know as much about OSDDID as others do.

Trigger warnings:

I use Queer completely untagged. it isn't a slur; it's been completely reclaimed by the lgbtq community.

I am a casual member of the Dream SMP community, and i absolutely understand if you have had bad interactions with the fandom, but if you feel comfortable enough giving me a chance i hope you'll feel safe here. the dream smp had been a big part of my recovery from depression, and they mean a lot to me.

i rarely forget to tag things like gore, but it happens, so be careful.

i will talk about past trauma on here, and it might trigger you, so block the tag Blue Is Feeling Blue to be safe.

that's kind of it! I'm going to update this from time to time, and this took longer than i expected, so there's definitely some errors here and there. but i hope this gives an insight to what i post/reblog here! have a great day :D

[mikami]

Sorry, I know you've been asked a lot anout it, but do you know of other people, or just their lists, that talk about Platinum End? I'm very interested in an analysis about that (and yours were very helpful) and at this point it seems like I need to read it myself to have a better idea about a more detailed statement. I am asking in case, well, maybe I can avoid doing it.

I didn't even know about it until I heard it on your blog and you seem to have an extensive knowledge on it.

Sorry about my English.

Sadly, nope...

Since I personally dislike most of PE except maybe its final chapter, I don't really seek out fandom content for it. I have no idea if anyone is writing analysis for it anywhere...

If you do read it, just go into it with the attitude of "how bad can it get?" so you'll be amused when it tops your expectations of awful and positively surprised if you do wind up liking any of it, haha.

[chandelyer]

The outfit with black jacket atop of the bra that she wears in Paris

We have a WINNER!!! I had to make a lq gifset because I couldn’t find any stills for this look... I feel like this outfit is SO underrated, but I’m pretty sure it sparked my interest for fashion when I first saw the movie at 11 years old.

Now, for the winner! You have 24h to come collect your prize (just shoot me an ask and we can talk anout what sorta outfit you’d like, etc.), if not, the title will be passed on to the second person who guessed right and so on. We are a serious prize-giving blog here! :P

[ragnarssons]

Hi! Hope you're well! I see youre blogging anout this show The Last kingdom. Is it good? Are you enjoying? It reminds me of the Vikings shoe

Hi! Thanks for your message :)) Yes I’m watching The Last Kingdom, I’ve been wanting to watch it for a while now, ahem. And what can I say? Yes it’s good, it’s so good, it’s- so before going into emotional rants about this show, lemme tell you about Vikings. There is approx a 200 years difference in time period between Vikings and The Last Kingdom, and while Vikings focuses on basically a group of Vikings trying to settle (originally) and then build an empire, The Last Kingdom is more about the wars between the Saxons and the Danes. It’s focused on the time period where Wessex was (almost) the only Kingdom still standing against the Danes who were slowly gnawing England (or what was meant to be England). So, to me, they’re different shows all in all even tho they do focus on Northmen culture, we do see lots of beautiful, bearded Vikings/Danes. We also see a lot of early England politics, it delves into of course, religion and beliefs. I have not watched Vikings for a while now, and tbh I’m far from an expert on Northern culture, but I did see a lot of people say that The Last Kingdom is more accurate than Vikings. From what I know, it is for sure already more accurate with the costumes for example (and the probs tho, especially the bows, my, these bows are beautiful), and the scales of things. Contrary to Vikings, it’s also a show that knows to be... “light” here and there, there are decent moments of humor without it being too much (or talks about brothels ahem take notes Game of Thrones). Of course, it’s still a show that deals with conquest and war: there are heavy scenes of pillaging, killing, burning, and taking slaves and talks about-... doing things to women. It’s certainly not as graphic and overly put as Game of Thrones, but it’s not erased like Vikings. Because, tbh, from what I remember, something Vikings really glossed over because huh let’s not even think about Ragnar or Bjorn being r*pists and all. What I find more interesting on The Last Kingdom is the complexity of the characters, their duality. The opposition between moral and duty (without dropping the words every two minutes, again take notes Game of Thrones). The characters switching sides and betraying someone makes sense, some decisions have long lasting effects through the show. I have yet to meet a character I 100% hate and NEVER agree with. There is always more to it, different characters and moralities and beliefs “having a point”. They can take the biggest bitch on this show and make them say something logical in a certain context and you’re like “umm they have a point”. There is no bad guy for the sake of being bad guys. The characters have relationships that, to me, are deeper than on other shows - especially the long lasting relationships. There are relationships that go away for what is, narratively, years and years and yet, when the characters meet again you FEEL it (take notes, The 100). I don’t know if it’s the ambiance, the writing, the actors, all in all together, but it works (to me, at least, idk?). So yes, all in all, I am enjoying it. To be known, I’m not a “sensitive” audience, so idk when I say “these scenes are not as graphic” they might still trigger some people (fyi if all this can be triggering to you, they’re still angry men at war yknow). I just want to put this out there if you need it, I mean, we all have different ways of reacting to this. I’m enjoying every moment, there is politics, war, awesome characters, brotherhood, bonds, fighting sequences, war sequences, horses (idk I love shows with horses). Lots of emotions, here and there taking you by surprise. There is a lot of honesty from the characters, which is something I like from shows in general (ofc there are weasels too). A looot of loyalty, which is a quality I really value in the characters I love, so that’s also something that really draws me in to be involved with the characters. The male characters are also very “touchy feely” and emotional with one another, which is something that exists on Vikings too, but for example really doesn’t exist on Game of Thrones. If you want BROTP, you’re gonna love this show. It is a show that knows that a story relies on its characters where the plot has to slow down (or where the budget might lack). I feel like the characters are (to me at least) more compelling on The Last Kingdom than on Vikings or Game of Thrones for example. I *sigh* as much as I adore Lagertha, like, truly, I do believe Last Kingdom has more compelling female characters than both Vikings and Game of Thrones. All in all... I HAVE A NEW BOY SQUAD I HAVE MORE CHARACTERS TO STAN OF COURSE I ENJOY IT AND I RECOMMEND IT

[peepo]

idk if this is a result of my upbringing in kinblr (i got professional help dw) but i’m very scared of sharing my personal life online unless i’ve oughta and it’s affecting me so much while i can’t talk to anyone about it. thankfully i have my therapist but also can’t share past traumas w her cause le living with parents has arrived

that’s actually kind of irrelevant to what i’m talking about but i wonder if the dichotomy (i’m talking out of my ass here) of me being much more invested in person to person relationships vs. the parasocial is due to [idk what i’m saying here actually so i’m gonna stop. i should prolly use vent for this but i usually use that for anger and stuff that i explicitly don’t want people to know, though now that i’m growing there’s less of that and i might have used it as a crutch to when i didn’t have a therapist at all. much to think anout]

either way the perfect parasocial relationship i’ve formed with a blog or just something i find intriguing is the tumblr user ellenanowav idfk how to spell it but to everyone i find interesting on the internet i also dm to try and make friends if i’m feeling courageous enough. i made one good friend this way and i think it’s a viable way to make friends though because it’s inorganic it can just lead to nothing and also people don’t type like they do on their blog spaces (public diaries) vs direct messages and it’s hard to gauge anything by anything and the internet is very confusing

[tessetc]

My anon opinion of you.. You cling to people way harder than you ever should. You can't let shit go because it distracts you from how horrid you are. You can't stay off social media because at least there people for whatever reason feel bad for you and send you pity. Almost everyone that likes your posts does it out of pity. You pretend you want to help yourself so people will pay you unwarranted praise. Instead of leaving a man you don't love anymore you cling to a racist fictional character.

Thank you for your objective and thoughtful assessment of my mental state, anon. You hit the nail on the head. I am clinging to my family longer than I should, and maybe it’s because after more than 20 years and two kids, I don’t think the decision to tear my family apart is one to be taken lightly.

I came to this site for a sense of community with people who enjoy reading and writing fanfiction and sharing other types of fan content. That is, I came here to talk about a topic I enjoy. Through that, I have made what I assumed were good friends, people I care about and whom I assumed cared about me in return. It’s an experience I felt was largely positive - from both ends.

I have never been happy recieving excessive and undeserved praise or concern. One of the reasons I deleted my previous blog was because i sometimes felt like the combination of people being fans of me as well as an overwhelming number of people being concerned when i expressed any unhappiness was stressful and constraining.

I don’t want people to feel bad for me or offer false sympathy. Why would I? Why would anyone want fake, unhappy relationships with anyone who is pretending to care to your face and then mocking you behind your back? I certainly wouldn’t treat someone else that way.

And to what end are people behaving that way at all? What does it benefit them to act like a kind person on the surface and then mock them in private? I suppose maybe it makes them feel superior? I don’t know.

I don’t require anyone’s pity or praise. I am a human being with good and bad points who tries to treat everyone with empathy and understanding as much as I can. I am trying to be honest anout myself and if people don’t like it, they are welcome to walk away. Hit unfollow. Block me. Whatever it takes.

I agree i am horrid. I am lazy and a bit self absorbed and i make promises I can’t keep. I am disorganized and fat and i tend to ramble on endlessly about things. I always take the best piece of dessert and i am kind of ugly and i hyperfocus on my interests to the detriment of my personal life and the people in it.

But i am not pretending to want to change these things. Why would i want to stay this way? Shockingly, I legitimately care about the people i care about (and humanity as a whole) and it is a terrible and upsetting thought that I might cause harm to someone.

As for clinging to a fictional character, that’s a bit much. We are all here because of our love of fictional characters and universes. I am not identifying with them nor do I believe i have a relationship with them that supercedes any relationship i hold with actual people. These are chararacters that I enjoy writing about and making up different stories about. I care as much about my own characters and some in other fandoms as well. The BOS boys are template characters for me to base my stories around and I have fun with that.

As for my spouse, oddly he is ok with this. We talk about it. He reads some of my work. We have problems and i question pretty heavily where my life is going with regards to this relationship. But as I said, 20+ years in is not something to destroy overnight on a whim.

Which brings me to a final point. I have not really discussed my relationship with very many people. I can probably tick off on one hand the people I have discussed anything other than mild annoyance with.

Yep. One hand.

So the question i have for you, anon, is who are you? You could only be one of a few people. Or else one of the people i trusted with personal information has decided I am attention seeking, pitiful, miserable and horrid person who deserves no social interaction of any kind, online or in real life, and has therefore decided that my private conversations and confidences are not worthy of being kept as such.

So either you are a very untrustworthy person, anon, or you are friends with someone who should'nt be trusted with anything private for fear they will run their mouth to anyone they talk to about anything they deem gossip worthy.

Now I suppose I could be wrong about this. I am sure most of my close friends are trustworthy. I know the sharing hasn’t been onesided and I know without a shadow of a doubt that anything told to me in private will remain so. I would never do anything as horrible, underhanded, and frankly cruel as to discuss private details shared in confidence.

As such I will continue to trust the people I have chosen to trust as I did not do so lightly and I still feel like they deserve my faith in their inherent goodness.

As for you, anon, whether you are the untrustworthy friend or just the friend of an untrustworthy friend who decided to take it upon yourself and assess my personality and self worth, i hope you have enough self-awareness to turn that back on yourself and ask yourself what on earth posessed you to inbox someone a message like this and what good you hoped to accomplish with it.