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ilongrangerfiona · 4 years

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We meet different kind of people for a reason, it may be in a bad or good way but nevertheless.. to make us learn wonderful lessons in life that would make us a better person in the future. The moment I saw your eyes, that’s when I know I want you to be in my life. Your hands felt so safe, your hugs felt so warm and your forehead kisses felt so right. I knew right there and then that YOU ARE MY PERSON and I really hope that YOU WILL BE. Time flies so fast and all of those times we were together, we both knew were having a lot of fun, love, sadness, heartaches and disappointments. Because we chose to love each other. We made choices that made us happy, sad and confused. But we both know that choosing each other was the very best choice we ever did in our lives. No regrets, just lessons learned. Up to now, I never ever regretted choosing you to be my first boyfriend and to be the first man who I ever felt TRUE LOVE. All the memories that we had will never feel right if its not you. Every corner of our house reminds me of you and of how much I was really happy when I’m with you. You gave me everything and you’ve proven how much you love me. God knows how much I am so happy, how much I am so thankful and how much I am blessed to have know Mr. Jandal T. Mangontra. You have taught me so much, in life, self, people, places, situations and LOVE. You have risked your own dream for Ms. Regine Salve B. Austero and I am very grateful for everything that you’ve done. You have loved my family and forget about your fears when you face them. And most importantly, you have loved me for who I am and accepted every inch of me. That is why you mean the world to me. Maybe you haven’t known how much happiness and joy you gave me, but let me describe it for you... You’re as handsome as the sun rises and sets. You’re as kind as a kid. You’re as soft as a cotton candy. You’re as bright as the sun at 12NOON. You’re as sweet as a cherry. You’re as yummy as a spaghetti. You’re the BESTEST OF THE BESTEST. Indeed, another human being is another human being’s weakness. And you will always be my weakness, langga. You are my strength and happiness. My inspiration and my better half. ❤

We both have mistakes in the past and I am truly sorry for not changing my attitude in the past. God knows how much I regretted not changing and not really meaning my promises. Then you come to the point that you don’t want to fight anymore and that you’re really tired of me. I understand langga. I don’t want to force you to love me because what I want now for you.. is to heal yourself, love yourself, do anything you want to do, go places, meet new people, explore the wonders of the world, do good on your job, get along with your co-workmates, get drunk a hundred times, be physically fit, look really good when you go out, smile A LOT, buy things you want to buy, be with your family, pray for your peace of mind, eat any delicious foods and when time comes.. you meet someone and its not me, know that I will always be happy for you. If she will make you happy and you will be happy with her, I will be happy for the both of you. Yes, I can really write this because in the past three years, you spend all your time to me. Enough of making me your priority. This time I want to be giving the things that you wanted for so long. YOU DESERVE ALL THE HAPPINESS AND LOVE IN THIS WONDERFUL WORLD, even if I’m not part of it anymore. That’s how much I love you. But that’s how you taught me about love... to be SELFLESS even if it hurts you inside. Thank you langga for making me the person I am today. For making me the strongest woman on earth right now. You will always be in my heart wherever I go and whatever I do. Your words, your face and your love.. I will bring them within me in whoever I will be in the future. Thank you Lord for letting me meet such a beautiful and wonderful soul like My Jandal.

This will be the first letter that I won’t tell you that I wrote. I just want to be truly honest to myself that I am still hoping that we will get back together by God’s grace and in the right time but I also have to choose myself like what you are doing right now. This is the best thing we can do for ourselves. For us to be mature, to understand life better, to slowly heal the wounds, to be whole again and to forgive ourselves from our mistakes in the past. I want us to be ourselves again like before... So that when God and time permits.. when the stars aligned again for us, the love that we will have for each other will be the beautiful and crazy story we will tell our children in the future. Things are hard right now but it will get better as time passes by. People will understand and see how much respect we have for each other and to everyone. It’s your time langga to be free and genuinely happy to yourself. Free yourself from the hate, anger, sadness, disappointments and heartaches. And if you miss me, you can always text, call and ask me to go out with you if I’m not busy. You know I will always make time for you, no matter how busy. I’m always here, still at your side and always got your back. Hihi. :”>

Guess its time for me to pick-up myself on where I left it too. I can only promise you ONE LAST TIME langga, that one day soon.. We will get that chance to love again, I promise you.. I am no longer toxic Regine that you have known from the past. My promises may be scary for you right now but nothing is impossible cause God is within me. I know I CAN BE SOMEONE BETTER THAN I AM RIGHT NOW. :”> I hope you will still be the Jandal that I have fallen in love with but the stronger and genuinely happier than you are right now. Also, I hope in that one day, you have forgiven me from the mistakes and heartaches I have given you. Praying for the best days of our lives to come langga. You will always be within my heart and mind. Its US who has the power to help OURSELVES. Even were apart, together lets do good in everything and be better in ourselves. Okaaay? We will get by my baby, “with a smile”. Iloveyouverymuch, my one and only langga.

Gusto pa rin kitang makasama sa langit kasi naniniwala pa rin ako sa #FOREVER. Halma na halma kita at wala ng iba pa!!! ❤ ❤ ❤

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