#They are both very ugly.And I love them for that

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My Sons

[lilmissbrightside]

I feel entirely unloveable.I see my two best friends having all these other friends always wanting to hang out with them,and people always wanna date them.They are both very attractive. I,on the other hand, am overweight and ugly.And there is certainly nobody seeking me out.Most times I'm left out of things.One of my best friends is a guy I've known for years.We dated years ago but it always came down to the same thing,as much as he says he wish he did he just doesn't love me or like me.He likes having sex with me,and he likes that I give him good advice sometimes.It seems like every time I need him though he doesn't seem to want to.Granted I'm not saying "I need you",it's more of a "I'm feeling very awful about myself" and being met with not a lot of support where as I am always super supportive of my friends.My friends tell me I'm beautiful and I am loveable I just don't put myself out there.Every time I do, however, I am met with disappointment as the new person always leaves.I don't know how to convince myself I will ever be loved when there seems to be so much tangible evidence that I'm just really not that important.Im having a really hard time seeing the point in a life where I'm just gonna keep repeating this cycle of feeling slightly better and then crashing again.Im at a breaking point and I don't know if I'm strong enough to dig myself out again,nor do I know if I even want to when I know nothing is gonna change.