#This wasn't showing up in the tags on my main account so Im posting it here :(

[princess-library-dead-account]

The Price of Love (pt. 2)

Part One Pairing: Karl Heisenberg X Gn!Reader Word count: 527 Genre: Drabble, light angst, kinda hurt/comfort, reluctant fluff Warnings/tags: past fighting, Stockholm sydrome, yandere but hes a loser, I can't let my babygirl be sad so here's a small sequel

The couch is lumpy and hard as you try to rest your heavy eyes. You shift, the leather sticking to your bare legs as you toss and turn. You groan, mad at yourself for storming out on Karl before you could grab your pillow and blanket. You sigh, trying to rest your tired eyes regardless. After a few moments you can't take it anymore, groaning before getting up. You walk over to Karl’s bedroom, opening the door and peeking in. You see him in bed naked, snoring softly. A bit of his gray hair is over his face, and his face is a blotchy red from crying. You tiptoe in, careful not to make the floor creak under your weight. You gingerly step past the bed, and open the closet door. You wince as it creaks. Your head snaps over to Karl, waiting for a reaction. He shifts a little in his sleep, before continuing to snore. You let out a quiet sigh in relief, leaning down and taking your pillow and blanket from the pile they’re in the closet, before turning around. As you turn around, beginning to leave, you hear a soft mumble. You look over at the bed, and see Karl staring at you with bloodshot eyes.

“What're you doing up-?” He slurs, rubbing his eyes.

“Nothing, Karl. Go back to sleep.” You say softly, your eyelids growing heavier. You yawn.

“You can’t sleep on the couch every night. It’s not good for your back. And it’s probably why you’re so damn irritable all the time.” He grumbles, shifting in bed, being woken up in the middle of the night getting to him.

“Well, I- I…“ you try to respond, but it dies in your throat. He looks up at you, and you can tell he’s exhausted, even in the dim light.

“Why don’t you lay with m-“ you shake your head immediately, cutting him off.

“Just for tonight? Your back will probably feel better.” He tries to reason. It catches your attention, and you sigh in defeat. You wait a moment before responding, gathering your thoughts.

“Yeah, yeah. Okay. Scooch over. And just for tonight, okay?” You mumble softly in defeat, sliding into bed beside him. His warmth is shocking after sleeping alone so long, and you shiver slightly. He quickly turns to face you, wrapping his arms around you and holding you tight. He squeezes you happily, burying his face in your neck.

“Mm, I knew you’d warm up to me” he mumbles, his voice barely audible as you feel his lips curl into a smirk against your neck

His half hard, cum-covered cock brushes against your leg and you shiver in disgust. His eyes widen, and he looks away in embarrassment.

“S-sorry” he mumbles, clinging to you a little tighter.

“It’s okay.” You murmur groggily, struggling to keep your eyes open. You yawn and close your eyes, your hands slowly coming to wrap around his soft waist. He freezes for a moment, before leaning into your touch.

“Goodnight, sweetie.” He mumbles softly. You pause for a moment.

“…goodnight, Karl.” You say softly, before closing your tired eyes, finally able to rest.

[blorbocedes]

when I joined f1blr like a month after my account had gotten shadowbanned and nobody could see my posts in the main tags and my reblogs didn't show up, and I was very stressed cause I thought I can't start over I finally have 64 followers 😭

I did start over cause tumblr support took a million years to respond. and I've grown quite a bit since then. which kind of surprises me still cause I don't blog about a particularly popular driver or write particularly popular ships, and I can't make cool edits or crispy gifs. im just here in yap city head of yapping central station so you guys must like me for me 😳 im truly grateful I got to know some really cool people and make friends on here

what a truly masturbatory post. but I wouldn't be here if it wasn't fun and you guys make it fun so thank you for sticking around 🌸

[yonpote]

I need to know why and how you were anti-phannie from 2014-2016

alright here we go i get to talk about THIS shit now.

i was generally anti-rpf at that point, and honestly? i think it was for fair enough reasons as some people were a bit too eager about showing (general) youtubers stories they wrote about them sucking and fucking their friends. i think i was also pretty high and mighty about being a somewhat oldhead phannie tbh, like ugh do these gaming-channel-only people even know about dan being super edgy and offensive 🙄 and lowkey it was a lot of subtly misogynistic "i'm not like other girls" type shit like i was sooo much better than yall cuz i hadn't watched that video (yet.)

i was generally not into these sorts of fandoms to begin with. i wasnt on the superwhopotterlock side, i was on the homestuck/dangan ronpa/anime of the month side of tumblr, if that gives you an idea of what i was like lol. around 2014-15 i was very much in a community that is kinda similar to what you might see on twitter now, where if you had any interests in media that portrayed anything problematic, that means you are in full support of that problematic thing. if dan howell said something racist in 2010, it doesn't matter that he wasn't being racist in 2015 he's still racist and liking him makes you a racist etc. and of course, rpf is included in problematic topics. if you ship real people, even if said people say they don't mind it, you are a sick pervert and you should be in the loony bin for being so depraved. and if you write or read any fiction that has immoral acts, it means you support those acts in real life too and you are trying to normalize abuse and SA (yknow as if whitecishetpatriarchy hasnt normalized that enough) and you're a danger to children and you deserve to rot in prison (yknow as if a queer person writing stories about queer people hasnt heard that one before)

now here's the real kicker. in 2015-2016 i ran a game grumps fan blog where i did talk about shipping the grumps. "wait how were you anti-rpf if-" well have you ever heard of this thing called Lying? or perhaps even, Cognitive Dissonance? i HAD to run a separate blog for this interest, because if my friends knew i consumed slashfic about arin and danny they would stop being friends with me and think im this evil horrible monster etc. genuinely that was where my brain was at, and is a little bit the reason i decided to this day, to make my phannie accounts completely separate from my main accounts.

nowadays, none of my non-phannie friends actually give a fuck and i do occasionally talk about dnp being silly gay white boys w them! at this point i dont post about em on main just out of respect like "hey im sure you dont actually want to hear about british yaoi constantly regardless of our level of friendship so i'll keep it over here okay?"

also, yeah i grew out of thinking consuming media with deplorable acts makes me deplorable. my favorite tv show is hannibal. i know its shocking, but i dont actually support serial killer cannibals. i will say, i dont fuck with "pro/anti" language with regards to what is considered "problematic" or having that be an identity marker. i think that people are free to write fiction as they please so long as its all properly tagged for people who dont enjoy that kind of content to avoid. but i also think there can be and often are problems in the way these stories are written, and yeah if all the romance stories you read growing up involve some sort of force or danger, that CAN normalize this sort of action as inherent to romance stories/real life romance. but i think thats an issue with like, society at large, and it's not on an individual fic writer to be educating teens who read their dead dove fic despite the explicit rating and tags.

TL;DR: BASICALLY. I WAS A DUMBASS KNOW-IT-ALL BUT DW I GOT BETTER.

[royaletiquette]

Name: Rose

Pronouns: she/her

Preferred comms: Whatever, I've never had issues with IM's personally, so I like them. But I know no one else does lol. Discord is cool, especially when we start sending memes and shit to one another.

Name of muse(s): Hibiya and Hibiko. I've had one other muse that didn't last long, I just wanted an excuse to talk about my views and opinions on music lmao. An outlet to express that to a degree, but I just didn't have anything else I wanted to say, no overarching theme or anything.

Experience in RP: Started out the classic way of rp'ing via texts with a friend, where it was like [ "Stop doing that" *laughs* ] as Izaya from Durarara. Not terribly long after I moved to tumblr cause I was already always on it on my personal account and heavy in the durarara community in 2012, 2013, cause I wanted to write as Hibiya. And that was a blast because it started showing on Adult Swim so the anime got more popular and there were just a lot of people and alters to write with.

Stopped and started a few times, but I always wrote Hibiya publically and no one else. I think I barely wrote in 2016 cause the rp side of the fandom was DEAD and I didn't really venture out to find new partners. I had also moved countries so like, wasn't thinking about writing often. Completely stopped thinking about it in 2017 and was writing songs instead. Until after I graduated college and was working fulltime, and after all the lockdowns stopped (Toronto had multiple), I needed a new creative outlet I could work on while not home and kept thinking about Hibiya and Delic and having ideas I wanted to explore. And was very lucky to find my email and password! So now I'm like, I can't imagine leaving tumblr to write somewhere else. Privately I dunno, it's so boring.

Best experiences: It's so nice to have partners that equally gush over one another's muses and relationships, sharing ideas and potential threads and even just being like "lmao if this happened, it'd be over" / "I can't stop thinking about x."

Plus I mean to be honest, it's so, so exciting and nice to hear people excited to write with me and ask about my muses, having genuine curiosity. Asking questions I've never thought of and pushing them to be more developed and fleshed out. I love posting a reply or answering a meme and immediately getting pinged on discord of someone panicking and talking to me about it.

Pet peeves / dealbreakers: Too much ooc is the main reason I end up unfollowing people. Which like, listen, it's not like I outright say, I don't care about you. But if it's too much, even though I like you and your muses and want to write, I'm gonna mute your tag. I'd much rather someone repeatedly be like "I'll be on twitter if you care" or whatever passive-aggressive thing, than have a bunch of posts on my roleplay account that are nothing. Let me ignore it if I want to.

I've complained to the point of adding it to my rules, but I hate mains. And I honestly more and more feel like I'm making the right call in that it's very mean and you shouldn't do it. I understand feeling more drawn to some muns/muses than others, but when a mun is repeatedly answering someone's stuff immediately when you've been waiting for a reply for a month. Yeah, it's a little dog shit. There needs to be an effort to balance it out between partners.

A COUPLE ACTUAL PETTY PET PEEVES. That like, I've rewritten this a bunch of times cause I don't want to be dumb and rude even though it makes me want to be very that. I hate when muns make their muses short and are just weird about it. Like, it's obviously written from the perspective of a person that is average height, who sometimes feels short, so assumes someone shorter than them always feels short. And it's like no one thinks about their height that much, stop it. But this is absolutely me, a person who is the height of all those short muses, being like bruh stop being weird. I also hate when there is an unrealistic weight put to muses. Because it's something most people ignore, so just skip it if you're gonna be dumb about it. If you feel the need to be like, my 5'6" muse 90 pounds, think about how dysfunctional that makes a person. It's beyond the realm of "my muse is skinny." But!! Again! I know this is just me being like "your fictional character is unrealistic." People like to make their muses taller than Shaq and as buff of as wrestler, but also be like "it's natural, they would never track their calories/protein intake."

Muse preference ( fluff, angst, smut ): Of course it depends. Hibiya is fun because he's awful at being fluffy, so it's great putting him in those positions where I am also so horribly uncomfortable for him. He's always angsty. It gets a little tiring. Smut is all me though, I just get lost in thinking of the details and then I forget to write any of it and it takes forever. Practice though and I know it'll be more fun. There are at least muses now that Hibi wants to be gross with finally.

Hibiko however, is like, always bordering on fluffy, to the point that she really fights angst. Which in itself is fun because that's where most of her development comes from. Surprisingly, smut will be/is really fun for Hibiko because her walls are down, which isn't the case any other time. She also doesn't have as many preconceptions as Hibiya when it comes to sex, so it's more freeing and open for me to write.

Plot or memes: Memes are more freeing. They can be long winded ideas or just a paragraph, so that's fun. But when it comes to the long run, I need to talk about plots to some extent so we're not running aimlessly.

Long or short replies: Long. Mid, really, but I'd rather it be longer than shorter. I've learned I have a hard time tapping into what my muse is going through if I'm not seeing that in return. But short ones are a very welcomed break when they come along. It's nice to easily poop out a reply without being like oh fuck okay what happens first.

Best time to write: When I'm alone in the morning before anyone wakes up (which isn't the morning but pretend it is). I like sitting in silence and enjoying the nothing going on so I can focus. I like to watch movies by myself, and it'll take twice as long because I'll pause it to write while inspired, and watch another five minutes before pausing to write again. The way god intended, really.

Are you like your muse(s): Kinda. I relate to Hibiya more. I'm more aloof than I think I am and can be a little insensitive towards other people's feelings and my words. Emotions are not my strong suit lmao.

tagged by @sansloii

[pillatedcompills]

I WANT TO DIE

CW MPREG... + SH MENTION /NEG..

so silly me is just scrolling down my tumblr feed, having a fun time looking at tsp pikmin fnaf and good omens art and all of a sudden i get hit by fucking good omens mpreg art.. So Im just like huh what, so i start making sad crying noises cuz im a dramatic baby. And mind you I HATE MPREG, and the post was serious too.. and i was about to start sobbing cuz my dumbass haven't even watched good omens yet.. Now im trying to scroll past it after looking at it and feeling sick, and my mouse accidently scrolls over the account and its a NSFW ACCOUNT. I at first thought maybe this was just a silly innocent post, kinda suggestive whatever and that it wasn't intended for nsfw purposes. THE ACCOUNT SAID NSFW BLAH BLAH BLAH MINORS WILL BE BLOCKED BELLY / PREGNACY STUFF. AND I JUST WENT WHAT... I KEEP FORGETTING THERES PEOPLE WHO ARE INTO MPREG, I ONLY EVER SEE IT DRAWN AS A JOKE. and the most fucking dumb part is this stupid fucking idiot used the MAIN good omens tags, MEANING IT CAN SHOW UP ON MINORS FEED. BRO I DID NOT WANT TO SEE GOOD OMENS MPREG FETISH ART. I DID NOT AND NOW I HAVE TO CUT MYSELF 10X DEEPER CUZ ITS ART I DO NOT LIKE. THE RULE APPLYS FOR ANYONE AND ANYTHING. BUT HOW DUMB CAN THESE FUCKING ADULTS BE... YOU DON'T FUCKING POST FETISH CONTENT USING MAIN TAGS ON FUCKING TUMBLR YOU DAMN IDIOT. TUMBLR BANNED PORN FOR A REASON?!?!? WHY DO YOU HAVE A NSFW TUMBLR ACCOUNT YOU DAMN MONKEY JUST USE FUCKING TWITTER.. AND MAYBE IDK DONT USE THE MAIN TAGS, AND IDK ALSO MAYBE PUT A CW WARNING OR SPOILER THE DAMN IMAGES YOU FUCKING IDIOT!!?!? IVE ALREADY LOST TOO MUCH BLOOD TODAY AND MY HEAD HURTS LIKE A BITCH AND I CAN BARELY FUNCTION. NOW I HAVE TO FUCKING DO IT AGAIN BECAUSE I CANT SIMPLY JUST MOVE ON WITH MY DAMN DAY. FUCK YOU STUPID ARTISTS. I WANNA DIEEEE