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[captainkurosolaire]

And as I gave stare to my revelation; death is a part of life. Saying goodbye is the only way to find that hello again.

It’s agonizing to let that cradle of delicacy let loose to the wind, that last small fragile divine petal you clutched from something you once bloomed. I failed to tell what was necessary, that indeed it was necessary to me when it was under the process of nurturing and mattered. There isn’t an enemy that compares to the one crafted by your own projection. Many come and paint your flaws from the outsides of their own discern with invasion, with the vaguest of details to what covers your raw authenticity. Pain is knowing when your naive and young and anticipating the future when you have all the answers to become your peak. It was easier to be imaginative and solely a dreamer, where fun coexisted and miserableness wasn’t a fret. However, even when that moment comes, you’re just as helpless as back then until you suffer the blows, ate rejections, took stride in those separating lines from being adequate or otherwise, just --- enough. Then even when you finally gather that experience become hardened and headstrong it becomes an infectious cycle where now, it’s a realm where you look on the opposite reflection to where you stood in the beginning and if you could’ve answered quicker, done better, did anything else to solve dilemmas that you could’ve prevented outcomes that left you defeated and distraught and carrying silence that unaltered you from growth. Even points of your day’s become your comparisons of how those mini moments of you, were variations of when happiness was your wield and that which you represented, stood behind, gave you every validation that this is your definitive purpose. Sickness and weakness holds so much more power than one could envision. If you find yourself under that storm and brave through there’s a magnitude of insight to be found, I learned personally. I ran through a forest incurable and inevitably hopeless, my very vitality is continuously deteriorating, I should’ve been consumed a long time ago. There’s so many things that are sold temporarily, promises, medicated prescriptions, innovative procedures. They all battle against the incurable to be remedy, even against a phantom of unheard... but there’s never anything concrete or guaranteed in this life. --------------------------------------------------------------------------- This boils down to the discovery of genuine acceptance. Which I can explain my meaning. I can’t rely on dining in the Past or Future. The only thing that can be spoken too and fought equally is the Present. Through this enchanting voyage I left a lot of memories to be cherished for lifetimes and with what I’ve produced and shared, eventually I came conflicted of doubt  if I’d ever measure to what I once drew or a piece I did and I believe what I often pulled and was inspired was philosophies of all that I had observance. I wanted to channel and funnel that same energy to aspire to entertain and propel; give the rise of the tides. It meant a world of mine to give and was always my every honor to hear I succeeded sometimes to be even in thoughts or mentioned. It gave me indescribable strength. I love my followers, my peers, friends, truly. I legitimately became painless, nearly invincible, sometimes through all the sharing and writing. All the inspirations constantly kept me fulfilled and mind over matter seemed to be my cure. But I’m not good with asking for help when it matters or involving anyone with me. I like lifting and throwing others to fly other than soaring aside. That cost me, because ignoring still netted me hospitals and gave rise to worry anyway and only delayed and caused more damage than anything. In-turn leaving me in the distance from a lot that I would consider my treasures, my importance. It took sunlight's and days to continue creating and building here in this shade as friendly as home. It feels so right. I felt empowered under this sky. If I’m to shine and light anything like I did once, or to continue the only way I can do that is by letting go of being here. As I mentioned this is difficult to walk away because of what I placed. But all that remainder of energy, I’m going to use on building my vitality and living use this as my catalyst, my passion and anchor. By setting this as a harbor, I have every reason to return one-day against all the upcoming struggles my journey is going to set me on. I’ve little to regret if this is where my epitaph ends. Like my beginning. This necessary goodbye is the only way I’ll be rewarded with a hello. That drives me to sail.

[shiryonsheli]

happy hanukkah and merry christmas!!

[ hey everyone!! sorry for going inactive. i’d like to say i’m going to start being much more so soon, but this blog is going to remain on low activity for the forseeable future. i still have my al muse, but tumblr is not where i am most active. i will likely eventually reply to all the threads i had ongoing, but there is by no means any obligation to respond back.

if you are still interested in roleplaying with me, i am happy to do so on discord, so reach out! for those of you who already have my discord but we dont talk much: im happy for that to change!!

if anyone is interested, i am also planning to pick up alphonse, denny, or neil in a multifandom animated media rp server i’m helping mod.

happy holidays!! ]

[surroundedbyselcouth]

I’m trying to refill my queue here, because I’ve been super busy and haven’t had much time to poke around tumblr, but have tons of fun stuff saved and more to find for sure! But just so you know, the general inactivity will probably stay that way for the forseeable future. 

On the other hand, I’m finally getting around to making a site/blog of sorts to be a sort of central platform for all of my random projects/adventures. Please check it out! That’s where I’ll hopefully be posting more longer original material (monster theory! science! art! books!). This will be the best place to find me right now, as I’m setting a goal for myself to write something there at least once a week.

[akashinu]

Hello!! I just wanted to throw in a quick update bc I’ve noticed I’ve gotten a couple more followers in the time that I’ve been inactive. I’m currently on a bit of a hiatus from fanfic/tumblr in general since school has really picked up for me and it’s taking up the vast majority of my energy right now.

I’m probably going to be on hiatus for the forseeable future (about 3 weeks until I’m done with finals) but I really do appreciate all of you who follow me and interact with both my ao3 posts and my tumblr posts!

[muridad]

TW - Death Mention

The end of last year took a toll on me, with so many pets needing veterinary care all at once, and I was looking forward to 2019 being a time for healing. Unfortunately, this year has been a tough one. I apologize for the inactivity, but I've been trying not to spend too much time on social media, especially tumblr. It tends to put me in a bad mindset; I honestly felt a bit ashamed at the mental state I was in, and felt it necessary to hide what I was going through.

After losing Lottie and Lace, I became very depressed and unmotivated. Since then, I've lost 3 of my grandparents this Fall alone, one of whom I was extremely close to, and lost to very shocking and unexpected circumstances. During that time, Tapioca and Myrtle have also passed away, they were close to 2.5 years old. I will not be keeping mice again in the forseeable future, so I will be selling and giving away most, if not all, of my supplies. I am keeping most of my rat supplies, until I feel I'm able to handle to extra work again, though.

However, I have not been able to take care of myself well these past couple months. I must admit, my animal husbandry took a hit during this time, so I put everything on a mini hiatus and asked for the help of other family members until I was able to put everything back on track. I have also taken a short break from working, to focus on my health and family. My job up until this point was taking up nearly 90% of my time, energy, and was only worsening my mental state. Luckily I have enough savings for any possible medical emergencies, but have not had to use any. I also had some extra set aside for big cage upgrade plans, which I hoped to be able to complete next summer, but until then it will be strictly for emergencies as well.

I am happy to say that Scully, Kiwi, and Kookie are still doing very well. Scully is eating regularly, though she is still picky about her meals. Kiwi is at a good weight currently, and is gaining a bit of weight each month. Kookie is keeping a pretty steady weight as well, she's a chubby girl so I'm keeping from overfeeding her.

I hope that with time a persistence I will be able to take better care of my own health again, too.