Would It Kill You To Smile? (Yeah, Probably) (Kristie Mewis x Reader)
When the former Australian Women’s National Team’s hardest hitter transfers to the NWSL, she finds herself being invited to the USWNT camp, much to the consternation of the remainder of the USWNT veterans, but one player isn’t as fazed by you as you’d like, and that player is Kristie Mewis.
If you were being honest with yourself, you knew you were hard to get along with, a conversation with you was really just the other person speaking while you silently nodded along, leading them to believe you weren’t listening at all, and truthfully, sometimes you weren’t.
You were brash, and bold, the epitome of the strong silent type.
Though, things were about to change for you in a way that you’d in no way expected, and that was when you joined the USWNT.
***
The moment you’d stepped into the hotel’s conference room, a bag slung over your shoulder, everyone winced, nearly all of them had once been on the receiving end of a hard tackle from yours truly, a number of them being carted off the field because of it.
You had a penchant for getting red cards, even getting into arguments with the ref occasionally, one that ended with you eventually being fined.
You’d mellowed out after that, at least somewhat.
You drop your bag on the hotel’s carpeted floor, crossing your arms across your chest as you lean against a nearby wall, all eyes on you.
You give the team a wave.
“G’day.” You say, your Australian accent particularly thick.
The entirety of the USWNT stare your way, though only one of them cracks a smile, that smile coming from Kristie Mewis.
“Umm, g’day?” Emily Sonnett waves earning a slap in the arm from Lindsey Horan.
You stare at the blonde for a moment, one brow arched, your intense stare causing her to turn away.
“Sorry sir, won’t happen again.” She says nervously, your lips pursing as you fight back a smile.
Y/N Y/L/N wasn’t the type to smile.
Everyone reluctantly turns away, a number of them whispering amongst themselves, though you only catch what those closest to you are saying.
“Wait, why are you so afraid of her?”
Sam scoffs.
“Have you SEEN how she plays!? She’s a tank.”
“Scary as hell too.” Emily whispers.
“She doesn’t seem that scary to me.” Kristie shrugs and you snort, softly so you go unheard.
It looked as if you’d have to change that.
***
No matter how hard you tried, Kristie Mewis was in no way phased by your glares, or your somewhat brutish tackles, you’d tried to reign it in considering the women around you would be your teammates if you made the USWNT that was.
“Why must you be so violent?” Emily asks as she’s helped off the ground by Lindsey, the former’s bottom lip jutted out in a pout.
You hold your hands up, though remain entirely silent, you’re stepping around the two when you nearly run straight into Kristie Mewis.
“Hey.” She grins, your brows quirked in question.
You stand stock still for a moment, though when you try to move around her, she steps in front of you.
You sigh.
“Hi.”
The older Mewis steps out of your way, the blonde wearing a satisfied grin.
You roll your eyes.
You weren’t sure what she was up to, but you didn’t like it.
Or at least you thought you didn’t.
***
You weren’t about to say, but since you joined the NWSL, you’d been hoping for a USWNT call up, and you’d apparently impressed the right people, because now, you were on the USWNT roster and well on your way to your first game against Japan.
You were focused, your music blaring in your ears as you stared out the window, going over Japan’s playstyle in your head.
You were so lost in your thoughts that you hadn’t noticed the fact that a number of players were staring your way.
“Wait, do we like her?” Emily asks, her teammates turning towards her in question.
“I mean, she’s a great player.” She shrugs and Kelley scoffs.
“I’m pretty sure we got into a shoving match before.”
Alex nods.
“You did, and you lost it.”
Kelley scoffs.
“I never lose.”
Kristie shrugs.
“I think she’s just, intense.” She says, the woman looking at your profile with a small smile.
Sam’s brows furrow, the woman snapping her fingers in front of her sister’s face.
“Are those heart eyes?” She asks, recoiling and Kristie scoffs.
“NO! They aren’t!” She growls, though her cheeks betray her.
"Oh my god they are.” Sam gasps, her head on a swivel as she looks from her sister, to you and then back.
Kristie rolls her eyes.
“They aren’t heart eyes, you’re just seeing things.” She turns away abruptly, her arms crossed across her chest.
“Well, if they were, Y/N literally hates everyone, I don’t think I’ve ever seen her smile.” Megan says, resting her chin on the bus’s seat in front of her.
Christen shrugs.
“I agree with Kristie.”
Tobin coughs, sucking a bit of her drink down her throat.
“About what!?” Tobin asks, hoping she didn’t also have heart eyes for their newest player.
“She just intense.” She gives Tobin a nudge, the forward letting out a breath she didn’t realize she’d been holding in.
“Yeah, she intensely hates us.” Sam mumbles and Kristie shrugs.
“I don’t think so.”
Sam snorts.
“Of course, you don’t, you have a thing for her.”
“I do not.”
“Did your mums ever tell you it’s not nice to stare?” You ask, your eyes narrowed as you glare at your teammates.
The youngsters abruptly turn away, while the older players whisper amongst themselves, slowly turning away.
You huff, about to turn away when you catch Kristie’s eyes on you, the blonde smiling softly.
It’s then you find yourself abruptly turning away.
You give your head a shake.
You had to focus, and not think about your teammates, Kristie Mewis in particular.
***
Japan, though tough, had done their best to avoid you, but seeing as you were a defender, that wasn’t really an option.
After a particularly hard tackle the whistle blew, and you shook your head, an amused smile on your face as you drew a yellow card.
“Get stuffed.” You growl angrily as you move past her, the ref turning around to berate you, but before she can Kristie makes her way towards you, placing her hand on your back.
“Chill.” She whispers, glancing at the ref out of the corner of her eye.
Your mouth falls open, a curse about to leave you, but one look into Kristie’s eyes and it snaps shut.
“Whatever.” You grumble, stomping off to your place on field.
Kristie smiles as she jogs to her own place on field.
At least you hadn’t swore at her.
***
Much to her surprise, later in the game when she’s taken down by a particularly hard tackle, you’re there, holding your hand out to her, the blonde looking up at you with wide eyes.
“C’mon.” You say, wiggling your fingers.
Kristie takes your hand, the skin-to-skin contact making your eyes widen, a spark shooting up your arm before spreading throughout your entire body.
The blonde whose hand is currently still in your own feels the exact same thing, her heart racing in her chest.
You clear your throat before dropping her hand and abruptly turning away, jogging to get to your place on field.
Kristie meanwhile stands stiff, her eyes dropping to her still tingling hand.
The ref’s whistle blows loudly, pulling the blonde out of her trance, the woman quickly running to her place on field.
She turns her head, finding her sister’s smirking face staring back at her.
She sticks her tongue out at the younger girl, earning only a laugh in return, just as the whistle blows and play resumes.
***
The game eventually ends, a score of 5-3, another win for the USWNT.
You’d noticed with a smirk that only a few Japanese players came to shake your hand, which in all honesty, you hadn’t minded.
A hand on your back makes you freeze, your brows arching as you turn towards Emily Sonnett, the blonde grinning.
“Nice job fellow defender.”
Your brows arch even further, nearly burying themselves in your hairline.
Emily nods, giving your back a pat.
“Great talk.”
You shake your head, your eyes on her back as she moves across field, an extra pep in her step.
“Well, you didn’t kill her.”
Your eyes narrow as you turn to Kristie, the blonde standing behind you with a cheeky grin.
“That’s a start, right?” She asks and you huff.
“No.”
Kristie rolls her eyes, watching as you move across field towards the benches.
She crosses her arms across her chest.
“It is too.”
***
After that day you noticed Kristie smiling at you more often than not, which irked you to no end, why wasn’t she as afraid of you as everyone else was?
“Look out!”
You remain expressionless when a soccer ball flies out of nowhere and hits you in the back, your eyes narrowing as you turn to glare at the person who’d fired the ball in your direction, which in this case was Mallory Pugh.
“Don’t let her kill me.” Mallory mumbles, leaping behind Christen and Tobin, the two protecting their ‘child.’
You shake your head, kicking the ball into the air and into your waiting hands before you make your way across the field and hold the ball out to Mallory, the smaller girl peeking over Christen’s and Tobin’s shoulders.
“Here.” You say, the corner of your mouth ticking upwards when she warily takes the ball.
“Is that a smile?”
You turn towards Kristie with a glare.
“No, it’s not.”
Kristie gives you a nudge, your eyes narrowing as you look at the spot she’d just touched.
“It totally is.”
You growl, abruptly taking your leave, only for Kristie to follow behind.
“Come on, it was a smile, admit it.”
“It wasn’t, go away.”
The remainder of the team gathers, watching curiously as Kristie trails after you, the two of you bickering.
“Y/N totally likes her, doesn’t she?” Megan asks, the purple haired woman leaning against Alex.
Julie hums as she leans against Crystal.
“I don’t know, it seems like she wants her to go away.”
Tobin snorts, watching as you basically run away from Kristie, the blonde hot on your heels.
“Why are you running!? WHY are you running!?” Kristie asks, quoting the legendary Vine and you groan.
“To get you away from me, rack off!”
Kristie simply grins.
“Well, that’s not about to happen.”
Alyssa chuckles.
“What gave it away Ertz?” She asks, earning a glare from her Chicago Red Star’s teammate.
Rose leans towards Sam.
“Your sister is totally into Y/N.”
Sam nods.
“Oh, I know.”
***
“You’re kidding, right?”
Vlatko shakes his head, whereas Kristie only grins.
“No, it says the two of you are rooming together.” He shrugs and you groan, turning to Kristie with a glare, a glare that you don’t realize is completely harmless.
“Come on, it won’t be THAT bad.” She slips an arm around your shoulders and you huff, turning your glare towards Vlatko, the man quickly turning away so he doesn’t have to face you.
You sigh in defeat.
“Fine, but don’t talk to me.”
Kristie smiles.
“But you talked to me first.”
You throw your head back with a growl, taking your keycard and making your way out of the lobby.
“Be careful, she might kill you in your sleep.” Kelley cringes and Kristie shakes her head.
“She won’t.”
***
“You know I now have the ability to off you in your sleep, right?” You say as Kristie flops into the bed beside your own.
“I’m not too worried about it.”
You roll your eyes, letting out a loud huff.
“Besides, I’m the only one you really talk to on the team.” She shrugs and you huff again in response.
Kristie sighs, rolling over to her side to look at you, her head propped up on her palm, which is being supported by her elbow.
“Also, I think you kind of like me.”
You look up from your phone with a snort, your brows nearly buried in your hairline.
“And what on Earth gave you THAT idea?”
Kristie shrugs.
“Just a feeling I guess.” She grins and you roll your eyes.
“Well, you’re wrong.”
***
It was the following night that Kristie Mewis would indeed be proven right, in the most broadcasted way possible.
For some reason, Kristie Mewis had a rather massive target painted on her back, going down more often than not during the game against Nigeria.
Kristie had a knack for getting the team out of sticky situations, and seeing as Kristie already had one goal under her belt, and was currently begging for more, the Nigerian’s decided it was time to deal with her.
The more she went down, the angrier you got, you hadn’t wanted to admit that the blonde was certainly growing on you, which became more apparent, the more she went down.
You crack your neck loudly, angrily scowling at the Nigerian player closest to you, the woman recoiling in fear.
Moments later Kristie is down yet again and you growl, wanting more than anything to march over towards the Nigerian player who’d fouled her and scare the life out of her.
You wanted it so bad, that you were currently marching across field to do just that.
Kristie, as well as the remainder of the USWNT and Nigerian team watched as you stopped in front of the player who continued to foul her, the woman noticeably fearful as you whispered something in her ear that made her visibly pale.
You gave her one last glare before you made your way towards Kristie, extending your hand out to the downed Mewis who takes it with no hesitation.
You pull her to her feet, your hand resting on her shoulder.
“You alright?” You ask, giving her shoulder a squeeze and she nods, her eyes glazing over as she stares at your sweat covered face.
“Ye-Yeah.”
You glance over your shoulder, sending the same player a glare, the woman abruptly turning away from you.
You nod.
“She won’t do it again.”
You give her shoulder a pat.
“Trust me.”
Kristie blinks rapidly, watching as you strut across field, your eyes never leaving the woman who’d continued to foul her.
“What just happened?” Sam asks as she dusts her sister’s jersey off and Kristie shakes her head.
“No idea.”
***
The shit-eating grin that stretches across Kristie’s face the second she makes her way onto the bus makes you roll your eyes.
Instead of falling into her usual seat, beside Sam, she takes a seat instead, beside you, wearing that same grin.
“What?” You bite, only for Kristie’s grin to widen further.
“You stuck up for me.”
You growl, shaking your head back and forth.
“I felt bad for you.”
Kristie snorts.
“No, you were angry.”
You sigh, exhale loudly, glaring at the blonde out of the corner of your eye.
“Come on, admit it Y/N.”
You throw your head back with a groan.
“Fine, I got sick of seeing her foul you, so I did something about it, happy?” You ask in annoyance and Kristie giggles, wiggling happily in her seat.
“Very.”
***
Kristie was basically your shadow after that, and with her sunny disposition, she’d attempted to clear up the dark cloud that hung over you wherever you went.
“Come on, smiling won’t kill you.” She nudges you and you roll your eyes.
“It will.”
Kristie rolls her eyes as she jogs after you.
“It will not.”
“Aww, come on Y/N, just oneeeeee.” She whines and you grumble.
“No.”
Sam crosses her arms across her chest, the girl only one of the USWNT players watching as Kristie chases behind you, attempting to get you to smile.
“I’m surprised your sister is still alive.” Alex giggles when she sees the glare you’re shooting Kristie’s way.
“Me too.” Sam snorts.
“I think she’s got a soft spot for Kristie.” Christen shrugs and everyone turns her way.
“Y/N?” Rose asks incredulously.
“Y/N has no soft spots.” Sam scoffs and Christen hums, nodding across the field to where you’re currently trying to outrun her older sister, a massive grin stretching across your face as you start to laugh.
You slap a hand over your mouth, but seemingly too late because Kristie giggles.
“SEE! You smiled and laughed! And look you’re still alive!”
You skid to a halt, your eyes widening when Kristie runs right into you, the woman saved from embarrassingly falling on her ass by your hands, which had found their way to her waist.
The two of you fall silent, your eyes widening before you abruptly turn away from one another, your hands leaving her waist.
With your back to her, you completely miss the small, bashful smile that stretches across her face, which also means that she misses the smile that stretches across your own.
The remainder of the USWNT turns to Christen, the forward shrugging.
“Told you so.”
***
Anytime the USWNT and Sweden locked horns, it was a nail-biter, the two teams giving it their all for the entire 90 minutes.
Sweden had their foot firmly on the gas, and had yet to let up.
That momentum faltered near the end of the second half when the ball ended up at your feet.
You pick your head up, catching sight of Kristie, the woman in perfect place for a cross, the blonde pointing at her feet.
You fire the ball high in the air, everyone’s eyes skyward as the ball falls to the earth and right to Kristie Mewis.
She catches it midair, the ball ricocheting off her head, passed the goalie and into the netting.
“YEAH!” You yell as you throw a fist in the air, grinning when you see Kristie running across the field towards you.
She jumps in the air, her legs wrapping around your middle, her arms slipping around your neck.
You hold her with one arm, your fist still held high as you celebrate.
The remainder of the team joins in on the celebration, some ruffling your hair, as well as Kristie’s.
Sam kisses her sister’s cheek, all the while, slipping an arm around your shoulders.
“Of course, it would be the two of you to score.” She grins and you chuckle, your cheeks dusted pink when you realize Kristie’s still firmly wrapped around you.
You pick your head up, your eyes doubling in size when your nose brushes Kristie’s.
The two of you remain motionless, neither of you pulling away, your eyes firmly locked.
The ref’s whistle pulls the two of you out of trance, Kristie reluctantly unwrapping herself from around you.
“Uh...” You swallow hard, realizing for the first time in a long time, that you’re speechless.
The ref blows her whistle again, and you scowl, shooting the woman a glare, the woman clearing her throat as she turns away from you.
The second your eyes meet Kristie’s they soften.
“Great finish Kris.” You smile, giving her shoulder a pat before you jog to your place on field.
Meanwhile, Sam turns to her sister, the blonde wearing a cheeky grin.
“Yeah, great finish Kris.”
“Fuck off.”
***
“You like her, don’t you?”
Your brows arch as you turn towards the source of the voice, finding a smirking Alex Morgan standing beside you.
“Pardon?” You ask, brows furrowed.
“Kristie.”
Your eyes narrow, the forward rolling her blue orbs.
“You like her.”
You scoff.
“I do not.”
Alex simply stares at you for a moment, as if sizing you up, before her lips split into a grin.
“You do, or you would’ve killed her already.”
Your eyes widen slightly when she gives you a nudge.
“In fact, I think she’s the reason you’re starting to like the team a little more.”
You snort.
Alex shakes her head, the woman cutting you off.
“Admit it, we’re starting to grow on you.”
“Like a tumor.”
***
The second Kristie flopped down in the seat beside you, you knew it was going to be a long ride.
She turns to you with a grin.
“Don’t look so happy to see me.”
You crack a smile.
“I’ll try to tone it down.”
Kristie huffs, her bottom lip jutted out in a pout.
“Smart ass.”
A smile stretches across your face.
“Now you’re catching on.”
***
You’re quite far into the bus ride when you feel Kristie slump against you, the blonde’s mouth hanging open as she snores loudly.
You shake your head, unable to bite back the smile that stretches across your face.
“Such elegance.” You mumble under your breath.
“Oh my god, who’s gargling their spit?” You hear a raspy groan, realizing that Kelley had been woken by the sound of Kristie’s snoring.
You hold your arm up, using your index finger to point down at the sleeping blonde.
“Sam, suffocate her.” Emily grumbles, leaning against Lindsey, her own eyelids heavy.
“Imagine what it was like sharing a room with her.” The tall blonde rolls her eyes and you smile, imagining what it was like sharing a room with a much smaller Kristie Mewis.
You turn towards her, your smile widening when Kristie snuggles into your shoulder.
Alex’s words run through your head as the woman, unbeknownst to you, gazes at the back of your head with a smile, the forward giving the defender beside her a nudge.
“Look at them.” She whispers to Kelley, the defender’s eyes reluctantly cracking open, though when she sees you lean your head against Kristie’s she smiles.
“She really does care for her, doesn’t she?” Kelley whispers, glancing at Emily and Lindsey who are grinning your way.
Suddenly, Emily’s grin turns malicious, the blonde turning towards Sam.
“You know what this means?” She asks, Sam’s brows knitted in confusion.
“What?”
"Y/N needs the shovel talk.”
***
From that day forward you noticed Sam’s reluctance to be near you, the youngest of the Mewis sisters glancing your way nervously every once in a while, the blonde abruptly turning away when your eyes would meet.
“What’s your sister’s deal?” You ask, Kristie’s eyes narrowing as she stares at her sister, the blonde glancing your way before turning away when she sees her older sister looking her way.
“I mean, I’ve been wondering that for a long time.” Kristie shrugs and you snort, your bottom lip trapped between your teeth as you try to stave off a grin.
Kristie, as per usual, is quick to notice that you’re biting back a smile, the blonde nudging you.
You shrug, your small smile shifting into a grin.
“Maybe she’s just scared...?”
Kristie rolls her eyes.
“Well, I’m not.”
You huff, your head hanging in defeat.
“I’ll have to work on that.”
Kristie growls.
“Well, it won’t work.”
Your head hangs lower as you shuffle onto the field.
“That’s a shame.”
Kristie rolls her eyes, the woman trailing behind you.
“Admit it, you like me.”
You snort.
“Only if I’m under extreme duress.”
Kristie begins to jog, her lips splitting in a grin.
“That can be arranged.”
Before you can ask what, she means, she’s jumping on your back, her arms around your neck.
“ADMIT YOU LIKE ME.” She yells, applying barely any pressure around your neck.
“You call this EXTREME duress?” You scoff, Kristie’s chin resting in your shoulder.
“Cut me some slack, I’m trying my best.”
Your eyes widen minutely, your cheeks dusted lightly pink.
“Fine, I hate you less than most people.”
Kristie, despite your unenthusiasm grins.
“Seeeeeeeeeeeee.”
You grunt.
“I mean it was a half-assed-OW!” You grunt when Kristie gives you a headbutt, the blonde in no way effected.
“Shut up, you admitted it.”
You groan, rolling your eyes in annoyance, though you can’t help but smile.
“I guess I did.”
***
Kristie had become a constant in your day-to-day life, more so than any of your other teammates.
You traveled together, you ate together, shared a room together, but at this very moment, you weren’t together, instead, you were on the sidelines, watching as she ran downfield, a black and white ball at her feet.
“You know...”
You turn away, coming face to face with none other than Sam Mewis.
“Hmmm?” You hum, noticing the way she visibly pales.
“Ummm…”
Your brows arch when Sam receives a nudge in the back from Emily, who feigns innocence immediately after.
Sam swallows hard.
“I know she’s older than me, but she’s still my sister…”
Sam turns away from you finding the courage to speak when she wasn’t looking you in the eye.
You meanwhile stare intently at her profile.
Was this what you thought it was?
“And if anyone ever hurt her… I would-“
Sam falls silent, the blonde's throat bobbing.
“ I would be incredibly upset.”
You couldn’t believe what you were hearing, did Sam REALLY think you were into her sister?
“I’m not into Kristie.” You mumble, your voice sounding uncertain to your own ears.
Sam abruptly turns to you, a brow arched.
“Wait… Really?” She asks, her eyes narrowed.
The stadium erupts and you turn back to the field, watching as Kristie celebrates her goal will your teammates.
Kristie’s blue orbs find yours and you stiffen, your heart thumping wildly in your chest.
Kristie frowns when you turn away, choosing to turn your focus away from her and your teammates, though not before you whisper something to Sam, the blonde frowning when you make your way down the benches, putting as much distance as you can between you and the youngest of the Mewis sisters.
***
Kristie Mewis was baffled.
One moment you were inseparable, and the next you were giving her the cold shoulder, as if all the progress she’d made was erased and you were back to your; hard, unsociable self.
“Seriously, what happened?” Kristie frowns as she takes a seat beside her sister on the bench, a pit forming in her stomach.
“She won’t even look at me now Sammy.” She frowns sadly, earning one in return from her little sister.
“What did I do?”
Sam takes a deep breath.
“Nothing Kris, you didn’t do anything.”
“Then why’s she ignoring me?” She pouts.
Sam’s mouth opens and closes a few times, the blonde remembering how a few days ago you’d told her that you, REALLY weren’t interested in Kristie, it was right after that you started putting distance between the two of you.
The pair watch as you knock a goal in passed Alyssa Naeher, your face impassive as you tug your shirt up, using it to wipe the sweat from your face.
Kristie swallows hard, the woman shamelessly ogling you, that is until your eyes meet hers and she abruptly turns away, her cheeks flushed bright red.
With her gaze no longer on you, she misses the twitch at the corner of your lips, your small smile on display, that is until you realize Sam’s eyes are on you.
Sam hums, the blonde turning towards her sister.
“Maybe you should try and talk to her?” She shrugs and Kristie huffs.
“She won’t even let me get close to her.”
Sam leans her head on Kristie’s shoulder, her older sister’s head resting against hers.
“You’ve got to try Kris, trust me.”
***
Kristie spent the following week doing just that, but no matter how hard she tried you always slipped away, always had an excuse that would lead to you putting as much distance between the two of you as possible.
After an entire week, if not more, of trying to speak with you, Kristie Mewis, snapped.
Just as you were about to take your leave, she roughly grabbed your wrist, pushing you into a nearby alcove within the arena.
“What in the fuck-
“Shut up.” She growls, and your eyes widen, the outburst surprising you.
“What are you playing at?”
Kristie smacks the wall beside your head.
“What are YOU playing at!?” She growls and you shake your head.
“What do you-
“You’ve been ignoring me for WEEKS! FOR NO REASON!” She yells and you swallow hard.
“I-
“NO, BE QUIET!”
Uncharacteristically, you find your mouth snapping shut.
“WHAT DID I DO TO YOU!?” She asks and you shake your head.
“N-Nothing.”
“Then WHAT is your problem!?” She yells, smacking the wall beside you and you swallow hard, your mouth opening and closing as you try to find the words to convey exactly what you’re feeling, but before you can, Kristie takes a step back.
“You know what? Fucking forget it, when you decide you want to speak to me like a normal fucking human being, you know where to find me.” She growls as she marches off, leaving you to watch her go with a frown.
“What did I just do...?”
***
The tables were turned after that, every time you tried to speak to Kristie, she would simply turn her back on you and walk away, leaving you to watch her go with an ache in your heart.
The more distance she put between you, the worse you felt, you’d never felt this way about anyone, and to have the woman you did have feelings for pulling away, it took its toll on you.
You were soon back to your, old, anti-social self as you had been at the beginning of camp, a permanent scowl on your face, your arms crossed across your chest in a defensive gesture.
“I don’t like seeing that again.” Emily nods in your direction, watching as you angrily walk across the field, the muscle in your jaw jumping.
“What even happened?” Kelley asks, earning a shrug from the blonde.
“Beats me.”
Sam meanwhile frowns, her head on a swivel as she looks from Kristie, to you and back.
She couldn’t help but feel guilty, seeing as it was after her ‘shovel talk’ that you’d put distance between the two of you.
You spot Kristie out of the corner of your eye, your scowl turning into a frown, you weren’t sure how you were going to fix things between the two of you, but you knew you had to, your sanity depended on it.
***
You tried and tried and tried, but no matter what you did you couldn’t get Kristie to talk to you, unless of course it was absolutely necessary.
The longer she spent ignoring you, the more visible the cracks in your walls became, the closer they got to crumbling.
It was at practice one day that things came to a head.
“Kris-
“Sorry, I’m busy.”
“But-
Your mouth snaps shut when Kristie moves away from you, and further onto the field, despite it being time for a break at practice.
You sigh, shoving your hands in your short’s pockets.
“WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO GET YOU TO TALK TO ME!?” You cry, surprising literally everyone with your sudden outburst.
Kristie turns on her heels, her eyes wide when she realizes in fact that the cry had come from you, the glassy sheen of tears in your eyes.
“I CAN’T TAKE YOU NOT TALKING TO ME ANYMORE! JUST TALK TO ME.” You yell.
“Y/N-
“NO!” You yell, waving off the remainder of your teammate’s as you make your way towards Kristie, shocking the blonde when you rest your hands on her shoulders.
“Just TALK to me.” You plead, your head hanging.
“Please.” You beg, tears streaming down your cheeks.
You’d never been reduced to this, you’d never broken down in front of anyone, but the thought of losing the woman who meant so much to you was too much to bear, and you couldn’t, you wouldn’t let the distance between the two of you grow so vast that you became a pinprick on her horizon.
“Y/N...” She whispers and you shake your head, realizing you’d just entirely let your walls down in front of the entire team.
Your hands leave her shoulders, instantly moving to cover your face.
“I-I’m sorry.” You stutter, about to take a step back but before you can Kristie grabs your wrists.
“Hey, hey, don’t be sorry.” She whispers, giving your wrists a squeeze before pulling your hands away from your face.
“We’ll talk after practice, just you and me, okay?” She releases your wrists in favor of cupping your cheeks and you nod, inhaling softly, her touch causing the air to leave your lungs.
“Okay?” She whispers again and you nod, the prospect of a conversation between the two of you leaving you not only frightened, but hopeful.
“Okay.”
***
You were embarrassed, how could you not be after your outburst in front of the team?
You briefly thought of putting distance between yourself and Kristie again, but quickly shook your head, it was what had gotten you into this mess in the first place.
You remained seated on the bench as everyone gathered their things, Kristie’s blue orbs on you as she made her way over, taking a seat beside you.
On their way by, a number of your teammates patted you on the back in a calming gesture, Emily choosing to ruffle your head instead, something that got a chuckle out of you, despite the situation.
Kristie smiles, the sound of your laugh making her heart lighten in her chest, she hadn’t heard it often, but anytime she did the butterflies in her stomach would flitter their wings.
Once the two of you were entirely alone, the stadium empty around you, you turned to one another, albeit, slowly.
You swallow hard, your mouth opening and closing as you try to find the words you want to speak, in the end you say what you’d been wanting to say since the two of you had stopped communicating.
“I’m sorry.”
You lick your lips your gaze dropping to your feet.
“I shouldn’t have put distance between us in the first place, I was just scared.”
Kristie scoots closer, causing you to stiffen.
“Scared of what?” She asks and you exhale.
“Y-You.”
Kristie’s brows furrow.
You clear your throat, your cheeks flushing.
“How I-How I feel about you.”
Kristie’s eyes widen.
You swallow, attempting to rid yourself of the lump in your throat.
“I’ve never felt this way about anyone, ever, except for you.”
You shake your head unable to look at her.
“I tried to ignore it, but I can’t. I think I’m-
Suddenly you fall silent, your eyes as wide as saucers as Kristie’s lips tenderly press against your own, her hands cupping your cheeks with a gentleness you had yet to experience before.
Your eyes flutter shut, your hands finding purchase on her waist, the woman straddling the bench as you pull her closer, your knees brushing.
Kristie smiles against your lips as your hands run up her sides, your fingers wrapping around her wrists as the two of you, with much reluctance, part.
Kristie’s forehead rests against your own, your eyes still hidden behind closed eyelids.
A wolf whistle pulls the two of you apart and you find yourself glaring into the nearby tunnel, which is packed full of your entire team, all watching you with massive grins, the widest coming from Sam Mewis.
“GET IT!” Emily yells and you shake your head, unable to bite back a grin.
Kristie giggles, your brow arching when you turn to her, seeing the cocky grin on Kristie’s face.
She bites her tongue between her teeth.
“I knew you liked me.”
You roll your eyes, though you can’t help but smile, your heart lightening in your chest.
"Admit it.” She nudges you and you exhale loudly, your nose brushing hers as you again lean in, your lips ghosting hers.
“I guess you could say that.”
Kristie closes the gap between you, her lips meeting yours in another, ever softer kiss.
“I guess you could say that my ass.”
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