#a pound of paper

[ongawdclub]

C a s h

[munchboxart]

I've won the TTYD war

[transgender-catboy]

Hhhhhfgddfg I'm gonna go do whatever

[enypneon]

me and my first book bf <3 was tagged by no one but saw it on dash multiple times so ─ i'm sorry for crushing the illusion some might have had of me heh

[gayalanwake]

They literally gave me a day to read a 30 page pdf and write a paper on it . Omg This collegetwt shit is serious …. IM OUT

[rot4life]

Putting him in the meat grinder

[weirdlizard26]

favorite bit from gomens 2 is when they use a piece of paper as money and humans take it. such an asshole move but cracks me up every time

[muckyschmuck]

I KEEP HAVING DREAMS ABOUT DRAWING AND THEN IM MAD WHEN I WAKE UO BECAUSE I DONT HAVE THE DREAM DRAWING IM SO PISSED

[bismuthburnsblue]

this will be a coat someday. maybe even before it gets too cold here

[notveryshrugemoji]

lol, the last 24 hours have been wild and this is exactly the place I want to document it. Love processing my thoughts and feelings here hahaha

Yesterday I was working and started feeling, off. Nothing major, just didn’t feel good. I was clammy, my heart was racing, my chest and upper back between my shoulder blades felt tight. At times I felt like I needed to gasp or take a big breath in to feel like I was filling my lungs? Does that make sense?! So I took my blood pressure 3 times, both arms. Numbers: 145/99, 145/105, 140/95 with my HR 95-105 each reading.

Naturally, I gaslit myself into thinking I was having an asthma attack. So I called my mom and she was like “lol maybe call the nurse hotline about that” so I did and THEY were like “BITCH GO TO THE HOSPITAL” so I left work and went to the hospital lol. (Important to note here: I have had unexplained high BP since I was a teenager that is managed with meds).

ER saw me basically immediately due to the chest pain but they didn’t have a bed for me so I was just kinda sitting in a chair for a while lol. They did blood work, blood cultures, an X-ray of my chest and an ecg. Basically all of it came back clear. I saw a Student Dr first and she listened to my chest and then left pretty abruptly afterword, both drs came back and listened, NODDED TO EACH OTHER and confirmed “yes what you heard is correct”. Like okay, pls say more immediately, thanks! They ask me if I’ve ever been diagnosed with a heart murmur (no), then tell me they hear a murmur and want an ekg done (booked for Monday). And then they SENT ME HOME lol. Chest pain, elevated BP, etc. still happening. They were very thorough, i just kind of feel like I wasn’t given a real plan for the next couple of days? The symptoms are still there, so like do I go back if they get worse? How much worse does it need to get? This is partially my fault for not pushing harder to get those answers but I don’t think they really had anything at that point, realistically.

So I slept a couple of hours last night and woke up early today feeling the same way. I called my GP’s office and booked an appointment for Monday and let them know what happened yesterday. They said he’ll likely call me this evening bc he’s on call at the hospital. I went and got a couple of groceries, exhaustinggggg. I had to sit on my bottom stair when I got home and catch my breath lol. So things are basically the same as yesterday EXCEPT I can’t help but feel like “I don’t feel good” - like I feel like I have a cold. And then I’m thinking, what if it’s COVID? Im assuming my bloodwork didn’t show any red flags and that’s why they didn’t test. I asked my friend to grab me a couple of rapid tests just for shits though. More info is good at this point.

A lot of thoughts, top of the list is that I don’t think I have asthma and neither does the er doctor. I told him I almost didn’t go to the hospital bc I felt like I was overreacting about an asthma attack - because this is what an asthma attack feels like, right? And the answer is nooo, so have I just had an undiagnosed heart murmur for this long? It feels like that’s impossible hahahaha I have so much shit wrong with me surely someone would have heard it by now.

Anyway, I’m playing the new h*gwarts game on switch and gonna sleep as much as possible today. Eat, then sleep.

[livvyofthelake]

todays blogging. well first of all i need to finish constance wu’s memoir it’s due on libby tonight at 10pm. and yeah i could renew it there’s no one in line. but the thing is i’ve renewed this book like a dozen times just thinking i’d get to it next week. i have to finish it i have 3 hours left i have to. so that’s gonna cause a dent in the blogging. i was going to watch some xena but that’ll have to be post book now. and also i might be rereading sobh. is that i have her in the form of a beautiful hardcover <3

[ladysophiebeckett]

i know we're in a recession bc they stopped separating my slices of sandwich cheese with parchment paper and now when im making a sandwich my cheese is tearing apart bc it's sticking all together and im sick of it!!

[kaylor]

fr life is all about earning enough money to buy a burrito when you can't be arsed to cook and then just having a good time

[rahleeyah]

Rotel, vodka sauce, couscous, mushroom tomato pasta sauce, ice cream, canned chilies, frozen peppers, paper towels, tampons (9 items): $60 at Publix

Grapefruit 12 pack bubbly water, blackberry 12 pack bubbly water, frozen green beans, bag of russet potatoes, fresh brussel sprouts, bag of 3 fresh bell peppers, 3 count bag of romaine hearts, 2 packs of taco seasoning, large chocolate pretzel bar, bag of shredded Mexican cheese, 2 pounds fresh chicken tenders, large fresh pork tenderloin, 1 pound frozen ground beef, pouch of 90 second brown rice, bag of cabbage and carrots, one pound kielbasa, box of penne, canned tomatoes (19 items): $61 at Aldi

This blows my mind, every week. If y'all have an Aldi near you GO

[rabbitmotifs]

ezra pound that twink to oblivion

[cream-and-tea]

very important lmd compilation (including just some regular pallasandagnes hugs bc i am never not thinking of them) (ids under the cut)

She hugs Pallas hard enough to stretch them onto to their tiptoes and only feels their heart spasm for a second before they squeeze back.

Because of this they don’t have time left to react when Fiver snaps his arms around them and hauls them into the air, bundling them both head-over-tail into an alcove set into the wall. The final ounce of dignity left in Pallas’s body abandons them and they let out a shocked yelp, kicking and hissing, all danger and magic temporarily forgotten in the face of the utter embarrassment of it all. Hot bile crawls up their throat, revulsion rioting across their skin. A thousand invisible needles. Nails on a chalkboard.

Agnes closes the gap without thinking, throwing her arms around them with enough force that it knocks them both off balance. Pallas goes stiff and shocked in the hug for a held breath before squeezing back with a ferocity that bruises her ribs. They’d seemed blankfaced and cold before, but with their face buried in her shoulder Agnes can feel the thump of their heartbeat against hers, beating hard and fast with panic as though it’s about to explode. Their fingers dig into her back.

“Oh you’re amazing!” Agnes laughs a laugh clear as church bells and pulls Pallas into a hug, lifting them up and spinning them around in her wash of happiness. They’re too caught off guard to do anything but sputter absurdly, off-kilter and disturbingly rumpled.| Pallas does not feel amazing. Pallas feels insane. Agnes’s hair tickles their nose and her smile is blinding as the sun. She smells like pine needles. They’re going to be sick if she doesn’t let go. They never want her to let go ever again.

Without thinking they put their arms around her and Agnes makes a confused little noise at the back of her throat.| “Hey you.”

With a howl Calliope charges again, this time colliding with their chest, lifting them off their feet in a steel-armed embrace as if they weighed nothing. Without thinking Pallas screams, Vita ripping strips down her stomach lining as their teeth and nails tear at his shoulders and back.