#a.caleb

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just the tip with caleb.... he's still hesitating with you even after confessing his feelings. you have to assure him one thousand times over that you want him but the guilt and hesitation just linger. he always promised he'd never lay his hands on you.

but he's only human, only so strong - and the sight of you humping his cock through his sweats is too much. batting your lashes, sweet and doe-eyed - the kind of face you used to make when you begged him for something you're not supposed to have. knows it like the back of his hand after spending most of his life falling for it.

somethings never change. of course he caves when you're like that. hands on his chest, cheek to his shoulder, kissing his neck. he doesn't know if you're trying to torture him by whining into the side of his throat - repetitive slurred pleas. gimme, please. he feels so guilty. he should take it easy on you, really.

just the tip is his compromise. a little. until you get used to it. of course you're not happy but caleb placates you the best he can. lays you on your back with your legs spread and your knees up. doesn't know where to focus his eyes. the look on your face is too much but so is your pussy. wet and slick, flush with need.

just the tip he promises. and you blink. bite your cheek with such dire anticipation. he slides in after fingering you so it's not too hard to do. but the stretch. the warmth. enough to resist him. you moan like the air is being punched right out of your lungs and caleb nearly bites a hole through his lip because fuck. he can feel his hips twitch. wants to sheath himself inside and force his way into your cunt. always been his, hasn't it?

but caleb is caleb. he gets about an inch deep and stops there no matter how much you try to shove him in your deeper. pins your hips to your bed and fucks you with just the very tip. in and out - always amazed by how it flutters for him. how fucking easy you make it look even when he's as thick as he is.

but its worse doing it like this. the most sensitive part of his dick nestled, swallowed by the warmest, tightest part of your pussy while you're helplessly held down. its just a measure to make sure you don't misbehave.

but it feels wrong. dirtier. feels like he's masturbating with your body. he feels like he's defiling you more this way.

and you're getting off on it. cut from the same cloth like always.

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please you can’t mix a/b/o and LaDS. i’ll actually keel over and die. 

i can’t stop thinking about it ….

cw for dubcon kinda and rough sex. fem reader. psuedocest (gege. once shfjsjfj)

caleb in a rut. he grew up pretending to be a beta for your sake, taking as much suppressant medication and as many scent blockers as possible to make sure it was concealed. he wanted you to feel safe, to feel more at ease to the point he suppressed his own body completely

and then everything happens between you and caleb strictly forbids you entering his apartment during his rut. you don’t know it at the time, but they’re still permanently irregular from the whole soup of medications he took during his adolescence. so he has these crazy ruts like once or twice a year where he’s completely not himself.

you only found out he was an alpha recently, as in when he came back as a memeber of the fleet. but you’re partners now, you’re supposed to be equals so you want to help him thru his rut

caleb vehemently rejects you. of course he does. he’s not himself and he never wants to do something you do like.

but you’re stubborn and don’t listen so you go over to his apartment anyway. his scent is so thick it permeates from behind the front door of his place. when he answers it after your persistent yelling - he opens the door and it immediately assaults your senses. he’s shirtless, sweaty, pupils completely dilated. his voice is shot.

“go home. now”

he turns you away at the door. you get in each others face until you finally step on the right nerve and caleb yanks you inside and locks you in. cages your body against his front door with this terrifying look in his eyes, his hand gripping your jaw and making you look up at him “so fucking stubborn,”

you underestimate him when he says it’s bad. you dont realize how bad it is until you’re getting fucked over every surface of the house with little to no prep other that the left over, sticky spit from him trying to lick you open. he takes you first right by the door, your pants barely to your knees while your face is against the floor.

“wish you’d be a good girl and listen but you never do. maybe it’ll be a good lesson for you. remember it carefully”

caleb is always so gentle, so careful and kind but he’s forcing your pussy open like it’s nothing. splitting you on his cock as you cry. and he fucks you so deeply and so intense right from the jump, doesn’t ease you into it at all. he takes you on the floor before he helps you up and bends you over the kitchen counter, the back of the couch, pressed into missionary on the coffee table in his living room, on all fours on the stairs.

he’s being mean about it too. every time your pussy tightens up or clenches around him when he smacks it lightly or when he tortures your clit - he has this laugh that borders on callous. loving but humiliating at the same time

“no matter how much i stretch you open it feels like you’re trying to snap my dick off. do you want it so bad, hm?”

he’s merciless. he’s not himself. he makes sure you don’t hurt yourself when repositioning but you’re so full of cum and so sore you can barely move without limping. covered in these deep bite marks as he just goes again and again. mating like you’re animals until he comes out the haze

“how much cum do you think you have in here?” as he smacks your hip. “stay upright. don’t let it spill okay? since gege was so kind and gave it to you.”

he has moments of sobriety. you can always tell bc he becomes worried and affectionate- lapping at your wounds like an oversized dog. but it’s shortlived. the cycle starts again and your pussys wrapped around him like a sleeve for him to fuck.

you don’t get away from him for three days. it feels like your cunt is gonna stay stretched forever and caleb looks so sad and apologetic after. like a kicked dog

and as crazy as he is during - it’s also kind of . nice to feel how deeply he really desires you. the things he says during his ruts are demeaning but still somehow so lovesick and you kind of like seeing him let loose.

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caleb is so horrible because everything you do is so fucking cute to him and gets him hard without trying. when you get jealous and territorial, when you’re moody and irritable, when your vicious. worked up over something yk. you take it out on him not meaning to—and every time you come back to him moping and tugging at his sleeve he just. loses his mind. feels like he’s gonna crazy with how cute he finds you

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caleb completely out of his mind in a rut making you thank him for all the cum he’s fucked into you. fills you up and forces his fingers in your mouth until you muffle the sorriest little “thank you,” . Yeah

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caleb and free use....omg fang i'm going crazy the more i think about what you said-

he really loves being on the receiving end of it. he’d never want you to be the subject of it bc he worries about it being hard on your body

it’s okay when you do it though. he’s been building up his stamina and subconsciously edging himself in preparation to fuck you for so much of his life anyway

when you shamelessly paw at him while he’s cooking dinner, or working from home—or when you hold his waist while he’s doing pull-ups in his home gym, with that hazy little look in your eye and your hands wandering all over him, he’s genuinely ecstatic.

thinks it’s so cute. always drops everything for you, especially when you refuse to let him wash up or finish whatever he’s doing because you’re just that impatient, that spoiled.

he’ll half-heartedly tease you but you always get whatever you want, whenever you want. you know that you will, too. gege absolutely adores you, after all. he’s been giving you princess treatment for almost your entire life

you getting fucked whenever and however you desire is just an extension of that, no? spoiled little princess and her spoiled princess cunt. if there’s anything you want that he can give you, he will. his body included

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images that kill you instantly

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sry for being insane but i need to watch caleb jerk off so bad and he would do it if you asked him to and would feel a little bad about it until he sees how excited you are to see him so intimately >__<

the intimacy of it… just the both of you chilling out in bed. he’s like… sitting against the headboard and you’re laying on your stomach. and you’re like hey. i wanna see you jerk off. he’s shocked first but then he has that blushy laugh. and he’s like right now? and you just nod.

he makes a comment about you being ridiculous but he does it anyway. you’re staring so intently it makes the back of his neck feel hot but he’s also getting hard bc of how close you are. and you keep getting closer, almost breathing on it.

there is so much precum. and the way he uses his hand feels so much… violent then when you do it. it makes you think of how he fucks you. and it gets you a little wet too. maybe more than a little, since you’re rocking your hips for friction.

it takes you too long to realize why he’s going so hard.

“are you getting off to me?”

“yeah,”

“do you always do that?”

“…yeah.” a beat of silence. “always have,”

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caleb the type to talk you through your first ever orgasm </3 teaches you how to ask for what you want and makes you tell him where it feels good ☹️☹️ what else is an older brother for if not to guide his little sister?

inhales a puff of my cigarette

cw psuedocest, use of gege bc im a pervert, phone sex

you're just. maybe venting over the phone. crabby about something that has nothing to do with caleb at all. im picturing it over the phone for max sexual tension. you're just being even brattier with him than usual and he's like. gently scolding you about it. puts on that firm but kind voice he only does with you.

you blurt it out and caleb is like quiet for a while. and he's like well if you dont understand your body then of course it'd be difficult for you to do. and there's this underlying tension and you don't know what you're chasing. just that gege is safe and you can trust him with anything like you always have

so you just tell him you keep stopping. you get scared when you get too close and he laughs a bit on the other side of the line. you're scared because it feels too good? you're usually more brave than this.

you complain to him and he just laughs a bit more. but then eventually he tells you to focus on something else. and you petulantly reply like what? and caleb pauses. you hear him swallow over the line. just focus on my voice.

caleb wont say anything too crass. too vulgar. your knowledge of these things should be as limited as they can be. so its just... soft. gentle. doesn't use the proper words, skirts around everything. it feels good when you touch it lightly right? be gentle.

you get huffy. it's the tension. how on edge it already is. how you're trying not to notice the thick lust in calebs voice. how it makes you feel to not hear him or see him - but wonder anyone if he's aroused at all. if he's maybe touching himself to you, too. over the front of his jeans - just barely running his palm over it. as much as you want to think about, it's hard to picture it.

you can't picture him getting himself off, but for some reason it's easy to picture him on top of you. picture him inside of you—

im close you've never whined so loud gege, im—

shhhh. it's okay. just cum. ill take care of you.

you cum hard. its satisfying. stokes the flames of desire in the pit of your stomach and makes it easier to breathe. it makes sense, you think.

he already has so many of your firsts.

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giving caleb a clumsy blowjob and hurting your jaw, coming back to him after studying it a little, seeing his eyes roll back when you admit you’ve been practicing. hands clenching so hard you see all the veins in them because your mouth suddenly feels so good. it was good before for different reasons but now he’s trying to choke you on his dick

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big bro caleb making you sit on his lap because you’re carpooling with everyone and everyone’s packed in tight. the ride is bumpy and somehow you end up straddling his thigh and he can feel how warm your pussy is through your cotton panties and he’s thanking whoever’s upstairs that he bit his tongue and didn’t tell you to change out of your mini skirt. it doesn’t take long for him to notice the flush crawling up your neck every time a bump on the road causes you to bounce on his muscular leg. his hands grip your hips under the guise that he’s keeping you stable but he can’t stop himself from pulling you down ever so slightly to make you grind against him. if you notice what he’s doing, you don’t say anything and it’s probably because you don’t wanna believe your big bro is flexing his thigh for more friction on your clit. you don’t wanna believe that you’re getting off like this in a car full of people. either way, you don’t say a peep and that’s you being a good little sister for him. he can feel the wet spot forming on his pants, matching the one forming from his leaky tip. any more of this and he’s gonna blow his load in his pants since this is the closest he’s gotten to cumming near his cute lil sis’s pussy. but as fucked as it is, you’re just as bad as he is. the car’s stopped and there’s traffic but here you are shifting your hips back so you can feel more of your big brother

did you just fucking stab me

im going to fucking scream so loud why would u say this to me rn . im gonna go insane.

this and the canon kiss they had and then never spoke of. the amount of sexual tension. caleb with his face against your spine breathing so heavily. both of you equally being able to feel the others arousal in a car full of people. caleb is doing everything in his power to physically hold himself together but he can feel how wet you keep getting pushed back against his dick when the car goes over a bump

you don't say anything, don't really talk. other than so softly whispering for him, in that desperate way you always do and always have. the kind of exasperated whine of his name when you want your big brother to spoil you and he just barely suppresses a groan and it is simply . too much too fast. for both of you.

you're both frustrated and thankful the car is so packed because no thinks twice or hears any of the soft desperate breaths you let out. caleb wonders if you're pressing against his dick on purpose, but he can't imagine it. thinks its more likely you're just chasing friction and letting it all go like you always do when you're with him. i see.

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about the talk of caleb doing everything but penetration. what makes me crazy is to know he really do believe that the fact it didn’t happen means he did nothing wrong with his dear sister (meanwhile you sleep naked beside him)

IMMSAYNGGGJEHDNF

he’s like. convinced. its mostly to make sure you don’t go too far but the line keeps being pushed. he won’t fuck you, he swears he won’t—as long as he doesn’t he still did the right thing. doesn’t matter that you crawl into his bed across the hall so he can take care of your poor, neglected pussy. doesn’t matter that you let him join you in the shower and fuck between your thighs when you two are alone.

he didn’t fuck you just shaped your body entirely to his touch. he didn’t fuck you, so it’s fine that you get so worked up you’ll fuck yourself on his fingers without restraint. shameless and needy and cross-eyed. sure it makes him dizzy, makes his teeth ache with lust— but he didn’t fuck you. didn’t soil your innocence. it’s fine. no matter how much he thinks about pounding with his cock—it’s fine as long as he doesn’t actually do it.

but it’s fine if he fucks his fist and describes it to you instead, a lesson in feeling desirable. fine for you to match his pace with a toy—kissing all desperately like you really are fucking each other.

as long as he plays it safe and ignores the sweet siren call of your perfect, untouched cunt. as long as he keeps his hands behind his back and doesn’t pluck any forbidden fruit. you can stay perfectly together.

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MAJOR CALEB STORY SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT . i clipped my favorite scene bc im crazy .

but this is the voice okay. vid is cropped so it’s easier to upload

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caleb puts you being taken care of over everything but it doesn’t mean he has to like when you have to take care of yourself.

meaning he won’t get mad if you masturbate, but he prefers spending whatever time he can fucking the shit out of you so you don’t need to.

he also likes when you get so worked up that you text him for permission to cum though. its cute and obedient of you

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this is such a… idk like a stupid little thought because i can’t get myself to elaborate really but i think caleb is so good at sex. like it’s absurd… in a way that by the way you’re done you’re trembling all over and your mouth is parted and your eyes are just staring blankly at a spot in the ceiling and your ears are buzzing. tongue tied for the following thirty minutes. like he WILL fuck you stupid and i think that’s very nice of him. it’s a combination of everything too like it’s not just that the dick is good (which it is of course. he’s like abusing the good spots without even trying) but the way he talks to you and the way he touches you and the positions and it’s so intense… mmmmmm

IT IS NAWWWT STUPID. LOOK. LISTEN

a lot of people have asked if caleb in my fic is a virgin but i leave this open ended bc i know people get weird about it lmao.

BUT I ALSO LEAVE IT OPEN BECAUSE ! in my heart caleb is truly and sincerely a naturally excellent fuck. even if he were, you wouldn't know for shit because he is . just that good in bed. it's one of those things that he's like unfairly gifted with. truly his only flaw is that he'll never have the hots for someone quite like he does for his little sister

everywhere else? blessed. his dick is unfairly huge so he knows before his first time he'll have to loosen his partner up. and he just has this way of feeling things out with such frustrating charisma that you really don't know.

it's him being receptive to feedback + enthusiastic to please + naturally charismatic as a human being + unfairly handsome + and generally athletic. all of these things combined make for a lethal hit. and also he's been so horribly pent up for years that even just undoing the pressure makes for an intense experience.

he's the same he is in every other part of your life - wants to be thee best for you. and it shows!!! it always does. if you're gonna sit on his face you're not gonna leave until he's sure you're too fucked out to put up a fuss when he gets his dick wet. he makes you nice and pliant and wet. the first time because it's the right thing to do, all the next times because of that and because it feels the best to fuck you that way. soaked to your core - enough to try to push him out.

he likes when you're just taking it. he comes to like that. he thinks its worth every single ounce of effort that comes before it. you always end up just laying there and letting him have a go at you - pulling your hips back and fucking you onto his dick without mercy. makes you feel like a cocksleeve, just a little - but he's not using you.

even the way he fucks you is affectionate so this works. like he's trying to kiss your cervix - the way lovers do. its insane. insane insane insane.

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dry humping w caleb and he gets sooo desperate hes basically folding you into the mattress whie making out...

being mostly clothed while he’s holding your legs up and grinding with the same amount of force he would fuck you in … clothes gradually getting sticky and stripping down to underwear without taking it off bc otherwise it’s too far…. Anon….

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cw for the most longwinded and insane discussion of psuedocest and caleb and mcs relationship in lds.

MY THOUGHTS ARE SUBJECT TO CHANGE !!!!!!!!!!!!! but for now...

MAJOR CW FOR PSUEDOCEST AND SPOILERS FOR CALEB CARDS

like. not only is caleb being a siscon integral to his characterization - it also crucial to understanding what is actually going on in their dynamic because when you remove the familial context (and, in turn, remove calebs sole reason for being KJDSHJDS) none of the conflict of the story will feel meaningful or make any sense

calebs and mcs relationship is run of the mill traumatized sibling codependency. the amount and the extent in which the both of them emotionally rely on each other is reinforced in the myth where it affirms that caleb is basically fucking winter solider and that if mc had the chip in her she would end up with a similar obsession about protecting him.

but caleb has harbored a stronger desire for her since forever.

and MORE than that , i do not think his desire for her genuinely conflicts with his interest in acting as her older brother.

so much of the conflict caleb experiences is about wanting to maintain the image of protection and strength in order to make sure mc never feels completely out of depth and keep himself as a safe space in her life. he makes a promise in her bond as to not restrain her. his priority has always and will always be her family. acting as her dependable gege is something caleb goes to great lengths to do

this is proven again by their hidden waves card where he doesnt want mc to see him sick. he cant be sick, cant show weakness. because he wants her to continue to depend on him for as long as they are live. he wants to continue to be the person she relies on.

the distorted nature of their relationship exists because for calebs desire to monopolize mc and continue acting like her gege are not at odds INTERNALLY. rather, he is under the correct impression that expressing that to mc would alter her already fragile connection and feelings about family.

WHICH IS WHY THE CONVERSATION THEY HAVE IN THE MAIN STORY CAPTIVE BIRD - WHERE CALEB EXPLICITLY SAYS THAT IT WAS MCS MISTAKE TO THINK HE WOULD KEEP ACTING AS HER GOOD OLDER BROTHER IS SOOO DKJFHSJD !!!

thank you mao for the translations on that for affirming the psuedocest in it AND the tragedy in it.

based on all of that and the way i see it - i think the underlying sexual tension is probably something that has existed in their relationship for a long time. something that mc has probably felt but somewhat willfully chosen to overlook or acknowledge because of what it would mean . to what capacity she has understood it is imo still up for debate

TO ME........ i think this is about a willingness to the accept that distortion. the intentional cruelty in deying to mc that he was ever gege in the first place. i do think that this is of course partially because of his frustration over his feelings but also a way for him to make mc confront their relationship more head on. mc sees it a denial of their bond and i think this will require resolving at some point

but because i think caleb knows even better than mc that mc could accept A LOT from caleb simply because of who he is to her. but its not what he wants. he wants HER as she is. to have all of her.

to act as both. to be everything to her she is to him. in order to do that, i think he probably first intends to make mc conscious of him this way. forcefully because its the only way she'll really get it and come to him of her own volition and accept what has probably existed between them for a long time

i think this is also an act of mercy on calebs behalf. because i think it would genuinely be easy for him to get what he wants out of mc on the guise of acting as her brother only. i think it is knowing that he chooses not to do that and instead goes so forcefully in making her aware of him and his desires. i know that sounds insane but for now thats how i see it.

its a matter of caleb wanting to be both her gege and everything inbetween. above and below.

SORRY AND I AM INSANE .