#adhdautism combo just makes me focus on one thing at a time posting wise :P

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I am so sorry in advance I am sure I am being annoying by now but I have been mentally crying about Fionn and Diarmuid and your fanon interpretation of The Pursuit since my break TTATT I just. There's so much good pain and heartbreak in it because like. Diarmuid absolutely wants to let Fionn lose his shit I am sure because who wouldn't? But he has to think of the big picture because Fionn can't and my heart?? And then there's the like. Everything else involved. Like are Diarmuid and Graine 1/?

First of all, don't apologise for having Thoughts that's the whole point of having an inbox open, secondly no you are not being annoying [Grainne is two "n's" btw just a note] I'm chill you're fine god knows I go on and on about anything and everything

Thirdly, yeah you pretty much nailed it but lets break this down! Yes he still chases them for a full 7 years from Ireland to Scotland, mostly because Grainne is A Bitch but also because Diarmuid is Kind Of Panicking since he doesn't know how to talk Fionn down from such berserker rage [hey remember my berserker Fionn ideas? Haha yeah] but it should be noted this is a different Grainne to the one you usually see. Basically, my HC is that, much as what happens irl, Pursuit!Grainne and Poem!Grainne were two completely separate events [remember, in the oldest, original poem about her, Grainne never ran away with Diarmuid or had any interaction with him at all, and she had an amicable divorce from Fionn], but since they have similar traits and the same name, they ended up getting recorded in history as "one person" thus smudging a lot of the details

And yeah good catch with the Medb fic! "It wasn't enough" is indeed about all of this because while in this turn of events, Diarmuid never married her, the damage she did was still severe, still caused a huge political rift among Ireland. When the Gabhra battle happens, Diarmuid is convinced that everyone turning against Fionn and his men is because of those 7 years [it isn't, of course, but self blame is a helluva thing] and Fionn is simply too late to save him from the boar, partially because Diarmuid was in a "he'd be better off without me around" state of mind once his fight with the boar was over

So Fionn believes he didn't do enough to help, and one of his biggest regrets is not just killing this woman the first chance he got instead of hesitating just because Diarmuid got between them, and it's why he's so protective and somewhat possessive in chaldea lol

Anyway the pursuit stuff isn't hard canon to my fics, in fact I would say 9/10 of my fate fics operate on "it doesn't exist" and is really only relevant in the Medb fic [because I wanted to write good Medb stuff] and Forgiveness, for the juicy angst of it all