#adillo scutum

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not as happy with this one as the other but welp! there they are..... careful not to cut yourself on the edge

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another batch of fusion babs

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remember when Adillo was a small lil piece of weenie hut junior of garbage

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grumpy

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Yeah sure so maybe you think of him sometimes or y’know, what he looks like under those shades but like... Not more than what’s normal for people who’s friends with someone who always cover their eyes.

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Took a break from adopts to doodle these idiots fighting in the snow...

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... I wanted to try... x

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(+] sometimes i feel like im going to burst, like my head will explode and all my thoughts and all the millions of conversations ive had with myself will come rushing out all at once... [+)

(+] often i wish i could talk to someone, share all this bullshit in my head, but when i try the words get stuck in my throat and i just fucking cant. I feel like nobody would look at me the same way if i did and that scares me. i guess. [+)

(+] its so dumb. all of it. i hate it. [+)

(+] not like anyone would understand anyway. its probably best they dont. [+)

(+] i should just disappear. [+)

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"Hopeless"

Adillo looked at the word, written in the sand in front of her, as the waves rolled in and erased it little by little.

Hopeless. She was hopeless. Why was she like this?

Her behavior and feelings and wishes contradicted one another.

She didn't want to be alone, yet she push everyone away. She wanted to feel loved and needed, yet she refused any signs of it. She didn't want to get hurt, so she tried to keep everyone away and hurt herself more.

She didn't want to live but she couldn't die.

"Hopeless."

She wrote the word again in the sand, as if writing it over and over again would give her some kind of answer. It didn't.

Why was it that she was so quick to be reckless, take risks and get into fights, yet such a coward the moment it was about taking the risk to let others close to her? Learn to know her?

The sea erased the word in front of her again and she pulled her knees up under her chin.

Seeing a smile on Adillo's face was rare - but seeing her cry... Was even more so. She simply wouldn't let herself.

But tonight she couldn't stop the tears from coming.

They welled up, filling her eyes so she couldn't see and ran down her cheeks, sobs making their way out of her throat. A silent noise swallowed by the sound of waves.

Hopeless.

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... I couldn’t decide which version I liked the most sdyhfjg a dumb idea that just... flew into my head idk... fgkglh

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Life isn’t easy and often you wonder how long you’ll be able to hold on...

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I like how half of these requests were all for Adillo...... Omg. 

(Art for this meme)

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that awkward moment when you get stuck in a bubble together... this was a good rp, we should continue it... =v= @xsassafrasstrolls

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Adillo is starved of affection, touches, mentally and physically alike... She shelters herself, avoids it because it’s scary to her, terrifying, she sees herself as... Disgusting. She sees others as people who can potentially up and leave her, who won’t stay around. She assume they’ll go eventually, when they are tired, done with her. It hurts less if she won’t let them close, if she push them away and make it her choice... Or at least that’s what she’s lead herself to believe.

But she doesn’t want to be alone... She longs for that affection. She wants to be held and she wants to hold. She’s jealous of trolls she sees around her, the ones who has this, the ones who are genuinely... Happy. Who are comfortable in each others company. Who ain’t afraid of hugs and kisses and sharing their secrets and feelings... The ones who have the things she can’t have, because she’s scared and afraid of taking the risk. She doesn’t know how to, and she’s hurting.

Besides, what would the point be when she’s not planning on staying around forever herself? If she wants to disappear, to end... Why let others come close and make that harder to do.

Adillo is a mess, please save her...