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#ah itll all pass its all good. im always okay again eventually however temporarily. i dont need anything other than that
toastsnaffler
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really horribly anxious this morning and can't seem to shake it off :-(
#struggling not to dissociate. just don't really know what I'm going to do with all this i think thats where its coming from
#+ exacerbated by so much recent disappointment. its hard not to direct that towards myself even when im not really at fault
#not to mention disappointment in other people. which is really just more self disappointment for having expectations in the first place
#which are unfeasible/not communicated. i just feel so unreal and unreachable. kind of just incompatible with the world i think
#and i dont remember how to weave myself back into it again.im not sure ive ever really known how. immiscibility innit
#its ok. going to try and start meditating daily again. and negotiate better boundaries for myself. it might help to journal it out
#not on here i mean in a physical journal. i can't hold this exclusively in my head or I'll want to start harming again ik its a trigger
#its all okay tho sorry this sounds more dramatic than it actually is. my flatmates gone out so at least i can cry while doing chores
#she was dressed up nice and came to say goodbye when she left which she doesnt normally do so i dont think she'll be back for a while
#hope she has a good time whatever shes up to. probably shouldve asked in hindsight but im too anxious to be able to talk today
#and selfishly it would make me feel worse trying not to compare myself to how much more meshed with reality she is she makes it look easy
#she only wanted me to do her suncream but i started trembling rly badly after. just cant physically be around other people right now
#well at least i didnt cry in front of her so thats something. okay. ive made a list of tasks so im going to pick them off one at a time
#i shouldnt have to think too much about them. and hopefully by the time im done ill feel much calmer
#and then maybe i can play a game or smth. but if not i wont be hard on myself ill just go lie down and listen to music instead
#man it is a shame about this festival though but it is what it is. therell be other days. i guess im not really a weekend person hey
#ah itll all pass its all good. im always okay again eventually however temporarily. i dont need anything other than that
#.diaries
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