#all of a sudden I want this to be two female leads😩😩😩

[uchihashisuii]

What about something super fluffy? Make this hot daddy an actual father please 😩. V just found out she's pregnant and of course it's no other than our fave ripperdoc's child. He didn't even think he had it in him, but SURPRISE 😍

have some post-game Viktor Vector/Female V

this turned out surprisingly self-indulgent. her reaction is essentially word-for-word the reaction I had when I found out I was pregnant, alone in a bathroom; though I think I cried a lot more than she did sjdjsksosk enjoy!

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Well, V thinks to herself, biting down on the side of her thumbnail, that's something.

She picks up the pregnancy test with shaking fingers, bringing the small stick as close to her face as she can manage. Two blue lines blur together a half inch from her eye, and she scoffs before tossing the thing into the bin. It makes a strange clacking sound as it connects with the three other tests already in there, all of them positive.

She just wanted to be sure.

It had hit her like a ton of bricks this morning, the realization that she hadn't had her period in three months. Normally not something she'd fuss too much about -she'd never been really regular, thanks to the stressful lifestyle she leads- but that instant thought of "am I pregnant?" refused to leave her brain. V had convinced herself she was jumping to a ridiculous conclusion, even as she rushed to the nearest drugstore and bought two boxes of tests. Surely, she said to herself as she beelined for the bathroom once she got home, there is another explanation.

Well. More the fool, her.

V steps up to the mirror, pulling her shirt up and twisting from side to side. Her stomach is still scarred as usual, still slightly rounded and soft; not a thing looks different. Is that normal? Should she look different? Should she be showing already? Is there something wrong with her? Is there something wrong with the - the kid? God, just the thought of the word makes her feel dizzy. A kid. There's a kid inside her. Her kid. Viktor's kid - oh, holy shit. V throws her hand out to catch the edge of the counter, eyes going wide as she let's out a breath. She's carrying a tiny infant inside her, something that's half her and half Vik and that - is more terrifying than it is exciting. She has the sudden image of a dark-haired child wielding a gun in one hand and a boxing glove on the other. V laughs, the sound only slightly manic.

Ah, she's panicking. Wonderful.

V catches her own eye in the mirror, pulling her shirt down and giving her head a quick shake. She stands up straight, taking deep breaths. "You're fine," she tells her reflection, willing herself to believe it.

Swallowing her anxiety, V quickly leaves the bathroom and grabs her jacket, shrugging it on as she makes her way to the door. The walk to the clinic barely takes five minutes; she resigns herself to be properly calm and collected by the time she gets there.

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"I need you to scan me," V blurts out the moment she's past the gate, marching up to where Vik is sitting in his usual spot. He looks up at her with a mystified expression, standing up and reaching to envelop her hands in his.

"What's the matter, sweetheart? What happened?"

V only shakes her head, laughing breathlessly. "I cant - I'm not sure how to - Just," she takes a deep breath, looking up at him entreatingly. "Just scan me. Please."

His brows furrow but he slowly nods, pulling her towards his setup. She drops his hands and lays herself down on the chair, fingers drumming nervously against her thigh.

"What am I looking for, exactly?" Vik asks as he boots up the system, tapping away at the monitor. V swallows thickly, looking straight up at the ceiling and feeling her heart begin to pound.

"The, ah - the whole, abdominal region," she answers, gesturing to herself with a small chuckle. She can feel his stare burning into her but she refuses to meet his eye; she's too nervous and tongue-tied to say the words, a part of her petrified to find out what his reaction will be. Better for all involved if he just - sees it for himself.

V squeezes her eyes shut as he brings the scanner down to her belly, her nails digging in to armrest. She tries to focus on keeping her breathing even, knows that she fails.

Everything's quiet for a minute, before Vik moves the scanner away and his breath leaves him in a short gust.

"V," Vik says her name, sounding more serious than she's heard from him in a long time, in just that one little letter.

"Yeah?" She whispers back, finally opening her eyes to glance at his face. His eyes are wide and he's gripping the side of the monitor hard enough that the plastic creaks. V feels her mouth go dry as he slowly turns the monitor to face her, and she sits up in her seat to get a better look.

It's the length of her thumb, if that. A tiny, human-if-you-squint shaped thing, with tinier little curled up arms and what look almost like legs.

"Well, that's hideous," V says with a breathless laugh, trying for levity to ease the situation. But she cant deny the pure wonder that she feels at the sight; her body is capable of growing a whole new person, the thought ridiculous and extraordinary and a slew of other emotions that she cant hope to articulate at the moment.

"It's a fetus," Vik interrupts her thoughts, coming around the side of the chair to watch the monitor alongside her. He has a hand pressed to the side of his face, his expression unreadable.

"Yes, well. Happy returns and all that," she says, still laughing even as her heart seizes up. She can't tear her eyes away from the frozen image of what will one day be a fully grown person - with their own feelings and dreams and hopes.

"V."

"I think it looks a bit like me, don't you?"

"V," Vik says again, chuckling breathlessly despite himself. He touches a hand to her chin, moving her face to look up at him. He looks strained, even as he wills himself to smile at her. "You know what this means, right?"

"That I have actual, physical proof you have sex with me?"

"It means," Vik says with a sigh, "that you have a decision to make."

"Oh," V breathes, looking back at the screen with her throat feeling suspiciously tight. She thinks about it, for a minute. Thinks about the life she leads, about the dangers of Night City. Thinks about what it would feel like, to hold a tiny little Viktor in her arms. She knows her decision before he'd even asked, has known since that first test came up positive.

"I would - I'm keeping it," V says, nodding her head and glancing up at him.

"Good," Vik replies, much too quickly as his breath leaves him in a gust. He laughs, sounding as exhilarated as she feels. "Good. I, uh - I'm gonna go pass out, now, if that's alright with you?"

He stumbles over to his chair, dropping down onto it without ceremony as V laughs. He puts his head in his hands and shakes his head.

"I'm gonna be a dad," he says through his fingers, chuckling breathlessly.

V watches him as a wave of relief washes over her, taking a shaky breath before turning back to the screen. They're both silent for a time, simply digesting the fact that their lives are about to irrevocably change.

"I think she looks like a Gertrude," V breaks the silence with a smile, running the tip of a finger over the monitor.

"You are not," Vik says with thinly veiled disdain, "naming my daughter Gertrude."

"You cant speak to the mother of your child like that," she replies, crossing her arms over her chest and shooting him a frown.

Vik snorts out a laugh, standing from his chair and running a hand back through his hair. He walks over to her side and grasps her hand, bringing it to his mouth to press a soft kiss against her knuckles. He looks down at her wordlessly, and V would swear she feels her heart stop.

"I'm not going to fit into any of my clothes," she says with a pout.

"No," he shakes his head.

"I have to quit smoking."

"Yes."

"I'm going to grow bones inside me that I wont get to keep."

"V," he laughs, leaning down to kiss her forehead. "It's going to be fine."

V looks up at his smile, then back to the monitor. She squeezes the hand he's still holding, and lets out a breath that eases her fear.

Yeah, she thinks, smiling away, it'll be just fine.

[alexskye]

Episode 8 of Light on Me in my mind:

*Spoilers I think??? Also swearing cause this show makes me feel 100 different emotions

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•Namgoong is the BEST- his chart is the cutest! Guess his goal is to get a girlfriend 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

•Taekyung didn’t tell anyone about him getting an umbrella from Daon (like what’s the big deal if he borrowed an umbrella???)

•Also this scene??? Like, I could tell Daon is conflicted about something and most likely the fact that he’s emotionally unavailable to date well…anyone

•Daon runs in the rain like the romance lead in a KDrama that he is. Honestly there’s always a rain scene somewhere in these dramas

•Cliche romantic comedy cold because Daon’s dumb ass ran into the rain

•Shinwoo’s awkwardness is awkward- his STARE!!! How is Taekyung NOT seeing this?!?!

•Namgoong’s strut 😂😂 he’s so extra and I love it, the most unproblematic character in this show tbh

•There’s this weird love square (???) going on between Daon, Shinwoo, Taekyung and Sohee. Meanwhile, Namgoong is just vibing

•Taekyung accused Shinwoo feeling bad for something because he was being nice lol

•THIS BUS SCENE!!! My heart ❤️❤️

•Ngl he’s really good-looking. This scene makes him look really handsome. How does a man like this exist????

•This walking scene was just so calm and really nice. No bickering, no proclamations of not liking each other, no awkwardness. Just Taekyung and Shinwoo having a chill moment

•When Shinwoo said “Thanks for realizing now” made me really think about how he would silently do things for Taekyung in the episodes and using his actions as part of expressing how he cares for him. Also, I kept thinking of this line when he took care of Takeyung while they were eating (Taekyung being a whole baby in this scene 🥺) and constantly telling him to slow down to avoid overeating. This is a FORESHADOWING line for future episodes of how Shinwoo takes care of Taekyung in his own hot-cold way.

•I notice that poor Daon constantly gets called on to help out or do favors, I have yet to see anyone return the favor for him. Dude can’t catch a break

•The entire conversation about Shinwoo treating Taekyung well was a great moment, just amazing build up and the two of them getting closer is making me hope for too much

•SHINWOO is fucking indirectly confessing wtf?!?! This was so sudden and I am in DISBELIEF that he actually said something after 8 episodes of SECOND LEAD PINING.

•Tbh I swooned at this moment. His expression, his eyes and tone really made my heart skip a beat. And still Woo Taekyung doesn’t notice ANYTHING!! Ugh! Why?!?

•Then he fucks up immediately after by saying “it’s not that kind of like” 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️😩😩😩

•This is why Team Daon has been winning

•Also I cannot find Lee Sohee likable at all. Like, okay…Daon is nice to people and does favors and is a people pleaser (I guess), but there was no need to tell Taekyung that so cruelly. Girl, your jealousy is showing and it’s obvious to EVERYONE that you don’t like him hanging around your 3-year crush.

•In BLs they usually make the girls bitchy or toxic or both. Can we please have ONE female character that is actually nice??

•Am I the only one that low-key wanted Daon to be evil?? Okay okay. Hear me out! I mean, he’s the Student Council President that is smart, good-looking and has a friendly smile on his face. But, I felt his kindness was fake (I was thinking: no way is there a person THIS nice) and it was all ONE GIANT manipulation tactic to get people to like him and be his followers (???). This guy could basically control the whole school while laughing his ass off in secret at how everyone got duped by his “nice guy” act. Then, Taekyung would find out he’s been pretending to be nice and it would be freaking WILD if Daon was actually manipulating people by acting kind

•By this episode, I threw away the whole Daon-is-a-villain theory cause maybe Daon is just a “yes guy” and is actually a nice person who doesn’t really know what he wants or has never really acted on his desires. I was still hoping he would be a villain lol

•THIS SCENE. I. AM. NOT. OKAY!!! Shinwoo taking action??? Grabbing Taekyung’s neck?? Disinfecting his wound so gently and being soft??? Just the total opposite of how he acted in Episode 1.

•Daon stepping in just increased the tension and still seems be insistent of forming that love triangle with Shinwoo for Taekyung’s heart

•Team Shinwoo has been fed well during this episode! His demeanor, attitude and tone becoming softer towards Taekyung. Being nicer to him with gentle, sweet actions. PLEASE!!! Something happen already, this is so frustrating

•Noh Shinwoo continues to surprise me with this action of taking Daon’s hand away from Taekyung and saying “I’ll do it”. The way he directly looks at Daon so intensely while delivering this line was so mind blowing because Shinwoo has been stepping up in this episode.

•I honestly don’t know anymore how this show is gonna go. I’m Team Shinwoo all the way, but this slowpoke is taking too damn long! I’m totally calling it: Shinwoo won’t directly confess to Taekyung till like another 4 episodes

•Theory 1: Shinwoo has liked Taekyung far longer than we might have assumed

•Theory 2: Daon will reject Taekyung’s confession cause he’s a “yes guy” that doesn’t know how to express his desires, emotionally unavailable to date, and is a people pleaser plus it feels as if he’s gonna stick to the “status quo” by letting Sohee continue to like him and not get into a relationship with another boy

•Theory 3: Shinwoo discovered he was gay/attracted to boys in middle school and the assholes from his former school knew about it, basically threatening to out him which causes him to hesitate on saying anything about his feelings because of those jerks

Thanks for reading.