#also brings up eren in this conversation and thats it. Eren.

[angel-nero]

💙 of glaspaladin bc i love ur rants when u send each other asks and shit lmAO + 💛 for me bc i like attention!!

send me  💙 for a confession about someone

A confession about @glaspaladin?! Uuuhhh it doesn’t counts as confession if i had said 62633738 times before that she is gorgeous, my 100/10 real angel and my fave person ever 😫 wtf i dont know how we managed to talk so quick and won a friendship so fast but im fucking blessed. confession might be i sometimes fear my 294747382 messages are a lot and my 39478329 pics of Keith and shiro are a lot too and that someday she will get tired of me and will stop talking to me smhsmsndn 🤣👍🏼 we talk, if not everyday, everyday so it will be a pUnch. But like, i will say things happen for something and will move on 🤠 and my heart will b destroyed but its okay lmfao. Confession: her love for lance is so pure but she smh manages to be a fake lance /stan/ I WOV HER SM. She says she now stans Keith but yo, hear me out, let’s see how much this endures before she throws her “haha keith dies” head canons at me bc she is a major character death sucker, BUT SHE ALWAYS PICKS HIM. OR SHIRO. Wont touch lance tho. She says i got her into s/k hell and I apologize to her followers that don’t like that ship lmfao.

send me  💛 for my honest opinion of you

Honest opinion about u: *enters lance persona* tessa…. u r like so pretty and funny and a great person, i would throw myself at a gigantic ball of fire for u… i love to see ur posts around. you’re also so relatable and idk, i just like how you never stir up drama and that you’re pretty chill but if u ever post something about a /fandom/ im always like lmaoooo fucking same jesus thank u. It’s like finally breathing fresh air again. I love that u always send me asks for the asks memes and tag me in stuff ty

[lunaekalenda]

Can I request a JeanxFem!reader where the reader is super friendly/clingy and isn't conscious of the effects it has on Jean? Like sometimes reader would just grab his hand or hold on to his arm, or even stand in front of him and put his arms around their shoulders? Reader ou does this to Jean bc they're best friends but he will never get used to it bc Jean loves them and is all "asdfghjkl" everytime it happens. But then one day reader stops doing this stuff because someone told her Jean likes them but ONLY bc they look similar to Mikasa, which breaks the Reader's cute lil heart. Angst but fluff at the end please!

hi! of course!! i hope you like it! <3 sorry if i got too fluffy at the end :’)

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❁ jean x female!reader

❁ canonverse

❁ a/n: i didn’t want to make annie like a “villain” but she’s just being really honest with what she thinks about it, she’s not trying to bother her!

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"Jean!" you yell. He smiles at you once he found from where your voice comes, and you run to hug your best friend. His tall body gives you difficulties to reach his neck, but he leans closer to you, his big hands on your waist. His heart flutters happily when he feels your warmth closer to him. 

“How was your training?” he asks. You tangle your arm with his, starting to walk calmly towards the dorms. 

When you entered here, on the military, you wanted to punch him. How he was always feeling superior. You wanted to punch him so bad.

But, after the first battle, where some unlucky friends passed away, he changed abruptly. He understood the pain of the more weak ones, and didn’t vacillate to take risky decisions in due to help the mission. He was made to be a leader, and you two worked hand by hand in the same squad. Thats how, quietly, you started to notice how funny and sweet he is, even when he tries to cover it with his prideful façade. But, since you two got really close, you can even difference what he is feeling, even when he tries so desperately to hide it.

Or so do you think.

One day, when you two were training, Mikasa passed by, following Eren. Jean got his eyes fixed on her black hair.

“You like Mikasa, don’t you?” Connie told him, joking. 

“I-I like her hair, no-o more.” He says. In that times, he was your friend, but you weren’t that close. 

Surprisingly, the more friends you became, the more strange you felt. Why did your heart a flip every time he smiled at you? Why did you felt bad when Mikasa asked something to him?

Maybe you were starting to feel something for him?

“You’re totally into Kirstein.” Petra told you. You enjoyed talking to her, she’s really nice. 

“Shut up, Petra, or else I’ll have to tell you how you look when Capt...”

“Got it!” she interrupted you and you both laughed. It was a quiet afternoon, and you two where sitting on the lake. “I think you should go for him.” she said. 

“He isn’t into me.” you answered. “He likes Mikasa.” Petra looked to the lake.

“Who knows, maybe he does feel the same...”

Petra is really positive, unless you talk about her. Then, she says she has zero opportunities.But, you didn’t want to break your special bond with Jean. That’s why you tried to keep things in a friendship, ignoring your feelings for so long.

“It was fine, yep.” you say. “But I’m hungry.” Your belly confirmes it. He lets out a little laugh.

“Let’s go and eat something first, then.” You smile and, letting go his arm, you tangle your fingers with his, walking with his hand on yours. He blushes a bit. “By the way, tonight we have free time. Do you want to hang?” Today, the Captains of the Squads gave you all free time, celebrating that you all survived another expedition yesterday. 

“Sure.” you pull him softly, his hand caressing yours in an unconscious way while you two walk towards the cantina.

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You feel the cold wind against your skin and wet hair while you walk to the encounter point you agreed with Jean earlier. You found Annie walking back to the dorms.

You and Annie haven’t talked that much, specially since her introverted nature finds your outgoing one terrible.

“Hi, Annie.” you say. She looks at you.

“If you’re searching Jean, he’s talking with Mikasa near Eren’s dorm. Just in case.” She speaks. You maybe looked concerned or down, because she looked at you for a long time. “You know you don’t have opportunities with him, right? He’s not the type of boy to fall in love with.” She says. You look at her back, kinda confused of the words she just said. “He thought he liked you, I’m sure he was confused. But then he realized you look so much like Mikasa, so he just likes the way you look like her. Never thought of it?”

“I do not look like her.” You say. 

“The same black hair that Jean loves. That’s enough for him to remind of her every time he looks at you. She’s out of his league, but maybe you...” Maybe she’s right. After all, he loves Mikasa’s black long hair. She cut it, you still have long hair. But, is all of this the truth? 

“Y/N!” Jean calls you from the place you accorded. Annie waves her hand before disappearing, going back to her dorm.

You walk towards Jean without your usual clingy ways. You walk silently, the sweater hugging your body and your gaze low. Jean is aware of your change of attitude. He gets concerned. What did he do to upset you? Maybe you don’t want to see him again. “Are you okay?” he asks, once you’ve reached him. You nod and fake a smile.

“Annie told me you were talking to Mikasa, so I decided to wait there. I didn’t want to bother.”

“You should had call me, dummy!” he says, colliding his shoulders with yours, playing. “You never bother me, y/n.”

His hazel eyes search any type of reaction on yours, but he only gets your gaze on the floor again. He stops walking and turns you to face him. “Hey, it’s everything okay?” He asks. He has lowered his voice and his tone is way more concerned. You don’t know if his kindness makes you feel good or bad. “Y/N?” He asks again. He just needs to know you’re fine, he needs to hear that nothing happened to you. Maybe, he thinks, you’re just upset with him for some reason he can’t think of. 

“I’m fine.” You’re not. You’ve been binge thinking about what Annie said to you, and you ended believing that maybe that’s true. That you’re just a Mikasa impostor on his heart.

“You’re not fine.” He says. Your skin feels electricity when he holds your hand, trying to avoid you from walking away. He searches your eyes once more, but now, they’re full of tears. His eyebrows move in a worrying expression. “What happened?” He asks. His tone is now sweet, trying to calm you.

“Well, now I know why you always pat my hair.” you say. At the end, the logic Annie followed is totally right, at least in your brain. “It is like touching Mikasa’s, right?”

His expression is now extremely confused. What are you doing bringing up Mikasa in a conversation that has nothing to do with her?

“Mikasa’s?” he asks. You wipe your tears with your hand quickly.

“You liked her when she entered, so probably you keep liking her. And my hair looks exactly like hers. Are you using me?” You ask. Your brain thought all of this in one second, this was kinda messy and you don’t know exactly what is happening. Jean is as confused as you are, he doesn’t know how he made a mistake like that. Make you think he’s in love with Mikasa when he’s in love with you. 

“Listen, Y/N...” he says. This wasn’t the confession scenario he built up in his head, but he needs to clarify things now, before this weird conversation ends with you two ending your friendship. "I did like Mikasa. I liked her when we entered, yes. But it was just a platonic love. We're friends. The point here..."

"I'm your best friend, Jean." you say. "You can tell me if you like her, I'll be okay with that. I gave up on you on any way."

He looks surprised. You liked him? You liked him all this time? As he liked you?

“What?” he asks. “Gave up?”

“I liked you, Jean Kirstein. A lot. My heart was out of my fucking chest every time you hugged me and I couldn’t think straight if your body was behind mine. But you were probably thinking about Mikasa and how beautiful she is...”

“No.” his face is serious when he looks at you. Both of his hands go to your cheeks, taking with his thumbs a couple tears that run fast down to your chin. “Because I couldn’t stop thinking about you.” he says. Your teary eyes look at his, searching a joke or something like that, but his eyes are more serious than ever. “I knew it was maybe a one-sided love, because I thought you’ll never be interested in me. Every time you acted clingy, my heart was about to explode of happiness. I feel so good when you’re around me, y/n...” he passes one lock of your hair behind your ear. “I knew i was in love  because I didn’t care it was one-sided, if you were happy, I was happy. That’s why I got so concerned today. Even knowing maybe it was my fault, I couldn’t see you looking sad. I couldn’t. Because I’m still so madly in love with you, I care about you and your well.being so much that I felt the pain of your eyes myself. Sorry for making you feel that way.”

There’s now a silence between you. Jean is probably giving you space to understand all he said, and your brain is having an emergency reunion. He does like you, and you’re still so in love with him... After all, all that happened was because a misunderstanding from you. You feel so silly now...

“Sorry.” you say. “I misunderstood things.”

“But that’s because I never told you clearly what I felt.”

“It’s all my fault.” you try to convince him that he’s wrong, that you were the one confused. “Now I probably lost all the opportunities to be with you and also our friendship.”

“Don’t be that drama queen, dummy.” he says, his voice a low whisper. “I think we just need to honestly tell each other what do we feel now.” He says. 

Telling the other? Telling what?

“I’ll start, then.” he says, “I fell in love with my clingy best friend and I’m still so in love I wouldn’t mind dating her.”

His words made your heart beat faster. After all, where you hiding feelings that were probably reciprocate? 

Probably.

“Come on, don’t be shy!” He laughs sweetly when he sees your blushed cheeks. His thumb makes soft circles on them. “I don’t know if I’m allowed to say this now, but you’re so fucking pretty...” his gaze gets lost in your face, admiring every single part of it.

“I also still love you, but don’t let your ego raise.” he laughs and so you do. Now, you can look at his face freely, how his hazel eyes have such an intense gaze...

“So, now that this is arranged, why don’t we act as if this never happened and you let me confess in a proper way, hm?”

“Sounds great.”

[songbirdsingingthings]

Pretty Little Symphony

Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters, they belong to Hajime Isayama

AOT Masterlist - Main Masterlist

Requested by @tanukiprints​ :

Imagine Armin but he plays ukulele and often likes to play it for a female y/n.... THATS SUCH A CUTE FIC IDEA 🥺

Umm HELL YES that’s a cute fic idea! I’m so sorry that this took so long to complete - I had a bunch of unexpected school stuff to deal with and I wanted to make sure that this was as good as it can be! 

Word Count: 1.5K

The world was a dreary place. You already knew that since you were little, what with titans running rampant, but the moment you stepped foot into the Yeager’s basement was when you decided that the sun would never feel as warm as it once was again. Between the, what was it called… photograph? And everything that was perfectly detailed in the diaries of Eren’s father, you and your fellow comrades’ world was turned upside down. Not only was the royal family of the walls lying to them, and had been for the entirety of all their lives, but it was revealed that another, more advanced, civilization was out there somewhere. Captain Levi had quickly gathered everyone back up again to set off on the long journey outside of the walls, urging his squad to bring only the essentials: One tent for every three people, sparse rations, and whatever you could fit in the tiny little rucksack that was given to each scout.

It was easy to fill yours given that you, nor really anyone else for that matter, had much in the way of personal items. You packed a change of clothes, some extra hair ties, and your mother’s necklace, and then slung the bag over your shoulder. You were one of the first people to be done, so you decided to wait by your horse and double check that everything was correctly buckled and fastened to the saddle. The only other people who were out there with you was Captain Levi, who was a ways away with his horse, and Armin, whose bag seemed to be bursting at the seams.

“What have you got stuffed in there?” You asked, walking so you could be standing next to him. With an embarrassed grin, he shrugged his bag off of his back.

“I guess I did go a little overboard, but I wanted to bring some things to pass the time.” His words piqued your interest, causing you to lean closer to him and peer down into his bag. There weren’t a ton of things that the scouts were privy to, so what Armin had his hands on was pretty special. Inside his bag were about three books - of course - and a clean pair of clothes folded neatly. You accidentally caught a glimpse of his boxers, causing you to get a bit flustered. Moving on quickly from that, your eyes landed on an object that you’ve never seen before. It was a weird shape, the body of it like a peanut and then it had a flat elongated part sticking out. There was a small hole in the middle of the body, making it hollow. There were also strings that were connected from end to end. You picked it up carefully and inspected it more closely, in awe of how unique it was.

“Armin…” you began, lifting it so it was eye level, “do you know what it is?” A smile spread across his lips as he gently took it from you and held it in his arms.

“I found it in Mr. Yeager’s basement.” He says, a light wistful tone to his voice. He drags his index finger along one of the strings, feeling its odd tensile strength. When he pressed down lightly and then flicked his finger away, a pretty sound came after. Your eyes widened comically, bringing about a light laugh from Armin.

“It’s called a ukulele. Apparently it’s an instrument from wherever Mr. Yeager originally lived.” He explained, giving it back to you and pulling out a small book from his bag. “This seems to be a guide to how to use it.” You were about to look through it when your captain’s voice rang clearly.

“Everybody on your horses. I want to go as far as we can until night falls.” Captain Levi shouted roughly. Armin stuffs the book and ukulele back into his bag and puts his arms through the straps.

“Maybe we can talk more about it tonight? I’m really interested in it.” You say, smiling as you put your foot through your stirrup and swing yourself up onto your chestnut-colored horse. Armin nods in his signature shy nature, settling onto his own horse.

The ride was long and your legs were sore by the time the sun was starting to set. Sure, you’ve been on long expeditions before, but nothing like this. You felt sluggish and completely out of it as you pitched your tent, earning harsh words from Floch, however, you didn’t really care for what he had to say.

“Wait outside while I change,” you grumble, side-eyeing Floch. He rolls his eyes and scoffs, marching away to go talk to other new cadets. You drag your bag behind you and open it, taking out the cotton shirt and shorts that you’ve been using as pajamas for god knows how long. With a stretch of your back that does nothing to relieve the whole body ache that you developed, you stepped back out of your tent. You jump back in surprise when you do, though, because Armin was standing right in front of you.

“Ah, sorry if I startled you!” He apologized softly, his cerulean blue eyes now swirling with concern. You raised a hand to motion that it was no problem. “I just, um…” He started, not sure how to continue. 

“Are you done with your tent?” You ask, trying to get the flow of conversation going. His shoulders seem to relax.

“Oh, yes. Mikasa and Eren are already asleep though,” he says with a warm smile on his face. Something about him talking about his friends seemed to like a flicker of comfort to rise in Armin, which is why you did it so often. He was always so happy when conversing about them. “Who’s sharing your tent?” This causes you to groan and chuckle sarcastically, your eyes flicking towards where Floch was talking with a group of people.

“I got stuck with Floch and another new cadet,” you say, earning a pitying look from Armin. 

“I’m… sorry about that too,” he laments, a sad smile on his face. You sigh and shoot back a tired smile, stepping forward a bit to nudge Armin gently.

“So you came here for something?” You ask, trying to gently coax his intentions from him.

“Right!” He says excitedly, his eyes lighting up. “I was able to read a lot of that book about the ukulele and even practiced some with it. I was wondering if you wanted to see it…? I dunno, I just thought since you said beforehand that you were interested in it and-”

“I’d love to!” You confirm lightly, grabbing onto his arm softly and tugging him kindly towards his things. He falls into pace with you quickly and soon you make it over to where the ukulele sat. He was about to sit down and start playing, but noting that many of your comrades were asleep, he pulled you over to a more secluded space. You sat down, criss-crossed, and leaned your back on a fallen tree. Armin does the same, and you are painfully aware at how close he is to you. If you moved less than an inch to your right, your knees would brush against each other. He takes a deep breath before meeting your eyes and giving you a bashful look.

“I’m sorry if it might sound sour,” he prefaces. You shake your head and smile.

“I’m sure it’ll be lovely.” Armin inhaled sharply before placing his fingers in specific places on what he called the fretboard, and hovered his other hand over the parts of the strings that crossed over the hole. He strums it softly and a few notes filtered from it, pleasing your ears immediately. As he continues to play the instrument, you begin to feel more at peace than you had in awhile. The end of the little song came too quickly, and when Armin looked up to see your reaction, he was met with your awestruck face.

“So…?” He asked, wincing in preparation for what he believed would be a beration from you.

“Wow…” you breathe out. Your hand finds itself on top of the one that was previously strumming, causing Armin to blush. “Armin that was beautiful.” You confess, your eyes meeting him again. You hadn’t registered that you had, indeed, moved more than an inch closer to him. You were even more grateful that he had decided to pull you into more of a private area, thankful that it was just the two of you. Both of your heads moved unconsciously closer to each other, only stopping before your noses could touch. Armin raises a shaky hand towards your cheek, cupping it softly.

“May I?” He asks meekly, a furious blush on his face. You nod instantly.

“Please.” It was more tender than you could’ve ever imagined. His lips were soft and light when they met yours, just like his personality. Like the song, it ended too fast.

“Play for me again sometime?” You quip confidently, earning a quiet laugh from the blonde who was merely inches from you.

“Anytime.”

[lllannah]

SPOILER WARNING

Alrighty. So, I said earlier that Isayama pulled a Daenerys Targaryen because it has been hinted throughout the show that Eren was always going to commit genocide. Whether it be against titans or people, you cannot deny that Eren has been emotionally priming himself to commit mass murder.

I wanted to hope that eren was acting purely out of self defense for the sake of his people, but I dont believe that to be the case anymore, with how chapter 130 ended. If not, through paths, Ymir Fritz and Eren himself orchestrated his own hate to be the fuel that pushes Erens soon to be genocidal plans into fruition. Yes, even right down to Dina Fritz eating his mother. Thats just a theory, but I digress.

I am not saying the people within the walls have no right to defend themselves. And I'm also not saying that there was any other choice. But no matter how you spin it, Eren is either 100% a monster with somewhat self-interested reasons for committing genocide, or utilizing his hatred to push himself to do something unspeakable so that his people can be free. I don't really know anymore.

But the reason I bring this up is that I am absolutely fucking mind blown that there are attack on titan fans CHEERING for Eren to commit genocide, when the show had been hinting the whole time that Eren was the monster of the series. Time and time again, he had been shown to be full of bloodlust and hate, but most of us fans kinda chalked it up to, "oh, well that's just Eren lol :)" and now look where he is.

Even Levi's conversation in the forest of giant trees foreshadowed this, saying being able to become a titan doesn't make him a monster, it's his actions.

To me, the only thing that can redeem him is if he has some sort of mass exodus plan like what may have been hinted in some end credits art. I have no idea if this is Erens plan. If he does do it, will it be all innocents across the world or ONLY Eldians. If it's only Eldians, then to me that does not seem like real justice.

I'm honestly just getting really annoyed with the fanbase pretending genocide is great if it means your team wins. Even the scouts are able to understand that mass murder is wrong when they are just as much victims of the worlds politics as Eren.

TL;DR I understand there's not really any other option for eren and the people of the walls and I'm not saying they should not defend themselves. But being all YAAAASSS GO EREN while he has been priming himself to be a mass murderer this whole time and is actively in the midst of committing genocide is cringe as fuck.

[incorrectsnkships]

OKAY OKAY OKAY! I CAME TO THIS CONCLUSION LAST FUCKING NIGHT! CONNIE THE MOTHERFUCKING SPRINGER IS GAY!

So at first I just thought he was a really confident and comfortable heterosexual, y'know? BUT NOW! NOW!? oh no, no, no!

Reason numbrero uno! He has feminine hips. Straight boys don't strut like that, straight boys don't fucking be flexible like that.

Reason numbrero duex! He says bitch waaay to much. So if you don't know the history of the word bitch, bitch was also used a a gay slur for y'know twinks. You don't see Jean or Levi OR EVEN EREN going around going bitch, bitch, bitch, fucking crazy bitches. Sure maybe once in awhile, but Connie use it like a sister y'know?

Reason numbrero drei! Look at who the fucking hell he's hanging 'round with! Ymir; the fucking bitch lesbian. Christa/Historia; the lesbian or bi girl dude. He's the fucking second lesbian protector (next to Eren). You see that gay ass gay homie grab in like what season 3? Or was it 2? He's friends with Sasha, who does she hang out with most of the time!? Ymir and Historia! Sometimes Jean and Mikasa. Speaking of Jean, he ain't sleek either! Connie hanging 'round with a fucking bi-saster a bi disaster! Not to mention Reiner and Armin! We see him worry about Reiner and Bertholdt when they “missing” asking someone to check on them to see if there alive! Man looking out for his gay homies! Also in one of the games he asks Armin why he spends so much time with Eren, to which Armin shoots back with one of the most gay awakening responses, “Hm well what about Ymir and Historia, or Reiner and Bertholdt?” Like yo.

Reason numbrero shi! He mom picks out gay ass fucking names! Sunny, Martin, Connie. Fucking gay dude. (everyone seems to think Sunny is a girl but judging by there titans I actually think Sunny was a boy dude. That’s just a hunch tho~)

Reason numbrero five! He seems like the kinda guy who would wear jewelry. Not really necessarily gay BUt~ I think earrings would so be he thing, and if he we’re to come out he’d probably start wearing one earring!

Reason numbrero six! Look at the kind of shit this man does! He fucking carried Armin princess style, put him down like a prince, bruh he fucking CHOSE to he CHOSE to. He knew what he was doing. And that one official art where he’s wearing that blonde lopsided wig with makeup on. That dress with the fake boobs in it!

Reason numbrero 7! My mama always say, that if a boy is best friends with a girl he will almost always usually fall for her. Connie is close as HELL with Sasha. And while I LOVE springles. This know discovery is D A W N I N G on me! Connie don’t really seem to show that much interest in women. But not necessarily to men either. And that factor being. I think bby Connie is shy!

Overall I think he’s a great fucking character! I love Connie, but this just made me open a whole new chapter for him. I’m currently rewatching AOT with my mom ‘cause she done wanted to watch it and I couldn’t let her watch that cringey dub so yee. I’ll be paying attention for other Easter eggs and clues. I never researched Connie to much but now that I have I’m made some pretty interesting discoveries! In conclusion Connie Springer is probably fucking gay. SO in other words you were RIGHT! ATTACK ON TITAN IS FUCKING GAY! 😍

( j u s t l i k e m e l o l )

srry for the late reply, but you’ve actually convinced me

mans comes across heterosexual but he definitely had a crush on every single male member of the 104th. literally every one. and like many others, one of the older scouts was his gay awakening. and im not saying that connie had a crush on them or anything, and this is definitely not a ship post between connie and any adult in the show, but im just saying that he admired them. a lot. too much. and had to look away when they got changed in front of him.

“connie why do you offer to go kill titans with captain levi whenever we have a mission?”

“i admire his skills!”

“connie, you do realise that erwin doesn’t have time to have tea with you right?”

“no i know i just wanted to talk about stuff with him. professional stuff. as a soldier.”

“connie, you know that moblit doesn’t need an assistant right? he is the assistant”

“WELL SUE ME FOR WANTING TO BE HELPFUL JEAN-“

he’d simp for armin so hard. every week he has a crush on someone new, and then it goes in a loop. and he’d “practice” kissing too. like he’d occasionally bring the topic up in conversation and then go from there based off of the persons reply. “hey uh, jean, so like- have you had your first kiss yet?” and then jean would tell him no and connie would go full internal gay panic. “o- oh yeah, thas- thas cool, um, well, i havent- had mine either so like- would you wanna practice? it doesn’t count-“

connie would have his first everything with jean and it would be so funny because it just happens all at once. like hed get asked if hes ever kissed someone and hed just glare at jean and be so flustered

connie finds it so difficult to tell romantic and platonic feelings apart and thats why hes fallen for all of his friends

armin: oh, connie, thanks for doing that favour for me! i dont know what id do without you!

eren: wait! hurry, where do they keep the extra blades?!

connie: in the cellar!

eren: great- connie, i love you!

marco: see connie? if you just fold the paper a little more, youll get there :) youre a pleasure to teach and i love spending time with you :)

also why do i feel like connie and marco dated for a little while? not even dated then, had a thing going on for a bit. like besides from jean because he doesnt count, but connies first romantic encounter was with marco, fight me

and i definitely feel like connie went to hange for some advice about his sexuality. he was so confused and liking everyone at the same time, so who else better to go to than the person who tried to convince erwin to start an lgbtq+ youth club right?

but when eren and armin announced that they were officially dating, that was an eye opener for connie and it made him realise that its okay to be yourself

and it took him a while to actually realise that he was gay. hence the fact that hed physically gag whenever someone suggested for him to date sasha, and all those times in the boys changing room that hed have to turn around or leave completely

so yes, i can see where youre coming from, and i agree with you. but if we were to list the people connie has simped for from most-least?

marco

armin

jean

eren

levi (not really simping, more fanboying/celebrity crush)

reiner

moblit (same as levi)

bertholdt

[catsundercherryblossoms]

|Ch. 14: Save Him, Save Her| Her Forgotten Past // Attack on Titan Fanfiction

Why does life have to be this way. Why does it give you everything, and then take it away? Levi could never understand this concept. But it always, always came around to bite the Survey Corps in the ass.

They were so close. Victory had grazed their fingertips, only to fall out of reach. The female titan called that horde of titans and had herself purposely devoured. At first, it puzzled every soldier who witnessed the sight. And rightly, it was quite the gruesome sight, the kind thats hard to erase from your memory. But Erwin, like always, was one step ahead of everybody.

"They escaped. The operator, the human inside the Titan, got away from us. Right under our noses." He had said as he, Levi, and a team of soldiers rode through the forest. They searched worriedly, desperately, hopelessly for the culprit.

Levi might've appeared fearless and unshakeable on the outside, but on the inside, he wasn't sure how much more he could take. So much effort and so many sacrifices, only for the convict to get away. This whole mission was a giant screw up.

A piercing roar. They all snapped their heads towards the sound. The whole forest shuddered as it reverberated from tree to tree.

There were two Titan shifters in the vicinity: the female titan and Eren. But only one of them was capable of a raging, lunatic scream like that. It was all too hot-tempered, and all too familiar...

Eren.

Levi flew off his horse, not bothering to tell Erwin where he was going. He didn't need to. They were all thinking the same thing: Eren wasn't allowed to transform unless absolutely necessary. Why would it be necessary?

But Levi began to get an inkling why.

Despite these suspicions, nothing could have prepared him for the horrible path ahead as he followed the distant roaring. First was Günther... Hanging upside down, bloody, eyes open but not seeing, Levi instantly knew he was dead. He proceeded. Next was Eld. Well, part of him. The rest was nowhere to be found, most likely swallowed. Levi tried to ignore the red stains on the grass and continued. Oluo wasn't spared either. After ten minutes of more flying around, Levi found him face down in the ground, mouth open with the ghost of his last scream still on his face. Levi did not dwell, although he noticed his heart felt heavier than before. Before all of this. Perhaps there was still hope. Petra was a highly skilled soldier, very independent, and very capable-

She was slumped against a tree. Blood smeared on her cheek. Like Günther, her eyes remained open just a peak, but absolutely lifeless. Dead.

Four beautiful people. A whole squad of the finest soldiers... wiped out.

He no longer heard Eren's monstrous roars. They had stopped. He heard only footsteps now, and far away, if he squinted enough past the trees, he could see a muscled pink figure running away. It was not Eren, but instead the female titan. And she probably had the boy with her.

Levi wanted to chase after her, but he couldn't bring himself to do it, not until he knew where she was. Jet-black hair and blue eyes duller than the barrel of a gun. Where was she?

Levi's heart was now picking up speed. It thumped in his chest and it physically and emotionally hurt. He looked around frantically. Surely, she's alive. There's no way she can't be.

But then again... that's what he thought about his squad. Now look at them.

His eyes skimmed over the clearing, searching the grass, the rocks, the trees, until finally he spotted something. At first it looked to be an ordinary mossy rock, but a upon second observation he realized it was actually a Survey Corps cloak, camouflaged against a bush. And someone was wearing it, sprawled on the ground.

Levi didn't hesitate. He landed on the ground and ran towards her. "Johanna!" His own voice sounded like another person's. A scared person's. He kneeled and flipped her over to discover blood all on the left side of her face. It was fairly dry. How long had she been unconscious? Or worse... dead?

He took her pulse and felt a wave of relief. No, definitely unconscious. His rapid heart eased comfortably again. God, the universe, whatever higher power up there spared him this one. And although he reeled with grief of the others, he was thankful that she survived.

He shook her shoulders gently, trying to get her to wake up. "Johanna... Come on, dammit. Talk to me!"

She stirred. Her eyelids opened a crack, those dull blue irises peeking out from underneath. She was weak, he could tell. The focus in her gaze was fazing in and out. Inconsistent. "What... Corporal?"

"Yes, brat." He said, but there was a softness in his deep voice. Lines of consternation formed on his forehead. "Your head's bleeding. What happened?"

For a moment, she seemed brainless. Levi wondered if she had heard him. But then her eyes widened in terror, glazed over as she remembered. "We were overwhelmed. The squad, they- they tried their best, but..." She gulped. "She was too strong. Next thing I know they're all dead. Eren turned into a titan and tried to take her on, but he was defeated..." A single crystalline tear rolled down her cheek. She continued, choked. "I tried to stop her from running away with him but I wasn't careful enough- and- and she pulled on my wires and I hit a tree. Now he's gone!" She fisted his collar desperately. "We need to get him back, we have to save him!"

"There's not much we can do. Its too late for him." Levi said grimly.

She tried taking in these words, but they went in one ear and out the other. "No! We cant just let him get taken away, we have to-!"

"Didn't you hear what I just said?" He cut her off. "Its too late. My whole squad has been wiped out! Anybody with a brain knows that the best choice is to return to the walls and come up with a plan there."

"He'll be dead by the time we do that! You know what? Forget it." That was enough. She pushed him off and got up, stumbling as she regained her footing. "I'll go by myself. He would do the same for me. Actually, he did once." She said, recalling the time they were on that training corps mission out in the desert and she got kidnapped. "I'll kill that bitch on my own. Who knows? Maybe I'll come back with the Eren and the titan shifter!" She started doing an assessment check on her gear. It was pretty banged up, but everything still functioned.

Levi's patience was running thin. "You're delusional! You can't do it alone!"

"Watch me!"

"Wait!" He stopped her just as she made to fly off. For a few seconds it was quiet, the female titan's footsteps barely audible now. He then sighed. "Fine. But I'm coming with you. And in case you've forgotten," He approached her. They stared at each other frigidly. "I'm the one in charge here. So do everything I tell you, and only what I tell you. Got it?"

She bit the inside of her cheek, but nodded in compliance.

"Alright. Let's go."

It took them about fifteen minutes just to catch up with the female titan. They followed behind her. She had expert stamina, running as though she were in a marathon.

"Is he in her mouth?" Levi asked.

"Yes." Johanna said, glaring daggers at her back. She yearned to just swoop in and get it over and done with. But they had to maintain their distance. Her movements were sudden and almost incalculable.

Levi's brow furrowed. "How do you know he's not dead? If she bit his nape-"

"He's still alive in there. This Titan shifter has a purpose. If she wanted to kill Eren, she could've just crushed him. She needs him for something. But she also needs her hands to fight. So she's been holding him in her tongue. It's common sense."

"Or maybe she just wanted to savor her prey. In which case, he's probably been swallowed already. If so-"

"He's alive." She emphasized. Her expression had never been more fierce.

"Tch." He rolled his eyes. "Someone's optimistic."

Johanna took her eyes off the female titan and glared at him now. "Listen here, buddy. If you had just done your damn job and protected him like you're supposed to, we wouldn't be having this conversation in the first place!"

That's when it dawned on him. He cocked his head to look at her. The 'oh' moment was visible on his face. How did he not notice it before? Figures.

He faced her completely. His tone was somewhere between sly and repulsed. "I see what's going on here. Three years of cadet training, little stolen moments during lunch, sneaking out after curfew... It's all making sense now."

Johanna wasn't sure what he was implying. Actually, she did know. She knew all too well. But she hated being ridiculed. Her scowl deepened. She would've blushed if it wasn't for the immense life or death situation they were currently in.

"Right. For the sake of getting shit done, let's narrow down our goals. We forget about killing her." He indicated to the female titan jogging in front of them.

"No way. She's killed way too many soldiers to get away with that. She's dead." Johanna said.

"She's got defenses that none of us have been trained to deal with. Not even me. I'm telling you, it's a lost cause." He raised a blade, his reflection glinting on the shiny surface. "Instead, we act on your assumption that Eren is still alive. We'll focus only on getting him back before she leaves the forest. Thats all we're doing. I'll do all the cutting. You try to distract her."

"Got it."

Johanna didn't hesitate. She didn't even wait for him to say go. She sped off to engage the female titan. She flew in front of her gigantic feet. The female Titan's icy blue eyes peered down at her, surprised. Distracted. Just how they wanted her to be. Levi readied his blades.

The female titan, quickly catching on to what they were planning, took the contrary. She sensed Levi was right behind her and she swerved around, aiming a powerful punch at his body.

Ha. As if that would be successful.

Levi dodged it, and now that her arm was extended, he whirled his way up, slashing and shredding the skin like a tornado. When he finally stopped, his blades were fully covered in Titan blood, which instantly began to steam. He dived in again and cut her up, even going for her eyes. The torture was brutal to the point where she had no other choice than to stop, leaning against a tree for support. Her eyes were blinded. Her shoulders falling from their sockets. The ankles and knees were rendered useless. There was nothing she could do but wait and regenerate now.

Johanna watched in slight awe. The finished product was quite impressive.

That's when she noticed something. She stopped in mid air. Her nape is completely open! She thought, staring at the pink flesh just waiting to be carved into. She itched to find out who the hell was hiding in there. This is it! Now's my chance!

Johanna flew towards the nape at breakneck speed, raising her blades high and mighty. So close... the tips of her fingers, curled around the blades, buzzed with electricity. The anticipation was so unbearable, she-

"NO! DON'T DO IT!"

A shadow loomed over Johanna. She was barely given two seconds. But two seconds was all it took. She looked up and the first thing she registered was the female titan's hand about to swat her. Then, out of nowhere Levi came and shoved her aside and out of danger.

Johanna fell about fifteen feet before she finally pulled herself together. She shot an anchor into a nearby tree to keep her from hitting the ground, but as she hung there, the shock still hadn't left her body. Somewhere deep inside she knew she messed up. Big time.

She watched Levi. He landed improperly on the titan's hand, forcing it back with his feet.

Crack!

'Fuck, was that what I think it was?' Johanna thought.

Yep. It certainly was. Levi's foot had twisted the wrong way. He grimaced in pain, but seemed to ignore the injury and proceeded to slash the female titan's mouth. Her jaw popped open, tongue lolling out, and finally, there was Eren. Levi wasted no time and grabbed him. Together, he and Johanna took off.

"Talk about a screw up. What did I tell you? You shouldn't have tried to kill her!" Levi said. He carried Eren in one arm. He was an unconscious, slimy and disgusting mess. But he seemed okay overall.

Johanna gritted her teeth. She wanted to be angry at Levi, but the truth is, she could only be angry at herself. "I didn't mean to, okay? I just-"

"Look, we get that he's your boyfriend. Just try not to act crazy next time."

"I- ugh, that's not..." Johanna didn't have the energy to explain herself at the moment. She couldn't care less what he thought. Right now, all that mattered was Eren's safety. And until they weren't out of this goddamn forest, she wouldn't be satisfied.

Out of curiosity, Johanna stole one last look behind her. What she saw, however, was beyond shocking...

There lay the female titan, against a tree, body regenerating slowly. And she was...

Crying.

End of Chapter 14

[armourheld]

                               CHAPTER 17 & REINERS DISSOCIATION.  

             WARNING - THIS CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 90+

Now before I begin, I want to state how I now perceive Reiners dissociation as to have 2 alters, instead of just the simple Warrior & Soldier: the warrior, in my eyes, is NOT the true Reiner, & that’s due to events / responses emitted in chapter 96 ( Reiner is dead... I’ll become Marcel. ) This means this meta will be identifying all 3 different personas should they occur - you can disagree with me on this, & if you still want to read it, then just view Reiners ‘ true ‘ self as the Warrior side, & I think we’ll be chill !

To give some backstory on Chapter 17: this is the chapter where Reiner & Eren combat train together, both of them get their asses kicked by Annie & Jean gets encouraged to actually put effort into training.  This is one of the first chapters in which Reiner gets such a speaking/main part, & god does it hint the early stages of his dissociation. 

We begin the chapter with Eren finally tackling Reiner down, who seems mildly ticked off at the prospect of still being quite weak in comparison to Eren, especially when it comes to battle training. Of course, we’ve seen him as nothing much more than a character who just has ‘ one goal ‘ & doesn’t seem willing to help Eren, in which makes his characterisation here completely normal. Reiner’s obviously in WARRIOR mode at this point, & to me that’s more than exciting ! 

Now, Eren’s responce here is quite important to me: ‘ Run away, of course ! ’, which indeed is natural for someone of their ability to say. Eren’s priorities are fighting the titans, he doesn’t want to get involved in human conflict, but it also sparks something of interest to me. Thinking back to Reiners backstory, can we all remember what exactly happened to Reiner as a kid ? Bingo! You guessed it: Reiner ran away from Ymir when she ate Marcel, something that was, you guessed it, IRRESPONSIBLE of him, just as Annie states back in the day.  It’s so influential, & a causer of old memories that Reiner certainly didn’t want to remember / think about again. 

Now, while Eren’s explaining himself to Reiner, he goes back to thinking about the time he killed those men, meaning that he’s really not paying attention. His expression is seemingly reproachful, but we have no entire clue about how Reiners feeling / thinking... Until...

BOOM. “  It’s not childs play  ” -  Reiners faced with the final words that complete his memories. Something that, to me, seems very obvious with his facial expression. He doesn’t know whats going on, but somethings making him angry, pictures that he’s repressed are suddenly reappearing. This ‘ child’s play ‘ strikes him in the core, he was a kid when he ran away, confronting someone was something he couldn’t do as a kid, Reiner knows exactly what Eren’s talking about, because he went through it with Ymir, but goodness does he want to face that? No. He dissociates, & gives a reaction of a natural soldier, the one who WANTS to be Eren’s friend.

&... if we needed more proof of this. 

HERE COMES OUR VERY OWN REINER SOLDIER SPEECH. Something that’s very important to me about Reiner is his strong sense of duty; whatever alter is in control, he follows the orders. He aims to complete what is set out of him, because thats the only thing that got far in Reiners life. He was devoted to Marley, so they let him in as a warrior, Marcels discussion with the soldiers was probably heavily suggested by his devotion, Reiners dutifulness of wanting to complete the mission even AFTER getting Marcel eaten is the one thing that makes him the leader outside of the titan trio. Reiners devoted, dedicated & , as Shadis puts it, has a strong sense of duty. The only things his alters are certain about our their duties, & goodness doesn’t he say it. 

& suddenly, the speech is cut off, along with another dissociation back to the warrior side of his personality. The most important thing to take note of Reiners position here is the hand upon his head. Where have we seen this before, hm ? The armoured titan revealed scene, & the scene wherein Eren & Ymir are captured - A strong sign of his repeat dissociation is the hand upon the head strategy, for reasons unknown, but there’s obviously something going on. Lecturing him like some “ know-it-all ”, something that proves that whatever happened seemed to out of character to him, he’s scared, he’s confused, but he can’t bring up to Eren. So what does he do ? Change subject. 

( also the whole power comment is ironic, but i’ll use that for my full on dissociation meta later ;) )

Two very important things about dissociation that I want to bring up here is a cause & a symptom of it. First up, people with dissociation can sometimes dissociate to calm down & focus on something; Eren’s opened a tin can of memories here, & Reiner doesn’t know what to do with them - so creating something else is much easier than coping with what it suggests. Just like he does more predominantly in later chapters. 

Now, the most important bit of this bit is the conversational topic: a symptom of people who suffer from dissociation seems to be the common occurrence of not entirely making sense. Reiner starts off by talking about his duty, & then moves on to pointing out Annie for no entire reason. ( there’s ?? no ?? need ?? for ?? it ?? ) But he does it anyway. This bit seems very much like the warrior part of him maintaining control, but there’s hints of the soldiers there. He’s just trying to make the best of both worlds, which is probably not going to plan. 

it’s a smooth recovery, at least. One that helps him stay under the radar. 

Now, tbh this is the scene that brought me to this meta in the process of writing my big one - & that’s the relation of this compared to chapter 96. As we’ve seen in the first few panels, Reiner thinks running away from actual human combat is bad, but Annie avoiding the topic completely is probably something he views as just as bad. He knows they are titan shifters, of course theres going to be moments / issues where they have to tackle things without turning into titans, people may evoke a way where they stop them from shifting - &, anyway, Annies strongest moves come from combat. This is his way of protecting her, even though it’s not as “ nice “ as we’d expect Reiner to be. When you’re not the soldier & want control, just remind your colleague about the time she killed you & when you strangled her just afters !! Great team bonding moment !! 

&, just incase the audience missed it, Eren’s here to help point out how angry Annie is about this, but she makes no move to correct Reiner, or beat him up for his mannerisms, because she does remember & she doesn’t want to have a repeat of that situation. The look on her face, however, intimidates Eren, until he’s brought back to focus on the task at hand by Reiner once more ! Taking note of his facial expression here, he seems to be someone who’s now much more happier, friendlier etc... Which suggests to me he’s gone back to the soldier side, as like previously stated, he’s focusing away from the memories... Making Eren fight Annie in combat training seems more than natural, & that’s just what he does ! 

That is, until the fight begins...

See the main focus of this panel is Annie using only one move to tackle Eren to the ground. It’s obviously effective, but where in fact have we seen this move recently ? Here. The move she uses exactly on Reiner in this clip is the exact same one as the one she uses on Reiner, only that they end up in different positions. However, if we go back to chapter 94 again, something that reiner brings up is how he doesn’t remember why he became a warrior, nor the memories that follow it. Chapters 94 - 96 so far are becoming his recollection, but theres something here thats important to me. 

Reiners expression. The shock on his face, the way he’s looking straight at Annie instead of focusing on Eren, who clearly needs help at this moment in time. Her move, her face - maybe he recollected the past ? The idea that Annie & Reiner trained together as kids is important to me, just as it’s important to him, but honestly ? The expression on his face screams fright, screams remembrance from where he stands. It claims, I know this from the past; the one you killed. 

Now, this bit intrigues me a slight bit more. Annie’s done her duty, she’s asking for dismissal, but Reiners against that. The thing with this scene is that even he refuses to look at her, and it’s influential to me. Is he a soldier ? A warrior ? I can’t tell... The words scream soldier / but the face screams warrior ( especially when you compare it to his & eren’s irresponsible talk. ) Reiner encourages her on, despite Eren’s protests. Part of him wants to see more, even though he’s avoiding it - maybe he’s even in a dreamlike state ? 

But boom, Annie follows his orders once more & tackles Eren to the ground once again ! In one move, at least. Going back to that scene in chapter 94, Eren is now effectively in the same position Reiner found himself in all that time ago. This time, he takes a look at Eren, instead of Annie’s retreating figure, because it’s jinxing him. Annie’s gaze is hard to identify, in this scene, but part of me wonders if she can tell. Reiners remembering the memories of the boy who had simply died the day the walls crashed down. He remembers being in Eren’s position, & he doesn’t like it one bit. 

But then, Annie spurs them on more. “ It’s your turn to fight me. ”

& this is where the original, child reiner pulls through. The warrior who was never strong enough to hold the armoured titan - the kid who died ages ago. He doesn’t want to fight Annie, & it’s obvious by his new way of talking. He stutters in her presence, something unlikely of a LEADER. He stammers, his point doesn’t come across ; an uncommon trait for both the warrior or the soldier to be, & he’s caught. He remembers Annie handing it to him all those years ago, & now he doesn’t want to relive that moment. He’s not supposed to be like this still, & nor does he want people to notice, so he’s stalling - but Annie probably knows, as telling by her darkened facial expression, even if Reiner doesn’t think anything else of it. 

But then, Eren comes to the rescue ! Drawing out his dazed phase of being that kid to bring up the responsibility of becoming a soldier. Something that’s important to Reiners dissociation is the idea that he will repeat what he is in whatever form - & maybe that’s his recovery process. He hears soldier, gains focus, & finally he can remember who he’s supposed to do. The last dissociation we see in this bit has to be Reiner turning into a soldier once more, & it’s seen with very obvious remembrance. Reiner very easily slots into his soldier persona at the idea of “ responsibility “ - linked to his strong sense of duty.  He’s willing to forgo the memories he didn’t want to remember to be someone that the people want - & the soldier will fight. Appeasing Annie, at least. 

& then of course he gets his ass handed to him,  who knows what happens to him after that ? It’s very Annie / Eren centric after this moment. 

But, anyway, in conclusion, this is important to me due to how commonly Reiner probably dissociated in the beginning. They’ve mentioned how it’s possibly happened plenty of times, but to me ? This just takes the icing on the cake. Reiner is not a reliable leader from the start of becoming a soldier, as shown in this chapter the most, but that doesn’t make him a bad leader. His friendships grew within a persona in which wasn’t there completely, but I wonder if stages grew - I do have to praise Isayama for this, though. It’s very well hidden, especially as we ONLY have Erens point of view, & he’s out of the loop. Maybe this scene will be featured in Chapter 97 !!