#also im convinced there's a spider living in my ear and that too is miserable I'm about to fucking loose it | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

haneys · 4 months

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i smell things so often i got used to it but recently it has become so much worse everything smells so bad like decomposing trash or feces or rotten meat and I keep on hearing muffled conversations and screams or singing im trying to be patient but it's making me me slowly loose my mind I'm so sick of it im tired

#nothing I do is real anymore there's a constant pressure in my skull and behind my eyes that makes me feel like #they're about to pop and spill out or my brain is about to be crushed inwards and it's so exhausting especially at work #I have a hard time focusing my eyes or thinking at all #everything feels so distant and muddy like it's behind a layer of mist I have a hard time connecting with anything I'm so out of it #I constantly forget where I am and what I'm doing and even the msot basic downright muscle memory stuff #i feel this rising building tension like a cup that's about to overflow and spill and I'm scared I don't know what will happen #also im convinced there's a spider living in my ear and that too is miserable I'm about to fucking loose it #but im too embarrassed to ask anyone to check it and tell me if it's really there because I don't want to sound #like an absolute lunatic!!!!!!!!!!! get me our of this fucking hell!!!!!!!!!!!! MAKE THIS FUCKING NOISE GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!#vent

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