#also pls ignore the ending ik its cringe my excuse to any cringe is that these were all written at like 2am

[amatureish]

empty

ive romanticized

amd gloryfied

the emptiness that comes

with being alone for too long

so now

each day

i resign myself

to avoiding conversations

and shoving everything down

as far as i can

i thought it was

a strange kind of beauty

where the silence could grow

and the true nature

of all things

would be found

but i was wrong

and now

when i try to say anything

i cant

my eyes well

my throat closes

my tongue numbs

and i cant say a word

without tears spilling

and that sound

that awful sound

becoming the only thing that

can be heard from me

i wish i had known better

when i was younger

and could still talk

without thw looming sense

that if o slip

and say something

i will be left alone

and empty

perhaps even

beautiful