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soldier-poet-king · 9 months

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Act 3 astarion quest has me unwell. The sobbing desperation. The I can be better than him. I am more than a thing to be used, the thing created by him. Everything about me is tainted by him but I can choose to be different and be new even if everything about the me Before has been forcibly taken from me. The visiting your own grave. The finally wanting to live again. Maybe never seeing the sun again is the price of freedom. Maybe it means more when it's something freely given. Even if it stings.

I'm unWELL

#also the kennel torture chambers down the hall from the room where he would quote unquote entertain victims #the SEBASTIAN IN THE DUNGEONS #the everything of it.#bg3 spoilers #bg3 #astarion #anyway this is in no way personal i am not projecting and fixtating about my own neuroses #and my own inability to feel like a real person who makes my own choices #who can be more than all the generarional taint on me #if you never had a Before. if it is from childhood. is there even anything to recover?#anyway i have to go lie on the floor for a bit #of all this. i cant shake the sun. the longing for the sun #the shame of it all

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