#an unbearable cold

[mag200]

the author's barely-disguised lust for the deep and isolating cold of february

[sneeb-canons]

Headcanon #400: Heart & Mind are usually never a neutral temperature. The area around them is like the sun & moon. Mind's being hot and Hearts being cold. They're body temperatures however contrast that with Mind always feeling cold like metal/machinery and Heart feeling warm like a literal heart.

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[jennilah]

the day isn’t even halfway over and i’m already

[iniziare]

hello, i know we haven't directly interacted yet but i love your character takes thus far dfsfds.

i'm learning abt yelan and so far i love love love her!! i love what you've written about her and your breakdowns. they feel so... right about her to me (if that makes sense). i have a question myself: do you feel yelan has survivor's guilt? and i'm asking on a deeper level than just for those who passed when they got involved in her line of work. i'm extending that towards situations like people getting hurt—or worse—while she's undercover b/c of her.

forgive me if you've already covered it b/c i couldn't find it whilst reading!

I know I'm numerous days late with this, and I apologize for it, but please know that I smiled the first morning that I saw it. I'm truly quite humbled that my takes seem to resonate at least little, because I think that it's one of the greatest compliments that you can give an RPer, because ultimately we seek to present a realistic portrayal of these characters that are dear to us for one reason or another. Yelan was never supposed to be a muse of mine, as I simply pulled for her because of gameplay reasons, and then she kind of sneaked on me, and now I can't imagine my roster without her. I think that she is a brilliant and quite unusual female character, and it makes me sad that the fandom seems to kind of sleep on her, because she touches on an incredibly human reaction to loss (yes, even the dissociation that it seems to create) and loneliness without roping pity into its fold, and a very interesting approach to a breach of the status quo. I wish that the fandom would see that while Yelan plays into the trope of 'femme fatale', it is not the usual modern-type that they seem to like to push narrative-wise, nor is she fully reminiscent of the original 1940/50s trope, the roots lay in it, but she more so deviates in terms of motivations. If you keep that in mind, and you look into her, your entire perspective of her will change, and things may click differently— I apologize, I always end up rambling, I'm sorry! But I wanted to say thank you for the compliment, and it thrills me that she's growing on you as she had! She truly is an amazing character, so any attention that she gets makes me happy. Now, as for your question, which no, I haven't quite covered yet! So I'm happy to get to it:

Yes, she does. And though you note that you're not referencing her past and those she's lost, it is paramount to keep it in mind when looking at her future as she moves forward; because there's a difference to those who speak of disaster scenarios in hypotheticals, and those who have seen it happen with their own eyes. Now, I assume that you mean people who would be considered innocent bystanders, and even informants? People who have no direct involvement in what she does? (Correct me if wrong!) It would be immense, of course. And it's because those are the people she aims to protect. Let me quote a part of her 4th character story for this:

The results of such work please her greatly, and day after day, she perfects the lists, as crows embellishing their nests with shining trinkets. That said, while both are equally obsessed with collecting, Yelan must sweat and even bleed to secure what she is after, while crows need only flap their wings to achieve their aim. Fortunately, this does not bother her at all, for she believes that the intelligence is worth whatever cost she is going to pay. One day, the information will come in handy — Liyue will never plunge into disaster without any clue of the danger like it once did 500 years ago. She will see to it that Liyue is not caught unprepared.

While some may argue that Yelan has her own personal motivations to heading into the Chasm, yes, she does— it was the fate of her ancestors, but no one is ever fully selfless— and she is no different. But ultimately, Yelan ventures into the Chasm so that no one else has to, because the last time people did, they did die (I know, I'm touching on her old losses, but bear with me here). But those were people who did actively make the decision to work for her, they were aware of potential consequences. But look at the mark that it left on her (and you can see a reaction manifest from it best versus Xiao in Perilous Trail and then this pivotal moment when she reaches out to him), and how firm and strict she can be, and how excruciatingly meticulous that she is in looking at problems from all angles, so that the chance that anything can go wrong is minimal. Yelan is intense in this, exceedingly so, to a point where Ningguang notes in Yelan's vision story: According to Ningguang, the Vision carries a message: "From today onward, leave all matters to the extraordinary Yelan." Where it becomes clear that (since this is a hydro vision, and those, especially since Fontaine, seem intricately tied to devotion and self-sacrifice), that she will take on the serious cases herself, such as the patrolling of the Chasm.

Any way, I'm getting slightly off-topic, but it's all to state that the repercussions of Yelan's past dictate her future very firmly. But all in all, there are differences between those who choose to follow in Yelan's footsteps or walk with her, and if she loses those— the weight is a significant one to bear, so imagine the injury to those who have no involvement in what she's doing, imagine the emotional burden to bear if the unimaginable (though all too imaginable to her) were to happen to those that she literally aims to protect, those that are part of the Liyue that is her home, and what she wants to see stay safe, and never torn asunder like it once was. Imagine if her own investigations caused strife for anyone, I think that she would be caught between— 'I'm unsure whether I'm still fit for this', because to her it means that she would have overlooked something, or... overcompensating by doing too much to try and set it right. But both options, inherently, come with a deep (survivor's) guilt.

[larry-thesnail]

Tori: Dracula had it right, sleep all day, live alone in a castle, and explode into bats to get out of all social situations.

[web-novel-polls]

The thing about the Have You Read This Web Novel polls is that it's mostly web novels I'm interested in, so it ends up composed of the most popular web novels that everyone's heard of, somewhat niche web novels, and one web novel I literally only learned about by reverse image searching the cover someone I follow on here posted untagged and have now binged nearly 100 chapters out of 300 in a couple of days.

[candyredterezii]

Also yes everything in my fridge needs to be tossed !!!

So we don’t have much. I had to use some money out of pocket to buy some stuff that doesn’t need refrigerated

And my work still has power tho so yay for 4 days str8 of hectic busy days since half the town still doesn’t have power

[oliveish]

3rd life was Winter

Double Life was Autumn

Limited Life was Summer

And Secret Life is Spring

[fromiftowhen]

Bradley's a real sunset bitch and Jake's a real sunrise ho, and nope, I won't elaborate any further.

[archersartcorner]

Just a fuckton variety of Skip n Norm doodles. *points* I like the sluge…

[pirategf]

i cant take it anymore let me hear 😭

[lemonxlimee]

Yall with Firey alters... or just fire creatures in general... anyone else's body temperature mysteriously rise exponentially whenever they come near front or is that just me

[ngelwaves]

fun in the sun!

[nothing-to-see-here-08]

Band camp soon, kids. Hold onto your shakos, zip up your uniform, count, and for gods sake color guard if you wear makeup and think you may cry SET IT AND USE WATERPROOF MAKEUP. Don’t have black lines going down your face because you were crying and it was raining.

[wannabepapa]

hEWWO running in because i was just thinking about like the first trimester and cute lil early pregnancy things, like when you first find out you’re pregnant, when you first start telling people,

(also given its spooky season, maybe cute fall themed pregnancy announcements! pumpkins! lil ghosts!),

when you first start really thinking about how your lil nugget is growing in there, starting to show and being so proud, the excitement of first doctor visits! just all the rad lil firsts!

HI HELLO YES LET'S TALK ABOUT FALL PREGNANCIES.

being pregnant during autumn sounds like a dream. it's nice and cool outside, you can wear baggy clothes to stay warm to hide the bump, all the cute ideas for pregnancy reveals as well as the photoshoot opportunities! getting pregnant around late July/early August so you have the ending of summer to deal and still being small enough to hide the pregnancy with baggy clothes. you also get the fun of having a plan for your nugget to have the est costume next year when they're a few months old.

now all i can think about is doing a pregnancy reveal as a Halloween themed photoshoot wearing a costume. maybe you're a farmer and your belly is painted like a pumpkin, you have one of those skeleton shirts that has the skeleton baby, etc. because there really are way too many options to have for costumes while pregnant. though i would be partial to the skeleton shirt if i ever was pregnant during Halloween.

all the firsts to experience is so soft???? finding their first costume, getting Halloween onsies for next year, going to fairs to walk around and eat delicious fair food, walk through pumpkin patches to find the perfect ones to carve, getting to cuddle up with your partner/partners while watching halloween movies. all the while your belly is steadily growing as the weeks pass, beginning to show beneath the sweatshirts or sweaters you have to size up in order to keep the pregnancy a secret. it's nice to not tell anyone right away. it gives you time to have bask in the excitement of your little nugget and becoming a parent.

[br1ghtestlight]

not gonna make fun of californians etc for finding 13c (57f) degrees cold right now because you dont have heating or coats or whatever but u cant make fun of me in the summer when i complain about 25c (77f) tempetures because we dont have air conditioning Like we're all getting our asses beat by climate change we dont need the infighting. I think you're ridiculous and you think i am ridiculous and thats okay <3 #coexist