#and I’m also still kinda proud of myself bc the class is bio so

[crybaby-bkg]

I’m so sad I was so sure I was gonna get all As this semester but it’s looking like I’ll still end up with one B 😭😭😭😭😭

[eufreddie]

hello hello! i’m shu (s/h, 18+) here to introduce freddie, my oddball ares stoner kid (weed relieves the side effects of Angery!) so she’s v chill unless her dad tries to pull some shit... but thankfully no one here is her dad so we’re all good! :) here’s her profile & bio, and under the cut is some info i didn’t get into her app/a tldr & a few plot ideas hehe c:

ok first off i didn’t remember anything about ares other than big sunglasses bigger douchebag & the pjo wiki just kinda confirmed that so idk

her mama is a prolific family lawyer who deals w stuff like divorce & inheritance rights bc ares loved family feuds HAH she’s not an annoying military brat, she’s an annoying lawyers kid! now studying law so the annoyance is doubled!

anyw rough timeline/tldr goes: put in camp halfblood at age 9 bc mama was paranoid, unclaimed until about 12 when ares was like hahA sucker if i claim her she can’t get away (+ she was starting to grow into some attractive powers yikes), tbh an awful lil terror while she was eager to get her dad’s praise/attention but as she got older she got a lot more disillusioned w how the gods treated their children and less interested in ‘supporting’ her father, now she’s just chilling and making sure her siblings r gonna b ok and not subjected to the same shitty upbringing

a side effect of her odikinesis is that she’s just Very Angry All The Time, which is why she was so awful when she was younger and she cancels it out rn with anything that dulls the senses (weed, usually, but alcohol/nicotine works too)

that’s it tbh she’s just a reformed ares kid!

plots

chaotic gang of ‘black sheep’ kids, occasionally plotting ways to terrorise their parents, optional support group for my parent is an asshole :(

idk which cabin would be the fun weed cabin but someone b her supplier lmao

camp halfblood friends who used to be terrified of her OR proud of her growth OR still terrified of her OR fellow unclaimed kids who stuck together OR any other possible connection u could want heh

ride or die/partner in crime yknow (probably around her age! also prob needs a lil bit of plotting)

she still has some easy triggers for her anger & congrats! one of them is you!

maybe someone who wants to learn combat from her? she’s def dicking around in easy peasy sword fighting 1 classes so she’s all set up to tutor someone w no experience

can someone teach her mediation or something : ) anger management pls

nuts to say this but she’s actually a good mediator now that her ability’s focused on decreasing instead of increasing hatred! so maybe someone she helps calm down (and vice versa rls r a two way street!)

fake roommates aka she just crashes in ur room when the ares kids get on her nerves too much & vice versa (i’m just sad i can’t have oh my god they were roommates)

some friends pls :(

something based on any of these songs/vibes: pink lemonade (unresolved feelings/exes), summertime magic (a fling!), do better (slacker buds), me and my friends are lonely (emo buds), alright (rebel/reformed kids), get better (wholesome friends motivating each other to be better), lit anything by jacob banks for some angst, california friends (frenemies ig?), pink in the night (fumbled first love), 红衣女孩 (something fierce & terrifying?)

minor greek tragedy but no gif icons bc my bby is underappreciated & idk how to make them myself :(

[imkindanerdforlanguages]

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was actually right about everything about my crush and her maybe girlfriend! Full story below and some will be repeat if anyone’s actually been keeping up with this. Skip to the third to last paragraph if you only wanna hear what happened today and not all the back story. I wrote this mainly so I could look at it later and remember and it turned out wayyyy longer than expected

Ok so I’ve like this girl a long time and we’ve been friends never questioned too much of she liked girls or not so that was never really a problem. So cut to football season 2017. We’re both in marching band and that’s how we became friends that year. We ended up both being in the same English class that school year and I become good friends with some of her other friends, including her maybe gf. (Shout out to those friends they’re super great). Since I have a massive crush on her (it’s 2018 by now) I pay more attention to her and stuff and I kinda notice how she acted with maybe gf. Like paying attention to maybe gf like I payed attention to her, looking at her lips, always mentioning her, stuff like that. So I think “oh she likes her, oh well, I wish her the best.” I’m quite shy irl so I wasn’t gonna make a move or anything and I was content what it was, though hopeful that she’ll maybe like me someday. I hate if people come on too strong myself and kinda believe that feelings are just gonna be what they are, rather than things that can swung heavily (idk if that makes sense but whatever)

So summer break happens then we’re at marching band 2018 still got my crush, still hopeful but not expecting much bc I still notice things between my crush and maybe gf. I think maybe gf is straight (I know, I know I’m not for assuming people’s sexuality but it was what it was) maybe it was my feelings making me think that maybe gf would never reciprocate but anyways I mainly feel bad for my crush bc it looks she really likes this girl and I can relate lol. So homecoming comes and I really wanna slow dance with her but I miss my fucking chance bc I go to the bathroom. Oh well. She did grind on me at one point but all the girls in our group were so whatever it was nice but didn’t really mean anything. And I actually worked up the nerve to text her that she looked gorgeous at homecoming (which she did) and I’m still proud of myself for that

One day shortly after, we’re at a band competition in the warmup room chilling bc we’re waiting for the rain to stop so we can go on. We’re talking in a group and someone ends up asking her if she has a crush on maybe gf, and she quickly denies (and I think yeah right lol) but then they ask if she has a crush on me and she stutters our her denial. The way she did it made me think that maybe I had a chance (there were other things too of course like the occasional look, etc). So the next day I muster up all the courage I have and text her asking if she has a crush on me, she says no, and I confess that I like her to get it off my chest. I thank god that we still remained great friends after that. We actually haven’t brought it up since.

Then the next football game she’s asked if she’s ever kissed a girl and she says yes and I’m like ah ha! I bet they are actually dating. (Side note that I kinda came out to like have the band that night cause someone asked if I was straight and I said no). I get a text from maybe gf the next day asking for relationship advice (she had never mentioned that she was in a relationship before) or something (I can’t really remember anymore). She’s playing the pronoun game so I figure that it’s a girl she’s dating and she’s says so later and tells me she’s bi. I told her I was bi too and we bonded over that and stuff it was nice and brought us closer etc. She says she doesn’t wanna tell me who it is and I respected that but I kinda figured that it was my crush. I think oh well that sucks for me but I’m happy for them. For things like this I largely live by just flowing with life and seeing where it takes you. If I didn’t I’d probably literally explode from stress lmao

Over then next couple months she tells me various things about her relationship which went through ups and downs. She felt trapped and pressured to come out and like nobody else could ever love her (which I always denied). There was a rough patch where she overloaded me with emotional stuff (which I am not prepared to handle) but it’s not too relevant to the story other than that a lot of the things she said made me more sure that my crush was her gf bc it just sounded like how she would act (note that after this she pretty much stopped texting me about her gf so I didn’t really get anymore info)

Sidenote: I’m not too sure how healthy their relationship actually was and since I only ever got one side of it I’m still not too sure how much of what I was told was truthful vs exaggerated since maybe gf was going through a rough patch. There were things like her panicking bc her gf was talking about marriage (yikes) and coming out and stuff. But she also talked about how it was easy to not cheat bc there was no one else in our town and she would kiss other girls as like a shock factor thing at parties and be like “my gf shouldn’t get mad bc it’s not like fr” (also yikes). I’ve pretty much come to the conclusion that both of them had things that weren’t the best but we’re teenagers and this was probably both of their first relationships so I’m not labeling them as bad people or anything. The biggest clue tho that my crush was her gf was that she said that her gf was the only person who knew all the terrible things about her/her life and since my crush was probably the closest to her I sorta assumed

Sidenote 2: some other things that made me sure of their relationship: my crush once got jealous of me in the group chat (she jokingly told me no to something, idk what anymore, and my crush was like what about me??? Lol), maybe gf kinda tripped and my crushes hand went to her waist in an intimate way to stabilize her, they were always each other’s lock screens, my crush would always give in to maybe gf (which sometimes I didn’t like bc I felt like she had to give into some things she shouldn’t have— not like really bad things but just kinda :/ and she’d have to apologize for playful insults even tho maybe gf said like the same level of insult), the eye contact when our teacher mentioned interracial sex lol, also the constant FaceTiming and calling that lowkey got on my nerves (nyc trip was the worst but really wasn’t that bad. It was mostly the jealousy that made it suck)

Sidenote 3: prom happened somewhere in here and we cuddled on the couch a bit but not like what your thinking, more like sat really close but it was nice. At one point she was like completely on top of me bc she was fighting with someone playfully

Anyways moving on to the end of the school year, I’m like 90% sure they’re dating, and I notice things seem tense between them. My crush would put her head down a lot and they would playfully insult each other with a bit more bite. They didn’t hang around each other as much as they used to, etc. I was just really picking up on some vibes. Eventually things seem to settle down a bit buts it’s the end of the year already and they’re graduating and stuff.

All three of us ended up doing this program at a university that lets kids work with scientists and learn about stem etc. we each work in different labs so we don’t see each other everyday but the group gets together like 1-2 times a week. During these, I notice that they just don’t seem as close, like they didn’t sit next to each other, phone lock screens aren’t each other, crush’s name in maybe gfs phone is her full name not nick name (though this could have always been that, I’m not sure), my crush no longer apologizes or cares as much if maybe gf gets a little mad (which she gets easily). Taking this with the tension before school got out into consideration, I figure that they must have broken up. Cool cool, maybe I have a chance but also she’s moving across the state for college in a month so :/

That brings us to the grand finale: today. So I have no idea really if they have broken up or if they were even together in the first place. But then maybe gf mentions that she is now dating this guy (which I approve of, he’s super sweet). I kinda suspected bc a picture of him was her lock screen, they had been hanging out a lot, initials in insta bios (which Ik should be a dead give away but she once said that she hates how people assumed that her and this other guy were together when she was dating her gf do I didn’t wanna assume anything) and I was like ah ha! At lest Ik that they aren’t dating now if they ever did in the first place. She invites me to come hang out with her, her bf and another couple that I’m good friends with tomorrow. So after I get home, partly bc I don’t wanna be the only single person there, partly bc I wanna see if I can weasel out the truth, and partly bc I may have day dreamed about us being all coupley too and maybe a kiss (oh how I wish). I text her and ask if my crush can come too so I’m not the only single person there. She texts back saying that it would be a good idea. So I figure it’s now or never so I ask if it’s bc they dated. She originally says no but then says admits that yes they dated but she broke up with her and they are still friends.

She basically says that she broke up with her bc she’s not ready to be out bc she doesn’t wanna lose some of her friends, wants to be normal, etc. she’s always been insecure, so it’s not too surprising for me. I sincerely hope that one day she reaches a place where she can be herself and not worry. I also feel bad for my crush bc I have a feeling that she’s probably still pretty hurt over it and I wish her the best too. I’m not gonna try to like make a move or anything bc a. I have no idea how long it’s been since the breakup and how she feels about it b. I’ve already expressed feelings so I don’t wanna be that person who keeps pusing after they’re rejected c. She’s moving like 6 hours away in a month

All in all I’m super surprised that I actually picked up on the fact that they were dating and had broken up bc I’m am not very emotionally intelligent at all. Honestly I doubt I would have picked up on much if I was paying such close attention bc of my crush. I spent like an hour+ writing this I can’t believe I actually had so much to say and it makes my life seem much more dramatic that it is. Thank you if you actually read all this or have kept up with my woes in the slightest bye

[fairielust]

hoOoOOo BOY HERE WE GO

so uhhh i had another meeting w wisteria after my exam today to practice for my speaking exam which is nEXT WEEK AHJFEL RIP LOL but unfortunately she had class so i had to wait outside in the cold playing games on my phone till p4 where i could go to the japanese classroom (besides we usually had japanese if this was normal times anyway Soo Nice !!! a class w just wisteria n i good shit !!!)

when p4 came i went up n she welcomed me in w a ‘douzo douzo.’ now you see i wrote a letter to my host family like two weeks ago after three years of silence (ugh i was really busy ok leave me alone i intend to write more after my final exams !!!) but i got a letter back from them last week n i cried they were so sweet !!!! i just had to show wisteria the comments they made about my level of japanese, how they were all really shocked n impressed to see that i had written an entire letter in japanese hELL YEAH !!!! n i told her how happy i was of myself for doing such a feat n she was really proud of me !!! she’s like ‘watashi mo, kei-chan, totemo ureshii ~’ aka ‘me too kei, i’m really happy !!!’ I LOVE LIFE !!! she was just smiling @ me smiling like crazy n asdfhkjl what a moment 

suddenly she shifted into speaking practice n that caught me off guard for the first ten minutes or so bc yknow,,, nerves(TM). wisteria gave me another speech on how realistically i wasn’t getting a band six (bless her for not put pressure on me to do really well in speaking smiles) for speaking n i need to be ‘confidently incorrect ‘(‘you do realise i’ve told you this a thousand other ways kei’ ‘i knowwwwwwww,,,’)

we continued for another ten minutes n by some chance i got good ??? like i started throwing in some more complex structures n when they were right she’d nod n give me some kind of positive noise to encourage me further,,,

when we had finished wisteria was like ‘YES KEI THAT’S IT YOU GOTTA BOTTLE UP THE LAST TEN MINUTES N SPEAK LIKE THAT !!!!’ n was full on clapping n shit im sobbing she was super proud of me n i really needed this bc my mood has been shit during these exams,,, 

(ie my parents didn’t even know i was doing exams n whenever i studied they just didn’t give a shit n i had lots of held-back anger n late night tears still in me buT !!! I DIDN’T LET THEM STOP ME FROM SPEAKING TODAY !!! FUCKING SUCK IT @ DEMONS IN MY HEAD)

after that i asked her if she was going to be there w us on the day of the exam but turns out she wasn’t planning to,,, nekminut she asks what day its on (‘23rd ?’ ‘isn’t it the 25th ? the day after my extension major is due ???’) n she said we could catch a train together to the place to get there ahHHHHHH it’ll be so encouraging if she’s there w us !! (lowkey w me !!) 

after that we kinda wrapped up w speaking bc now we were on the topic of my major works n i asked if she wanted to come to the art exhibition my school’s holding in like three weeks to showcase all of the year12 visual arts major works (aka my work is apart of this i have to be there n shit),,, n she said she’d come,,,

bitch your girl fricking asked wisteria to come to two (2) major things coming up n she said she’d come to B O T H i stan myself

then i started rambling on about how i have to choose a title for my artwork n i told her what i thought was a brilliant idea in my mind bc it’s a line from one of coleridge’s poems (aka the dude i’m studying for english ex 1) where he’s like ‘hunger’d after nature’ only i’d write it in japanese thus combining my love for romanticism n japanese n she immediately got up to look up the translation for me lmAo she had no idea who coleridge was i feel like a genius for once

eventually it got close to lunch time n she walks over to her desk n goes ‘oh kei-chan ! one of the year sevens gave me these, it’s chocolate’ n gives me this lil packet that was super cute ahhh what a legend. (when i ate it later i discovered it to be white chocolate inside some kind of shortbread kinda biscuit it was sOOO GOOD TF i wanted more ????) but uhh how romantic ?? like it was the only one sitting on her desk,,, as if,,, she had intended to keep it to give to me,,, bc she knew i was coming after her year 7 class,,,, uh huh uh huh

as she packed up the classroom she asks in japanese if i had anymore exams n i told her (in japanese !) i had bio n eng ex I left n she asks what days n i said that they were both on thursday n she laughs out loud n gives me a pity look bc bio goes for 3 hours n that’s not enough time to study for eng ex but she’s like ‘you’ll be fine you know all of them anyway’ uGH SHE BELIEVES IN ME WAY TOO MUCH HAHAHAHAHA

adsfdgjk she was also laughing a lot today like she’s just so comfortable when i’m here n vice versa we love a connection

look i’m still in shock i can’t believe that a) i actually did well in a speaking task again n she got super proud of me n b) i asked her to come w us to our exam n invited her to the art exhibition skdskrsjhdf i LOVE HER OK SHE’S SO LOVING N SWEET N SUPPORTIVE OF ME JUST,,, WHY !!!

[just-seheun]

bye 2017, hey 2018

I feel like I always get around to writing an end of the year post on tumblr even if i never really even get to use this site during the year.

well I guess it’s that time of the year (or new year I should say) where I try and look back as well as look forward.

let’s see what happened in 2017...

- let’s say, for one, ‘Murica as a whole kinda went through a lot of bullshit (still is honestly) - we’re getting rid of DACA, the tax cut bill was passed (holla @ the rich 10% and say bye to the other 90%), we’re slowly trying to get rid of/fuck up the EPA despite climate change being very real (if category 4-5 hurricanes occurring back to back is what we’d call “real”), and ya know just the firing of members of the HIV/AIDS awareness and prevention council in the government - to name a few (not to mention, continued police brutality, racial discrimination/injustice (tbh just racism as a whole), and dumb ass fucking people who - ugh 

well, moving on to maybe more lighthearted moments...

- I tried to infiltrate the Asian community a little more with (mixed, mostly unsuccessful) efforts. Idk man I tried. I think I did make stronger relationships with the Asian friends I started out with so, I think that’s definitely a major plus. (*insert thumbs up here*)

- also, kinda along with that one, I think I dived into more adventurous food/hangout spots in terms of finding kinda Asian hubs and places I vibe with (an accomplishment of last year too that I think worked and flourished even more in 2017). 

- Kind of cooled down with the whole going out scene. I still go out occasionally and have a pretty good time but it’s definitely dwindled down. We definitely started the year going out more but like I said, definitely calmed down a lot. 

- Went to my first Terp Thon FTK! Started my TTPT journey with the 1 million dollar year - pretty crazy and amazing. It was truly and unreal experience for all those kids and wouldn’t have changed it for anything. Super sad I won’t be there for Terp Thon 2018 though. 

- oh! successfully (kinda) resurrected my GPA from a sad 2.7 (result of getting a 1.7 from failing calc2 and getting a D in bio) to a nice and solid 3.23 which I am tbh very proud of. A 3.8 and 3.88 (technically straight As - woo hooooo) these last two semesters - yay! Just also improving in school as a whole. I’m really starting to enjoy what I’m doing. yeah, spring ‘17 sem was more chill and fall ‘17 sem was more like hell but, overall I’m pretty excited about the work and studies I get to do. (like hell as in 3 2900-3200-word papers in the span of like 2 weeks) 

- Another academic thing, I added Art History (officially) as a Double Major which probably means a winter term here or there but still very exciting. I also feel like I’ve really learned a lot about the fundamentals of art history that I really felt like I was missing this whole time. Just like the basic timeline of movements and key artists from Burgundian Netherlands to Venice to Rococo to Realism to Cubism (and all its various forms) to Der Blauer Reiter to Contemporary and everything in between. All cool stuff - definitely makes you pay attention more to dates and stuff when visiting galleries and museums and just makes me feel more in the know if nothing else. 

- Again, another academic thing, I’m officially in the English Honors Program - woo hoo! This does, however, mean I’ll be writing a 25-page thesis but honestly it’ll be fine, I’m fine, it’s all fine... I mean I don’t really know what I’m gonna write about and I have to skype my professor for like 2 months in the summer but hey, it’s all good and if it’s not I’ll just figure it out (*insert nervous sheepish grin here*)

- Kind of started the process of cutting off 아빠 which take that with a grain of salt. It’s a mess tbh, I don’t even know what to say honestly. 

- Finally left Slaveway for good. It really tbh started becoming too much of a risk and just uncomfortable for me to stay. Not an awful job (despite the shit customers a lot of the time) but I just couldn’t stay longer.

- I feel like there was also definitely a more solidifying of sustained relationships and a distancing in others. I don’t know definitely still a lot just up in the air and a lot of familiar faces but a lot of new things and stronger bonds in 2017. 

(now, post looking at my snapchat memories from the year and realizing how much shit I did this year... lol)

- I went to 2 concerts (kinda); one being 2 Chainz and all of the many acts that came before him at Art Attack 2017 and the other being Khalid’s bomb American Teen Tour concert at the Filmore that I initially just went to because Sam wanted to go and Anh had an extra ticket that ended up being real lit. 

- Had like a little fame after writing an Odyssey Online article about Moco which was kinda cool and kinda ridiculous lol. I also just stopped writing for them all together after like less than one sem rip. 

- Also realizing I went to a lot of really cool exhibits and art-related things this past year which I’m really happy about actually. Yayoi Kusama’s exhibit was crazy amazing and well worth the wait. Artec house was really cool and just visiting the NGA, the PMA, the Hirshorn, the Freer/Sackler with a fresh and more knowledgeable outlook was really nice. Also starting those solo museum trips during the sem was really nice no matter how short-lived they were. 

Honestly this year was very different from 2016 in many many ways. I think there’s been a lot more growth in this past year but I and the community around me definitely went through a lot. 

- Something I realized this past year in unfortunate circumstances, was the prevalence of loss and losing individuals close to your community. I never thought things like death, loss, grief, and suicide were things that I would ever come across (let alone, this often) at this age. We really did lose a lot of young lives that were filled with so much potential and hope this past year especially in this community, including an old classmate. Things that we always thought to be intangible and far away landed right in front of us and I don’t think a lot of us including myself still know how to grasp all of that. It’s hard to see the people around you, the ones you grew up with and always had by your side whether you knew them well or not, lead such a tragic fate. This year made us think about mental health more and more. You realize in the most unfortunate circumstances that everyone has there own demons that they’re fighting. No one is free from them. Even in regards to Jonghyun, it affects everyone in the darkest of ways. 

This past year really made me think more about how fragile life truly is. I’ve dealt with and still deal with my own demons and the dark thoughts of my past and truly wonder especially in light of all the tragic events from this past year, what things would be like. It would be a lie if I said that they didn’t make me wonder about past thoughts of my own more. 

I think it’s sad to think that even as I wonder about all this, I still feel empty about it in the midst of being unable to process it all. I feel like in a way, whether as a result from school distracting me and my own self protecting or shielding itself, I’ve grown numb. I feel like my own mind is trying to avoid emotions at all cost in a way that’s pushing away emotion and problems by just not dealing with them (which by no means is the right way to deal with things at all bc you’re not dealing with anything). I don’t know, I guess I’m getting by and I’m not as broody as I was in the past but I wouldn’t say I’ve improved, I’ve just kind of paused in a way I guess. 

I want to end this post with a brighter look toward the future though. I think 2018 has a lot of potential waiting to happen with lots of things to look forward to that I think should be highlighted in this post. After all, a new year means moving forward, not burying your past necessarily but, using the past to cast light on the future. 

So with that, things to look forward to in 2018...

- First things first, STUDY ABROAD IN ROME for Spring ‘18 sem! I mean it doesn’t get more exciting and new than this honestly. Yes, I am super stressed and there’s so much stuff to do besides the fact that I’m paranoid and don’t know what to expect at all. I’ve never traveled abroad in my life, let alone lived away from home (ever) so this is just gonna be absolutely nuts tbh. I have lots of hopes though. Do I want a fairytale, movie-like experience? Lowkey, of course. But I also try to be a harsh realist when I can so, we’re staying generally tame about our study abroad fantasies lol. Still, I’m hoping this will be a chance to make new friends and hopefully make some of them in my art history classes as well as in the school in general. It’s been a hard few years in the whole making friends department seeing as how all my past roommates are very antisocial. Yes, I myself am also very much like this but that doesn’t mean my internal self doesn’t want a lot of friends lol. I’m excited to take a class with Evelyn and just experience the city while hopefully staying safe and smart. It’ll be a crazy and hopefully amazing semester with a lot of travel and just a lot of fun before my senior year. I could go on and on about all my thoughts and hopes for this coming semester but, I’ll just leave it at that (your girl really needs to sort her life out/figure out what to pack/pack/schedule the rest of my home excursions/get her documents together/everything else. Bottom line: we’re a mess lol.

- Hopefully a summer internship. Forreal forreal like actually. Your girl was stuck at safeway again this past year and we’re not having that shit again. Nope nuh-uh, not happening. Not this year mm mm, no. We’re gonna find one. We have to - it’s gonna happen. Trust and believe. Trust and believe! 

- Also turning 21 this year (although, this probs won’t be exciting seeing as how I’ll be legal all semester while I’m abroad, then come home and be nonlegal for another like 2 months and then be legal again). Look, I’m just looking forward to getting mimosas and going to bars without memorizing random identity information from Illinois. 

- Also 2018 is really gonna be a year for me to REALLY think about me. In all contexts, really. Academically; figuring out what it is I really want from my education and working toward making the most out of it, finding a real path for myself in terms of grad school and other things school-related. Lifewise; gauging how I’m going to continue my life. Graduation is coming faster than I can think and by this time next year, I’ll be gearing up for my last semester as an undergrad. That is so wild. 2018 is really gonna be me trying to buckle down, I suppose. Trying to cloud out my peers and their success/failures/paths and really try to hone in on myself. It’ll be a challenge but we’ve got to start somewhere, right?

All in all a lot was thrown onto the table in 2017 in a lot of different ways. It’s been a different kind of roller-coaster with much much more to come after this year (my favorite number year really, 2017). 2018 will be a test of time and one of the biggest challenges but, also hopefully a year with a lot of hope and potential for success. Wishing everyone the brightest new year with health, opportunities, growth, and burgeoning happiness! Cheers to all 2018 has to offer all of us and to all the things 2017 gave us! 

[foxxema]

March 22 2017

Two more months till summer. Went to English first this morning. Uneventful. I have an outline to do by Friday?? Fuuuuuuck myyyyyyyyyyy life! Actually I think my life is okay compared to other people's lives. Okay then I went to Justice's class and I have a test aka a "celebration of knowledge" Friday. Yikes! Went to bio and for some reason we ended up talking about sex for 30 minutes. Then we went to advisory and people were annoying! Then to gov! So wedge gets a call that destiny threw up at daycare and he needed to figure it what to do bc his wife was in a meeting. He left the room and called people for like 20 min so while he was gone we started talking about the book diary of a wimpy kid. Zooooooweeeeemama! Then Kate started the cheese touch and started giggling. Then passed it to Kevin who passed it to Eliza. Legal adults yet pass the cheese touch while manically giggling. That makes sense. Last was ceramics! Ella told her life story to everyone and we played really good music. I can't remember this song and it's stuck in my head grrrrrr. OMG MADDY WALKED BY SINIMG KHALID I'm so proud. I feel like Ella was trying not to cry but I didn't say anything. Then went to track. Ended up at pole vault and holy shit this girl was vaulting 10ft6" I was shook. It's incredible. I also pet a really cute puppy with soft ears. The little boy holding the pupper on the leash said that it liked me and I've never felt so good about myself. Then left pole vault at 6:00 and went to robotics. Ted, Tim, and Grayson were there. Ted asked me to scout this team which was kinda annoying because I already have a shit ton of work but also kinda nice that he asked me because that means he trusts me to do it right? NOTE: add him to Basecamp chat. Then he left! Then Tim left 30 min later! I worked on programming the robot a bit. Focused on getting the gear placement command for auto correct. Then ended up leaving 30 min after that. Grayson was still there when I left so hopefully he went home soon afterwards and got dinner. I'm tired and should probably go work! Goodnight xoxo