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greppelheks · 1 year

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I think I'm slowly starting to understand that me being constantly exhausted is just because I'm finally safe and my body is no longer running on adrenaline and cortisol all the time. I've been fighting against the exhaustion for over a year but I haven't actually allowed myself to rest without feeling guilty.

#personal #I need to learn how to relax and do one thing at a time and to not put myself in so many stressful situations #I'm allowing myself to sleep in #to read more #to start my day with something enjoyable like a walk or a nice long breakfast instead of a stressful to do list #I'm setting boundaries around being available to work on my days off #I'm taking days off of work #I'm allowing myself to just sit and be and read and have a drink at a cafe somewhere #without it being something rushed #I just need to.. REST this year #I've done the self care bit like the meditation and the yoga and the walks but it's always been something #and I've only relaxed while feeling guilty and multi tasking #I just need to really and truly relax; in a way where it's not a to do list #my favorite restaurant is closed on mondays #but they're located at a big lawn with chairs and benches #and I went there after work to just read my book for 2 hours #in the shadow and the breeze on a hot day #and I felt sad depressed but it was actually really nice #making some dinner now (easy dinner) and watching a tv show

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