#and bc of my shit grades i cant get any financial help at all. except the housing. which just makes the situation 10x worse | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

minglana · 1 year

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im gonna fucking kill myself WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY do i keep failing these fucking exams!!!! i fucking study for them thats the worst part! i study for them and i fail and oh my god. cuarta puta matricula para otra puta asignatura es que what even is the meaning of my fucking life. i feel like im going insanse like im stuck in the same fucking place every single fucking year and i just. cannot fucking escape from these basic ass classes that i keep fucking failing!!!!!!!!

#at one point i thought i knew what to do but. i dont. i really dont i guess #at what point should i throw in the towel. i feel like i shouldve done it ages ago. but my stupid little monkey brain tells me to keep goin #bc i dont know what else there is to life except be in school and try to study. and all its acomplishing is: 1. draining my energy #2. making the environment at home (w my mom) absolutely inhabitable for me. and 3. draining my parents pockets.#and bc of my shit grades i cant get any financial help at all. except the housing. which just makes the situation 10x worse #i feel like im gonna have to spend the entire summer studying if i want to even think about passing any/some of next year's classes #and i dont even want to go to the exam on wednesday bc i know ill do just as bad. actually no. ill do even worse. i havent studied at all #i want to cry so fucking bad and its all bc my stupid brain refuses to cooperate with what i actually do want.#xarraire #suicide mention

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