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confinesofmy · 6 months

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queued 30-something succposts 👍 i had to stop because i went far enough down my "x" tag to crash my app but i remember where i was so unfortunately i will continue sometime tomorrow. i don't know how a queue works so. i'm sorry in advance for the dribbling and constant stream of succession posts to come. just block the tag "succmas," you don't have to unfollow me, please, i'm begging you. 🙏

#i was so..#happy/sad/passionate just emotive. period.#i'm not like that about anything anymore #i forgot i had ever been like that #👉👈 i think i might be balls deep in a sexy little depressive episode rn #talking about.. like 6+ months deep #and before that i was in the trenches of grief which i still am tbh #think i might've locked down pretty bad recently because i'm no longer going to therapy so it's just like oh well the healing is over #and there wasn't a lot of it #so i guess i will just be an open wound now #which simultaneously isn't true #but is very fucking true actually #i probably shouldn't have pursued cbt last year #bc it's bad to look at a year's worth of weekly therapy appointments and think 'what was accomplished'#but then again maybe it was really the difference between me killing myself and not idk ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#adam talks too much

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