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isitovernow-ootw · 1 year

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beginning to wish i was exposed to queer internet spaces a bit later so i could have just existed for a while, its really hard to think about my gender when I haven't spent a single period of time not analyzing it since i was 13

#idk i think i could have used at least a couple years of just iding as a cis allo lesbian to see how it felt #like before even thinking about other possibilities #idk having id'd as aro for my entire teen years and never really considered my identity before claiming that term made it really hard #to realize that wasn't the case at 17-18 #and i wonde if i had just been gay for like a second if i could have skipped that #and now I'm re-questioning my gender and I don't even know #at this point i think even if i had had the possibility of being cis at some point my perception of gender is so fundamentally altered #from trying to fit myself into boxes for like 7 years #that it still would not be remotely the same as the gender of a cis woman #idk I've been consuming a lot of lesbian content #and feeling somehow detached from cis lesbian circles is weird because I'm getting to a point where lesbian is my primary identifier #so i want to fully connect with that #but my experience is so different from a lot of people #because i never got to be a teenage girl #or let myself be one? idk #idk if i even id as a girl or a woman now at all i just wish things were less complicated #feeling dyke feelings generally #*when i'm screaming at the sky

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