#because i never got to be a teenage girl

[isitovernow-ootw]

beginning to wish i was exposed to queer internet spaces a bit later so i could have just existed for a while, its really hard to think about my gender when I haven't spent a single period of time not analyzing it since i was 13

[bisexualeliotspencer]

Challengers (2024) is just all three of the main characters looking at the others and going “that should be me” but also not fully processing who or what they actually want

[punkeropercyjackson]

As someone who's primary special interests are DC,Spiderverse and Pjo,this is the vibe i get when i see people saying Stephanie is butch,that Hobie acts like a stereotypical guy and either(but usually both)about Percy

[idkwhatimdoingbutrandom]

You are NOT ALLOWED to be successful by the way!!!! You’re not allowed to be popular on a popular app because that’s not COOL!!!!!!! I find songs by listening to the bugs hum in dirt!!!! IM COOLER THAN YOU!!!! BE MY KIND OF COOL ONLY!!!! POPULAR THINGS ARE FOR LOSERS AND IM A PROFESSIONAL HATER BECAUSE YAY!!!! SUCCESS CAN ONLY BE ON MY TERMS!!!!!!! IF YOU DIDNT BECOME KNOWN BY RANDOM LYRICS ETCHED INTO THE SIDEWALK RIGHT BY AN ABANDONED BUILDING YOURE ILLEGITIMATE!!!!! BE BETTER!!!!!!!!!!

Side note: if we (specifically consumers who don’t even create, themselves, and regard art as only a product) keep making dumb rules about art and creation, no one will ever have fun or want to do what they love anymore.

[variousqueerthings]

I note that I don't, and I never, was much of a fan of doctor-and-rose as romance, but that I -- rather than get annoyed at the romantic-coded scenes -- had a tendency to simply read them from a totally different perspective, and really maybe should have been a sign of sooomething different about me, that I continuously felt that the doctor's concepts of connection must be so alien, that to call it romance would be to diminish the actual Thing that they had, which was presented as such onscreen (to my mind then, now I realise what was happening, but I prefer what I had going on), which is basically that the doctor was a shell of a person, hurtling towards destruction (he would have died without rose in ep1), desperately lonely and sad and traumatised, and she retaught nine -- and by extension ten -- how to love the universe, at the same time as nine and ten taught her the same. (I think about the scene in father's day, where while they're arguing, rose says that she knows how sad he is, and he'll just hang around the tardis waiting for her -- she knew!)

and then on top of that with sarah-jane (which, I never watched the classics as a kid, so I didn't have that context for her beyond what the episode presented) it felt like that was sort of confirmed and made even more canon through this idea that the doctor is constantly mourning the inevitable deaths of their companions and would rather simply leave them behind at some point than watch that happen (and they've seen that happen before, although dying for a cause versus just... dying, because you die, while they don't, they just continue on and on, always seeking connection, always knowing that time will take them away, that's a whole other thing)

and then of course there's ten's... I would call it "sex appeal" because it's david tennant and with his performance there's immediately a bit of a focus on oh he's quite pretty and he faints/is knocked unconscious in both of his first episodes, and a lot more flirting, and the people want to see sparks or what have you... but the doctor as portrayed and written is still... not coming at it that way. yes yes girl in the fireplace but also, once again, doesn't work for me, because I find it soooo much more interesting that the doctor would imprint on A Life - and a life that they admire -- and speedrun the exact thing that they're most afraid of with their companions... that she ages and dies and it's the one thing that the doctor simply cannot stop

meanwhile rose is quite young and swept up in this whole massive adventure and very much reads the doctor not as an alien (frequently surprised by their alien-ness) and gets jealous of sarah-jane as if she's an ex, and renette as if she's... a replacement? but really it's more that the doctor met her at the point when she was about to accept her life as it was. not an exciting life, not a bad life, but always having to ignore the idea that there must be more to it than this. and the idea that she might be unceremoniously dumped back in that after seeing just how This the this could be, of course that's terrifying. and of course she's simultaneously taken with the dashing doctor and the jetset life, and worried she could be replaced, because to her the doctor saved her at 19 years old. in some ways the doctor created her (considering who she becomes after dooms day)

contrasted to martha who initially has a similar kind of experience, but the doctor doesn't meet her at the space she's in with them -- ten is leaning on her, like they did with rose, but not giving anything back unless kicking and screaming and traumatising her whole family. martha's trajectory is so so tragic, because she barely gets a taste of the splendor versus the horrors and the latter marks her for life. but she also knows to walk away from those overwhelming feelings, rather than give into them, she knows they'll never be rewarded and she also grows beyond wanting to be a crutch for the doctor (the fact that she then ends up as a soldier, well... ouch)

and then of course donna, who never has those fucking awe-feelings to begin with and whose connection with the doctor is explicitly de-romanticised but never placed on a lesser pedestal as if there's a hierarchy of alloromanticism. topples those pillars, never sees the doctor as anything but what the doctor is. good old donna. (sobs.) (but also... cautious hope for the specials.) (but also sobs.)

my point being. just don't buy alloromantic doctor, they're a near-immortal alien. it's such a dull simplistic way of reading their relationships to other beings. other point being. all those women who were making heart-eyes at ten, wish they'd met thirteen and had a... "yeah, this still works for me," moment. their horizons, too, are broadened by seeing More. (that or they realise they were never actually "in love" but just thought ten was a sexy skinny little snack and it blinded them.) (although jodie whittaker, too, is a snack.)

and lastly lastly ofc, is that if the doctor has a longterm (by doctor time measurement) intense relationship with anyone, whatever that might be called, it's the tardis. and that relationship is also so alien it cannot be quantified by human words for concepts

[resident-gay-bitch]

Let’s be honest here, if James and Sirius were girls (into eachother or not) they would be known as the “lesbians” around school.

As someone who went through highschool as a girl having a very close friendship with a girl (and let’s face it, yes I was desperately in love with her and no it didn’t end well, but that’s bedside the point because these rumours went around before I fell for her) we were Always asked if we were dating and when we denied it people didn’t believe us. And if people didn’t think we were dating they thought we wanted to date, and yeah it was primarily guys thinking that which I’m not even gonna get into because that’s a whole sexist fucking gross thing there, but still!

You can’t tell me, if you’re like gen z or in a generation where queerness is known through your highschool and like not the worse thing in the world, that you didn’t have a set of girl best friends that everyone thought were in a queer relationship.

I happened to be in like, almost all the “lesbian” rumoured relationships at my school because, after the first one, I shaved my head and became the school dyke and then any close female friend I had meant I had to be in love with them and if they seemed smiley around me back it was assumed we were dating.

But like, James and Sirius were That Close, and if they were girls, they Would be The Lesbians. If they were just best friends, everyone would assume they were lesbians. If they were secretly in love with eachother and never said anything until it was too late, everyone would assume they were lesbians. If they were dating and just didn’t tell anyone, everyone would assume they were lesbians. If they were dating and did come out and tell people, no one would be surprised.

I think there’s something special about that. And I know from personal experience being known as the lesbian couple of the school even when you’re not isn’t the greatest, but like as someone who’s experienced that and also experienced it in a more positive way (where people were just supportive and wanted us to date because they genuinely thought we’d be good together and we liked eachother) it’s just something that’s bound to happen.

Apparently you can’t have two girls that close to eachother that aren’t your typical “straight laced “normal” girls” and have them not be cast as the school lesbians.

James was a quidditch captain nerdy smartarse, and Sirius is an alternative black sheep with severe mummy issues. They’re gonna be the lesbians.

And I adore that.

[lionblaze03-2]

sometimes I think about writing and singing music not because I’m an incredible singer but because no one has my fucking voice, especially in popular music, and its disheartening to be born a girl, told you’ll only get girl roles or try to voice match other girls, or ‘sing with the girls’ and then only be able to match male voices because you’re a fuckin tenor and not anything higher. I can’t think of any girl Broadway roles I can hit all the notes on. Most songs I love I have to pitch down for myself or use falsetto for singing along to. It bothers me a lot less now because I’m an adult who’s more secure in myself but as a teen in kids musical theatre it FUCKED with me, BAD style. And I know for a fact that even now when I hear people with a voice like mine singing I get excited and immediately invested in their work because they’re like ME, finally, for once. A brother in this world of being afab and having the voice of a recently pubescent boy forever. Maybe I should be that brother too.

[black-rose-writings]

I'm thinking about getting my ears re-pierced, so I'm doing some research on it and I found this really funny thing.

An article from a jewelry store (it's the first thing that pops up when I googled surgical steel alergy, which I am pretty sure I have) says, in the same sentence that nickel allergies (which are typically the cause of bad reactions to iron-based alloys) are very rare and then they say 10% of the population has some form of it. That's not very rare. That's 1 in 10 people. In medication side effects lists, 1 in 10 is considered common.

So, yeah, fucking stupid ass jewelry website trying to sell their stupid ass jewelry by misleading their readers/customers.

[lostchildofthenewworld]

me trying to explain how ‘the covenant’ (2006) is everything that twilight wanted to be but wasn’t given enough enough opportunity to grow and in this essay I will explain that it was a conspiracy by distributor Sony because the world hates teenage girls and had we been given-

[fleshdyke]

me when cishet men will always have deep rooted misogynistic beliefs and behaviours no matter what

[persistent-wallflower]

Dude I'm so bad at this dating stuff. It just never feels right

[tigresslanzhu]

Works Every Time

[Johnny and Nooshy get in something of a wrestling match for the television remote]

Nooshy: I wanna watch the FoxTrot cartoon!

Johnny: Too bad! The Challenge USA is on!

Marcus: Right! Here’s some money! Go drive someone else at the arcade crazy!

Nooshy: [on the way to Johnny’s truck] I told you he’d let us go if we did that!

[seilon]

i usually dont comment on these kinds of things because they shouldnt be treated with the level of weird parasocial interest they tend to be on social media generally but. claire (lil tay) was so fucking young. it doesnt take knowing her personally to feel just how jarring and genuinely tragic her sudden death is. like shit. she was only 14. she didnt even get to live her own life. sorry if this is pointless and theres no call to action or anything here but. jesus.

[freebooter4ever]

kenny p is losing his mind over this one

[snnumntik]

not to sound like an old fuck but teenagers are the fucking worst

[drewsaturday]

i feel like i don't have a favorite yellowjackets character but honestly it was probably jackie now that i think abt it. idk why i found her so appealing???

so many people hate her but i want to believe that if shauna had Really communicated with her she would've made changes. it's hard to know because maybe shauna did try, but jackie had a sort of "well i know best and i want what (i know) is best for you so you're just being silly" automatic reaction without realizing no, she does need to take this seriously. and shauna shut down in response and never tried again. shauna felt too invisible to scream louder.

then maybe shauna DID scream louder, but jackie Actually shut her down in a selfish way instead. maybe jackie had some conditional possessiveness where if people didn't align exactly to what her perfect little dollhouse of a world needed to entail, she would have cut them off. i mean, she did get bitchy when shauna didn't agree with her on survival tactics....... but i kinda feel like that's not the best indicator of what life was outside of a survivor situation, so i have to wonder if she would've gotten over herself in a normal world.

it's just that at the very least, within the bounds of that perfect little world jackie made for herself, she did seem to want what was best for others; it's just that "what's best for shauna" for example was not negotiable to what jackie thought was best for shauna, and if shauna tried to be her own person outside of jackie then well, shauna was just being stupid. shauna, straight A student, doesn't know best. jackie does. and that's how it's always been, and shauna learned to hide herself away as a result.

maybe if there'd been more civil communication it would've still exploded, maybe it would've gotten rocky but ultimately fine, maybe they would've just never spoken to each other again after high school and jackie would have to realize why 15 years later in therapy why her best friend never responded to her letters.

we just literally do not know bc shauna fucked jackie's boyfriend instead of using her words in a way we could see pre-crash to truly judge who's at fault, as if it wasn't mutually toxic and insane anyway.