#and i am too eepy to coherently compile it all rn

[natsmagi]

hiiiii!! i just wanted to ask why u ship ntmg :0 i love them but i wonder a lot about ppls' like specific reasons lol

u wanna know whats soso funny. i didnt actually ship ntmg for like almost a year when i first joined the fandom. Like obv i knew that they had Something going on and i didnt exactly have any Other natsume ships so it was sort of like "yea sure. he can be with tsumugi. why not"

then i had finally decided to start reading some switch stories bc my sister said she liked tsumugi so i thought i should learn a bit more abt him so i could inform her of some of his quirks! and that was my first mistake. i would kinda just read whatever story caught my eye but i do remember reading element > pleiades > wg

pleiades got me Thinking a little...... i was like hm.......... something fruity going on here.............. but wonder game is what broke me and changed me into the man i am today and it was like in an INSTANT (i was very in denial abt it tho)

i think the reason the pair ended up resonating with me so much is due to all the shit and misunderstandings theyve been through. like god it was just unfortunate circumstance after unfortunate circumstance with those two. but. despite it all, they still wanted to stay by each others side. even when they just could not understand each other, despite natsumes aggression, despite tsumugis apathy, they wanted to be part of each others lives

and all of this really resonated with me since without going into Too much detail i am someone who does struggle with anger management similar to natsume, and i can be incredibly cold and dismissive towards people for little reason, and all of that is stuff i hate about myself and am actively trying to change but its. like. really hard. so it makes me really happy to see that hey! maybe someday you too can find someone who simply meets you halfway and doesnt demonize you for your faults and will stay by your side and help aid you

primarily its because their dynamic is soso genuinely fascinating to me, but part of it is also because it makes me feel like! maybe i can be loved too then! so theyre very near and dear to my heart and a great source of love and comfort for me !!