we wnt to extended family party for easter and even tho it went fine and every1 was nice it left me feeling pretty drained and alienated and honestly just kinda sad :/ its like. im just rly a different kind of person than ur average "normal" person, i have pretty strong ideologies that a lot of ppl dont relate to, weird interests, and im very introverted. but im still good at being very friendly so "normal" ppl are happy to talk w me so it ends up being them mostly just telling me so much abt their lives and me sharing rly only 10% of my actual life back bc i dont feel like i can rly say all tht much abt myself w/o alienating them. just stupid small talk abt like what i do for work and then of course now sm baby talk which also sucks bc ppl cant get enough of talking abt it and every1 w a kid wants to give u their 2 cents and i blahh idk. im alrdy a naturally lonely feeling person and it makes me feel even lonlier...
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