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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 9 months

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the worst part abt watching movies w my parents is when they Dont Get It and so it falls on me to explain it to them, but when i use words that sound smarter than how i usually speak they give me that Look of vague confusion and judgement and it makes everything not fun anymore. this is also the reason for my various undiagnosed mental illnesses and also the fact that i am so heavily in the closet about being trans-

#this post is probably not as funny as i want it to be but at the same time im so srs #i hate when it falls on me to explain the weird things to them . bc i know they Dont Get It #and no amount of poorly worded excuses about why i like a weird thing will make them understand but they still expect me to say it.#and they will Never Get It.#which means i will also never be able to come oit to them comfortably because this is one of those things they wont get !#and thats ok! but i dont want it to be my responsibility to explain it. because im not as eloquent as i would like to be #and i frequently misspeak and get overwhelmed in conversations like this and nothing ever comes out right. sigh #yes this is about asteroid city but its also about annihilation and spiderverse #and the lego movies and marble hornets and trigun and homestuck and.#most things i enjoy have an overtone of grief or self discovery or coping with things you cant understand #or trying your hardest to live a meaningful life in a world that doesnt understand and is sometimes actively hostile #and i never know how to put that into words that my parents will understand #this post is maybe a little too personal but. sigh. its hittin me pretty hard rn #bc theyre grilling me about why i liked asteroid city so much and all i can say is. shrug emoji #delete later

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