#and i was rly depressed bc the guy i had been seeing was avoiding me completely

[hauntedwoman]

realized today is the five year anniversary of the first time i got high 😭😭😭

[reversecreek]

✵ zloane , bravier , nyla and sean

ZIGGY & SLOANE

their first impression of your muse:

sexy. tugged on her hair literally the first time he saw her hadn’t even had a conversation bt was just like target? located. going? ✈️ annoy her. probably initially just thought she was only at the skate park bc sean was n was like 🙄 then she cld actually skate n he was like 😏 liked that she gave him shit. found it funny pushing her buttons. liked her eyes. probably was like wtf is in the fuckin water in this town yo why all my friends got hot sisters that shit aint right tryna make me a dog....... not that he was even. phased by betraying those boundaries bt. still. i won’t lie his main first impression was probably jst damn bit hot when she glares at me like that. KJHFSGKSJHGKGHSFKGH

current impression:  

knows her a little more than he likes to know people. favourite person to argue w. can possibly skate better than him bt if she said so he’d be like “ur off ur fuckin tits man” n then practice secretly on his own for hours that night n get 9457295 scrapes. doesn’t like talking abt her dad like him so one time he put a firework in his mailbox n never admitted it was him. has reactions to youtube videos tht make him snort. quite funny in general rly. drinks a lot not that he can judge it’s just sometimes he notices n once he even snatched her cup n drank the rest so she couldn’t. played it off as their typical fuckery bt he isn’t sure what that feeling was. hasn’t been concerned often enough to know it by name. finds her hot at inappropriate moments like when a movie chara’s dying n he’s meant to be sad. finds her hot when she pisses him off too. thinks mayb she likes the excuse to hold onto him when she rides on his vespa but he kind of likes it too so he’s not about to call it out bc “he isn’t about that deep shit”. 

are they attracted to your muse?:  

KFJHGKJGHFGKFHSGKSHGKSFGH. imagine i was jst like no <3... yes. he likes to act like he’s less so than he is bt it’s obvious.

something they find frightening about your muse:

i wouldn’t say it frightens him bt sometimes he catches her looking at him a certain way n it unsettles him but he doesn’t know why. usually just pretends he didn’t catch it.

something they find adorable about your muse:  

he likes her short hair he’s always ruffling it n tugging on it. whenever she hs bumps n scrapes n bruises from falling off her board n getting back on over n over again jst never giving up or giving a fk. when she acts like she isn’t jealous.

would my muse sacrifice themselves for yours?:  

umm. no. he’s an asshole. KGJSHFKGHSKFHGSKFGHKGH. sighs.

would my muse go on a date with yours?  platonic/romantic:  

no..... sees that as dangerous territory wouldn’t wna blur the lines. looks away.

one word my muse would use to describe yours:  

baddie. FKGJHSKGHFGSFHGSKGHSFKHG. demonic (when they’ve had a fight). 

would my muse slap yours if they could?:

no. he loves to argue w her but it never feels that Real u know... more like flirting. even when they’re rly pissed off. wld never enter that territory he hates shit like tht w a passion. cue round of applause from the audience for this absolutely low bar.

would my muse hug/kiss yours?:

i feel like they’re not rly huggy people...... ziggy probably puts his arm around her a lot tho he loves doing that. hs kissed her more times than he can count too n doesn’t plan on stopping

BRADLEY & XAVIER

their first impression of your muse:

funny. mean in a more digestible way than she was used to. he had barbs n she liked the way people winced when they tried to swallow his company. when she got paired w him for a class project she met his eyes across the room n he didn’t quickly look away like most ppl. something abt that intrigued her. a sharp fingernail inside her head kept having to itch at something n she realised it was the urge for him to call her a bad name. this weird craving to hear an angry word inside his mouth just for her. she used to think that’s what someone wanting her was like. still does sometimes. this both pissed her off n caught her attention which is a bit of an accomplishment fr someone who gets bored by everyone n everything.

current impression:  

his heart’s more good than she expected. it felt a bit like having a cat drop a dead mouse at ur doorstep that u don’t know what to do with when she realised that. she felt uncomfortably like her mother when she couldn’t get out of his bed bc she was too depressed n that rly made her feel like. ill honestly. he did all the right things but suddenly she just felt sick abt the whole situation which is Not the normal reaction to ur bf caring about u but bradley doesn’t understand ppl caring abt her. felt more like pity. she thinks he’s better off. she misses him sometimes bt then she reminds herself she doesn’t miss people. does a good job of believing it. one of the best ppl she’s dated not that she’d say it.

are they attracted to your muse?:  

yes..... ws probably. unhinged n rabid when they were dating. very good at hiding it now however. cold at the drop of a hat.

something they find frightening about your muse:

that he witnessed her being vulnerable............ literally grosses her out so much like she’d rather die than. anyone see her like that. when they were dating she’d get paranoid her dad wld somehow find out too n smthn wld happen to him for it. it ws definitely weird for her like the fact she even cared enough to consider tht.

something they find adorable about your muse:  

adorable is rly not a word that fits into bradley’s vocabulary GHSFGHSFKGHSFKG bt hm. maybe if he ever tried to tell her what to do one time even casually. she’d b like awww..... u think i do what anyone tells me? that’s so fucking sweet. 

would my muse sacrifice themselves for yours?:  

in most cases no :/..... however if it was smthn to do w the guys that work for her dad then ya she’d put herself in danger to avoid him being in it.

would my muse go on a date with yours?  platonic/romantic:  

i mean she has in the past bt bradley’s idea of dates is like. starting a bar fight together. getting thrown out of a club n both falling over into trash cans in a dingy back alley. stealing a car. breaking into a random house n fking in a stranger’s bed. fking in the bk of a movie theatre w a horror movie screening. definitely not dinner or anything like tht. she wldn’t now........ they’re not exactly in a place fr that..... 

one word my muse would use to describe yours:  

ex. whatever. i know it’s not one word but “some guy”. FGHSKGHFGKSHG >_>

would my muse slap yours if they could?:

no. she’s a violent person bt not xavier.

would my muse hug/kiss yours?:

NO hugging...................... she fronts like she wldn’t kiss him bt like. if a discussion got heated n they were in each other’s faces who’s to say. 

NYLA & SEAN

their first impression of your muse:

strange little fella which is a very high compliment. kind of reminded them of an animated turtle come to life in the human realm altho they honestly don’t have an explanation for that it’s just the way their brain works. they love the turtles in finding nemo tho so maybe there’s some sort of correlation. very nice face. they kind of wanted to hold his head like a bowling ball just so they could examine it properly. i feel like when they first met him they probably reached out n smoothed a sticky label onto his forehead that said ‘catfish in chernobyl’ n they had one on their forehead that was blank n then they just wafted a pen mid air n were like ‘wanna play guesses?’ even tho that isn’t the name of the game. as if that was just. a completely normal introduction to someone. FGKHSKHGSFKGHSFKG. feel like sean wld have rolled w that tho so nyla was like :P i like.... if they played another round they’d give sean another sticky label that said ‘the loneliest whale in the world’ n then it’d start a whole conversation abt how nyla thinks they can speak whaleish. (whale spin on elvish). 

current impression:  

sean makes them think of that artificial blue raspberry flavour some popsicles have n how it’s always rly fun when they stain ur tongue. sweet n exuberant n leaves a bright impression. he lets them ride on his skateboard sometimes rolling along being lead by them holding his hand n nyla likes to shut their eyes like they’re a bird sailing above the clouds. one of their favourite things to do especially when the sun’s out. bc of this nyla thinks sean was a bird in his past life but not a greedy one like a seagull or a plain one like a pigeon. maybe a bluebird bc of his eyes. he makes them laugh a lot. they entrusted him to babysit their children (as pictured) in his hair for a whole day and night once n they had lots of fun with him so nyla thinks he’s very trustworthy and kind. he also is rly easy to talk to like they cld randomly be like “i’ve been thinking lately that maybe homer simpson could’ve been a good figure skater” n sean wldn’t look at them like they’ve lost their marbles he’d just go w it. they like his company a lot.

are they attracted to your muse?:  

😏

something they find frightening about your muse:

ummm nothing in particular altho one time when they were rly tripping out bc his eyes are blue n it got them thinking abt the ocean n they always think they can talk to ghosts underwater so they were kind of like. thinking abt ghosts whenever they looked him in the eyes. maybe covered their own w their hands n if sean asked why they told him abt it. suddenly he shut his eyes to make them feel better n it turned into a whole thing where nyla had to lead him around the party like a guide dog.

something they find adorable about your muse:  

his nose. watching him talk to his siblings. his hands.

would my muse sacrifice themselves for yours?:  

😌 yea

would my muse go on a date with yours?  platonic/romantic:  

yes............ feel like they’d have fun if they went anywhere tbh........ cn imagine them at a fair eating from the same cotton candy n chattering as they point out things. nyla trying to do that hammer game where u make the meter reach the top n lifting the hammer in the air n falling backwards bc it was heavier than they anticipated.... sean yelling like man down man down..... mayb they take a tab n suddenly the fair is so scary they’re like 😳 we’re in danger...

one word my muse would use to describe yours:  

silly (affectionate). sailor (also term of endearment). gnome (same thing again). cool.

would my muse slap yours if they could?:

no ur sick....

would my muse hug/kiss yours?:

ya to both. jst suddenly had a vision too of nyla being cold one time n clinging to sean from the front like a bushbaby in a hug as he carries her around. suddenly this mode of transportation hs happened more thn once (godmod) (contact my lawyers if u dare bebe) (bitch) (i take it back) (it wasn’t right alli it jst wasn’t right) (pelase forigev m eim shakign)

[concertcs]

hey guys 🥰💌✨🥺💘🌈 it’s me again !! ur old pal hannah !  n this is my angel child tito <3 welcome to loving tito hours <3 

okay so before i jump into this, as a disclaimer i just finished finals week for a 17 credit semester so my brain is just like. tv static and evermore on loop. so if ur looking for an actually well-written, cohesive bio n stats n other fun stuff u can find that in my app which i did in fact write Prior to finals week !  okay on with the show !

okay so tito is the second child born to luis n angela rosario n the younger sibling of sebastián n tbh i know im biased but i love the rosarios sm 🥺 luis was an aspiring musician n angela worked 3 jobs to support them n they had a rly happy life together for a little while :/

tito first got into music when they were in first grade n their music teacher señora coco stayed after school to teach him how to play the piano n they loved it !!  luis was Thrilled bc he swore from the day tito was born tht they were destined to be a musician with him n thus began the dream of the two of them would be a successful father-son duo one day <3

spoiler alert: it did not happen 💔

(death tw) luis was killed in a drive by shooting when tito was 15 😔 n it was rly hard on them 😔 they stopped playing music altogether n definitely went through this moment where they likely pushed away Everyone bc so much of their grief manifested as anger 😔 (end tw)

it didn’t last forever !  but !  the minute that he started to kind of regain his footing, angel was like hey we’re leaving the city !! let’s go !! n tito was like no 💖 bc they wanted to stay in la and salvage what they could of their dad’s dream... so they did

they also went to community college !!  which was when he started to rly start to feel like himself again 🥺 but once they graduated they started working at this radio station to get their foot in the door n it backfired bc they’ve been stuck there for 3 years now... so sorry to them

the day that tito found the killer conclusions cd was actually their 3 yr anniversary exactly which was exactly as depressing as u think it is :/  so to cheer himself up they went to the thrift store for a blind date with a cd which was this tradition that his dad created for them when tito was little (ngl it makes me emotional i wrote a longer thing abt it in my app) n basically told tito that if you picked the most nondescript cd you can find then you’re not being biased n youre just letting the music find you 

and ofc !  as we all know tito’s fate is to get haunted by our fave ghost band !  and here we are !

so that’s the sparknotes version of his bio sdfkdjs here are the hcs i wrote in my app bc i think they say a lot abt him <3

so tito grew up listening to a lot of his father’s favorite latine artists, n luis’s favorite is .. ofc… ricky martin bc he’s from puerto rico and livin la vida loca is a bop !  but tito’s own personal favorite artist is selena. the first Real Song that they ever learned (as in not hot cross buns or twinkle, twinkle little star) to play on the piano was dreaming of you, which is one of his two favorite selena songs to this day. it’s tied with amor prohibido <3

tito loves to dance n they are absolutely shameless about it. they grew up watching their parents samba in the kitchen n he was immediately like Okay Me Too. are they a particularly great dancer? no ❤️ but that does not deter them n what they lack in technical skill they make up for in enthusiasm

very, very, very much a Disaster Gay with the emphasis on disaster. like he Does Not know how to talk to boys at all n gets very flustered n nervous when he does . especially bc i think this is a pretty recent development for them. as in like .. within the last 5 years n it probably took him a long ass time to work their way through bc like. they were a little busy trying to figure out their relationship with gender

which! speaking of! they always knew that they didn’t 100% connect with being a Boy, like… the same way that he could say that he liked green beans sometimes, or they only wanted pepperoni on their pizza sometimes, he only felt like a boy sometimes. it wasn’t that they felt like a girl the rest of the time, though. they just didn’t have the words to describe what they felt like the rest of the time — not until they took their first gender studies class at community college. finding out that there was a community of people who were like him was a huge weight off of their shoulder n also kind of marked the point where they could start figuring out their sexuality

i think tito has a very Cozy home but like .. they just embody a lot of coziness to me in general. he definitely has a lot of plants, n 100% of their furniture n decor are thrifted but he’s a cancer so we know tht means their home n making sure they’re comfy there is very important

tito is very very Very fiercely protective of his people n you have to definitely prove yourself in order for them to let you anywhere near his people. like when the ghosts first showed up they absolutely had to earn their trust before they would let anyone go near like.. allegro mainly. perhaps nocturne also had to win his trust before tito was like Okay with them being around the ghosts bc ksdjfds he’s a cancer at heart n has an unbearable amount of love to give

king of emojis tbh djfksdj i genuinely don’t think he knows how to send a text without an emoji unless they’re like.. actually rly upset.. but Usually big on emojis. every time that he gets the chance to say “no ❤️'' their soul leaves their body a little bit in excitement

tito’s favorite season is winter and every single year when it rolls around they’re devastated that it’s too warm in california for it to snow 😔 he’s never seen snow in his life but he loves it n is very determined to see it one day 

he’s a Can’t Drive gay 😔 but they grew up in the city so what do we rly expect from him? if we’re being honest with ourselves? nothing! instead they skateboard wherever they can n take the subway wherever they can’t <3 n is very jealous that ghosts don’t need subway cards

when they do happen to go on drives However they are the world’s greatest passenger seat dj .. n Yes it is a very elaborate radio show setup complete with regularly pausing for radio host talk show segments, calling in requests, and made-up giveaway games

they play the piano n the guitar n that’s all right now but i think he would Love to learn a new instrument they just never had the resources or the time 

speaking of music… it is definitely kind of on hold right now as far as actually performing But i think they definitely try to do little open mic night things when they can… perhaps he tried to push for the bar he works at to have an open mic night? idk <3 but even when playing music in public isn’t an option they’re always writing songs (or trying to) at home, usually in the late hours of the night after an evening shift at the bar 

i think tht he definitely still Does speak spanish but like. not as much with other people anymore after their dad passed away. partially bc luis was the primary person who spoke spanish w tito.. angela only spoke english.. so like once he was gone they didn’t really have a reason to speak it.. but Also even when he Does have a chance to i think it feels a little too much like it’s reopening the wound in a way tht tito just tries to Avoid

fictional characters tht inspired tito? julie molina kdsjfdsk <3 also miguel from coco n Honestly both julian And yadriel from cemetery boys

okay im so sorry for all the words <3 if ur still reading this thank u pls message me on discord let’s plot <3

[chxrimoya]

ok i guess i’ll finally get around to typing this whole journal post i meant to for the past damn week lmao.

so it’s tuesday night and i’ve ditched class last wed, this past mon and figure drawing today. i just ain’t up for it. for some reason my sleep quality is so poor, even with a full night’s sleep, i can’t stop myself from napping for 3-4 hours. it’s getting in the way of me doing stuff honestly? i get home and want to clean up my room, play some persona, or draw or SOMETHING but sleep is obviously a priority. it sucks but i gotta do it, lacking sleep just makes it so much easier for me to get into a depressive episode. maybe it’s the irregularity of my sleep? for a long time i didn’t sleep past 2am but i slept at like 4am couple of times in the last two weeks or so.  

this past week or two i’ve slowly progressed from one thing bothering me to another and now i can’t even place my discontent. general malaise, as i’ve been telling other people. hopefully writing this helps me find some fkn way to articulate myself? lmao. honestly i don’t know why, talking to other people helps me cope but hasn’t helped me confront the feelings. they’re still there, bothering me, and i would like them to go away? but they won’t anytime soon i’m sure. and i, as usual, am invalidating myself and how i feel so megakek

so i’ll talk to my journal like i’m talking to someone. 

so recently, i introduced my friend, let’s call her Nu, to my regular group of friends who i usually play games with. i invited her to a bbq at J’s house, and it’s all good and stuff, day passes. I tell her before anything, these lot of men aren’t good at all as dating options but i wouldn’t judge her otherwise, because you can’t rly help who you pick. the only two dudes that day available were J and H and both are kinda shitty, but H is way more shitty than J is; J just got his issues to work out. but fast forward, H messages me about wanting to pursue Nu, and was convinced on trying to be a better person, bc one night on discord we were talking about art and things in general, and i just flat out said i don’t think he’s a good person and he has a lot to work on? so after he says to me on FB, hey thanks i needed someone to say that to me and seemed genuine, so my kind ass heart is like ok sure i’ll help you. he asks me genuinely if it’s ok for him to ask me for help so i say yeah, ofc. he realizes hes being selfish pursing this girl because he’s never had a gf, and that J was also interested but he values himself over J. this was mean of me, but i said frankly to H that i agreed, J is in no place to have a relationship because his life is a fucking mess at home; no school, no work, car’s not passing smog and his dad and mom are still shitty as always (his dad can die for all i care). later tho J agreed with me bc i brought it up with him. anyway, couple days later me and H talk and this guy, he’s probably the shittiest offender i know, because he says autistic, retarded, faggot, gook, all in jest and i HATE him for it. i’m not gonna pick a fight because his dumb conservative ass can choke now, for all i care. i have depression and triggers that send me into episodes, so he keeps using “triggered” all casually and it bothers me. it’s disrespectful. so i ask him if he could avoid using it around me, and i see the typing bubbles for like 4 minutes and this guy is typing an essay about how i’m wrong. deletes it, sends “Lol alright” but goes onto his stupid shpiel anyway even though i wanted to drop it. accuses me of “artificially killing the word” even though i just THINK it’s disrespectful, talking to me in a know-it-all fashion because fucking men always do this. so i remember, this entire time, why i didn’t like him, so i decide this bitch is on his fucking own. but me, being the soft-hearted individual i am, didn’t get mad till couple days later and indignant about the whole ordeal. before my anger, Nu and H and me went to eat and shop a little so fucc everything seemed fine and dandy!! and even now i still help this disrespectful child because i care for Nu, even though I don’t know her well enough to be super comfortable with her. I’m naturally an open person, but the comfort i’m talking about comes with time and i just haven’t known her that long. but Nu, she’s had a bad history that ended only recently, and i honestly would kill for her bc she deserves to be happy. not being pushed around by men who vy for her attention? she deserves someone who cares and validates her, but can still set her straight bc she’s a stubborn girl. the men in her life haven’t been good to her, and she hardly had friends before i met her at work? so i want to be someone she can rely on and talk to but i don’t want her withdrawing into the comfort of a man that can’t even comfort and face his own issues without his toxic pride getting in the way. because that what H is to me. 

he calls me saturday before mothers day, 9amish and tells me he accidentally stood Nu up. he obviously feels guilty. but maybe he’s only guilty because he’ll lose his chance with this girl if he fucks up. i’m tired, i comfort him telling him it’s not his fault, because apparently he overslept his alarm and didn’t wake up until Nu called him. Nu also told me that she had been waiting for an hour for him, showed up 30 minutes early to look nice and surprise him, but when she called 30 minutes after the meetup time, she just wanted to go home. she had limited time that day so she wanted to do breakfast at 8. he wants to make it up to her with a gift, but she doesn’t want a gift, so i tell him to draw something for her bc it’s more sentimental. after the call i talk to Nu about it and she seems pretty upset actually, and after everything, she just tells me she feels “jaded” but she’ll get over it.

i don’t approve. i really don’t. i hate this guy but i can’t really be consumed to even be marginally mean to him because Nu is interested, but even she acknowledges maybe she’s been starved of proper affection that she’s just reveling in it. if this guy can’t be bothered to do me a favor, when im trying to be his wingman and get him on good footing with this girl, i’ll fucking light the bridge on fire. but it’s not my choice to make, Nu’s happiness is what matters more. but it exhausts me? i’ve been there, done that with toxic guys and it’s so exhausting. i have issues i still carry and struggle with to this day because i was manipulated and did manipulate other people, for the sake of a guy. and it’s really not worth it. as i talked to her, the friday before, we hung out and spent a whole day with each other... she has a lot of baggage. stuff she doesn’t wanna bring into a relationship. and we shared a lot of similarities with the people we’ve dealt with. i tell her, friends are here to help you carry that baggage. she doesn’t have to carry it on her own. relationships should be always mutually beneficial to both parties. why invest yourself in something you’ll never get shit out of? you end up empty and pining, and anything will satisfy you. it’s not a good cycle to enter. ive been there!! and fuck man, im still recovering. my value is in myself, not in others. and i love to help people because... simply i wish people would have helped me when i needed it. so i help others because they need it. but i wont help people at the expense of myself, at the expense of people i care about. 

but also, i just... dunno if i feel right, being some sort of arbiter for their relationship. i don’t feel like i should have this power to judge, i keep telling myself i don’t know either of them that well so i really shouldn’t be doing the things that i’m doing now? like who am i to get in the way of their happiness, judge that someone isn’t good, and say yes or no to them entering a relationship? for all i know, it could turn out well. i doubt it, because H has never had a gf and i feel his selfishness extends beyond ignoring J, and more of “finally i can get a gf and not be lonely anymore” bc i want someone to value Nu for who she is. 

maybe i’ll write more when i get to to it but this is way too long already lolol

[ollie-otter1]

LAST

1) Drink: Water ofc

2) Phone call: Idk it must have been like years ago I actually made a call, texting am I right

3) Text message: To my boi Joshua Smailes <3

4) Song listened to: Elvis isn’t dead jfc thats like the best song to ever exist 

5) Time you cried: Like 20 mins ago when I saw my cat for the first time after two days

HAVE YOU EVER

6) Dated somebody twice: Not even once, yay

7) Been cheated on: Pretty hard to when ur single all the time

8) Kissed someone and regretted it: My cats breath was pretty bad that time

9) Lost someone special: Great grandparents

10) depressed: Seasonal depression oh boy

11) Gotten drunk and puked: I don’t throw up rly when drunk I just fall asleep unless im doing more shots

Fave 3 colours:

12) Black

13) White

14) Like some sort of nice purple thats almost black and starts arguments because you cant tell if its purple or black

IN THE LAST YEAR YOU HAVE YOU

15) Made new friends: Well like 2 is more than 1 yay

16) Fallen out of love: Well I’m over that 4ish year crush on this straight guy (finnaly) so yeah

17) Laughed until you cried: Like all the time tbh

18) Found out someone was gossiping about you: No I’m friends with ppl who can actually keep secrets so if it happens (probs all the time because they hate me) I would never find out

19) Met someone who changed your life: Literally everyone, I could have just met you and would change my life course to live together in alaska or some gay shit

20) Found out who your true friends are: Well I got my Bro AARON and my Boi JOSH ayyyyyy

21) Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Lmao who would want this tho

(no btw)

MUCH

22) Facebook friends: 210 but I accept everyone so I only talk to like 3 tops

23) Pets: I had a dog that my shitty stepdad stole, A cat that ran away but will totally come back I love you Booth pls do, and another cat that stays loyal unlike my other cat

24) Want to change your name: Like the idea but wouldnt like the change tbh

WHAT

25) Did I get for my birthday: Money for driving lessons and that was literally it and I hate driving kill me

26) Time I woke up: 6:50 because the straight guys in the dorm I was in wouldnt shut the fuck up omg I hate u if ur reading this 

27) Were you doing at midnight: Trying to sleep buy ayy these straight boys kys

28) Can’t you wait for: A relationship (im so lonely)

29) Was the last time you saw your mom: Like 10 seconds ago

30) Was something you wish you could change about your life: The fact im retarded, have no social skills and spend all my free time staring at walls as I descend into my depression instead of preparing for uni

31) Are you listening to right now: Dan and Phil... yeah

32) Gets on your nerves: TWO FUCKING THINGS OMG LITERALLY KYS IF YOU DO THESE (Dont actually unless ur a cunt) CHEWING WITH UR FUCKING MOUTH OPEN, AND LEAVING THE BATHROOM DOOR OPEN WHEN UR USING THE FUCKING BATHROOM I DONT WANT TO SEE U HAVING A SHIT THATS THE REASON THE BATHROOM HAS A DOOR JFC 

33) Talked to a person named Tom: I have an uncle called tom but we dont talk

34) Is your most visited website: Probs facebook to spy on everybodies lives and why theyre better than me

35) Elementary school/primary school: Coningsby St Michaels, a bigger waste of time than my life

36) High School: went to a grammar school called Qegs can I hear a hell yeah (I fucking hate this school)

37) College: Sixth form I guess, I dont get ur american shit tbh

38) Hair colour: Gonna dye it black soon but brown rn

39) Long/short hair: Short but might grow longer for emo tbh

40) Crush: Literally a new crush every day I might be asexual but everyone can just fuck me pls

41) Do you like about yourself: I’m learning to like my body I guess but still hate everything else lol

42) Piercings: Industrial, my nose between the nostrils I cant think of the name rn, and two lobes on the same ear

43) Blood type: Wtf

44) Nickname: Ollie I guess, or O-O for my cousins

45) Relationship status: single and wanting to die

46) Zodiac: Cancer, just like what my life is

47) Pronouns: Idc tbh call be cunt for all I care

48) Favourite show: DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON STEVEN UNIVERSE IT IS MY CHILD AND MUST BE PROTECTED

49) Tattoos: Want but no :(

50) Left or right handed: right

FIRST

51) Surgery: Nearly had like 5 surgeries but dodges them all yay for body health

52) Piercings: First was the industrial, not at all painful

53) Best friend: My boi AARON CAN I HEAR A WHAT WHAT

54) Sport: Lol probs country dancing or some gay shit I did at primary because football was too straight for me

55) Vacation: Like my grandmas or something? We dont get out much

56) Pair of shoes: I still actually have my baby shoes tbh, well at least the right one, theyre so cute as well

RIGHT NOW

57) Eating: Dinners ready soon idk what it is but im so hungry

58) Drinking: Water <3

59) I am about to: Games to avoid responsibility

60) Listening to: OMG I’m listening to Elvis isn’t dead ofc for like the 200th time today <3

61) Waiting for: Either death or a relationship, but we all know which will happen first (death)

62) Want to see: Alaska omg I love the geology and its so nice over there <3

63) Want to get married: If my significant other does idc either way the wedding vowes and speaches would be far too awks for me to handle

64) Career: I’d love to be a secondry school or college teacher and become poorer than I am now yay

WHICH IS BETTER

65) Hugs/kisses: WHY IS THIS EVEN A QUESTION IF U HUG ME IM LITERALLY URS ID SUCK A DICK FOR A HUG RN JFC (I love hugs)

66) Lips/eyes: Probs lips, I never remember eye color and whatnot so its probs not that important for me

67) Taller/shorter: Taller ofc

68) Younger/older: If it was a dude older ofc, if it was a chick then defo younger

69) Romantic/spontaneous: Romantic all the way, I’d love a dude to lift me by my feet and kiss me... I watch too many romantic films tbh

70) Nice arms/nice stomach: There is not better quality for a man than a cute lil beer belly omg, but for chicks nice arms are cool

71) Sensitive/loud: Sensitive, bc loud can get a bit too annoying after a while

72) Hookup/relationship: I would hate to hookup with people bc sex is just so overated 

73) Troublemaker/hesitant: Either tbh im not too bothered about this

HAVE YOU EVER

74) Kissed a stranger: Lol nope stranger danger and whatnot

75) Drank hard liquor: Probably, I never remember what I drink

76) Lost glasses/contact lenses: I never buy new pairs, I loose them and are forced to buy another

77) Turned someone down: The one guy who had a crush on me I turned down because it was a lil too weird for me why am I like this literally the one person to ever like me

78) Canoodling on a first date: If by canoodling you mean reading the bible can I get an amen

79) Broken someone’s heart: I guess that one guy but who would want me enough to have their heart broken lmao

80) Had your own heart broken: Literally all the time omg why are straight guys so fucking hot :///////

81) Been arrested: nope im too pure

82) Cried when someone died: I dont rly think death is anything too be sad about tbh its something everyone experiences and shouldnt be something to hold you back, for all you know they might have wanted it or prefer it to living??? if ur into religion and all that

83) Fallen for a friend: Literally all the time, for an asexual im such a whore

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

84) Yourself: Literally never

85) Miracles: If someone asks me out for the second time, then yeah sure

86) Santa Claus: I did until mother fucked that over for me :’(

87) Kisses on a first date: I’d need a date for there to be a kiss tbh

88) Angels: Nope

89) Love at first sight: Well thats me in a nutshell so yeah basically

OTHER

90) Best friend’s name: AARON (Anna (tee hee))

91) Eye colour: Like some green blue combo idk like I said Idc about eye colour

92) Favourite movie: honestly I hate this question, I love literally every movie I watch so how can I rank them? at least ask for a fave genre, that would make it easier 

[virginia-werewoolf]

Hi hello ive decided im gna rant abt something else thats been bothering me as of late and its this one girl im (or used to be??) friends with

Basically ive known abt her for a few years now bc we went to the same middle and high school and ive always thought she was so cool and wanted to be her friend and finally when me and my bf jarod broke up last yr after dating for 2 years (probably my only legitimate heartbreak so far ??) my whole life was kinda flipped upside down and i had to find friends lest i go crazy !! Since he was rly my only friend that whole time and i was so horribly depressed when we broke up so i really started trying to be her friend and we didnt hang out all that much but when we did it was so nice and i felt as tho we rly connected !!! And wed message each other a lot and it just really felt like we had a mutual appreciation for each other and that was so nice because i honestly adored her. Anyway in january i was sorta talkin to this guy that i had heard she had a thing with in the past (like a year ago) so when she messaged me abt it i figured the rumor was true & asked if it was cool if we talked, and she said yeah & that they had only spoken for like a day !! I asked a couple more times just to be sure but she kept saying that they never really even had a thing and i believed her. Im not sure if she had said things like this before all this but after the fact i started noticing her tweeting abt someone who was basically copying everything she did by saying that she had an ~identity thief~ and that she wasnt sure if she should warn the dude she was talking to ??? And im a really anxious person so the timing of these tweets kinda put me on edge but not too badly bc i genuinely thought we were good friends !! And i thought she was so cool and down to earth. Plus a couple of times she would tweet something that basically served as a reply to a tweet i had tweeted recently but im a way where she was sort of trying to 1-up me ??? Which raised my suspicions even more but eventually she tweeted something else contributing to that whole narrative and promptly blocked afterwards so i was like ok i guess it was abt me!! Which REALLY hurt just bc i had no clue what she was going off of, when i messaged her to check what was going on she denied it but has kept me blocked since ??? So i find it hard to believe those were never abt me. It just sucks!! Because ive literally only copied her once in the way we decorated our senior crowns and i remember asking her if i could do the same thing as her and she was SO enthusiastic abt me also doing it !! She even offered to let me have her own (bc shes a yr older than me) and i sent her pics of the whole process of me making it and she was so excited abt it!! I didnt see why shed turn on me for that when i started talking to a boy she liked in the past when i told her multiple times in the conversation we had about it that i didnt want it to affect our friendship and that she could tell me if shed rather me not !! But really its just a bummer bc she was one of the few people that really helped me out of the rut that was my first heartbreak and even if we didnt see each other tons, i was really planning to because i loved her and felt like she was rly one of my people!!! So it sucks that she turned on me like that for something so miniscule. I eventually asked the boy abt her and he said they had talked longer than just a day and i just dont see why she had to lie abt it bc i wouldve been so understanding!! I even apologized to her a ton for not just asking whether they had a thing or not b4 she messaged me abt it - but he was honestly just a good friend to me i didnt have crazy feelings for him or anything and so this all couldve been avoided!!but i cant really trust her anymore even if she ever wanted to be my friend again ??? But i guess thats unlikely and thats just the kind of person she is :(