#and i’ll announce it was a tic if its smth rude but i’m not gonna sit there and beg and wail for u to forgive me

[achilleslyre]

having tourettes is a bummer bc even tho yes i was good at driving (when i ignored that i shouldn’t be driving) i put ppl at risk by being on the road bc there’s nothing i can do if i start ticking, specially if i have a tic attack or smth. it’s like yea i have tourettes and then ppl just view it as some silly thing that makes me do and say random thing but like. it limits a lot of things i can physically do. i’m in pain all the time bc of it. i’m stared at, yelled at, and treated weird/different by strangers because of it. ppl wont serve me bc of it. it makes ppl uncomfortable to be around me. it makes me ruin my own stuff. say shitty ass things. i’m so exhausted from my tics all the time. but sooo seriously i am in pain so often bc of it. tourettes is treated as such a joke too by ppl it’s frustrating. the amount of times i’ve had ppl tell me they “wished they had tourettes” so that they could tell ppl to fuck off/punch ppl/smth of the like and then just say it was a tic is. a crazy amount. like NO you don’t. why would you even say you WANT a disability!? making up fake tics to insult and harm ppl is the LAST thing on my mind. in fact i so intensely don’t want to fake it (lest it become a real tic) nor actually have that as a tic! it sucks! so many people stop being my friend bc of my tourettes! the amount of ppl that believe my verbal tics are my true inner thoughts is insane! it’s exhausting!